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A funny thing happend while I was loosing weight
 

Starting To See The Skinny Girl I've Known Was In There All Along

The neatest thing has happened in the past week. I am seeing and feeling bones I haven't seen or felt in over twenty years. Talk about neat. Oh, and talk about painful...   When I watch t.v. or look at magazines, I always wished I had two things. The little hole between the legs and the butt....you know the one, really skinny girls have it. Girls with no butt and no hips or thighs. The second was the collar bone and the little indent at the bottom of your throat. Now, since I've gotten older, I no longer want to be so skinny that I have no shape. I like my ass. I like my hips. I really like my curves and I plan on keeping them. I know my boobs have left but hey, I can always pay to have them pumped back up...and lifted. Trust me, they need to be put at attention. They have been looking down at my feet all the time since I've lost surgery. They need to be able to look men in the eye when men are looking at them instead of my eyes. LOL They haven't been perky since high school.....maybe they are sick of looking at men staring at them for all those years. LOL   So, here is what I've noticed. I have ribs. Not only in the front but also in the back. My husband finds this the most interesting thing. He likes to keep poking at them despite the fact that I've explained to him that it's not very comfy for me. Who knew bones could hurt so much?!!!! As we lay in bed and he wraps his arm around me. Side note: I've been with him for ten years. In ten years, I had always been uncomfortable with him spooning me. I always felt that the fact he couldn't really wrap his arm around me had to be turn off. He didn't think so, but I was so uncomfortable. Now, his had not only wraps around me, it can tuck under me!!! Ok, back to the ribs. when he hugs me or spoons me, I always feel him feeling them. He looks so bewildered. He's been honest and tells me that he feels like he's hugging another person. He then backs it up but saying despite that, he is so happy it's me he's holding on to. Gosh I love that man. Needless to say, ribs hurt when they get poked or rubbed on. I am sure I will get used to it and it won't hurt anymore, but for now, I try to keep his fingers from poking my ribs. LOL   I've also noticed that I have a collar bone. AND, I have the little indent at the end of my throat. Now, it's not very prominent but if I stand a certain way or laugh, it can be seen with no issue and I'll take that!!! I don't recall ever seeing my collar bone or that little indent. It's the neatest things ever. I have even found myself moving my shoulders a certain way so that other people can see them. Part of me feels that if others can see them, then they can see I'm not fat. I know that's crazy to think, but no matter what I see, I am still that fat girl that is always self conscience and thinks people still look at me like THAT girl...the one that's WAY to over weight. The one that would be beautiful if ONLY she could lose some weight. Another side note: I HATE THAT COMMENT. I am beautiful no matter what my size. Why do I have to lose weight for you or others to find me attractive? Do the people who say this think it's a complement? It's REALLY not. It's actually one of the rudest comments I've ever heard. It's that put down right to your face. The one that sounds nice but if only they knew what you were hearing and feeling...then, maybe, just maybe they wouldn't say it again..EVER. Ok, I am now stepping down from the soap box I got up on. LOL   Ok, now that I've poured my heart out and gotten up and then down from my soap box...I am sharing some photos. One is from the day of surgery. The rest were taken this evening. Sorry for the no makeup, half asleep, P.J wearing look I have going on. I just hope you can see the bones I'm talking about....maybe it's all in my mind, but that's fine with me as it makes me feel really good. and who wouldn't want to to feel good? Hope you get the idea of the bones...LOL                
tmorgan813

tmorgan813

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taylor94's Blog
 

Omg Phlegm

Ok I know I have googled this...and ppl encounter this however I don't understand why sometimes I eat something and all is good....then I eat the exact same thing and I can't swallow all I get is this foamy Phlegm. It is especially disturbing when I am out....I just need to know that I am not alone....   I went to my surgeons to get a fill yesterday and told the nurse and she didn't know what I was talking about...it isn't throwing up...I just eat and all of a sudden nothing will go down cause my throat is full of Phlegm.   Please tell me I am not alone....and I am normal...I had my surgery on July 9th and I am down 44 lbs....I am not watching what I eat just the amount as my clinic wants me to think of it as a life style change not a diet....and they encourage full fat foods...   Help me feel like I am normal .
taylor94

