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Surgery Date Set

Finally made it surgery set for August 23,2012. I seems like forever, and I never thought I would make it this far. I start my pre-op liquid diet on the 9th, pre-op doctors visit on the 17th. Wish me luck!!! I am so happy to start my new life journey.

swEEtbrOwnAndbAndEd

swEEtbrOwnAndbAndEd

 

Stalled And Frustrated

I am so frustrated that I seem to have stalled out after a month of solid loss. I am excited to be 20 lbs down, but I really had hoped I would see a continual loss. Today has almost been a week since I have seen the scale go down. I know it is time for my TOM, but it is still bothersome.   The great thing is, that years ago I would have said screw this I am going to eat whatever I want, but now I can't. While I could choose what I eat, I can't eat much of it. I know the band is already helping even though I am not at my sweet spot. I am staying on track longer than I ever have.   I have managed to do the Total Gym and the Elliptical this week and it does help how I feel, but it's still not easy. So many others on this site have said we didn't get fat over night so we won't loose it over night.   Here is to really hoping the scales start droping soon.

Kime-lou

Kime-lou

 

Successful Banders...will You Share Your Diet Keys To Success?

I am traveling through this lab band discovery and am almost one week post op. And very happy with my decision and current choices. I would love to hear your tips and diet suggestions. What do you eat in a day and in what quantity?   For me personally my NUT was a half hour phone call i had to pay for separately and meetings apparently no one shows up for and do not fit my work schedule.   I know i need support and direction. I have learned much of my information from reading and participation in daily talks on this site! (thank you all for sharing)   Any and all tips are welcome!

Starting Over!

Starting Over!

 

How Much Weight Did You Gain In The Hospital And How Long Did It Take To Lose?

I just got home from the hospital and wieighed myself...i am up 12 punds from when i went in. i had a ot of water retention lastnight and the dr finally caved and gave me some lasix(thank god) he wanted to pump me full of more fluid(that wouldve been my third bag PLUS the reg fluids they were alredy giving me!!!) i actualy had to throw a fit about this.....other than the on call dr, my surgeon was awesome! anyways, how long did it take to lose, and how quickly did you start the full liquid when you got home? that afternoon or did yhou wait til the next day to start?

dpeeler28

dpeeler28

 

Liquid Diet + Upcoming Family Reunion = Pressure

So I get banded on Aug. 23 and my dr. doesn't require a pre-op liquid diet but I'm doing it anyway just to ensure liver reduction and less complications there. My problem is that my family reunion is on Aug. 19, right in the midst of my liquid diet I LOVE eating at the reunion all the good food my family members bring. I plan on taking a couple protein shakes with me (Unjury all the way) but don't know what else I should take to ensure that I stay focused being around all that food. Is unsweetened apple sauce ok? Any suggestions would be helpful. It's outside so I don't have access to a microwave for broth and it will be hot out.   Please help becuse I feel I will cave around all that food and I don't want to.   Missy

missymobaby

missymobaby

 

New Stats

i noticed a while ago that I weighed 133kg when I saw the surgeon a week before surgery.I decided to ignore that and keep my stats the same but when I came out of the hospital after surgery I weighed 5 pounds more.   Today I decided to fix this on my ticker.Why not?I have lost more than I thought initially.   So it was 292.6 a week before surgery and 297.6 three days after.   Today I weigh 218 which is a loss of 79 pounds which is a lot more.   I am flying back to Dubai tomorrow and for some reason I am scared that this nice weightloss I had on holiday will slow down.   We will start exercising next week which might help tone and build muscles as I am super flabby.   xxo

desertmom

desertmom

 

Need To Vent

I have a few things to get off of my chest today not to mention the 150 lbs. that I need to lose. As I sit here at my window seat desk, I can see my reflection staring back at me. It disgusts me to see the rolls of fat as I sit crunched in this office chair. My uniform shirts seem to shrink even though I wash them in cold water and hang them to dry. I have my fan blowing on my face because it is hot, (105-108 heat index today) but I would rather put a jacket on to cover up the rolls of fat because I don't want anyone seeing them. Like people can't look at me with or without a jacket and tell that I am morbidly obese right? Anyway, I just want to sneeze, blink or click my heals together and the weight be gone. I failed to mention that another thing that I am constantly worrying about while I sit in my chair at work. There are offic chairs for normal size people and office chairs for fat people. So who wants to seriously go to the office supply purchasing agent and say "I need a fat persons chair"? Not me. One day while sitting here I heard a loud pop. I instantly jumped out of my chair and examined it. Everything looked fine so I gently sat my large ass on the edge of the chair unsure of what had just happened. Suddenly, a loud noise that sounded like a gun shot went off drawing everyones attention to me ( I sit in a cube with 7 other people and none of them are FAT! I jumped up out of the chair and the spring mechanism had broken, stripped, gave out or just decided that it couldn't take my fat ass anymore . Oh yeah, I forgot to add that this chair was only 9 months old. So, daily I hold my breath and hope that it doesn't happen again before I can get this weight off. I am sure that no one else has ever had anything like this happen to them, RIGHT? : )

