I had a very nice supper last night with family. Everyone prayed for me when the meal was blessed.
It was a grand finale of the old days and my dad outdid himself.
Today I had my first protein shake. I'm so relieved it quenched my hunger. I am going to make it through this day, and beyond that, I'm not going to wonder.
Caffeine hasn't been the huge withdrawal I expected. I don't know yet if that's God's grace or just a delayed onset.
I am eager for the surgery to be done and over with. Still 10 days away.
Well, I've just returned from my contract of 5 weeks and it feels good to be home. I was happy to see that I lost 9 lbs just by cutting back on soda, drinking more water and decreasing my fast food habit...YEAH BABY, YEAH....However, two things that I was diagnosed with last year has returned; vertigo and Pilonidal Abscess. So, last year I was at work in the middle of delivery and I almost collapsed. I couldn't stand, sit and I was sent to the ER. MRI cleared, blood work cleared , no inner ear infection. Doctors believed it was either stress ( I worked 3 jobs , 1 full time, 2 part time jobs as a nurse) or my weight. I was off work for 2 months and over the next couple of months it will come and go, my last flare up was in September 2011 but Friday evening, my boyfriend had to help me inside, today it's much better thank god. Something else I need to take care of in the coming months. The Pilonidal Abscess was the most painful event that took place last year...nope ...my gallbladder was the worst. However, it was the most embarrassing. As a L& D nurse I never heard of this disease and my research when I was diagnosed made me realize that my weight may have led to this predicament. However, I thought when I had surgery done, it was all removed. I mean I spent 4 weeks having my BF do my dressing and now it seems it has returned...sigh....now I'm doing more research on the matter and it looks like this thing is here to stay. My hope is, if I lose weight, maybe it will decrease my flare ups. If you have no idea what a Pilonidal Abscess/Cyst is, look it up ...let's just say it's to do with your behind.
Anyways, I have two weeks off before my next contract, thus, I need to do all my pre-op test during my time off. I decided before I do my pre-op that I'm going to do a month long natural cleanse, as a type of preparation for my new way of life. I know it sounds corny but, ( hoping not to jinx myself) something is clicking up there. I'm saying no, when I would say yes. I'm stopping when I'm full and I'm not beating myself up if I slip. I just hope that this is not temporary. However, when I got on that scale and i saw that I lost 9 lbs in 5 weeks I was very proud of myself. Moving on..so today, it's about starting my cleanse, entering my weight and pic on the forum and taking pictures and measurements. I need to buy 2 weeks worth of shakes, so that's what i'm doing this week, including going to doctor's appointments and going to Curve. I made out a plan and I'm sticking to it as much as possible and so far, i'm doing pretty well...going to find a pic for my profile...not of me of course, that will be for another time...maybe a pic of my beloved pug:)
Happy birthday to me! Tomorrow I turn 50. According to my bucket list, I was supposed to go skydiving to mark this momentus occasion but was fearful that when I hit the ground I would leave a small spaceship size hole because of my weight! LMBO No longer a worry now that I am down 85 lbs, I decided I should wait until I get my kids out of school first before doing something so daring.
I went shopping and bought new clothes with the help of the best mother in a law a girl could have. Had no idea how many sizes I dropped. Last Christmas I was wearing 34/36. This past weekend I bought size 24s!!! OMG!!! I can buy clothes in a regular store now too. Thank you Catherine's and Lane Bryant - you have been my go to for so long, but now I have other options. Feeling like a kid ion the candy store!
Not missing eating things. My body tolerates all the spicy I can handle - of course that isn't much. But it is a good thing! The tunnel light is bright! No looking back....as Dori says, "Just keep swimming!" I am, and loving every minute of it!
Have a marvelous day everyone. I get on here at a whim so...until next time! K
Hiddy ho, everyone!!! Its been a bit since I have been here but I'm back. Not alot has changed but then again, everything has changed. I know, a contradiction in terms.... that would be me!!