taylor94

4
Frenchi's Blog
 

Second Day Of Pre-Op Diet And Yucky

Well today is day two of my pre-op diet and wow... I thought I'd love having so many sweet things to eat and drink, but honestly I just want some regular real food to bite into. So far I've had an EAS, 1/2 of an Isopure, cream of chicken, yogurt and a SF popsicle. Yesterday was my first day and I thought this diet was going to be so easy. I ate about the same, however I was super busy. My husband and I took the boat out early and just enjoyed each other for most of the afternoon until the kids got out of school. Dinner time came and I was like, I got this and didn't have any cravings. Today I had only housework to keep myself busy, as hubby went to work and I was left feeling hungry all day. Tonight at dinner time I didn't have anything, but jealousy of what everyone else was eating. I'm already about to break in as little as 48 hours. Will this go away after surgery?   Obviously I decided to start a blog in hopes that through this I may help someone along their journey like so many posts have helped me in making the decision in pursuing the sleeve. And also to get some encouragement on days that I want to give up. So let me tell you a little bit about me. I am 32, I have two kids, one of each. I'm fat. I'm married to an amazing soldier that isn't excited about me getting this surgery and becoming not so fat. He's a health nut and LIVES at the gym. He's scared of me leaving him which will never happen, because I am so IN LOVE and he has supported me through so much, so why not share the healthier and sexier me! My family and friends have no idea that I'm getting this, for one they ALL are over a thousand miles away and two I kind of feel embaressed like I didn't try hard enough to better my health as well as my appearance. Is this normal?   My whole life I've been overweight, but I still was very confident in my appearance and my health was great. Well all of that changed when my husband got stationed in Oklahoma. We received our household goods and I over did it and hurt my back resulting in back surgery last June. Well my weight sky rocketed and even though I'm active again and pretty much back to normal, my weight will not go away or my health problems. I'm 5'5 241lbs. and now my health isn't so great and I'm bigger now than I was at nine months pregnant. My self esteem is hiding somewhere in all this goo that has attached itself to me, to the point where I refuse to get naked in front of my husband. I know TMI, but this never was an issue until now. So with a scattered topic blog, here I am ready for a new healthier and happier me that will look and FEEL sexy again soon. Surgery is scheduled for October 3rd.
Frenchi

Frenchi

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40andsleeven's Blog
 

Finally Approved For Psych Eval

Today was a good day. I can't believe that I finally have an answer from the insurance but this whole think is confusing. I have an appt to see the psych next Friday. I am afraid that I won't pass somehow. I tried this years ago and was diagnosed with depression at the eval. What will I be diagnosed with this time?   Actually, that really was a good thing for me. I have worked out a lot of things during the last few years with my social worker. I am not ashamed to have depression. It is manageable and now that I know I have it at least I can understand some of my issues better. It is refreshing to know there is a reason I want to crawl under the covers and ignore the world sometimes. I can and do take steps to redirect myself when that happens.   I think that the sleeve will be a good thing for my depression because I certainly cannot keep yo yoing. Never being successful with perminant wt loss. That can't be good either.   Today I told my mom about the surgery plan too. She was very supportive. I was so surprised! I was afraid that she would talk me out of it (or try). My sister was supportive too.   Can't wait to get this thing moving.
Delena2/11

Delena2/11

1
sheila2050's Blog
 

Day 5 Pre-Op

Today I had kind of a large supper -- by recent standards -- of salad and fish. I've been reading about salad being disagreeable after WLS, so I wanted to eat it while I still could.   Seemed so slow while I've been waiting for my surgery; now, seems it's approaching quickly. Today is Thurs. I'll start liquids Sunday; fly to Tijuana Tuesday; have the surgery Weds.   A week from now, I'll have my sleeve. Excited. Scared.   We bought a lawn mower so I've been mowing for exercise. It's funny, I feel so tired just walking around; but when I'm doing something, I don't feel as fatigued.
sheila2050

sheila2050

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Mission Slimpossible
 

Why Must I Learn The Hard Way? Seriously....

