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OK, so it has been a week since my fill and last post. I did get up on Wednesday to do my run. However, when Friday rolled around, I could not get my booty out of bed. So when I got home from work I jumped on the treadmill. However, I was so wiped I was very frustrated as I had noooo energy. This then lead me to think about all the changes in my life, which overwhelmed me. I then started crying. Um, it totally makes it more difficult to breathe while one is crying and jogging at the same time. I just had a total emotional moment. To keep the moment light I joked to my husband that I was having a biggest loser moment. I feel like every contestant cries while on the excercise equipment. I finished my C25K workout and felt back to normal. All those endorphins helped alleviate the blubbering .
I am done with liquids and mushies and back to normal food. Energy is back up, although I still struggle with the morning workout. If I don't workout in the morning I have a hard time working it in after work. Tonight I didn't get home until 8pm and I was starving. So I haven't done my Tuesday Zumba yet. I am going to aim for Wednesday morning C25K. We'll see.
Having the worst day ever!!!! I am soooooooooo thirsty I can't stand it. I am at a client sight managing the work of 12 other people on this project and I am just sooooo stressed out I forgot to drink most of the day. I ate ok but I forgot my protein. GRRRRR!!!
I was Sleeved yesterday and did GREAT! No nausea, little pain, no gas pain, only some slight pain in my left shoulder which my surgeon said is due to having the drainage tube next to my bronchial tube. Today I walked a LOT and feel GREAT. If anyone has any questions, please just ask. I am ready to share my experience.
So it's been a few days and a lot has happened in that time. I ended up having to go back to the hospital for them to check me out but luckily everything was easily fixed. Apparently when I threw up the first time it can cause your sleeve to constrict and get pissy, which can cause a cascade failure of epic upchucking. Which pulled and semi-tore some of my internal and external stitches. And because I couldn't keep anything down the ketones from the fat breakdown build up in your body and kidneys. Which don't have the liquid to properly flush them. Which means you get a lovely kidney/UTI infection. Which makes you feel worse. Yeah, do ya'll see where I'm going with this?
So they ended up giving me 2 bags of fluid, 1 plain saline and the other a 'banana bag' that is full of vitamins and stuff. Then they prescribed me 3 different "Stomach Be Good" medicines that I have to take for the next month. Seriously, though, I about cried when I could eat and drink without having burning/stabbing pain. Unfortunately the suture pain I'm just going to have to deal with but at least I can eat and drink!
So this little adventure set my physical recovery back, and I still have to go into work Thursday. My boss rocks, though, and I'm going to be honest that if it wasn't Mother's Day coming up the doctors recommended I take another week off. I think she'll let me work some half days so that's good.
Anyway, overall things are better and I'm back on track. Rock on and I hope ya'll are doing well too!
For all you post-ops out there I noticed the scale has stopped moving for me. I am concerned, I was sleeved on 4/2 and has only lost a total of 25lbs. Has anyone had this problem? I am trying to figure out a way to get the scale moving again.
So today is a mix of emotions... first let me say I am not a patient person and if this process has taught me something it's that I must be patient... but like I said that's difficult. Got a call from the surgeons office and I need a formal dietician visit for insurance review.. I finished my 6 month (7 visit) on March 15. i anticipated being banded in April... I am hoping it happens in May but am unsure...Now I am wondering if the dietician visit was required with the 6 month supervised, I was going to Weight Watchers the entire time.. but dang another bump in the road, but I shall persevere!!
Where to start.. well let me bare the craziest thing about this whole journey... 4 years ago i attended a weight loss surgery seminar with a friend as her moral supprt... I was not judgemental but swore up and down that this was not for me, BECAUSE i love food.. well duh, I guess I am not the brightest bulb on the tree... Over the last 4 years I have lost and gained over 200 pounds.. the most being 80 pound loss. I wonder some days why I can't keep my weight under control. I remember saying at the time to myslef "I would never do this, I would feel deprived, I would hate to live without eating anything I want".... the irony is that now I can not wait to be limited... I love structure and am (I know this is weird but) am already following the pre-op diet because I can't wait anymore.... but it's a matter of being ready and knowing you have tried everything... I hadn't had enough failure then to concede that I needed a better tool to help me.
It's not that I can't diet... I can and do, and have my whole life. I can spout fat, calories, carbs, protein and fiber of most any food you can name. I know what good nutrition is and I understand input/output. I can tell you how many calories I burn in 30 minutes of many exercises... I am not dumb... I am not lazy... I am not weak.... I AM ALWAYS HUNGRY!!! I know that sounds silly but that is really what it comes down to.