Well the first thing I want to talk about is frustration and lying scales!! Okay so maybe they don't lie but it sure feels like it. This is why I have purposely not gotten a scale for my house because I KNOW I would become wayyyyy to involved in weighing myself. So I have choosen to just weigh in when I go to a doctors appointment. I went Friday for a "sick" visit, which I will get to in a few. Anyhoo, I was actually very excited about this because it had been a few weeks since I last weighed in. I was feeling really good about it, especially with all the mucus I have blown out (I know TMI) and even excited, which if you are anything like me, is a very very weird feeling indeed!!
My clothes have been getting bigger and bigger and I've had more energy (kinda) and I can walk without gasping for every breath. So I go in thinking I've lost at least 15 more pounds.... NOT! I had only lost 5lbs more but I got to thinking that is still an accomplishment. Also my body is acting more like 15lbs than 5lbs so who am I to complain?? I will but still lol.... I have lost exactly 50lbs since July 17 so that is really something to be happy about and don't get me wrong, I am extremely happy and proud, just wanting it to go faster. Never thought of myself as being impatient but I guess it is something I can add to my personal resume'.
Okay, now about the "sick" visit. I got a cold about a month ago. Normally because of my major breathing issues, I would have missed a couple of days of work and kept my fingers crossed to keep pneumonia at bay. This time though, it was really no big deal even though I did feel like crap. My issue is that I got over the cold in about a week but have continued to sneeze my way through at least 10 boxes of tissues!! My nose hurts, my face is chapped and my eyes feel like they have lead weights in them!! I've never been prone to allergies but I've got a whopping case of them now. My friend/mentor at work said she also got bad allergies also after her surgery. Anyone else having the same issues? I got a huge shot of steroids in my posterior and was feeling fairly okay until today and I'm back to sneezing and blowing again!! Anyone heard of a nose transplant??? Jest askin'
I have given away my first bag of clothes which is truly a blessing. One of the funny "side affects" is my pants are getting too long! Less booty and belly make for long pants lol.... Again, not that I'm complaining!! One thing I guess I didn't really think about is the deflation of my body and what would happen. I have been blessed with very good genes and have very little grey hair for someone almost 52 and very few wrinkles.... or had very few! I am now the relunctant owner of varying types of wrinkle / toner creams. I have mentioned in previous entries that I can be vain about some things... well this is the latest!! As my face is deflating, my wrinkles are increasing!!
I also have discovered that I am developing bat wings!! arghhhhhh!!! I've always been very muscular so never really thought much about that but it is happening. Fortunately, I already have the rubber excercise thingymabobbers (okay so exercise equipment is not my fortay!) so I guess I'm going to have to make it a part of my routine (that does not yet exist) to recapture a forgotten youthful body that, honestly, I don't remember ever really having. I do have a picture from when I was 19 or so and I did look pretty hot but I just never got the confirmation of that fact. I just remember being told I was never thin enough or going to be loved if I didn't get skinny or thin or whatever so I had a poor body image even though it really wasn't so bad.
Now I haven't told you this for sympathy or the po' me's... no, its just to point out that many of us have had the same experiences and journies, although each are unique. Its how you decide to steer the ship that decides your satisfaction with said journey. I have been very blessed to have had many many people truly love me for who I am and not for what I look like. Something that many of us have to deal with is the fear our mates may have that we will lose weight and then leave them (like my hubster!). My theory is that he loves me like I am and will love me as much or more later. He has stood by me through illness' and surgeries and my failing health so I believe he deserves and has earned the good times too. Besides, he's kinda cute for an old fart!! :wub:
Which brings me to my other topic of discussion.... intimacy. Now I'm not going to get graphic because, for one thing, yuk, and another is some of my family members actually read my blog so I will spare them. It is, however, one of the perks of getting this weight off.... I can hug and cuddle with my husband. It is amazing how much better our interpersonal relations are now that we have both lost weight. And no, I'm not just talking about s.e.x...... I'm talking about being able to pass each other in the kitchen without doing acrobatic moves or now fitting in our bed together comfortably. This may not sound like a big deal to some but oh yeah, it is!!