Follow up to my first fill yesterday....   As I mentioned in yesterday's blog, apparently my band is 14cc, a large one. It even sounds embarrassing, geez.   Oh my gosh, so last night, I was supposed to eat only soft foods...which I mostly did. Key word people: MOSTLY! I made myself a nice flounder with herbs and a little cottage cheese on the side. Good, right? Well, I made chicken parm for the family & wanted to taste a tiny piece. BIG MISTAKE!!! I took a tiny frigin' piece, like not even 1/2 of your pinky size,thought I had chewed it up well, and the damn thing was just STUCK. Pardon my french, but holy ****, that was soo not pleasant. I didn't feel nauseous or get sick, but the middle of my breast bone hurt for a good 30-45 minutes, maybe more. I walked a little around the house & just used the heating pad. Yes, eventually it passed, but I was soooo NOT happy.   Needs to say, I was afraid to eat anything today. I was trying to feel it out & figure out if & when I was full. Not sure I like this learning curve!
Domika03

Domika03

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Calling all getting banded on September 11th
 

One Week Post-Op Appt

Today was my one week post-op appointment. I am healing quite well. I also lost 4lbs since surgery (I'll take it!). I am feeling good, but did have an experience yesterday. I ate my lunch way too fast and felt like my insides were going to explode. Thank god it was just soup. I had to go outside and walk it off for about a half an hour. I definitely learned my lesson. I will make sure I take my time eating and be more conscience of what and how I am eating. My first fill has been scheduled for October 11th. I know I can do this!
JackieC

JackieC

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Oh2BThin's Blog
 

Ducks In A Row

At my last visit with the surgeon he told me "well, no more appointments; finish up with the psych eval and then we'll submit to the insurance and get you a date." So, I went to the psych (as previously posted). I hand delivered my psych eval to the office and the scheduler told me, "we'll submit everything and call you when the insurance gets back to us." I called the insurance co at the end of that week and they had already approved me!! (doc didn't tell me...I had to tell them). So, lo and behold, they gave me an appointment!!!! What? well, I had to go in to talk to the scheduler and get my date. Another $30. My upper endoscopy will be 10/18, pre admission testing 10/19, meet with the surgeon to go over all of the testing 10/25 (another $30 what happened to no more visits?) and surgery 10/29!!! yay!   In that time I also have to see my PCP ($20) and pulmonologist ($30) for clearance. Then my 2 week liquid diet. It seems like there's so much more to do. oh AND there's a pre-op surgery class that meets at 1:30pm on a Thursday, lasts for hours and requires you to read an 80 page notebook so that you can take a test! (Another day off work just to be tortured).   With all these appointments and time off work, I'm gonna end up in the poor house. So much for new skinny clothes. I won't be able to afford them. LOL
Tammy310

Tammy310

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Goddess Blaze's Blog
 

Dreaming Of Food

I have always been very active, played sports worked out etc.. and have thought well if i workout for 2 hrs a day i can eat around 1800 calories and be ok..and then I would have one big cheat day. Now that i have had WLS 9/13, i have lost my ever loving mind. and i really think i am in love with food. I have been dreaming of it.. I dreamed last night i was a golden coral eating everything and let me tell you it was sooooooooooooooo good. then my husband woke me up right before i got to the desserts, I was so pissed.. Now I have my answer to why my weight came on and off, not because i didnt eat right, but because i ate crap.. I am scared at how my mine it going to adjust if in my subconscious I am dreaming of food..I dont eat red meat and all i want to do is go get a hamburger right now.. i mean really who does that!! what is wrong with me.. ugh I am so disgusted right now..
goddessblaze

goddessblaze

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Ready! Set!'s Blog
 

3 Months Out

Today is 3 months post sleeve. I was in the surgeon's office yesterday to check in .......40 pounds down from pre-op weight. I quit weighing at home. It was too damned stressful and just not good for me. I knew my weight was at the lowest it has been in the past 13 years because my clothes look really pitiful on me. In fact, I'd gone shopping to the local outlet mall over the weekend to buy some pants because I'd seen some photographs taken recently and refused to put those pants back on.......they were too baggy!!   And I knew my weight was down because when I look in the mirror, I'm beginning to resemble something that got left out in the sun too long!! Time to go to the gym!   Which leads me to this funny story......   So, after the surgeon check in, I head off to my local Curves to sign up. I like Curves. It is good for a beginner. I'm a beginner.......again......I'm an experienced beginner.   The lady checking me in does her questionnaire....."Have you lost or gained weight recently?"   I smile, "Yes, I've lost 40 pounds in the past 3 months."   Her eyes get big, "Really, how?"   "I had a gastric sleeve procedure"......she looks confused....I clarify "I had weight loss surgery."   Ding Ding Ding......she gets it!   So along with the measurements, weight, etc........then she asks, "What do you want to gain from this?"   I answer "I don't want to look like a record that's been left in the sun too long?"......She laughs, but I didn't give the answer she was looking for, so she tries again, "Ok, what else are you hoping to accomplish?"........I answer "Well, my 2 month old grandson weighs 15 pounds and I need more muscle to bounce that kid to sleep.".......another chuckle, but not the answer she was looking for..........she tries AGAIN "What do you want for yourself from the exercise program?".........my answer "Well, you see, I need to create a muscular core so when the plastic surgeon goes to reconstruct my abdomen, he'll have something to work with."   I'm laughing my fat butt off, and she's chuckling, but I'm still failing the Curves admission test...........finally she just asks the question "Do you want to lose more weight?"   Then I do bust a gut laughing..........   "Of course I do, ma'am........that's why I had the surgery 3 months ago. I'm gonna keep losing weight, regardless of whether I work out here or not. I want to work out so that I look GOOD and FIRM as the weight comes off.........not sick and saggy."
Ready?Going..

