I'm trying not to get too frustrated about this. My surgery was scheduled for May, then June, and now JULY.

All good reason(s) for reschedule though. I have some chest congestion that has hung around and turned into a bit of pneumonia. It was pushed out, and then my regular doctor said to push it out a little further so I can see a specialist in the meantime. I'm dissapointed but feel very comfortable with the reasoning for it. I don't want to go into surgery with weakened lungs.

But I feel my resolve busted a little bit, and maybe a bit of relief. It's 100% the right choice, medically speaking. I was half-way into my liquid diet when I got the news, and now i'm going 2 months waiting until surgery. I know it will probably go by fast, but it's hard not to think of that as a time where I would be making progress, healing, and now I'm not.

At any rate, if you're dealing with this, you're not alone.

Edited May 21, 20215 yr by You Are My Sunshine

I know it feels hard now, but they've been telling me the time will fly by. I started this process at the end of January and I will probably have my surgery in July or August because of the insurance requirements and backlog of surgeries due to covid. In the meantime, I've been trying to "walk the walk" and lose some weight now. At least it gives me something to focus on. I also spend way too much time on these boards heh heh heh.

2 hours ago, You Are My Sunshine said:

I'm trying not to get too frustrated about this. My surgery was scheduled for May, then June, and now JULY.

All good reason(s) for reschedule though. I have some chest congestion that has hung around and turned into a bit of pneumonia. It was pushed out, and then my regular doctor said to push it out a little further so I can see a specialist in the meantime. I'm dissapointed but feel very comfortable with the reasoning for it. I don't want to go into surgery with weakened lungs.

But I feel my resolve busted a little bit, and maybe a bit of relief. It's 100% the right choice, medically speaking. I was half-way into my liquid diet when I got the news, and now i'm going 2 months waiting until surgery. I know it will probably go by fast, but it's hard not to think of that as a time where I would be making progress, healing, and now I'm not.

At any rate, if you're dealing with this, you're not alone.

I’m sorry you have to wait but it’s a good time to practice eating slower/ chewing better, no straws, etc.

Yup, yup. Totally agree. It will be a year in August that I started all this, so it's been a haul. But I've learned a lot, and continue to learn in the meantime.

I was originally scheduled for Dec 21. Then corona spiked and all surgeries were cancelled. They started reopening in February but i had to wait for a break at work. Now my date is June 21st. I was mad and disappointed but i will have plenty of recovery time now. I just try to look at the positive side. I did let myself have a moment back in December. I have been working on my own to loose some weight in the meantime.

11 minutes ago, Zgirlt said:

I was originally scheduled for Dec 21. Then corona spiked and all surgeries were cancelled. They started reopening in February but i had to wait for a break at work. Now my date is June 21st. I was mad and disappointed but i will have plenty of recovery time now. I just try to look at the positive side. I did let myself have a moment back in December. I have been working on my own to loose some weight in the meantime.

Congrats on your surgery date.

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On 5/31/2021 at 2:45 PM, Zgirlt said:

I was originally scheduled for Dec 21. Then corona spiked and all surgeries were cancelled. They started reopening in February but i had to wait for a break at work. Now my date is June 21st. I was mad and disappointed but i will have plenty of recovery time now. I just try to look at the positive side. I did let myself have a moment back in December. I have been working on my own to loose some weight in the meantime.

It's made me question everything again. I have such a hard time making decisions, but also feeling "worthy" of things. So this has made me feel a bit like I told you so, never going to happen, not worthy... I wish I were talking to my therapist this month, but I'm not (no openings).

Even though I'm on the schedule for July, I certainly don't feel like I am.

My surgery has been delayed many times due to a hiatal hernia, asthma attacks, GERD, and a questionable Barrett’s esophagus. I had to refocus my attention on my feelings to say weight loss is a goal. It’s a long term goal like achieving my bachelors degree and master’s degree. It’s a long term process that has nothing to do with my worthiness but how much effort I put forth, AND my perseverance.

Sometimes I journal my disappointment, distract myself with tictock videos, do a short term task that has immediate results like cleaning. I picture each moment as a small pearl slowly sliding onto a necklace. I get scared thinking about the absolutely giant necklace of healthy living for a lifetime, so instead I try to concentrate on one pearl of living healthy in this moment. I distract myself enough living in the moment, then look back and become proud of the pearl necklace I have built so far. It’s ok to feel all the feelings. Just sit with them, let them become a pearl moment. Yeah, therapy is awesome :)

I have fibromyalgia DDD in my back tmj and kidney stones and gallstones and pancreatitis and menopausal I am back on my portion control so I when I follow up with my Dr he will be pleased in the fall

On 6/1/2021 at 10:56 PM, You Are My Sunshine said:

It's made me question everything again. I have such a hard time making decisions, but also feeling "worthy" of things. So this has made me feel a bit like I told you so, never going to happen, not worthy... I wish I were talking to my therapist this month, but I'm not (no openings).

Even though I'm on the schedule for July, I certainly don't feel like I am.

You are so worthy of this and so much more. You are enough. You are important. You are deserving of so many good things. ? Even without the surgery you are worthy of all the good things. I’m sorry you are having delays. Keep going! You can do this!

I was told April .. then I was almost done with my liquid diet scheduled for June 3rd canceled.. Now we are doing a conference call on the 29 do discuss a whole change of plans from bypass to sleeve now wondering if I’m going to start everything all over when this was her doing... ugh