Enabling

[AmandaRaeLeo 2,145]

<p>So I've finally caught up, took me 3 days to do it but here I am. </p> <p> </p> <p>No questions about it, I'm an addict. Not just to sugar and carbs but to food. FOOD still tastes good to me on a daily basis. I haven't given my sleeve anything that it didn't tolerate just fine. As I have gotten further out it has become harder to stay on track because now I don't have this list of like 4 foods that it is okay for me to eat. I actually have to choose to eat what I should, and for the most part, I do. I have days that I fall off the wagon, but each day is a new day. I get up, brush myself off and start again. </p> <p> </p> <p>I am from Louiaiana. Not just from the south but from one of the most obese states in our country. You know there are "starving kids in China" so we don't throw food away, or at least that's what we were told growing up. My grandmother was a feeder. Everyday after school (after finishing off a big grab bag of flaming hot cheetos and a large icee) she would have Cookies or cake or fried chicken fixed and just hanging around. We got to eat what ever, when ever we wanted. This was all before the age of 13. It didn't stop. When I was in my early teens my parents did a dieting program through our church and lost weight. I didn't lose weight. I ate what they ate but I ate as much as I wanted. When I was a junior or senior in high school, I went through the program with them and lost 30 pounds. When I started college my freshman 15 turned into my sophomore 60 and stuck around for my senior 70. I seriously gained around 80 pounds in my 4 years of college. I lost some while working on my second degree but then got pregnant just before I graduated. When I went in to have my son I was 286 pounds (I had gained somewhere between 50-80 pounds during my pregnancy). I lost about 20 after I had him but within 4 months put it back on. Fast forward 5 years and I can't get pregnant. We think it's because of my weight gain (I'm now about 320) so I decide to go for a sleeve. A month before my sleeve was scheduled to be done, I find out I'm pregnant. And you know what, I was SAD!!! I wanted this surgery. I wanted to be healthy for my pregnancy but here I was super morbidly obese and pregnant. Gross. I only gained 23 pounds during my second pregnancy and the baby weighed almost 10 pounds so not too bad. That weight came off pretty quick and then I was sleeved when the baby was 4 weeks old. It was the best decision I have ever made. </p> <p> </p> <p>I have learned a lot already. I know that I have limited will power. My will power stops when I take a bite of anything. I can resist any food all day long until I take one bite and then it is all over. I can't stop myself. Carbs are a nightmare. If I start the day off with them, I'm hungry all day and wanting to eat. Same goes for sugar. But it isn't just those. Like Cheri, it fried goodness, burgers, savory, spicy, chips and salsa, FOOD! I have eaten out of bordom, I ate when I was happy and when I was sad. Something good happened, "Oh, lets celebrate! Where do you want to go eat?" Something bad happened, "Oh, bless your heart. What can I get you to eat?" It was never ending. I haven't been a big food sneaker but there were times that I did. I could, and probably still can but have not tried, to polish off a pint of ice cream in a single sitting. I never ate a whole pizza but I sure could eat half a large by myself. I was the one who finished my husbands food, and the kid's. I was the same as someone before who would go to McD's and get a large value meal and get chicken nuggets to go with it. I was out of control.</p> <p> </p> <p>Now I am not a slave to food. I don't think about it all the time. I enjoy it but it does not rule my life. I have an amazing support system and my hubby is happy to finish my left overs So much has changed about me in the last 8 months, on the inside and the outside. I am liking this new person I am becoming. I used to tell people that people liked me for the same reasons they like Santa Claus, cause I was fat and jolly! I'm still jolly. My joy is dependent on far more than the weight I carry or my circumstances but people are going to have to find a new reason to like me!</p>

Congrats on making it through this thread. Congrats on your baby. Congrats on your sleeve. And congrats on taking control of your life!

[Ms skinniness 3,003]

Misty I hope everything went well for you.........May you have a fast recovery.....

I had my gallbladder removed about 6 months ago and it was much better than the sleeve surgery.

Here's to a speedy recovery......

[Ms skinniness 3,003]

I can't believe that I asked a question about a lap bander and got a rude reply...... I can't believe I actually posted that he/she should get a life....... Hummmmm, perhaps I need a break......

[BlessedBeyondMeasure2012 296]

I am from Louiaiana. Not just from the south but from one of the most obese states in our country. You know there are "starving kids in China" so we don't throw food away, or at least that's what we were told growing up. Me too…and that is DEFINITELY a phrase I heard growing up! Doesn't help that our food tastes so good, which makes you want to eat it! Which part are you from?

I'm from up in Shreveport but any time we can spend down south always has something to do with food ha ha! You are right, our food is better than anywhere else in the country!!

[No game 14,436]

Lol! It happens to the best of us

I can't believe that I asked a question about a lap bander and got a rude reply...... I can't believe I actually posted that he/she should get a life....... Hummmmm, perhaps I need a break......

[thinnatater 36]

I am a food addict and I only ate in private!

I would eat very little around people.

I would wait until I was alone.... Then I would relax and sooth myself by stuffing food.

Me too!

[SoccerMomma73 1,867]

Oh Beelzebub, the beast has awoke....I only read 1 page of that thread and need a drink. GO BUTTER!!!!

[No game 14,436]

Me too!

Lol I "liked" Your post... But not because I like that you were a sneak eater

It's just nice to meet you

[No game 14,436]

Ugh damned double post! This app is fucked up!

Notice my "ED's"

[Madam Reverie 2,958]

Oh Beelzebub, the beast has awoke....I only read 1 page of that thread and need a drink. GO BUTTER!!!!

Did you notice the sycophantic hypocrisy whilst you were there, too? I love a bit of double-standards, me

[SoccerMomma73 1,867]

Did you notice the sycophantic hypocrisy whilst you were there, too? I love a bit of double-standards, me

I just got to your page!!! Go Rev . Something is not right...there's like a chunk of cerebellum missing or banded or something.

[ReDbEaN 654]

I'm from up in Shreveport but any time we can spend down south always has something to do with food ha ha! You are right, our food is better than anywhere else in the country!!

IKR!! When we travel, it's pitiful...even my kids say the food doesn't taste good:) ahhh well, it's all good. I'm near Baton Rouge.

[Madam Reverie 2,958]

I just got to your page!!! Go Rev . Something is not right...there's like a chunk of cerebellum missing or banded or something.

lol MIA. There's also something wrong with the prefrontal lobe of one in particular.... That might be selective though, so I don't think they could claim diminished responsibility. Maybe they're just a total arse naturally.

[mistysj 1,939]

I'm doing fine everyone. Thanks for the good juju!

[Fluffnomore 1,235]

Where, where?? I swear, my nighttime habit of going to bed early really interferes with my enjoyment of reading crazy.

ETA: Never mind. Found it. Siiiiigggghhh. So Butter's a liar now?