Ready?Going..

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Sleeved by Dr. Kelly in Mexico
 

Week 25

Week 25   Last week’s weight – 197.2 This week’s weight – 198.8 Total weight gained this week – 1.6   Beginning weight – 246 lbs Total weight loss since surgery – 47.2 lbs   I am not happy in general with how my weight loss has slowed down. Honestly I thought I would be at 50 lbs by now and it is a little frustrating to see the scale go up and down like it has the past few weeks.   I’ve started looking at things I can do to help by scouring the boards for ideas. My favorite is to get sick . I would think that working with a ton of students and teachers that would happen sooner than later but alas it seems my immune system is working just fine. Right now I am trying the drink lots of water approach (I am currently starting day 2). I haven’t been drinking nearly enough and I would kill two birds with one stone but adopting this habit (breaking a stall and getting the appropriate amount of water in). I have been looking at the pouch test but am going to start with water first.   I shouldn’t be griping too much because 47 lbs is still a nice amount of weight to have lost and I am thrilled to: Get lots of compliments at work
Shop in the regular (not plus) side of stores
Not struggle to get my wedding ring on and off
Be below my driver’s license weight
Have enough energy to workout (walking and crossfit)
Be under 200 lbs
  I did step on the scale this morning (something I don’t normally do but I was curious to see if the water thing was working after the first day…and about a million trips to the bathroom) and I was down to 197.6 so that gives me hope for next Wednesday’s weigh in.
mrsteacher

mrsteacher

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slojo's Blog
 

3 Weeks Out!

I'm 3 weeks out and have lost only 18lbs. Havent' lost any last week. I hear this is pretty common. I know i am eating/drinking right. Taking 70g protein/day, and around 400-500 cal./day. I feel normal finally (since about day 12)... I had surgery in Tj. Mexico and had a very good experience with dr. Almanza and his staff. My follow up dr is Dr. Swain in Murray Ky. Everything is going normal... No nausea good restriction, and walking 1-2 miles/day. Just been walking 2 months or so. Plan to start running more and more as the weight comes off and i get in better shape. I walk very quickly and am progressing well with that. People are starting to notice the weight coming off. While i'm in a stall i still can tell my clothes are becoming more loose everyday. Haven't weighed in 4 days,, PLan to only weigh once a week instead of daily like before. It was discouraging to me to be in a stall and weigh everyday... Thanks for reading my jumbled thoughts...
slojo

slojo

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secondchancesally's Blog
 

Had My Intake At Nyu Today And Got My Surgery Date!