So I guess I will stop here for now. If anyone has any suggestions on the subject of allergies, please bring them on.... I hope everyone has a wonderful week and continue to enjoy your journey!!! Hugs!!
I don't want to say I didn't love food when I was a little kid, but the truth is that I was horribly picky. Like, sit at the table all night because I didn't want to eat my spinach, pea's in the couch cushions, slipped it to the dog when Mom wasn't looking kind of picky. Yeah, I usually sat at the table for hours every single night... so, to top it all off I was stubborn. Picky and stubborn eater. That is a bad combination. Now add to that immune compromised, with an extreme fear of needles, which I had to face every single week with injections, and it's no wonder food became my best friend. Especially milk with a little sugar or Molasses in it, which the Dr told my Mom to give me to get all my medicines down. (Thanks for that, you maniac.)
Anyway - fast forward to present. I'm an adult. For years I have been saying, "grow up" "take responsibility for your fat butt" "watch what you're eating" - well, I've been watching alright, watch as I stuff it in my face that is. Oy... so a process of failure, hope, failure, willpower, weakness, hope, failure... you know the routine, anyone who is struggling knows this routine. But now I'm facing down the barrel of a gun called obesity and a surgical decision to save my life, and I'm saying to myself, "how the HELL did I get here"? Most of my friends, people that REALLY know me say that I don't act like an obese person. I don't really know what that means, and I've tried to get someone to explain that to me, and the only response that seemed honest was that I just seemed to not relate to my weight. To me that sounds like I'm in some advanced state of denial. Maybe I just didn't see my fat, because I wasn't paying attention to it. I have lead a pretty dramatic life - my Mom died when I was 11 and my Dad was an alcoholic, not a mean one, but addicted nontheless... so I was used to making excuses for why he drank. I could blame it on my Mom dying, but he drank before that, too. Actually, he lost me while trick-or-treating when I was 4 because he and his best pal were lit when they took a bunch of us out trick-or-treating. I will never forget the sound of my Mom's voice when the lady who's house I ended up at, took my home. My Dad caught holy hell, to boot. I remember thinking that no one could protect me like my Momma!
Anyway, I'm getting off point. I guess I'm just trying to figure out how I got here. I don't want an excuse - I'm just looking for MY reason.
And in the meantime, I'm getting ready to meet with several different surgeons.
Thanks for reading.
I'm having a hard time right now. Yes my life has quieted a little after a month of pure stress.
Firgured out that my band was too tight so of course I was having a hard time eating. We removed some fluid and now I'm sitting comfortably at 5 ml (I have a 10ml band). I actually get hungry now and for the first time in YEARS! my stomach growls. It's rather odd sitting at your desk at work and then you feel your stomach vibrate. I'm back in school and trying desperately to get caught up since I'm behind in my short-term classes.
All in all I guess I expect to be scolded. Food choices have sucked royally lately. Not eating what I should be eating. Not exercising like I should be. Just got a new job. Just moved from one place to another (that took days). I lost 3 pounds in 2 weeks last time I went to the clinic. I blame sweat on that additional 3rd pound. Normally I'm losing around a pound a week.
I've become motivated to walk with some of my new co-workers. They have a chart and we all have a pedometer on our smartphones (accupedo [it's free]). So I walk more than I used to. I don't like to walk but it is what it is. I want to start doing weights but I'm paranoid of going to the gym I belong to. I don't know why I just am. Could be because it's less than ideal but I can't afford the "good" gym.
For breakfast, I've resorted to Atkins meal replacement bars. Snacks, Atkins snack bars. Oddly enough they are really good and easy to digest. Lunch, is whatever I can grab and consume. Since I'm close to home I can get a protein shake if I'm running low on time at lunch. I know I shouldn't be doing this but my thinking is "eat something I'm allowed to eat or what I should be eating/consuming is better than not eating at all or rushing and whatever it is get stuck." I'm thinking I should start carrying around my "minute glass" (like an hour glass but only a minute long) for when I eat anything.
