Good Morning fellow bandsters. I'm beginning to wonder if i'm falling behind the curve? My weight is going down. I'm actually going to schedule an appointment to see the surgeon for a fill. I know they think I'm at my sweet spot but I don't think so anymore. I am able to eat more and I'm able to eat breads again as well. I haven't gone in prior to now becuase so much has been going on. My sister's wedding, the Avon 2 day walk, and two other weddings. So now that things have calmed down we'll check in with the doc and see what he says. I was banded in September and have only lost about 45 pounds. Started off so great and have gone down to a trickle. I have been doing nothing but exercise as I prepared for the 2 day walk. I completed a 5K, did the 2 days (26 miles) amongst other exercises, but no weight loss!!! What's going on?
Got up about an hour ago. I feel very refreshed from sleep and hadn't had trouble waking up in the middle of the night due to nausea. Thank God!
It feels real good outside so I think I'm going to do some yard work...taking it easy....
I'm sipping on my feast of grape juice and water cocktail.... it's not so bad. I just hope the hunger won't bother me as it did yesterday.
I’m officially one month, two weeks, and two days post op (6 weeks)!!! I got my first fill today (6/6/11). I had 1.8 cc worth of priming fluid in my standard AP 10cc band, the doctor added 3.5cc for an overall total of 5.3cc. This was done under fluoroscopy, so I got to see “Michelangelo” live and in person as I watched the contrast funnel through my pouch. I was advised to do two days of clear liquids, and two days of full liquids before moving back to solid foods.
I thought I was special. I read a lot on the forums that a majority of people gained a few pounds back after starting back on solid foods, but I didn’t. I THOUGHT I was special. Well, today I went in and I gained a few pounds (3-4). Now, I’m also experiencing HORRIBLE constipation. I’m not sure if this is due to the band, because again I’ve read where lack of fiber and eating right can cause constipation for bandsters, but my bowels have been fine since surgery. The past couple days, I’ve had horrible pain in my lower abdomen and I can’t **** for NOTHING!
Normally I get constipated right before my period comes on, and now that I think about it, we’re about four days away from when my period started last month, and my cycle could also account for the added weight… it could be water weight! So, if my cycle does decide to magically cycle again this month, it’ll be another NSV for me… a reoccurring menstrual! Yay! (who knew I’d be happy about this?!)
I’ve been trying to work out, but I really hate working out alone, so I’ve recruited my God Sister to walk with me in the mornings, and we go exercise together. We both openly admitted that if it weren’t for the other, we wouldn’t be doing half as much exercising or for even 30 minutes. It’s easy to give up when no one is holding you accountable. I know some people can go and work out and do it everyday. I don’t know what it is, but I need someone to be there with me, not necessarily yelling in my ear, but it’s like we both motivate each other. It’s not a competition, and I’m not looking at her saying “Damn she’s going faster/slower than me” I’m looking at her and saying “Damnit, I’m not the only one tired and sweating! Let’s keep going!”
A funny story: So, I tried to incorporate jumping jacks as a daily exercise by doing as many jumping jacks as you can do within 10 minutes. I THOUGHT my boobs had shrunk, and granted they have because my bras aren’t fitting me like they used to, but these babies are still HEAVY! I thought I was about to die doing jumping jacks… needless to say I didn’t get through 10 minutes…
I have to admit it’s been harder than I thought sticking to a low carb/no carb diet. But I’m constantly looking up low carb meals and snacks. Now to put them to use!!!! I’ve solved my “clean-the-plate” syndrome a while back before surgery, but now my eyes are bigger than my stomach. I’ve been catching myself making plates like I used to or maybe not AS big but still bigger than I can stomach and I’m left with a half full plate, which is not a bad thing, but for some reason I feel like it is. So, I need to start using my baby plate that I bought a while back just so I can get used to smaller portion sizes. When I do then I can move on to putting those smaller portions on the big plates without over doing it.