I really feel that many of us are in the same boat. I have accomplished so much... and am a prefectionist in many ways, (OK, it may seem like I'm bragging here but I am making a point).. I have three fabulous, successful, athletic children who never get in trouble, they are respectful and kind, I have a great marriage, I graduated college with a great GPA, was great at my job when I worked, love staying at home now and caring for home/children, did the PTA president thing, always a homeroom mom, always volunterring at church.. and can do anything I set my mind to BUT keep a healthy weight. I find it embarrassing at times... that's a lie... I find it embarrassing most of the time. As unfair as it is we all know the fat discrimination... it sucks and it makes me feel "less than" in certain situations. I know that is more my problem than society.. but I also know how I am viewed compared to my size 4/6 friends...
I hope I have not rambled too long... I feel myself purging all the negative and finally getting in touch with my feelings.... this process has been great for intraspective analysis, and I am getting there... and believe it or not, am already feeling much lighter!
I was banded on 4/24/2012, I am currrently two weeks post op and began my pureed diet on yesterday. My instructions are to have 6 two to four oz mini meals per day. I will be returning to work on tomorrow and would like some suggestions on my meal plan. Look forward to hearing from all of you. Thank you !!!
Hey anyone out there know of a good, effective support group for banders in Western Mass? The one my surgeon's office currently offers conflicts with my schedule.
I had lapband in Canada and a tummy tuck as well. Four years later I went to Mexico to have tummy tuck, thigh lift and arm lift. If I knew then what I know now, I would have my lapband and plastic surgery in Mexico. Prices are much cheaper even with travel and recovery house and results are much better. Their muscle repair and lipo is more aggressive and they will do more then one area for better price. I am so thrilled, after 30 years I feel better then I did when I was 18!!!
Whew, this process was so long for me (12 months) and now I'm waiting on the insurance company to call. My surgeons office called Friday and said they put through all the paperwork. The scheduler told me a month ago that my insurance company is one of the easiest to work with because they respond in 24-48 hours. Well, today is the 2nd day. Wouldn't you know that I have to attend a work retreat today! So I figured out how to forward my work phone to my cell phone, that way when I'm on a break, I can check for messages. I tell ya, it seems like it's taking forever but I know it's only been two days! I guess it's because I had to go through this lengthy process of counseling for 12 months. Keeping my fingers crossed that I get the call today!
Ok so I.m six weeks out fron surgery and I'm not doing so well. I am still not sure what to eat. I know they stress protien, protien, protien. Well thats all fine but I can not stomach those shakes. So I am unsure what I should do for a breakfest and lunch. I really want to suceed at this but I'm afraid I will fail like everything else. I know this is a process and everything wil take time I just really want to start out on the right foot. I had done about a hyears worth of research before I had the actual surgery so I thought I for sure had this in the bag. Well low and behold here I am a complete mess and confused. Any tips or help would greatly be appriciated.Thanks for your time.
Well this is a whole new world for me... first of all blogging and sharing my little piece of the world is intriguing but leaves me feeling wel, a little naked... I have decided if I am doing this I am giving 100%.. all truth, all feelings, triumphs and struggles and why not. This is my personal one year diary of how I become a butterfly and I can not wait to read the end. I really hope to find freinds and supporters that will challenge, cheer and just share as I explore the next 12 months..
Now the nitty gritty... I am currently waiting for insurance approval for lap band... I am actually having banded plication but there is no billable code for this yet.. so the surgeon is able to do it. It is a fairly new procedure that is to increase weight loss results short term, keep long term results and is actually thought to decrease th chance of band slippage and is minimally invasive compared to other WLS currently done.
I am hoping that this is the right tool to enhance my journey... maybe journey is the wrong word... maybe life long scavenger hunt to find a healthier me... and I am sure if you are reading this you know what I mean. I was a fat child, an overweight teen, a starving but almost thin college person and then I was married and had my first child... I went from eating barely 900 calories a day and constant exercising to maintain a size 10 to.. I am eating for two...90 pounds later my 7 pound 6 oz baby was born and I am still blaming it on baby fat.. even though that baby is about to turn 20 and I had two more since and all are teen agers... yes I have tried and done most diets... my most successful was Weight Watchers, I lost 60 pounds and maintained that loss for about 2 weeks... yep 2 weeks, since then I have gained it all back and added 20 more... I have gained 80 pounds.. seems incredible and impossible but yet it is true.. how, well that I struggle with. I put more calories in my mouth than i burn but on paper not enough to gain 80 pounds.. I've had my thyroid tested and it's fine, so it leaves me at a loss.
I am hoping that this is my last attempt at losing and I can make this one year endeavor my swan song for losing weight... please join me, I'm gonna need a lot of suport!