I try to keep a food diary but I always end up leaving stuff off. I feel like I'm failing because I'm not keeping up my end of the bargain. I eat late at night (8-10pm) because we don't eat on a regular schedule. Most of the time we have no idea what to cook/eat for dinner. I have school at night and as soon as I get off from work I usually head straight there or try to start prepping a dinner that I have no idea of what to cook.
Any ideas?
I dont go to the dr on the regular but the insurance calls for 3 year of being overweight. And in 2009- I was 180 at 5'1 and it climb steadily the next few years to my current weight 209 my dr said that he would write the letter and he needs photos so I havent always had a bmi of 40 but pretty close. I am finding my fattest photos. Has anyone had to do this? I hate insurance companies
I dont go to the dr on the regular but the insurance calls for 3 year of being overweight. And in 2009- I was 180 at 5'1 and it climb steadily the next few years to my current weight 209 my dr said that he would write the letter and he needs photos so I havent always had a bmi of 40 but pretty close. I am finding my fattest photos. Has anyone had to do this? I hate insurance companies
I dont go to the dr on the regular but the insurance calls for 3 year of being overweight. And in 2009- I was 180 at 5'1 and it climb steadily the next few years to my current weight 209 my dr said that he would write the letter and he needs photos so I havent always had a bmi of 40 but pretty close. I am finding my fattest photos. Has anyone had to do this? I hate insurance companies
Hi there I am 5'1 at 209 and they need your BMI to be 40 to qualify for with no pre existing health conditions. So im right there on the line 39.5... so I wore weights. Hopefully it worked for me... All I have to do is get the letter and photos from my primary physician. And hopefully I am approved. This doesnt make any sense to have to jump through hoops. Now I am eating to keep gain the few pounds I've been wearing to visits. Rgggh Story of my life. I am ready to get Slim and Slim for life. My thighs can not take rubbing together another month... My coordinator said my surgery should be next month. If you guys know of anything please let me know.
Miss V.
Today I travelled across the city to find shirataki yam noodles and frozen edamame pods.
I am delighted to say that not only did I find these at the only Japanese grocer in town but I also found sugarfree bullets (popcicles) at another shop.
The bullets like sf jello gives me a little bit of a feeling in my esophagus (almost heartburn not quite but I do have a feeling)
These I now use as I need to snack on something instead of smoking.It would be way to easy to just gain 10 pounds this week but I refuse.
I have workd out an eating schedule.My calories are about 1000 as I have added the edamame and the bullets but my goodness this is better than the last 2 days!
My kis are sick with a cold and my head has been aching so badly for the past 3 days (thoughht it was because I quit) and my throat is scratchy.I have been taking zinc and vit c to kick this feeling.
Tonight I will do my first after dinner loooong walk.It worked so well for me before to exercise in the evening in stead of sitting wishing I could eat or smoke or drink copious amounts of wine,which I dont,I just want to.
I just wish I had a squash partner for every day of the week.This would have been such a blessing at this point as hitting the ball releases tention and of course it is excellent interval training.
O well,will just have to put on music and walk,walk,walk!!!!!
At this moment, I am so happy. Happy to be loosing weight so fast! For the first time in my life! Ok, I know it wont be this easy always but, I'm gonna take this happy and run with it!
If I loose 3 more lbs by Monday, I'll have lost 10lbs. this week! And I think I might actually loose a few more lbs. if I keep going the way I'm going. Its fun to get on the scale now. ha ha ha
What I want now is one of those fit bit thingys and the new scale that goes with it (the aria I think its called?) I think that weight loss centers should offer them at a discount to their patients. For achieving goals or something, or just 10% off.
I have a feeling that I wont get one for my birthday so, I'll have to buy it for myself. Boo hoo, where's that violin noise coming from?
I pooped today for the first time in 6 days. It was almost the worst poop I've ever had. I was sweaty and had to lie down afterwards. Baby Jesus it was painful. Obviously I've been constipated.