Well, I’m not sure if I have much more updating to do right now. I’m happy with my band. And I don’t see it yet (I feel it sometimes) but I know I’m losing weight. People are noticing and always commenting. My family and friends see it in my arms, neck, face, breasts. ALL OVER! So I can’t wait to see this for myself!
Today I weighed in at 171 that's down from 177. Heck yeah. All that hard work paid off. All that water and exercise. I also learned something about myself. I need to change up my Monday routine. Work is very stressful on Monday's and I eat. Not sure what to do. I'm recognizing it's a problem. Now I have to find a solution. Comments help. Add a snack? I'm trying to stick to the 3 meal thing. It's mostly just Monday's that are bad. Well next week I will try something new.
After reading alot of posts on lapbandtalk.com I have come away with not wanting to know a few things.
The main thing is that I do not want to learn how to cheat the band. I do not understand wanting to cheat the band. I am self pay and that would be like burning the hard earned money to pay for it.
I have skipped over posts relating to this subject.
Something I don't want to ever experience again is a stuck feeling. I haven't had a fill and casually was chewing seedless grapes when I swallowed one WHOLE. It was almost immediate discomfort then serious pain. I freaked. I prayed. I tried to belch, burp, anything. I pounded on my chest bent over and tried to puke it up. Well it finally went somewhere, not up. Scared the living crud out of me.
I have to watch this. Also chewing gum. I have in the past swallowed. Bad idea with the band.
Some more randomness on lap band stuff:
Trying to find ways to get high protein that is not animal based, this list shows all sources of protein.
Only 5 days and it feels like longer. The nurse had said I could have mashed potatoes this weekend. I did and it was like waving a red flag in front of my nose! It tasted so good, and went down so well, I decided to slowly move to Stage II (a bit). I had a scrambled egg on Sunday. I made sure that I ate it slowly and chewed as thoroughly as I could (it's not easy to chew scrambled eggs for a long time!). The rest of the day I stuck with the protein drinks and water.
Today I had 2 Tbl. of ricotta cheese, thinned with skim milk and made that last 20 minutes. That is the most difficult part of this--taking my time eating something instead of shoving it down my throat. I know that I can't let myself get too hungry or that's what I'm able to do. I'm trying to keep my diet as structured as possible. I'll talk to the nurse tomorrow and let her know where I'm at.
Down 10.2 pounds so far. That's pretty good. I'm not noticing too much change except maybe my skirts aren't so tight. Feeling better with a bit more energy. Started extended hours at work today (so I can have Fridays off) and was able to get through the day and come home minimally tired. I guess carrying around that extra 10 lb.s of fat can really tire you out!
That's it for today. ODAT!
I have exacly one month from today for my big day. July 6, 2011 I will become an official loser I am getting very nervous. I guess that is what is to be expected. There are many questions running through my head. In the morning I will be doing my last set of labs, then just wait. Since I will be having my surgery in San Diego which is 100 miles from where I live, I have to make hotel arrangements and rent a car. My pre-op appt. is @ 9am on the 5th. Gosh and all of this is happening right after the 4th of July holiday. Gosh...I need to sit down and map things out. Is there anyone out there having surgery on or about the same day as me. If so please, please keep up with me. I can use a friend/ surgery buddy. I would like to thank you all for your support and prayers. God bless you and keep you and his face shine upon you and give you peace.
OK. I am now three days out from banding. Had to go to Outpatient and have blood drawn. Walking was not a problem, although I am still sore. I am afraid I am being quite a wuss though. I was watching my husband eat his lunch. Although I'm not really hungry, I found myself very envious of him. His food smelled soooo good. I know I have to do this. I need to do this. Weighing 310lbs is not a good thing. It's better than the 347 I started with when I first started my journey. But I still seem to be obsessed over food. I think I'm greiving over all the things that I will never be able to eat again. It doesn't help that every other commercial on TV is for food and usually one that I like. Sleep was better last night but not wonderful. Husband is sending out for his meals, but he is diabetic and sooner or later I'm going to have to start cooking for him. Can't afford for him to eat out every meal. I know I am going to have to find a creative outlet for my thoughts. Just not feeling mentally up to that yet. Here's to a better day tomorrow.
