I can't believe we're finally on the losers bench! Congrats to everyone on this side of the journey. Keep us updated with your progress.

Our April first peeps are Deana Wright, MissMeagan and Nella. Ladies, tell us everything!

Holy cow! I forgot how miserable a bowel prep is. It's going to be a long night.

I promised u guys I would give u am update so I am. It's totally devastating at this point but tomorrow I have labs just to confirm what the dr is saying. It's a miscarriage. As of right now looks like fri I am having a d&c. I have to stop all of my blood thinner. I wish things would have turned so so much different and Idk it didn't. I have no answers why I would after all these years get pregnant to just have another loss. I'm having a really hard time dealing with this. While a part of me wants to hold out some hope against all hope..I know in my mind it's futile. There was nothing again today on us. With my lab numbers what they are he said there should have been a sight of something at least 5k points ago. At this point I just want it over and to have peace. I don't think I'm ever gonna get over this and this is it for me. 4 losses is all I can handle. I can't go through this again. Crackheads can do it and 14year old girls can do it..so many unwanted children out there and I who could give a child a loving stable home..am not good enough. I will never understand this. Thank you all for the love and support and prayers. It's truly meant a lot to me. I don't know if I will really be on here anytime soon. Too much is overwhelming me. We are also putting our house in the market tomm. It's just too much right now.

I'm so sorry this didn't turn out the way you had hoped. I know it's beyond difficult, but you'll get through it. I think there's a really strong chance that your body will be more ready in a few months. Try to think positively. I really think your new lifestyle will make this happen eventually. Hang in there.

I promised u guys I would give u am update so I am. It's totally devastating at this point but tomorrow I have labs just to confirm what the dr is saying. It's a miscarriage. As of right now looks like fri I am having a d&c. I have to stop all of my blood thinner. I wish things would have turned so so much different and Idk it didn't. I have no answers why I would after all these years get pregnant to just have another loss. I'm having a really hard time dealing with this. While a part of me wants to hold out some hope against all hope..I know in my mind it's futile. There was nothing again today on us. With my lab numbers what they are he said there should have been a sight of something at least 5k points ago. At this point I just want it over and to have peace. I don't think I'm ever gonna get over this and this is it for me. 4 losses is all I can handle. I can't go through this again. Crackheads can do it and 14year old girls can do it..so many unwanted children out there and I who could give a child a loving stable home..am not good enough. I will never understand this. Thank you all for the love and support and prayers. It's truly meant a lot to me. I don't know if I will really be on here anytime soon. Too much is overwhelming me. We are also putting our house in the market tomm. It's just too much right now.

My heart is breaking for you I will continue to keep you in my prayers {{{hugs}}}

SW 363lbs Surg Date 4/16/2013 CW 284lbs

Alaina, i am heartbroken with you, girl. Words escape me now. I am so terribly sorry to hear this. No, it doesnt make sense and life is unfair. I wish you didnt have to go through this.

much love and a big hug

xxz

Deaddemmamma what is the latest? How are you hanging on? They think there's another ulcer?? OMG!

How are you feeling physically and mentally?

Keeping you in my thoughts as well!!

Dori that is so funny about the nurse, hahaha i can just imagine her!

Got my liver biopsy test results back my liver is really inflamed plus its fatty duh. so lose more weight will see if your levels go down. I've lost a hundred and five pounds already. what more does he want. My levels bounce back up higher in July so I don't know what's going on. I asked if this is causing all the other issues im having that we can't figure out and he said he didn't think so. so If my levels are still up after I lose another 50 pounds he said come back.

HW 358 SW 344 CW 253 RNY 4/11/2013

Hockey,

My levels jump up if I get dehydrated. So drink drink drink. (Hug)

Deaddemmamma what is the latest? How are you hanging on? They think there's another ulcer?? OMG!

How are you feeling physically and mentally?

Keeping you in my thoughts as well!!

Can't find the new source of bleeding yet, but omg...it's getting old. Feeling very frustrated physically and mentally. Thanks for your kind thoughts.

Can't find the new source of bleeding yet' date=' but omg...it's getting old. Feeling very frustrated physically and mentally. Thanks for your kind thoughts.[/quote']

I bet it is getting old! Why are they having so much trouble finding what is wrong?? Hope this is resolved soon and you are on the path to recovery!! ♥♥

I bet it is getting old! Why are they having so much trouble finding what is wrong?? Hope this is resolved soon and you are on the path to recovery!! ♥♥

Well, they found an ulcer, but every time they go in it looks like it's done bleeding....meanwhile the bowel prep looked like a murder scene, but the the colonoscopy showed no bleeding...really?... It still could all be the ulcer....maybe time for a secind opinion.. .

Well' date=' they found an ulcer, but every time they go in it looks like it's done bleeding....meanwhile the bowel prep looked like a murder scene, but the the colonoscopy showed no bleeding...really?... It still could all be the ulcer....maybe time for a secind opinion.. .[/quote']

Good luck hope they figure it out soon!

SW 363lbs Surg Date 4/16/2013 CW 284lbs

Well' date=' they found an ulcer, but every time they go in it looks like it's done bleeding....meanwhile the bowel prep looked like a murder scene, but the the colonoscopy showed no bleeding...really?... It still could all be the ulcer....maybe time for a secind opinion.. .[/quote']

Good luck hope they figure it out soon!

SW 363lbs Surg Date 4/16/2013 CW 284lbs

Good luck hope they figure it out soon!

SW 363lbs Surg Date 4/16/2013 CW 284lbs

Yeah, me too...colonoscopy showed no bleeding, but my blood count is now down 2.5 points...have to have another transfusion....wtf?

Yeah' date=' me too...colonoscopy showed no bleeding, but my blood count is now down 2.5 points...have to have another transfusion....wtf?[/quote']

Praying for you

HW 358 SW 344 CW 252 RNY 4/11/2013

Girls! I have to do a glucose test! I am gonna die! I dump bad lately. I remember this test pre-op and i nearly died.

What is gonna happen now????? Any if you had it?? Did you dump?? I wanna cry so bad now.

;-(