What a day of ups and downs. I went back and forth between excited and terrified so many times I didn't know if I was coming or going. The day started at 2pm with an intake with a skinny pretty nutritionist in a little black dress. I kept having to force myself to be honest because the way she asked all the questions made me feel pretty bad about he way I eat.   Next I met my Nurse Practitioner, Frankie. He's the guy who does the fills. He answered a lot of questions I had about erosion rates and what to expect. He was adorable, very charming and friendly and really put me at ease. He encouraged me to come in monthly regardless of how I was doing. I have a feeing I'll be seeing a lot of him.   Finally I met with Dr Ren. I questioned her about being a low BMI bandster and wanted to know what she thought my outcome would be. It turns out she did a study of low BMI patients and found that 1 out of I think 48 failed the band and had it removed due to not tolerating the lifestyle changes. 1 was lost to follow up. And all the others reached their goals. We discussed how I currently eat and I told her that I currently always eat 3 meals a day. She said that might be an obstacle to me. Once I had the band, she explained, I might not need to eat that often. She shared that she eats only once a day. (no wonder she's so skinny - let me tell you it is a rare woman that can rock those surgical scrubs) She suggested I try to loosen up my beliefs about how much food/protein people "need" and said that we as a culture tend to think we need way more food, protein and water than we actually do and this leads us to eat more than we need. She was nice and helpful and answered all my questions. I mean, she has done thousands of these so I know I'm in good hands. But still its the patients, not the doctor that are going to reassure me.   So that night from 6-8 I attended a support group at NYU for people banded in the last 12 months. In addition to the social worker who leads the group there were 5 people, 3 women and 2 men. One woman had been banded for 5 years and had lost 150 lbs. She described how she no longer needed her apnea machine or her medications for a variety of health problems that had since resolved. Everyone was such an inspiration. I was surprised to hear people say that they were discouraged with their weight loss when they had just gotten done saying they had lost 40 lbs in 4 months. I guess no one wants to JUST lose weight...people want to get THIN.   It was also interesting to hear the guys speak about their food struggles. I always find guys are so much more forthright about their bad eating habits than we women who tend to have more shame and therefore be more private/sneaky whatever you care to call it. Everyone in the room, even those struggling to get the outcome they wanted, admitted that he band was the best thing they ever did and they don't regret it for a moment. THAT was very reassuring. I exchanged emails with 2 women and they promised to attend the next support group, which will be just a few days before my surgery.   I topped off my long day, in addition to writing a reallllly big check, with a loooong phone call to my folks. I decided my Mom will be my surgery day buddy. They are both very overweight and I think this surgery freaks them out, but they are there for me 100%   I have a few weeks left before I have to start liquids. So I'm just starting to think about what I need to stock in my house. I will be celebrating both my birthday (46!!) and my daughter's 2nd birthday during my liquids phase. Also I'll be joining my parents for a yearly convention we like to attend that is unfortunately characterized by these big dinner buffets. I have decided to celebrate my Bday early so I can have a piece of cake and not violate my 2 weeks of liquids. I also plan to not accompany my family to the big buffets dinners - instead maybe I'll check out the outlets and shop for my daughters. That way I wont have to smell food when I'm starving. On my bday wish list is a little portable blender, and a smaller crockpot because mine is the size you use to make enough stew for the whole congregation. Hahaha.   It's time to pack away the summer clothes and take out the Fall stuff. I'm very tempted to give away all my big summer clothes as a vote of confidence. What do you think?
secondchancesally

secondchancesally

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StrongMommy's Blog
 

A Little About Me And Where I Am On This Journey

Hi. My name is Kristal and I'm a mommy and a wife. I'm 41 years old and I've been heavy for over 20 years now. I have a beautiful family and a lot to live for... so I want to start living! I feel like I spend most of my days just getting through the day. I take care of the kids (they are 2 and almost 4) and just kill time until my husband gets home. I'm lonely, but it's a self imposed loneliness because I don't feel like getting out and seeing anyone. I'm in a loving marriage and have the most supportive husband, but I'm still not happy. It all boils down to my weight.   Sometimes I just get so upset with myself. I know better, but I still eat the wrong things. I know better, but I still don't get up and move. I know better, but I still tear myself down emotionally. I know better, but I'm still almost 300 lbs. because at the end of the day it doesn't seem to matter that I know better... I'm not doing better!   I'm hoping to have surgery by the end of the year. I started my 6 mo supervised diet with my PCP in June, and I've gained over 10 lbs since that started! I've been doing worse since I made the decision to have the surgery, and it scares me to death. I worry this means I will fail at the weight loss after the surgery. I worry this means I'm not ready emotionally, and I worry that I will let my family down.   I'm currently lucky (knock on wood) that I have no health problems related to my weight. I know I'm not going to stay that lucky for much longer. My husband and I met a little later in life than some, and had our children later than most. I feel like I made a commitment when we had them that I need to live a long life and not orphan them at a young age. I'm not going to do that if I don't get this under control.   I've decided to start this blog to help me be more accountable. I'm going to start on a new plan TOMORROW, and hopefully this blog will help me stick to it. I hope some of you will help me on this journey. I feel very alone and frightened. I want to feel hopefully. Maybe tomorrow some hope will come for me.   Much love. Kristal
StrongMommy

StrongMommy

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My journey through Weight loss
 