Gas pains are all gone. I'm still a bit weak and feel tightness in my stomach but otherwise pretty swell. Last night was much better than the nights previous... nausea has subsided a fair amount.
Problem now... after 5 days of liquids...I'm getting hungry. Yesterday was fine..but today I'm getting really hungry. I constantly think about food and it feels like this liquid diet will be the end of me.
My next doctor's appointment is in two days...(on Wednesday, 6.8) and I can start mushy foods at that time. Just two more days...two more nights.
Today is almost done...so that's good...but I fear how it'll be tomorrow... I'm going to be starving. Oh gosh...
Here I am 7 months post op lost 60 pounds but still looking for ways to lose the belly fat I have been doing situps and walking and stuff! Can anyone give me ways to lose my belly fat?
Here I am AGAIN... thinking, "How did I get here?" "Why did I do this to myself?" and so many more questions. Not just questions either, cristicisms also. I feel like a failure... today I weighed in at 320 pounds! OMG! I can not believe I am up here again!
So, here I go.... I went to the gym and I got on that treadmill and started working out again... I drank my water.... I watched what I ate... I AM STARTING OVER!
I am tired of feeling sorry for myself and feeling like a failure. I have made justifications... like this, " Well, at least I still weigh less than when I was banded"....well, if I don't do something I won't!
I am going to stop making excuses and follow the rules! I have to...
Here I am AGAIN... thinking, "How did I get here?" "Why did I do this to myself?" and so many more questions. Not just questions either, cristicisms also. I feel like a failure... today I weighed in at 320 pounds! OMG! I can not believe I am up here again!
So, here I go.... I went to the gym and I got on that treadmill and started working out again... I drank my water.... I watched what I ate... I AM STARTING OVER!
I am tired of feeling sorry for myself and feeling like a failure. I have made justifications... like this, " Well, at least I still weigh less than when I was banded"....well, if I don't do something I won't!
I am going to stop making excuses and follow the rules! I have to...
Weird.... I know I am doing it right kind of...
Have always had issues with throwing up, slimming, that feeling...it stinks..so I fixed that I don't eat solids really, my doctor in my head is not there to support me, so meanwhile I am drinking my protein , eating my protein as In shakes... and some mashies.....
I have kicked up my exercise to the next level and nothing, laps in the pool in the AM before work, up to 60 ( up and back is one).... and than work, after work the gym, from 35-45 mins, and I alternate the bike to the treadmill to the arc climber, and than 2-3 times a week I do spin class, infact some days I think "I have not eaten enough"...
Im getting really mad and annoyed, all this hard work and still the scale has stopped and yet I am exercising like this 6 days a week one day off...
I cant even do this right........................
So it's Sunday night, time to reflect on the week. It was a pretty good week. I had more good days then bad days. I ate good at least 70% of the time. I exercised and even bought some new exercise equipment. I'm determined I just hope I can keep the momentum going. My sister asked me to join weight watchers she needs to lose about 50 pounds and I still have 20. I will probably join and then see if my dad will. We all need to lose weight.I will check in tomorrow and see what the scale says,
Life is not fair. I do this procedure to help me not be hungry and lose weight. And here I sit smelling my husbands food and all I can think about is eating......what I can eat now, what I'll never be able to eat again, what I want to eat now, all that good stuff. And belch. It actually hurts to belch, but it hurts more not to. I wonder if any one will read my post, if anyone really cares, if anyone who has had this done will help me with the su8pport and encouragement that I seem to need right now. Husband is being supportive but he keeps trying to feed me. He doesn't understand thjat I am hungry but I really don't want to eat. I am really trying to drink lots of fluuids though. Here's to a better day tomorrow.