After my horrific 20 minutes on the pot, I layed down for 10 minutes, got up and drove for the first time in 5 days. It really wore me out. No driving after fighting with the poopy again for a while. Hopefully there will be no constipation like that again. I don't wanna be holding on to the sink and towel rack again praying for a miracle while sweat is dripping from my forehead. Blech.
I briefly talked to my cousins wife on facebook today. I told her I had gastric bypass. She said, "Ohh noo!" and "So Sad!" I'm thinking to myself, sad? Seriously? Ummm, I'm huge and trying to loose weight is sad? What a psycho! That makes me so mad! But, I calmly said (typed) "Don't be sad, I'm not. I really like everything thats happened so far."
Sad? Why would some people automatically say sad? Don't you understand lady that I've been miserable and basically SAD for a really really long time??? This is the opposite of sad idiot! Jealousy? She thinks I'm not going to get enough nutrients or something? That's by far the weirdest reaction Ive gotten so far.
With the help of my daughter, Rachael, put together the treadmill that I had ordered from JCPenney. It's a lot bigger than I figured - and heavier! It won't even fit through my doorways. So it is parked in the livingroom-Dan has not seen it yet-can't wait!!
We also went shopping for a few more "post-op" things. 3 water jugs-with measurements on the side, one 64 oz, and 2 32 oz. Also a nice robe and nightgown for the hospital, as well as underwear, socks, and soft athletic bras.
Earlier I went grocery shopping and went to Kroger (I usually go to walmart) and found some neat high protein things for post surgery.
Now I am working on getting ahead on my homework!
Happy Saturday to all. Last night I made sweet and sour meatballs, love them. You mix equal parts of sugar free grape jelly and chili sauce together in a pot and let it come to a boil. Make meatballs,(I bought 1 lb.) I use 90% lean meat with some spices and some panko. Make the balls and put them into the mixture on low for about 1 hour. They are so good. Soft to eat. I have 3 for my 4oz.
Have a great Sunday and a Happy and Healthy New Year to all.
Tonight my father is preparing a special meal for me, my last. I am really looking forward to it. Yesterday was the last day for diet coke and another favorite food. I am gearing up mentally and feel able to go forward.
It is not the food itself I fear but the panic I may feel when there's no way to modulate my feelings with excess. Then I read here about people's experiences and am reassured that what I am setting out to do is not impossible and my reasons for pursuing this are valid, despite the financial cost.
Yesterday I asked my son about how he felt about our spending this money on my surgery instead of his (tonsils.) He asked if I meant did he think I was putting myself ahead of him. I guess I had been afraid to ask directly. He said, no.
Because of my BMI (35) I have been given a list of guidelines for pre-op (this far out; I still have to do liquids 3 days before surgery) rather than a strict regimen of protein shakes & 1 high protein meal per day, which is what my sister did.
My sister has been so kind to me, buying ready-made shakes, vitamins, and other things that will make my journey easier. Budget-wise, as soon as I am able to eat solids, I'll be having some egg white omelettes probably rather than egg white mix. I really haven''t thought that far ahead, how I am going to be able to afford protein shakes for 3 mos. or longer. I am vaguely counting on saving money by not spending it on junk and restaurants.
I am very fortunate to have my sister do this before me. Plus she is extremely knowledgeable about the requirements to stay healthy and she can guide me.
I am feeling more confident about being able to wean off caffeine for the time necessary. I can't get out of bed and motivated to do anything without caffeine & for that reason, I was planning to disregard advice and try to circumvent the requirement by using caffeine strips, which dissolve in the mouth, instead of ingesting it through the stomach. My dad got so put out with me for planning to use caffeine when I've been told not to; he felt I would jeopardize the surgery and possibly my life. So I am coming to terms with the issue. I bought several boxes of caffeine strips at the dollar store pre-conversation with Dad, so I plan to use those pre-op only to the extent of weaning myself. I am hoping that if I use only what I need to "get up" then day-by-day I will use less.