Kentucky Girl

Kentucky Girl

 

Question For Post Op

i have a rather large indentation where one of my openings is...im not sure if this is where they took out the unused portion of the stomach...did anyone else have this? if so, will it even out after the swelling goes down? it just looks weird!

dpeeler28

dpeeler28

 

How Often Can We Eat?

I got banded on Fri July 20. So I am new with all of this. I have been following my diet list from my dietician. I ate dinner at 5:30 pm last night and I had a cup of soup and a 1/4 cup of SF jello. I felt satisfied but then at 7:00 my stomach was rumbling so I had a snack of a SF popcycle. Then around 8:00 I went outside to walk to the stop sign and back, and all the while I felt really hungry again. When I got home I had a large glass of water. which seemed to satisfy only for a short while. I went to bed at 9:30 pm and all the time laying in bed I felt so hungry and had the awfullest pain in my gut and chest. So my question is, should I eat everytime my stomach grumbles? When I do eat, I don't eat large amounts.

helpmomofteenagers

helpmomofteenagers

 

Frustrated !!!! New To Site!!!!

Hello, my banded friends.   I NEED HELP, INSPIRATION, GUIDANCE, SUPPORT   I got banded on February 6, 2011. So it will be 1 year in 6 months in a couple of weeks. I had lost a total of 60 lbs and recently just gained 10lbs BACK… I’m so frustrated!!!!!! My band has a total of 6.2 CC’S I have somewhat good restriction, so my "Dr’s says" (I haven’t been to see him since February) they right off my slow progress to stress.   I need help with food ideas and an exercise regime I can follow. PLEASE HELP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   Carrie

bandedcarie78

bandedcarie78

 

Three Month Plan

So, last night as I soaked in the tub and smoked a joint (oh, that tends to happen quite often so if you're opposed to reading about bad habits and debauchery, you'll need to carry on), I pondered the workings and purpose of this blog. I'm not sure if a WLS forum is the best place for me to spill my emotional guts, but most of my dysfunction is related to being a fat girl. So, why not? Too bad there's that whole "it feels like anonymous venting" and "I'm really just a narcissist" paradox. But anyway, I digress.   So, I am a fairly goal oriented person. I do better with deadlines. And, I know that the lifestyle changes involved in losing weight are forever, but I do better with discomfort when there's an end in sight. The other part of my bath tub ponderings included memories of many of my bubble baths. They're my time to think. My time to pray. My time to plan. To over analyze. To cry. To get high. To question myself. To challenge myself. To deep condition and clean my pores. I started thinking about how it's refreshing that my attitude and overall feelings on life have improved so much from just three months ago. Three months ago I had a bone crushing breakup. My heart turned to powder. I swore I'd never love again. And, with Adele's album 21 as a soundtrack! It was torture. And, I never thought I'd get over him. And so here I am. It's three months later. I've started dating again. And, I've had some really terrific dates. And, seem to suddenly have a few interesting prospects. We'll see.. Anyway, it only took me 3 months to grow back my heart. And, to get the kick in my step again. To get the hitch in my giddy up. So, where do I want to be in 3 months from now?! Let's see. It will be close to Halloween! My favorite holiday! What would happen if I committed to this silly blog for the next 3 months? And focused on my weight loss. And blogged about it. Where will I be in three months? Where CAN I be?! A lot can happen in 90 days, my friends. Where will YOU be? Let's find out, shall we!?

