gain goal regain How was your 5:2 day today?

[CowgirlJane 14,259]

I am going to fast today too. I am up a lb and I don't like that at all. It was probably from that salty movie theater popcorn.< /p>

I found another guy online that's only 50 miles away and he's very interested.

We are going to talk on the phone tonight.

I am really looking forward to seeing Nex soon. I haven't been able to talk to him since he went to colorado for the holidays.

I don't know if I posted this already. I met a guy who I knew I could never date. Then I got an email from him that he couldn't wait to see me again.''

Rejecting someone and telling them that wish them luck but didn't feel like we are a good match. Online dating sucks . All I want to do is meet one guy. That should not be this hard.

This is why I am going to try speed dating. That is if I can get out of the funk enough to actually WANT to meet someone. I am starting to think the problem is me....

When Frasier said he didn't feel "chemistry" even though he had really pushed to see me often... like I was just warming up to the idea of him. I realize that i don't know what people even mean by chemistry. For me, they must meet some basic attraction standards, I need to enjoy their company - chemistry the way Frasier defined it (he told me he was very attracted to me and loved talking to me but was missing chemistry) sounds like something that i remember as a 15 year old - going gaga over someone. I think my give a damn is too busted to ever find that after a few dates with someone...

It took me MONTHS to develop that kind of feeling of chemistry with Steven and alot of that is from a fairly deep sharing of our inner selves with each other - didn't happen from a star struck gaze across the room (even though I find him very physically attractive and did from the beginning).

anyway, my expectations for speed dating are low too. I think I also need to de-emphasize my intellect because that is part of what I am quite sure kills the "chemistry" for the guy early on. I need to realize that even though i have zero expectations to feel this "magical feeling' for someone right off the bat, there are still lots of dreamers out there so I best be prepared to play along if I hope to have a boyfriend in 2014 to travel with and stuff...LOL. sheesh, Denise, you are right, it shouldn't be this hard.

[feedyoureye 3,087]

Jane, I have not taken prescription drugs for anxiety or depression, but sure have self medicated through the years! Almost everyone else in my family does though. I think about it once in a while... I use nutritional yeast in a glass of Water to head off anxiety, and stay away from caffein... coffee for sure, black tea almost all of the time, and even chocolate gets to me in quantity. Depression I mostly use my head, distraction, goals and purpose work helps to some degree. This only works on everything BUT the chemistry... so it works more or less depending. Seeing where my head is early on helps... At least I don't languish in depression for weeks before I realize am there... and the way the world looks to me is because of the filter I have put on it. I am much less yoyo mooded then when I was younger.... May be my hormones are more stable, or maybe its the head work I have done. Only you can decide where your line is.....

[BrownDoesAll 409]

Its 6:30ppm so far so good only spinach salad for lunch will have hamburger and salad for diner. So far a carbless day

[Georgia 2,908]

Its 6:30ppm so far so good only spinach salad for lunch will have hamburger and salad for diner. So far a carbless day

Whoo hoo!! Good work, Girly! Just eating my Soup for dinner. Sitting around 330 cals right now At 6:20.

[feedyoureye 3,087]

Protein Drink for lunch, and having pan fried veggies with a slice of melted cheese, and chocolate pudding for desert. 550.

[sarsar 824]

Kim, Brown, and Georgia...good job. I, on the other hand, didn't get through my fast day! I did fine until about 3 and then I lost it. It's only Monday so I still have the rest of the week to get my fast days in, I won't give up! I did work out with my trainer so that was good.

[Oregondaisy 2,019]

I sort of fasted today. I went to the movies again and saw American Hustle which I did not understand at all. I didn't have popcorn this time. I did Protein Shakes all day but things like a tootsie roll made it into my mouth as well.

Talked to Larry, the guy only 50 miles away. We are going to meet Friday afternoon half way. He's going to have to drive a little farther cause it's not exactly half way. I am excited to meet him. Our phone convo went very well and he said things that were definitely signs that he's a man I would like to date. He's got 3 pictures of himself and I think he's pretty cute. He's got 2 daughters and one of them lives near my son.

I am still going to see Nex soon too. Oh boy, it's going to get complicated

Jane I am having much better luck with Ok Cupid than POF.