Went in for my first fill on May first. Doctor said I'm down 42lbs since my proceedure so he didnt want fill my band. He said for me to call if I start to get hungry befor my four to five hour window. Have been doing well. I have been noticing a pain after about four hours. It seems to be in my lower stomache not around the band. I wonder if its hunger pains? It does seem to go away after I eat so I asume it is hunger. It just seems pretty intense. It comes and goes. Very weird. Anyone have similar things going on. I'm very happy things are going very well. The best thing I've ever done. Off to Tae Kwon Do. Hope to hear from someone on this. Thanks.
Well, I blogged last week about my chest x ray showing something abnormal. Had a CT scan on Friday and results came in this morning, NORMAL! I'm so happy. Thanks to everyone that sent prayers and encouragment. I really appreciate you guys so much!
I started my pre-op diet today. It hasn't been easy so far. I have fourteen days of 4 shakes a day which are chalky and I don't like them very much, SF jello, SF popsicles, broth, and diluted fruit juice for blood sugar levels. I have a slight headache from caffein and sugar withdrawals.
I'm really scared still and I can't believe that I actually am going through with this!! I've read some terrible horror stories about people with leaks and strictures. I read a story yesterday about a lady who has a leak that was in the hospital 5 times for a total of 65 days in the hospital. Oh my goodness!! I'm trying to have faith and rely on GOD like I should. I'm just so concerned because I'm self pay and if I have complications, how in the world would I pay for it?? I have insurance but since the surgery is excluded, I'm sure the complications are. I would be bankrupt if something happened.
I need to just think positive and have faith. I'm looking forward to my new life which began today!! YAY!
aNYONE ever try herbalife protein shakes, and do you recommend them, just curious, I am trying to find ways to include protein shakes, to try to get the correct amount any suggestions would be helpful. thanks.
Often I see posts on what happens when people take "one bite to many"....well,that has never happened to me.I can actually eat quite a lot.Usually I try not to but we've been entertaining a lot lately.Tonight after dinner I had something else to eat and for the first time I had a single hick up that I was wondering am I now full,is this it?that feeling of slight tightness in my chest and a hick-up?
It is so crazy to hear people say they cannot make 800 calories when I have to stop myself all the time or I would usually average about 1000 whr I eat what I really want to.
Then the thing of cutting carbs.I dont do more than 60 carbs on a high day but for me that is high in carbs for weight loss.When I low carbed before I had to stricktly stay under 20 for it to really work.
When I do low carb I feel a little on the depressed side.The feel good factor just disappears from my life and I start craving crisps and chocolate badly.
I am really worried that I will fail with this sleeve.I am not really dieting as I have this stange reaction of having no expectations so I will not be so disappointed.I suppose in a way after the struggle with the band it is normal to feel this but I will have to pull myself toward myself and start getting with the program and exercise and eat only the right food.
I will do this.
Weekly check in!! I just completed Week 4 of Insanity, amongst a billion other workouts too.. LOL - sharing my progress. Current measurements: Ribcage (bra strap) 32" ; Bust 38" ; Waist 28" (I'm only 1" away from my goal waist size!!!) ; Hips 39" (still haha My booty doesn't wanna leave the building, but my Hubby and I are OK with that. AND FOR THE GRAND FINALE: My body fat checked in at: 22.2% WOWWW!!!! Gettin LEAN and definitely FIT. Good day.
Current Photo. Keep working out everyone! It really does help.
Source: My Insanity! Journey... Shaun T Would Be So Proud.
Today's Day 7. I'm allowed to start full liquids, hot cereal, yogurt & cream soups today. And skim milk. I can have a cup of coffee. I actually sang Lionel Richie's 'Hello' to my coffee pot a few minutes ago. I am way too excited over coffee.
I had some cream of wheat (for the first time in my life, actually) earlier and I feel fine. I don't feel nauseous or anything.
The port site is a little bit sore. I sneezed this morning and had an "OMGWTF" pain moment. I think that's normal. My main incision left some blood spots on my shirt that I slept in where the first steri strip fell off (I think it came off too early). It's not a ton of blood, so I'm going to hold off on calling. I have an appointment on Wednesday, anyways.
Yesterday (Day 6) was pretty good, aside from the aforementioned port pain. I actually went to the grocery store and managed to buy what I needed, yet not make it weigh more than a gallon of milk (the most weight I can lift). I had a friend come and move my TV BACK to my living room from my bedroom -- I moved the rest of the stuff (cable box, dvd player), piece by piece so it wasn't too heavy. The ONE friend (who is more an acquaintance I go to happy hour with than anything) out of the six that I asked. Five people who had told me 'if you need anything after your surgery, call!'. Well I texted and called. Nobody answered. See who comes and hangs out with you after YOUR surgery next time. Or who is there when you need a ride to the store or to the laundromat. I'm doing everything my damn self; figure out a way to do things without me constantly driving you around. I'm sorry, but I'm currently super disgusted with the people who are supposed to be my friends. End angry rant.