Always So Tired

Lately ive been compltely exhausted, like staying in bed exhausted. Ive been taking my vitaimans and managing my protien but not as well as i should be, they tend to make me sick. My muscles even hurt when i lay on my side. Thankfully i went to my Dr today and was able to explain everything to him, and told him that when i eat, im only able to eat like 4 bites of something and im done; one night for dinner i had 2 brussel sprouts and a mushroom and i was stuffed. My dr and the dietician both told me i have to try to work on eating more they suggested smothies with protien powder which i have to say i actually tried tonight, and i was able to drink it without it hurting my stomach....i cannot wait to get my strength back
Kasey Ray Brown

Kasey Ray Brown

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Linsey B.'s Blog
 

Funny T.m.i

Hello,   Today I overslept but that was because I had to take two muscle relaxers my cramps on the pain scale are an 8 out of 10. You know the frowny face that wants to cry but won't because she's tougher than 9 or 10. I had to take the other day 1 percocet, 2 muscle relaxers and motrin and that cocktail only made me sleepy and out of pain. I know most people in our boat are told can't take motrin (ibproferin), but my doctor/surgeon said if I use motrin just be sure to take an antiacid with it if I only use it during my period which I did and no I didn't have any problems. I know too much info but my period sucks and once it came it explained why I wanted to kill my niece and nephew last weekend, my nasty sarcastic remarks, crying jags and desperate need for chocolate. I am one of the few women in the world ready for menopause. I'll take hot flashes over homicidal flashes, it's safer for everyone that way. I don't have any kids nor am I too keen on having any so I am ready for menopause. Aunt Meno can take old Aunt Flo's place anytime soon, I'll put out the welcome mat for her; Aunt Flo can go take a long walk on a short peer for all I care. Somedays, mainly one week out of each month it really sucks being a woman. But other than Aunt Flo being in town things are great. I will be going back to work on Monday only looking forward to the paycheck. Physically I am ready and mentally I am almost there. I am worried about what to pack for lunch when I go back. But I'll work it out.   God bless everyone especially hormonal women.
rickgrimestwd

rickgrimestwd

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cindimca4's Blog
 

Day 13 Post-Op, More Active, Vulnerable, Scared

Managed to get a shower, and walk the stairs with relative ease on the way up. Later in the day, I drove my daughter to dance class at the YMCA, and I sat in the park on my chair, reading the paper and trying to enjoy being outside for the first time since I went in the hospital. My son played with a friend at the park, too. Time passed slowly...but it was chilly, uncomfortable, and way past an hour when my son came over to me and I asked him to try and find his sister. I sat there feeling very vulnerable. There were way too many mutts there, and I'm deathly allergic to animals, and have some hefty asthma...so I didn't appreciate the way people were treating the public park like a private dog park. Some of the dogs were pretty large, strong and unruly, and near me...though I picked a semi-private spot to sit and try to relax. Then the hoodlums showed up, as did smokers and other characters. I was looking through one of the newspapers that have piled up and I saw an article about the person who got hired for a position I thought I would have a good chance at...and the article said that the guy they hired was groomed for the position, ect. I was told that when I was subbing in that district...and the article denied it...but there was one vote down by one of the board members for that cited reason...you know it's true...and I'm jobless and worried about that too!...then this political who-you-know crap takes over....so anyway....My daughter was not coming back, though her lesson is only 30 minutes long. I was in pain...belly hurting and feeling squished on itslef from sitting up and from my arms being close to the sides of my belly. I started to worry that my daughter might be in trouble....and that I am in such a vulnerable position that I wouldn't even be able to look for her. She wasn't coming back out...and I just sat there getting upset--because a red car tried to kidnap some children in a town not too far from here, and ready to cry...worrying about being forced to move out of our place, or being attacked-in my post surgical state...or having my child go missing...or get a chest cold from my irresponsible son--which would land me back in the hospital...and whatever else came into my head...because of how weak and dependent I am right now...plus I was cold and hungry. I am all we have...and I feel like it's taking forever to get better.   ....I had felt ok this morning enough to even put some of my smaller clothes on to see how they fit...just a couple blouses that I got too fat to wear...I was a bit worn down from the shower and being up moving around, so I took a rest--that my son woke me up from. My girl wanted to go to dance...so I felt things out and thought I could sit there for half an hour and make the drive over to the Y...but it just made me hurt. I have had to take my pain meds, tonight. I feel guilty that my daughter is looking after me....she shouldn't have to.   I feel teary-eyed, today, after being stuck in the park. My daughter said she was sorry for not coming out right after the lesson. She was learning some new steps after class. Once we got home and I sat in my recliner...she made me tomato soup, and she prayed for me, and told me I was safe and not to worry and that she likes doing these little things for me....and then she gave me her stuffed horse that I gave to her when she went in the hospital the last time.   I sure hope this was worth it...that I lose the weight and am much better off than I am now, or have been in a long time.   I think what I have to do is lean on Jesus. I didn't go into this lightly, or without the guidance of the Lord...and as I feel so vulnerable...now is the time to lean on Christ...so that's what I'm trying to do.
Angelmom