[coops 1,790]

I didn't manage a fast day yesterday - we went to the pictures with the kids so it ended in my love affair with pop corn! Never mind! Today won't be a fast day either, probably going out tonight for a few ciders with friends, won't be a late night cos Steve is working days tomo - he will drive tonight.

Will try fasting weds and fri - I really want to see the last pound gone!

[UK Cathy 977]

Not managed to fit in a fast yet over the holidays, though I have managed to exercise twice. Out tonight with friends which no doubt will involve alcohol and food.< /p>

Tomorrow house it to be cleared of any cakes/sweets etc and all alcohol will be put in the garage for the month of January. I am also going to commit to using mfp every day.

For everyone who is having difficulties this holiday, especially Globe, my commiserations and prayers.

Tomorrow is a new start (everyday is a new start , it does not have to be New Year) and it is the year I am going to hit my personal goal, help hubby start his own fitness trail so he can reach good health, move house(?) and support hubby while he looks for a new job. I'm sure there will be many more ups and downs, hoping for the downs to be just in the weight department.

Happy New Year everyone.

[CowgirlJane 14,259]

Denise - I hope Larry turns out to be a good prospect!

My incisions are hurting like hell. They look fine, but somehow the intense skiing day plus farmwork I have just returned to doing triggered the nerve response. Times like this I regret ever having plastic surgery because I just want to get out and "do".

A month ago I decided i was going to have a date for New Years Eve. Somewhere along the line I sort of forgot about working that goal - so here I am, no plans for new years eve. Funny thing is I haven't gone out for NYE in DECADES - so it is super stoopid that should bother me now, right?

I think that is my problem, I have some sort of basic discontent. I am bothered that I don't "get" to do things - but those things weren't even important to me. Reason I didn't get a new years date - well - it didn't really work out too well with any of my prospects. That, and everyone has family in town etc. Steven went to the East Coast for the holidays. Why didn't any of my prospects work out? Well, each has a different story but bottom line I don't really seem to like the people i meet that much. AT some point, you have to realize the problem is ME not them.

Anyway, it is dumb to be bothered by this and in truth, I am not bothered by this but i am sad this morning.

[M2G 1,836]

Well, HAPPY NEW YEAR'S ladies! We have the big "wedding" tonight downtown and to say I'm excited is an understatement. We are having lunch with a bunch of friends at a place near the hotel, we'll check into the hotel, wedding starts at 7pm and goes until 1am! The girls and I all have our fancy dresses ready...will take lots o pics for ya, and hair and nails have been all fancied up (straightened one daughters hair, the other is opting for curly...)

So after a really hard week I'm looking forward to this wedding, seeing friends and most of all seeing one of our good friends get a second chance at love. Makes me so happy!

[Oregondaisy 2,019]

Sheryl.Jane you''re going to meet someone that will sweep yoooff your feet. You just haven't met him yet,

 

Are you on ok cupid? They have those questions they have you answer and those tell a lot about a person.

 

I haven't weighed myself yet. I am afraid I am up a couple lbs.

[swizzly 901]

Have fun, Sheila!! Post pics of your fab self!

HAPPY NEW YEAR, my 5:2 friends... <3

[CowgirlJane 14,259]

OMG - fast day and I am dying. It is only 1015am... i had a Protein drink. I am not even hungry, I just want to eat. I know i need to get back on some sort of track but I am not sure I will make it given my mood. Even if I don't fast successfully, I will be "careful" today and that might be as good as it gets right now.

I made an appointment with someone who can evaluate and prescribe meds. I feel a certain sense of "I just want to get this done" combined with dread having made the decision. Here is the crazy part, I feel crappy now, but I will most likely feel fine by the afternoon. Well, who knows, but in general that is how my moods have been.

I am not sad about not meeting someone. In fact, if I were to be honest with myself, I have a dream state of what i want but I don't believe in it so i feel completely disingenious even looking/dating. That is how I feel at the moment anyway.

[Georgia 2,908]

Well, the last day of 2013 hard to believe. Two days away from a huge milestone. 60. Da da daaaah! Even saying it out loud makes me cringe. Ha! I know it's just a number. It's just in my head. You are as old as you feel. Hmmm. .