So I'm on mushies...and I have this problem with testing my limitations. With that said, I've moved myself beyond mushies and have found myself grazing on things like very small pieces of beef and baked tortillas. Also, with my mushies, well let's just say they haven't been the best choices. I've tolerated things like guacamole, potato salad, baked beans, macaroni and cheese and I even tasted (only tasted) some of my son's graduation cake last night.
Although I've only had very small portions, I get full easily, but what I do find is that I'm hungry within a couple of hours and I find myself grazing again, what's up with that? My doc said that he put about 3 or 4 cc's at the time of surgery, but apparently I need more. I do feel like I've gained a little weight, but I've been too afraid to get on the scale. I can't wait to feel that satiety that the band is supposed to be famous for. My saving grace is probably the fact that I turn my treadmill walks into full workouts (doing a lot of variations).
I must admit that I do feel a little discouragement, because I expected my first month to be really successful with the loss. I do think I'll be more successful when I'm not limited on what I can do physically.
Anyway, I hadn't posted in a while, because I didn't want to be discouraging to others, but this past week has been somewhat of a struggle. But what I do know for sure is that better days are ahead!
Kymmie
So my five month surgiversary is in two short days. Today I was 173.8, up a couple of oz. from Friday I think, but still, getting pretty close to my July 4th goal of 169 lbs!
I had DH weigh himself yesterday to see how much he weighs. He weighs 170.8 so I am 3 lbs. above his weight. It will be a happy, happy day to make my July 4th goal, as I will also weigh less than my hubby. I am just shy of 42 lbs. above my ultimate goal weight, so more than halfway to goal, and not even six months out. Yay!
Today DH and I went to Seattle Suntan for our first-ever indoor tanning experience. Let's just say it can be pricey to get a tan (and maintain it) but I have pretty fair (AKA *white*) skin and don't want to go to Maui next month (exactly one month from today, woo hoo!) blinding people with the whiteness of my skin. We went on one of the newer premium beds -- it was so weird. I didn't expect it would be so hot in the tanning bed .... and your skin stays warm for quite a while afterwards. I didn't put on any tanning lotion before tanning but ordered some on Amazon after I got home so will have some for next time.
I tried on that Speedo swimsuit I got from Cosco ... fit everywhere but in the bust area (too small in the bust, alas). So today I went to Sams Club and bought a size 18 2 piece (tank top and swim skirt), and hopefully that will have better coverage. I've bought several items of clothing, all size 16, so it was kind of a bummer to have to bump up a size in swimsuits, but c'est la vie. My legs are awful, lots of cellulite still in the thighs (all the way down to the knee) and I have quite a gut still ... let's just say men won't be gazing at my bod with desire at the swimming pool, LOL!
But, on the other hand, my mom says she is JEALOUS of me now that I weight less than she does ... first time in a long time that is the case. But it is good natured jealousy, and not mean spirited. I've also gotten quite a few comments from co-workers about how different I look ... it's funny, when you see yourself in the mirror you don't notice change as much as others do. The only time I really notice how much weight I've lost is when I put on a piece of clothing I had worn before surgery ... I really can't wear most of my old clothes anymore, they are horribly loose. Only the clothes that were really tight can still be worn (and now they are loose).
I've also noticed my weight loss definitely goes in cycles ... I will have a couple of good weeks of weight loss and then a couple of weeks where nothing happens. And I am not doing anything different. It's just odd the way that happens.
Anyhow, five months out from surgery and I am feeling really good and am still so happy with my sleeve. I love how it helps me manage my volume eating problem (can't volume eat anymore!). And I really have a different relationship with food now. I just wish I would have had this surgery years ago! But am glad I'm still fairly young (43) so plenty of life ahead of me. This is the first summer in MANY years where I will be doing things I really love to do ... and not be ashamed (so much) to do them (swimming, wearing shorts, able to keep up with people while walking, etc.)