Angelmom

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Peace36love's Blog
 

Hungry Anybody?

Hey Everybody, I'm a little concerned, hopefully you all out there can answer some more questions. I am now 8 days post op and I am hungry. The swelling I was experiencing has seem to subside but now I feel like my sleeve is not as small as I hope. I drank a protein drink and I did not feel full. I ate 1 cup of split pea soup, 1 SF pudding and 1 SF popcicle and I still feel like I can eat. I thought after the sleeve it was suppose to take away your appetite. Is it just in my head. Please share Your experiences.
Peace36love

Peace36love

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dwbrown1978's Blog
 

It's Wednesday!

Just blogging to keep up the habit. Don't want to start missing blogging and then suddenly weeks go by with no posts. Trying to blog every few days. I'm currently drinking one protein shake for breakfast and then 2 low-carb meals (0 carbs other than veggies) for lunch and dinner. Today I had a chicken ceasar salad. YUM! Dinner will be left over steak bites and some sauteed cabbage. Already entered into FitDay. Under 1200 calories and only 16 carbs (5 in protein shake). Making my portions smaller in prepping for my 7 day liquid pre-op diet. Still a couple of weeks away, but definitely confident I can do this.   I go on vacation October 1st through October 7th. I may not have access to internet. If I do though, I will try to blog while I am gone. I can easily follow my diet on vacation. I can stock up on ready to drink protein shakes and keep them in a little fridge in my hotel and pack a cooler with ice packs. I have lots of food I can prepare and bring with me on the road. I have done "low-carb" so many times I can pretty much do it blind folded now. However - this time is different, because I know I am eating this way in order to make my surgery successful. After surgery it will become a way of life permanently, but for now, it is simply something I have to do in order to progress my journey.   Really, really ready for vacation.
dwbrown1978

dwbrown1978

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Mission Slimpossible
 

1St Fill Today

So, I had my 1st fill today after my Nutrition class. Can I just say "ouch!" Yea, it smarted a little when the needle went in, and I did say "OUCH!". The Nurse says "aw, come on (jokingly)," and I said "yea, seriously OUCH." Oh, it wasn't painful or anything like that, but it did kinda pinch. I even felt something weird when she first started injecting the saline. She said some people can feel it, others can't. This was about 2 hours ago, and my port site is a little sore, but it doesn't hurt.   Oh, I found out my band size is a 14. Holy large band, Batman. Yea, I guess it's one of the bigger size bands :ph34r: (embarrassed a little), and I guess she filled me with 5 1/2 or 5 cc's (great, now I can't remember). I'm kinda feeling 'full' right now, but I haven't eaten anything. They said fluids this afternoon, and soft foods for dinner. Then tomorrow, normal foods. I have an appointment for 2 weeks from today to see if I need a 2nd fill by then. They said I can cancel if I feel I don't need it, and schedule an apt for 4 weeks out. I guess we'll see how the next few weeks go.   So, I'm off....
Domika03

Domika03

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PatientlyWtng's Blog
 

My Personal Countdown --- 90 Days And Counting...

I know it may be a bit premature to start my countdown, but why not. These 3 months, 12 weeks, 90 days...etc., will be here before I know it. With my schedule, it will sneak up on me and I will be frantic trying to get everything accoplished within the last few days.   My name is PatienlyWtng. I am going to excercise every bit of patience that I can. I have been purchasing what I think I need a little bit at a time. I'm now preparing for two out of town guests who will spend a week with me. Once I have all those plans squared away, I can return the focus on me. Oh and let's not forget, I still have work and school to factor in.   So if starting a countdown will help me stay on track...then that is what I will do. Besides, this will be a permanent record of how sane I remained in all of this.   I'm ready....for this ride to ExceLlynTLiving! Join me...
Patienlywtng on my Curves

Patienlywtng on my Curves

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