• Being short of breath
  
• Sweating…all of the time
  
• Constantly self-conscious
  
• Worrying about eating in front of others
  
• Being squished in an airplane, Angel Game, Concerts, etc.
  
• Worrying about fitting in rides at Disneyland
  
• Obsessing about food
  
• Physical pain; arms, shoulders, back, knees, etc.
  
• Going to the restroom more easily
  
• Wearing flats or ugly shoes because high heels are exhausting
  
• Missing out on life
  
• Comparing myself to every other woman
  
• Feeling lazy or tired all of the time
  
• Not being able to keep up
  
• Shopping at fat-kid stores
  
• Not fitting into CLOTHES!
  
• Hating my reflection in the mirror when I am naked, I literally cringe and look away
  
• Jiggly arms
  
• My legs rubbing together, holy rash
  
• Tugging at my clothes to hide the bells rolls
  
• Laying on the bed to button pants and then being in pain all day from sucking it in
  
• Bathing suits!
  
• People thinking “she has a great personality”….there’s more under there!
  
• Faking happiness
  
• Getting my hair as big as possible to off-set my double chins
  
• Not ever being in “the mood”
  
• Being the fat kid in the family
  
• Dreading people’s reaction when they are next to me on a plane
  
• Knocking over things because my ass has a mind of its own
  
• Long showers and needing a nap after them
  
• Sitting on my husband’s lap
  
• Not afraid to squish my husband
  
• Getting my back fat played like a wash board
  
• Children asking if I can even be tickled through all of that fat
  
• Looking at the “skinny’ clothes in my closet….loathe
  
• Having to return an outfit because the person thought I was a much smaller size
  
• Knowing that stepping on the scale means I’ll be eating a **** ton of ice cream and in a deep depression that night
  
• Pretending I know about nutrition when my doctors lecture
  
• Thinking if I just lost the weight, I’d be able to tackle the world
  
• Society assuming I am a lazy pig
  
• Not chasing my dreams of performing because the anxiety of being on display is crippling
  
• Being too big to zipline in Maui
  
• Being too big to horseback ride in Maui
  
• Being too out of breath to hike down to the blow hole
  
• Wearing tights and just dying to rip them off at the end of the day
  
• Never wearing shorts
  
• Wearing dresses to hide my figure
  
• Online dating and picture a great picture of my face, getting to the date only panicked because I know they will be disappointed with the rest of me
  
• Having to buy a circus tent to use as a bra
  
• My husband saying I have sleep apnea
  
• Being the one who would rather take the picture then be in the picture
  
• Breaking a glass table from sitting on it
  
• Not wrapping my arms around my husband
  
• Being able to balance, I swear my stomach throws me off balance
  
• Shopping in the maternity section when your coworkers pregnant sister has the same dress
  
• My cankles!
  
• Wide shoes
  
• Anything stretchy
  
• Someone asking where I got that cute shirt and lying because I don’t want to tell them a fat kid store
  
• BBW- I HATE the acronym for “big beautiful woman!”
  
• Never cutting my hair so it can hide my face and back fat
  
• Being the big bride
  
• Not crossing my legs…..because I can’t
  
• Sitting and using my belly as a table
  
• Doing everything I can to avoid bending over because let’s face it, it’s freakin’ hard to get back up
  
• Feeling miserably ill after eating too much
  
• Realizing I am more likely to miscarry when pregnant
  
• PCOS
  
• Wanting a baby so badly, but worried about the high risk pregnancy
  
• Stretch marks
  
• Feeling my stomach sitting on my lap when I sit down (my fanny pack)
  
• Ditching my high school reunion because I didn’t want to be the girl who gained 100 lbs. in 10 years
  
• My boobs crowding my throat
  
• My wedding ring never coming off because it keeps getting tighter
  
• Not being able to see my feet
  
• Not being able to give myself a pedicure without sweating and being short of breath!
  

You really nailed it! I'll be right behind you with a date of July 27. Can't wait to get on with my life.

You just said every single thing I've felt! May I share this?

Omg....especially the part about being smothered by your boobs. I swear it is like that for me in every single way but the boob smothering is my #1. I dread lying down for bed every single night BC of that

Funny, sad, but true!!! I am printing this list and placing on my mirror. Having my wls on June 29th. Getting very excited.....and staying calm about it because the benefits out weigh the risks!!!!!

I've had more than one "shallow Hal" moment with cheap lawn furniture, sometimes not so cheap furniture....I won't miss that.

I've already noticed the "going to the bathroom" part is easier after losing 50 pounds. Not so much the going, but the .....uh....cleaning afterward.

I am totally with you! About two years ago we went to the amusement park where my parents live and I couldn't fit on my favorite roller coaster. I was so embarrassed. That is definitely going to be a non-scale victory for me when I start losing weight.

Yup, I no longer am smothered by my boobs. Down 78 pounds since I had my first pre-op visit. Down 41 since April 9. Surgery was so worth it. Best of luck to all of you. See you on the losers bench!!!

Yup, I no longer am smothered by my boobs. Down 78 pounds since I had my first pre-op visit. Down 41 since April 9. Surgery was so worth it. Best of luck to all of you. See you on the losers bench!!!

Great list!! Most of the above for me, and also cutting my own toenails!

OH! I can't wait to be able to paint my toe nails again!!!

I've had more than one "shallow Hal" moment with cheap lawn furniture, sometimes not so cheap furniture....I won't miss that.

This is always my worst fear...

You just said every single thing I've felt! May I share this?

Absolutely!

Hi-five, all of us ladies can relate to most if not all of these. I am sooooooooooooo sick of having swollen feet and ankles and not even being pregnant , and waddling from side to side when I walk *lol*. Great post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi-five' date=' all of us ladies can relate to most if not all of these. I am sooooooooooooo sick of having swollen feet and ankles and not even being pregnant , and waddling from side to side when I walk *lol*. Great post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <img src='http://www.bariatricpal.com/public/style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/tongue.png' class='bbc_emoticon' alt='' />[/quote']

I can't wait till my year is up to get pregnant! I told myself I didn't want to have kids passed 30 and I am turning 32 in November and still have to wait till I am fully healed before I can get pregnant but I hope and pray when I am able to that I actually do!

Right on with all of that.......but can't wait to cross my legs, touch my toes and ride my husband care free (i know TMI) but being real. Want him to pick me up during ***! He's really in shape and I can't wait to be able to run miles at a time with him.

I can't wait till my year is up to get pregnant! I told myself I didn't want to have kids passed 30 and I am turning 32 in November and still have to wait till I am fully healed before I can get pregnant but I hope and pray when I am able to that I actually do!

Hey, not to worry. I am now 48 and my one daughter is 14. I have plenty of energy to keep up with her and to be honest, I am not the oldest mom when it comes to the kids in her class. It is not so strange to be an older mom. When she was 5, I adopted a 14 year old. So now I have a 14 year old and a 22 year old in college. Add to that the fact that she is Guatemalan and do we get stared at!!!! I am also a single mom. You will do fine. I know you have to wait but I am sending lots of pregnancy wishes to you to hang on to until it is time. I hope you love being a mom as much as I do. All my best to you.