• Being short of breath
  
• Sweating…all of the time
  
• Constantly self-conscious
  
• Worrying about eating in front of others
  
• Being squished in an airplane, Angel Game, Concerts, etc.
  
• Worrying about fitting in rides at Disneyland
  
• Obsessing about food
  
• Physical pain; arms, shoulders, back, knees, etc.
  
• Going to the restroom more easily
  
• Wearing flats or ugly shoes because high heels are exhausting
  
• Missing out on life
  
• Comparing myself to every other woman
  
• Feeling lazy or tired all of the time
  
• Not being able to keep up
  
• Shopping at fat-kid stores
  
• Not fitting into CLOTHES!
  
• Hating my reflection in the mirror when I am naked, I literally cringe and look away
  
• Jiggly arms
  
• My legs rubbing together, holy rash
  
• Tugging at my clothes to hide the bells rolls
  
• Laying on the bed to button pants and then being in pain all day from sucking it in
  
• Bathing suits!
  
• People thinking “she has a great personality”….there’s more under there!
  
• Faking happiness
  
• Getting my hair as big as possible to off-set my double chins
  
• Not ever being in “the mood”
  
• Being the fat kid in the family
  
• Dreading people’s reaction when they are next to me on a plane
  
• Knocking over things because my ass has a mind of its own
  
• Long showers and needing a nap after them
  
• Sitting on my husband’s lap
  
• Not afraid to squish my husband
  
• Getting my back fat played like a wash board
  
• Children asking if I can even be tickled through all of that fat
  
• Looking at the “skinny’ clothes in my closet….loathe
  
• Having to return an outfit because the person thought I was a much smaller size
  
• Knowing that stepping on the scale means I’ll be eating a **** ton of ice cream and in a deep depression that night
  
• Pretending I know about nutrition when my doctors lecture
  
• Thinking if I just lost the weight, I’d be able to tackle the world
  
• Society assuming I am a lazy pig
  
• Not chasing my dreams of performing because the anxiety of being on display is crippling
  
• Being too big to zipline in Maui
  
• Being too big to horseback ride in Maui
  
• Being too out of breath to hike down to the blow hole
  
• Wearing tights and just dying to rip them off at the end of the day
  
• Never wearing shorts
  
• Wearing dresses to hide my figure
  
• Online dating and picture a great picture of my face, getting to the date only panicked because I know they will be disappointed with the rest of me
  
• Having to buy a circus tent to use as a bra
  
• My husband saying I have sleep apnea
  
• Being the one who would rather take the picture then be in the picture
  
• Breaking a glass table from sitting on it
  
• Not wrapping my arms around my husband
  
• Being able to balance, I swear my stomach throws me off balance
  
• Shopping in the maternity section when your coworkers pregnant sister has the same dress
  
• My cankles!
  
• Wide shoes
  
• Anything stretchy
  
• Someone asking where I got that cute shirt and lying because I don’t want to tell them a fat kid store
  
• BBW- I HATE the acronym for “big beautiful woman!”
  
• Never cutting my hair so it can hide my face and back fat
  
• Being the big bride
  
• Not crossing my legs…..because I can’t
  
• Sitting and using my belly as a table
  
• Doing everything I can to avoid bending over because let’s face it, it’s freakin’ hard to get back up
  
• Feeling miserably ill after eating too much
  
• Realizing I am more likely to miscarry when pregnant
  
• PCOS
  
• Wanting a baby so badly, but worried about the high risk pregnancy
  
• Stretch marks
  
• Feeling my stomach sitting on my lap when I sit down (my fanny pack)
  
• Ditching my high school reunion because I didn’t want to be the girl who gained 100 lbs. in 10 years
  
• My boobs crowding my throat
  
• My wedding ring never coming off because it keeps getting tighter
  
• Not being able to see my feet
  
• Not being able to give myself a pedicure without sweating and being short of breath!
  

Amen Sister! On every single point! I just want to be normal just like everyone else in my family!

Thanks for this.

You hit the nail on the head, about everything you listed I feel the same! I'll list a few that are first to pop in my head.

One thing I always worried about the most is when I went somewhere would I be able to fit in that chair or booth, or would it be able to hold all my weight.

I want to be smaller then my BF, I want to be able to put on a t-shirt of his and have it be baggy on me, not the other way around! I want him to be able to pick me up, or feel comfortable sitting on him and not feel self conscious that Im squishing him lol.

I want to be able to walk into any store that I want and be able to fit the clothes.

I want to be pain free.

I want to feel normal like everyone else.

Right on!

Yes.!!!!!!! So true...!! So so true.... It's So depressing but true

Amen!! Thanks for this, it really puts things into perspective.

Thanks friends! I have been feeling stalled. My surgery date isn't until July 19th and all of these medical tests are making me feel like a lab rat. I needed something to remind me to keep my eye on the prize.

All of those things have really happened......I really sat on a glass table on a family vacation and it broke. Absolutely mortifying. It is equally as embarrassing when my Uncle brought it up AGAIN last month, I couldn't have died!

I will no longer let my weight define who I am, because I am soooooo much more!!!

Great list!! Most of the above for me, and also cutting my own toenails!

Oh my... Everything so truthful it hurts got approved so surgery date coming soon!

This is a great list to give people who don't "get it"! (my Mother!)

Oh my... Everything so truthful it hurts got approved so surgery date coming soon!

When is your date? Mine is July 19th.....getting closer!

I gave this list to my husband...but doubt he's read it

Omg what a great idea. If for one moment I have doubt about this surgery read the list. I'm working on mine right now! It goes in my journal!

Surgery 6-18-12.......wooohoooo

Love love love the list. everything listed I would have listed.....

I would add for myself......not being able to tie my shoes.

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Awesome list. The only thing i'll add: having to shift my weight from one hip to the next (in order to give my knees a break) when standing for any amount of time.