Ok so here goes- I am stuck at 205. 5 Magical short pounds from "Onderland" Why I am stuck here at 205? I will tell you why, because I have been eating slider foods. Mainly Fritos and Junaitas Chips sometimes popcorn and close your eyes....even CHOCOLATE. So pissed it doesent make me sick like everyone else. Just my luck, it goes down like normal. Usually at bed time. Its comfort food (not making excuses just keeping it real) I am not sure why I am sabotaging myself. I am sure its physiological, although I am not a physiologist. Why I am afraid of going down into the next chapter, am I afraid of success? of the ok, I have done this now what? I have done this and reached my goal but it wasn't the cure all of everything? Am I loosing all this weight for a reaction from others I am afraid I am not going to get. or I will get and not know how to handle it? I haven't had my hair done, or tanned. I think another way of hiding. I think what the problem is that Its been 10 years since I was thin. And at that time I was pretty and young. Now 10 years later, I am afraid to see what I will look like after all this weight is gone, and I get my hair done, and their is nothing more physically that I can do to transform myself and their staring at me in the mirror will be a wrinkled up skinny lady and that's all I can do. PS Tonite I did not eat chocolate...lol I have been very honest so please be nice....

Yay for no chocolate tonight!

I do my best work at night too... I'm a sneak eater wait till everyone goes to bed kind a girl.

I know all the feelings you are going through.

I think a lot of women here can relate. As much as we hate being fat and unhealthy there is something "safe" about it.

All I can say is therapy, it really does help you find out the "whys".

Thanks Laura <3

Thanks Laura <3

We all cheat, and old habits die hard. If I cheat I just make extra care that I workout a little more or eat extra clean the next day. You are BEAUTIFUL and doing great

Thanks Laura <3

Yeah well where where you when I was eating "bariatric Protein cookies" last night at 1 am

Yeah well where where you when I was eating "bariatric protein cookies" last night at 1 am

Well, Bariaric Cookies is why your at 163 and I Juanitas is why I am at 205....LOL

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Girl no I bought them thinking oh protein!

Nope got them a couple of days ago...

Crack I tell you it's a big ole chocolate chip cookie with "protein" thrown into it somewhere.

Yep can't buy those again

I have to keep everything thats tempting out of the house because I can't be trusted!

That works for me because I'm also lazy, so I won't actually leave the house to buy the crap I'm fantasizing about

jacee -

I sooooo agree with everyone else. Just forgive yourself and move on. Old habits are hard to break. If you don't like the therapy idea, consider meditation or going back to support groups or getting a mentor.

A positive attitude is also a defining moment in these situations. You can do this...look how far you came. (Just be there for me when I am on the onederland fence!)

tc

CassieWNY

If night eating is your main problem, choose not to eat after, say, 8pm every night. Water only after that time, then go to bed!

Great topic!!!

I think we can ALL relate. Some days are harder than others. Me, I can have NONE, but I can't have a little (If I have one I have many, so I work HARD to have none).

No one is here to be nasty...We all know the struggles with food addiction....You know what you are doing wrong and now you must focus to get back on track.....Knowing what the areas are that you have trouble with is 1/2 the battle....

We all need a treat now and then...

I think you have something there when you talk about the fear of getting under 200.....I know where you are coming from....I too fear success.....

But.....work through it and see how it goes.....

Your still here and working at it...Be kind to yourself and stop sabotaging yourself.....Get your hair done and nails too......Be good to yourself....you deserve to replace food with things that will last.....

Go, go, go....you would not have gone through the surgery if something deep inside of you was ready.....remember that okay.....

I think what the problem is that Its been 10 years since I was thin. And at that time I was pretty and young. Now 10 years later, I am afraid to see what I will look like after all this weight is gone, and I get my hair done, and their is nothing more physically that I can do to transform myself and their staring at me in the mirror will be a wrinkled up skinny lady and that's all I can do.

10 years and this surgery doesn't make you ugly and old. You're still the same wonderful person on the inside no matter what you look like on the outside. And that wonderful person deserves the very best, don't be afraid to let her have it.

My advice: get that crap out of the house! That's what I have to do.

I know prior to having surgery, I had a sweet tooth. I loved my sweets. Every night my hubby sits on the couch and has his ice cream. I have a decaf coffee with sugar free creamer and it is so delicious. It satisfies my sweet tooth. And sometimes I have a protien bar. Some of those protein bars have low grams of sugar and the chocolate coating tastes so good. The amounts of sweets that you are eating probably arent going to deter your weight loss that much but I would be worried that my hair is gonna fall out cause I am not getting enough protien. That is one thing, protien before anything else and I aint gonna be bald

I'll eat some cheater food and then think "wait, what did I just eat?" oblivious to even putting in my mouth. I need something like the invisible fence shock that will make me aware of something off limits coming near my mouth

I have been going through a metamorphisis at warp speed ... and let me tell you a few things I have experienced.

I am 49. Last time I was normal weight, I was 21-22 and that only lasted about 5 minutes. I remember I got alot of attention as I was considered attractive and it freaked me out.

Last time I was just "heavy" and not hugely obese... I was mid to late 20s.

It has been a long time since i have "looked" like an attractive woman.

As I lost weight, I felt sadness by how much time I had lost, how ugly I am, how old I look... all that. I had a period of a couple of months when I couldn't stand to look at my face in the mirror without noticing all the signs of age.

Guess what, none of that is true! I find myself single again and once I got over the shock of how old looking guys my age are...hahaha... i found that I am considered reasonably attractive, most people think I am younger then I am and so far people don't freak out at the fact that i used to be obese and lost alot of weight.

The point of my story is that we are our own worst critics, and your own attitude and personality are a huge part of your beauty. I am so happy and feeling so good that many people have told me that they sense that, they feel it and read it and it is attractive to them.

Don't get hung up on what might have been

so, quit feeling sorry for the past and start thinking about having the very best RIGHT NOW and FUTURE you can!