Okay-so I guess I REALLy do have an empty band! Oh, yes I have read about those blessed people who nevered needed a fill and how I really hoped I would be one of the chosen few-butthe monster reared it's ugly head this weekend. I had control-but it wasn't easy. My meals aren't keeping me full. I look at it this way-I am dieting on my own for now, but it won't be forever! One day at a time and one week at a time!
I guess this is what the call Bandster Hell. I can get through it though...I know I can!
Well it's Sunday evening and I am pleased to say I made it through the weekend without any issues. I went to a web site of a hospital here in SC, MUSC and they had a few neat tools for Lap Band patients. I down loaded the forms so I could keep track of my food and check it off. They also had a nice shopping list and lists of types of protein we should be eating. I have done good with my weight loss and in the beginning I used the Lap Band web site to record my food diary but after I returned to work I was not as consistent. It is hard to stay honest with eating for me unless I write down every bite I put in my mouth, today I did this and when it came time for dinner, I realized I only had 3 protein servings left, 1 Vegetable serving and 1 Fruit serving. So dinner was Grilled Shrimp and a small salad. I still had all of my fats so I added salad dressing to my salad. It was yummy! I exercised both yesterday and today so check for exercise. All in all this has been a good weekend but I am so glad it is over. Well off to do homework, been procrastinating this all day. Ugh!
SIL was doing better yesterday so I spent the night at home last night. I slept well and got to walk to the Family Walk video. Got up this morning and walked with it for 19 minutes. The one mile point is at 15 minutes. As I finished my walk, my husband called from the hospital and his sister had taken a turn for the worst. Her fever went up to 102.4 and she was totally out of it. I rushed on over, but this time I packed a little bit of high protein liquids. She awakened a little while ago as if nothing had happened. I think I will see if I can pull up the video on the internet and use headphones to do my walk in the room.
I had surgery may 13 and my fill june 2
I never know what to say for a blog. I had some one read my diary to whom it was about
so i am lery of writing things down.
I haver to track my blood pressure 2x a day weight loss doctor says mt bp meds(bete blockers) are keeping me fat. so i have to keep a record of my pressure til my family dr appointment in 3 weeks.
8 days after surgry i zipped up pants i had never been able to put on
to day i wore a skirt to church i have not wore in 2 years.
I wore the pants every day for my walk one week later i wash then and they are very tight again.
I lost 10 lbs thw first week( my schale) 6 theirs
week 3 i have the first fill and my schale has not moved (4 theirs)
I felt ok after the fill than got home and felt so sick.
the next day I had to force myself to drink for the 24 hrs. I did not care about any thing.
so glad I lost thast shadow it was bad.
OK THIS IS REALLY GETTING ANNOYING, NOW... not that it's the food's fault. obviously. BUT STILL. i want the scale to go down not up!
i've gained like 6 lbs in the week that i've been on mushies. flerg. gotta start watching it. for reals. first fill is on thursday.. must use restraint and my brain. stupid brain.
i just came here to vent about the gain... and the fact that every time someone at work looks at me - they look me up and down. to judge if i've gotten smaller. do they really think i dont notice their ******* eyeballs going over me? there are definitely some people i'd rather have not found out. it bothers me that my business office manager/HUMAN RESOURCES lady blabbed it to people. but she's generally pretty cool and so i'm just going to get over it.
flah.
i'm afraid i won't lose. it's so hard to stop eating, even when i'm full. i still want to eat because it's good and it's something i've been doing for so long. i want time to go by faster. i am sick of being at the beginning of yet another weight loss "journey"
i'm in a bad mood, today. it will go away. i need to get through work tonight and tomorrow and i'll be feeling better. i need to make it to thursday, and get that fill. i want that dern fill!
anyway. yes. thanks for listening, electronic world.
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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