My laundry basket also currently weighs less than a gallon of milk, so I think I'm going to do that at some point this week, too. Maybe on Wednesday after my appointment. I figure I'll already be out, I can get an oil change and get some laundry done. I'm basically "resting" (sitting around) at each of those places except when the laundry needs moved from the washer to the dryer and folded, so it's not like it's "heavy housework". Also, since when is vacuuming "heavy housework"? You're walking around, pushing something that pretty much moves on its own.
And now that I've rambled on for 30 minutes, I'm going to drink my coffee.
So it's been a bit since I've logged on and checked things out...it seems I'm stressed out and busy lately. I feel stuck in a rut...with the daily routine and my lapband, and just everything.
I had been doing so well, lost 85 lbs...then had a couple of deflates (at docs suggestion) to travel out of the country over the holidays, and I had little to no will power....so gained back ~25 lbs, and am having the worst time with being filled. I get sick every time (even though on liquids only) and sometimes have so much inflammation, it's to the point of dehydration. I haven't lost weight in so long, it feels like I won't....which I know is absurd, but doesn't help the sense of helplessness. I know I'm in my yellow zone, but really physically feel I can't have another fill...not sure where to go from here.
Anyone else having similar issues? How do you combat it all?
I am almost over this phase of my diet and in a couple days I will start my 3 meals a day. I go get my band filled Thursday and have to say I am pretty excited. I have been hungry all week and want to get past that. I have stabled out on my weight loss, kind of disappointing to get on the scale and see it has not moved. I just dont want to fail.
I finished my first three days back at work. A stressful night ended it all. Glad to be off tomorrow and my focus is going to be to find meal ideas for when I start my three meals a day...wish me luck!!!
As many of you know, I have eaten the same thing for three weeks. Most of the time, it was the same thing two times a day for three weeks. Well, all that changed today. Today I made myself chicken salad. I put the chicken in the magic bullet and added some onions and celery (very finely chopped) and a little mayo. And, in case you were wondering, it tasted amazing!!!! Not as amazing as my husbands mashed sweet potatoes with cinnamon, nutmeg, all spice, and splenda. That was heaven. It was almost as good as carrot cake. Side bar* I love carrot cake. Actually, it's more than that. There is nothing better than a moist carrot cake with really good cream cheese icing. The way it melts in your mouth!!! YUMMY is all I can say. * side bar done. And, as you can tell, being almost as good as carrot cake is like wining the Kentucky Derby if carrot cake is the triple crown. So, today I enjoyed two very yummy things that were not bad for me and I felt full after eating them. My husband's mashed sweet potatoes not only took care of my starch craving, it also took care of my sweet craving. He seems to know just what I need and how to give it to me when I need it. Even when I have no idea.
I don't know how he knew what I needed. Maybe I was getting cranky again or maybe he tracks my cycle unbeknownst to me. But all I asked for was sweet potatoes and he somehow took them and made them so much more than I could have even thought about wanting. I know when I read this to him, he's going to be like a kid in a candy store hearing all this positive feedback, because the one thing he loves it to is cook. But what he loves even more than that is me liking what he cooks. So, Scott (my husband) just so you know, you are an amazing cook and you surprise me all the time with your ability to take something so "everyday" and turn it into a "vacation".
Now that all the mushy stuff is out of the way. No pun intended with the mashed potatoes. I did have one strange thing happen to me today while I was enjoying my new food. First, you have to know that after almost a month, I still can't really tell when I am full. I know it takes awhile to figure this out, but I have so many strange sounds and feelings, that I don't know which ones mean what. So, today I was eating my YUMMY chicken salad and I had eaten about 1.5ounces. I figured I could eat the other .5 ounces with out issue. I knew I was close to being full just due to the amount I ate not because of any magical feelings I had. So, I took my last bite and BAM...I felt like everything in my stomach (all 2.5 ounces of it) was going to make a reappearance right there on the table. I ran to the bathroom and experienced the spitting and salty mouth but nothing else. After about three minutes of spitting, I felt fine. Has this happened to anyone else? I was so shocked by it all. It was the first time my body has said, "Hey Trish, you ate WAY too much and I can't handle it." I wanted to scream back to my body, "Hey Body, NO, I really didn't. You just don't know how to handle more than 2.5 ounces of food. Maybe if you didn't allow a surgeon to take 2/3 of your stomach away, we wouldn't be having this issue." But then I remembered that I am the one who asked the doctor to do that...so I would lose that battle with my body within seconds. For the record, I don't like to lose....unless it's weight.
So, I learned two very important things today. Number one: I can only handle about an ounce of chicken salad at a time. Number Two. I will have to make sure I have sweet potatoes on hand at all times. Then again, if I don't maybe my wonderful husband will create another food miracle Humm, that's a tough one to decide. I really like the sweet potatoes, but maybe there is something better....just not as good as carrot cake.
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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