I have a very famine-what-if-I-don't-have-enough outlook, so that is why I went overboard on my purchase. I thought it might not be available for me later as I had a hard time finding the store which sold it.
I also take a fistful of psychiatric drugs daily and I have no idea how I am going to be able to tolerate those after surgery. I didn't tell my psychiatrist about the surgery because I didn't want them to discontinue the near-free care I've been receiving since '94.
Well, time to get ready to go to my dad's.
My beautiful housemate and best friend of many years,that really knows the extent of my desturbed body image and the body dismorphia (real) I have had since the age of about 13 have taken it upon herself to teach me about size...lol
Well,at first she was very subtle and I didnt know what she was doing.She would constantly ask me,when we were in the shops or gym,if I thought I was bigger than this lady or that woman.....she wouldnt comment much but sh wold tell me if I was wrong.
Today she said she wanted to show me women that was the same size and women that was much larger.I was not to ague this with her but just had to look at these women and had to think about what this mean in terms of how I see myself.
Very interesting I might say until I came home and looked at the newest pics my daughter took of me.I am still big as a house.Pictures dont lie!And maybe I dont need to see myself with my eyes but maybe I can just learn to ignore what I see that isnt true,that might help already!
Rome wasnt built in a day and I will keep trying to be more realistic,even if it is with my head!
Everytime I have lost weigh in the past I thought I would be able to see it and I never could.This made me extremely paranoid when people commented on my weight loss.This in turn woul make me fall off plan to stop being anxious and the old cycle would repeat.
I do no have these expectations anymore.I can trust clothes size and as it stands now,I still wear a size 18 which is huge even though I know it is smaller than a 24.
Everbody's got a story dont we?everyone trying to cope with all the crazyness in the world and so many not even realizing how much a part they are in it.And until real disaster strikes we dont realize how insignificant our daily struggles really are.
Hi everyone!
I'm Almost 4 weeks post-op and I'm not sure how many calories I'm supposed to be eating per day to lose weight.....
As far as working out, I'm walking 3 days a week and doing cross-fit (what I can handle only) and I start bike riding my niece to school next week....
Thanks!
It is so true the title of this. Rewards are just as important as goals. Goals are nice but being rewarded and allowing yourself to live a little is what life is all about. Remember to have fun while you're on this journey and not focus too much on the numbers. I think I finally broke my scale habit. I haven't been on it in 5 days now. I will weigh in on Monday.
My Wife and I just booked a couple of nights stay at The Jewel at Rockefeller Center early December. I have never been to NYC in my life. I've traveled through up state a lot and have been to Cooperstown Baseball Hall of Fame but never the big city.
I have a long way to go in my weight loss journey but now I have a goal to lose as much as I can before this trip. This is not only a goal but also a reward. I have finally dropped enough where I can easily walk a mile without getting to tired. My Wife has been wanting to go every year since we've been married so now I can finally take her.
I haven't been this excited since our Disney trip in 2006 when I proposed in the Rose Garden at Magic Kingdom.
I AM SO FREAKIN SICK OF THIS DAMN LIQUID DIET*lol*, Monday can't get here fast enough just so I can start the puree stage of my diet. How many of you guys know what I am talking about?
Hi people!
It has been a while since I posted,I am back at work/school and it has been more than a little busy. I am really really thankful that I have been able to swap my break and lunch duties around so for once I actually get to sit down and have half an hour to eat during my crazily hectic schedule. It has been a godsend. My exercise routine has been totally knocked flat though as I am getting home so late and exhausted.
The good news is that my WEEKS long stall has shifted, and I am in onederland! 198.4 lb's today! YAY!
I have bought a few work clothes in a smaller size, and everyone commented in the first few days back on my WL which was nice. My standard answer to questions is- "changed my diet, been swimming a lot..."
Onwards and downwards!
Being hopeful is one thing. Mathews said he also feels realistic.
Jones-Drew (De La Salle High) ended a 38-day holdout Sunday without a new contract.
