i went to target this weekend. picked a medium dress and extra small sweater off the rack. i wasn't looking for xs by the way but all they had was xs or xxl lol. i went to the dressing room and saw myself full length in the mirror and thought holy ****. i think i'm small. am i small? on the daily i feel just like i always felt. like i feel better but still fat. could it be that im not perceived as fat anymore? why is it so important? how do we switch over from "fat mentality" to what's real? to what's actually happening with our bodies right now? am i still viewed as "fat" by society? am i normal now? is a size 8/10 still fat? how will i know when to stop? all the questions you didn't realize would linger so long.....

Edited May 16, 201610 yr by pr_pitbullgrl

I literally broke down in tears yesterday cuz so many people at work told me I was too skinny. One girl even said I look sickly. Sickly!! I'm 148lbs at 5'3. That's not even close to skinny. I have no idea cuz i have "fat brain" like Karen said. I had to call my dad over just to tell me if I looked sick or not. [emoji24][emoji24][emoji24]

Edited June 8, 201610 yr by pr_pitbullgrl

I've been diagnosed with bulimia nervousa...by 3 different drs....

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i went to target this weekend. picked a medium dress and extra small sweater off the rack. i wasn't looking for xs by the way but all they had was xs or xxl lol. i went to the dressing room and saw myself full length in the mirror and thought holy ****. i think i'm small. am i small? on the daily i feel just like i always felt. like i feel better but still fat. could it be that im not perceived as fat anymore? why is it so important? how do we switch over from "fat mentality" to what's real? to what's actually happening with our bodies right now? am i still viewed as "fat" by society? am i normal now? is a size 8/10 still fat? how will i know when to stop? all the questions you didn't realize would linger so long.....

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@@Tcisme Did you have an eating disorder before surgery or just since?

Top 1 is b4 and the bottom 2 are now people keep saying I look sick... and I need to stop losing... I can't turn it off. I'm not trying to lose anymore... I just have alot of issues and they can't seem to fix me

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@@Tcisme Did you have an eating disorder before surgery or just since?

After....

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Top 1 is b4 and the bottom 2 are now people keep saying I look sick... and I need to stop losing... I can't turn it off. I'm not trying to lose anymore... I just have alot of issues and they can't seem to fix me

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@@Tcisme I'm sorry you're dealing with this. Hopefully you are in counseling and getting help emotionally.

@@Tcisme Did you have an eating disorder before surgery or just since?

After....

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Top 1 is b4 and the bottom 2 are now people keep saying I look sick... and I need to stop losing... I can't turn it off. I'm not trying to lose anymore... I just have alot of issues and they can't seem to fix me

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@@Tcisme I'm sorry you're dealing with this. Hopefully you are in counseling and getting help emotionally.

Yes I do see a counselor twice a month.... we are working on tht end of it. I hope something happens soon

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I have the same feelings, I still feel just as fat as I was before. I know I am now a size 12 compared to a 30/32, I know I am thinner, but I certainly don't feel it. and I still get the "don't stop losing weight, keep it up" and wow you look great, are you gonna have plastics?? I realize it may not be said with malicious intent but it honestly makes me feel as if I'm not good enough yet! Guess it's therapy time!!!

Yes I'm waiting on approval for my plastics... hopefully my insurance will cover some of it... according to my drs... after the skin Removal I will probably be underweight. I'm just having my arms and stomach done but I have at least 25- 30lbs of skin...if I do it today (I'm not) tht would put me weighing 99/100lbs.... smh

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@@KristenLe well i already lost my ass. so there's that lol. but im trying to get it back. i still feel big to b honest with you. i don't know when that goes away

My bottom is flat as a tack. I just bought some tummy flattening, bottom shaping undies on eBay. They have a padded bottom area. I look awesome in jeans now, but I feel like I am wearing an incontinence aid

I am in a size XS/S and still feel fat too, especially around my tummy. But every kilo I lose seems to come off my legs and chest. I look really scrawny around my collar bones.

God. You are super sexy. Screw these trolls!

this came up on my facebook as a flashback from 2 years ago (the pic on the right). the caption read "im thinking i look kinda skinnyish today" ha. little did i know i didn't but anyways. the right one is from today in correct sized pants lol. size 8 and i do look skinny ish

It's about damn time you saw yourself as thin! Lol

@@KristenLe haha yeah kinda. now i gotta fight the "too thin" demons lol. but we'll all be ok i think. truly. i gotta stop looking at charts on the internet.