4.5 mos. out observations
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Height 5'3" Age 32
Pre Op (July 2013): 312
Day of surgery(9/11/13): 297
1/22/14: 230
I have noticed chairs getting roomier. Oh, and bathrooms! People in public (strangers) actually will talk to me now..Im no longer a total outcast from society. I wasn't expecting that so soon, as I haven't been treated well in public in a long time. Not that anyone (other than maybe 2 or 3 TOTAL rude a&$hats) was outright rude to me. But, people will now sit by me on a bench, stand close behind me in a line, strike up a conversation with me in line etc. I didn't realize how my weight had affected so much of my day to day until the last few weeks. Im more of a "normal" weight again I guess..fat yes, but not 300+lbs. fat.
I now eat for a reason. A reset button has been pushed, and I feel like a child learning how to eat again. This time it isn't full of fast food, butter, and endless carbs. I don't feel guilty if I have a treat anymore because I don't do it often, or overeat (thank you sleevey). Im enjoying my day to day life again in a lot of ways.
I overheard my son (on my birthday a couple weeks ago) tell my mom he was proud of me
Im having to face how I ate before, and how I taught my son
My son is learning the right way now though, and I've watched his habits begin to change. My habits have completely changed. I now eat a yogurt almost every day for Breakfast. (Pre surgery...I had maybe 3 yogurts in my life). And, it's not that I particularly love the stuff...But Im eating it for real reasons...and those reasons don't include it tastes good (the only reason I are what I ate Pre surgery).
(I have always been heavy. I sat around 225 from 7th grade until I was in my early 20's..when I went way up) One of my elderly clients (I've worked for her for 4 years) doesn't recognize me until I get close to her because Im so "thin" now lol I'm actually scared to see what I will look like thin, because I haven't the slightest clue what I really look like (how absurd lol).
I have a long journey ahead. I'm struggling with cross addiction. I began smoking a few weeks ago. (I quit about 4 mos. before surgery). I started blowing up at the drop of a hat..It got so bad that I almost lost my job. That day I started smoking, and my temper tantrums stopped.
I am however in the process of getting counseling through an addictionologist. I cannot lose my job, so for now I smoke. I will be looking for new employment when I get down another 50lbs. Interviewers will take me more seriously with a good résumé and not being grotesquely fat.
Yoga is HARD! But now that I feel so much younger, I can attempt to actually do it without hurting myself. My 12 year old and I chase each other around the house now for more than 10 seconds.
I am driving my husband insane by wearing all of his clothes all the time. (But, secretly...he thinks it cute) My husband can't keep his hands off me lol having a good support group is essential to succeeding. My husband and son have been fantastic support for me, and I'm so happy I can pay them back by being happier and more involved (not afraid to go into public...will I fit into the seat at the theater etc...). Cuddling is much more comfy the smaller I get.
The sandwich was my dinner tonight. I had the bottom bread toasted, 6 slices of orange bell pepper, 4 oz. ham, 2 tsp. light mayo. I always eat sandwiches without the top now.
Edited by jdmama911