Professional football resumes this week, and not a day too soon.
Now, while trying to get off the fantasy Mike Williams Elite Jersey football "Do Not Draft" list, here's a look at the week just past:
Other notable cuts included:
About 140 NFL concussion lawsuits have been consolidated in federal court in Philadelphia before U.S. District Judge Anita B. Brody. Unless Brody agrees to dismiss them early on, or an umbrella settlement is reached, she will likely decide what evidence can be used at trial, whether a class can be certified for medical monitoring and other pretrial issues. The cases might then return to their home district for trial.
Ryan Torain and Keiland Williams have been among the hopefuls who have started games since then and are no longer with the team.
McCoy, who made 21 starts over the past two seasons, lost his job early in training camp to the 28-year-old Weeden, a first-round draft pick. McCoy's future with Cleveland seemed bleak but he played well during the exhibition season, embraced his role and the Browns decided to keep him over Wallace, who spent the past two seasons as No. 2 QB and part-time starter.
In four preseason games, Edwards completed 54 of 80 passes for 489 yards, four touchdowns, zero interceptions, and a passer rating of 100.5.
Other veterans released as teams prepare for the regular season, included 2005 Super Bowl MVP receiver Deion Branch and center Dan Koppen in New England; defensive backs Joselio Hanson and O.J. Atogwe in Philadelphia; Pittsburgh offensive Wes Welker Jerseys lineman Trai Essex and punter Jeremy Kapinos, who were waived injured; Buffalo defensive tackle Dwan Edwards; and Giants running back D.J. Ware, who won two Super Bowls with the team.
All teams had to reach the reach the 53-man maximum by Friday night.
Five notes on the St. Louis Rams from our recently Dane Sanzenbacher Jerseys published 2012 preview page:
New starting center Ryan Wendell, one of four players who handled the position last year when Dan Koppen was injured in the first game, said much of what he knows about the position he gleaned from playing alongside Koppen.
OK, I've just eliminated 30 teams. Let's focus on the final two, and pick a winner…
Just as important, the Shonn Greene Elite Jersey Bills are already down one backup cornerback in rookie Ron Brooks, who had foot surgery last week and is expected to miss about two months. That leaves McGee expected to fill the fourth cornerback spot behind Leodis McKelvin.
Had my final appointment with the surgeon (Dr.Joyce in New Lenox) today. I signed the consents and initialed all the "patient responsibilities". I must say the list of possible complications was intimidating, especially the last one, "death". I asked about the possibility of him going into my abdomen and NOT doing the surgery due to my liver and he said that has happened "a couple times" but he reassured me it was usually with people much larger than myself. I also asked about blood thinners post op and he gave me the pre-printed script for subq lovenox and told me I would be given it before surgery and while inpatient and then I was to take it for 3 more days after discharge. He also stated that I should have no problem taking pills right after surgery and said I would have a PCA pain pump while in the hospital and would be sent home on oral Vicodin. I thought I would have to crush pills, or take the liquid form-but he said he has never had anyone with a problem.
When I asked about the frequency of stomach strictures or need for a stent he said he could only remember 2 strictures and 1 stent, and all were doing well. I asked about the "support group" to the nurse at checkout and she said I just missed it, and the next one is not until October 24 (after my surgery date!), I asked her why I was not notified as they have my phone #'s and email address and she said that people don't usually go to group until after the 4 hour nutrition class. But my nutrition class is less than 2 weeks from my surgery date! I was really hoping to meet other sleeve patients, both before and after surgery and ask questions, but I guess that WON'T BE HAPPENING! ;-(
Weirdly, when I got out to my car I just started crying. Not sure why except that it is all getting so REAL. I am feeling guilty for not telling my sons, as I'm afraid of how they will react and how disappointed they will be in me. Hell, I'm disappointed in me!! So, anyway, here I go.....for better or worse.....kinda like getting married.....you never know what it will really be like until you're there! (Hope this goes better than my 1st 2 marriages, LOL!!!).
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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