RedGirl1976

RedGirl1976

 

Puree Stage...not So Much

I'm officially 3 weeks post op and have been assigned the puree stage of foods for about a week. I've had an OK time and at first I LOVED having the new textures and being able to tolerate pureed meats. I've kept my calories low and I"m still losing. I've been doing my walking too. I've had no real problems with my restrictions. My sleeve seems to be OK with the foods and I'm playing within the rules regarding portion size. I've not had any real issues with nausea, vomiting or just overall discomfort with my sleeve.   Other than gas, which does not seem to resolve, I'm doing very well by all accounts. I found pureed meats and veggies to be a chore. I have broken the rules during this stage for the past two days by just eating soups and meats, but chewing them really well in my mouth versus blending them to pulp. Nothing too tough and, like I said, calories still low and portion size fine.   Is this really going to cause an damage to my sleeve if I chew the food to a purree texture before swallowing? It's taking me a very long time to eat my cup of a meal, but I find it more enjoyable and I really don't think I"m doing any damage.   Should I really turn on the blender and pulverize my food? Is this cheating? If I was to be really honest I'd say I'm really doing mushies and soft foods about a week ahead of time.   If the sleeve can take it... why not? Again I ask the question....is this cheating? Can I cause damage to my sleeve by doing this?   I feel fine and I notice my energy levels seem to be improving.

Mz_Elle

Mz_Elle

 

Day 2 Liquid Diet

Felt pretty good today and no headaches, as I feared. I am hungry, no doubt, but I try to stay busy and not focus on it. Got extra hungry around lunchtime today, so had an additional cup of broth than I had yesterday. Still should not be a problem. I was shocked to see 5 pounds gone on the scale this morning. Big wow!

MsCook

MsCook

 

My First Blog.....ever

Tuesday 07-24-2012 6:41 pm   So although I've been a member of VST for a couple of weeks maybe and really, started my journey to WLS on March 4, I am first finding myself type something out to be able to reflect back at all of what I've been through.   My first thought is- for pete sake- I'm a licensed psychotherapist who has encouraged LOTS of people to journal and where the heck have I been? Lazy. Story of my life   My second thought is that I must first comment on my experience on this forum and the VST peeps I've been getting to know through their own journeys. I cannot tell you how inspired I am by so many others who have either gone through similar walks of life or who are going through it. I don't feel alone anymore which is so relieving in and of itself. In this career, I hear many reasons why we choose the profession we are in. For me, it really was nothing about my personal life as it was my true desire to know the brain and study human behavior. So, because of this, I feel my family and friends have highly underestimated my strength at times. Sometimes, even we need a little extra support. I'm probably the biggest person who will dispute this so to put so much emphasis on what others this of me isn't fair really. But it's easier.   So, again, I have no major underlying issues. Sure, we all have our "stuff" but I can tell you that I have been through therapy many times with my marriage and honestly, have benefited greatly. I check in with close friends and colleagues as I believe that's just part of my life now- I need to do that...for me.   Back to how I got here. Well, I'm not exactly sure HOW I got this so out of control. I do know that I have always struggled with weight but I really have carried it well in my life. I have watched friends and family go through surgeries for weight loss and always believed I ddin't need to do that. Then one day I was dx with autoimmune disorder which really- the only symptom that I have is extreme fatigue and with that comes lack of ambition to do anything. The process of finding the right doctor was exhausting but after years of battling this, I did. But he wanted me to go on a medication that could cause blindness AND he wasn't guarenteeing that this would help fatigue as this is difficult to control. (Have you heard of Plaquinil? I know some have as I have read other's posts about it). Well.....I decided not to do it. So the next year I spent extremely tired; no.... exhausted. Heck, if I didn't know better, I probably would have dx me with depression BUT I WASN"T DEPRESSED. I gained probably another 30 pounds (that was my last straw- I could have cared less that I didn't clean my house like I wanted to or do more things...it was the weight)....So my husband convinced me to try the med. "Just try it". Wouldn't you know it- it was a matter of 2 weeks and I had some of that energy back. I was on it for about a year and I did lose about 15 of those pounds. Then I gradually took myself off. Dr. asked to decrease so I just kept forgetting and then before you know it, I'm off. Then I'm gaining weight again. One would think an educated person such as myself would put 2 and 2 together. Common sense isn't necessarily a subject in college or grad school I didn't want to go back on the med. My doc had told me that exericse was really good too. Yeah, I hate exercising and try convincing someone who has absolutely nothing to give.....to give. It wasn't easy.   THEN it happend. I got a new job and found out insurance did not exclude WLS. I cannot tell you how elated I was. I had my appointments all lined up as soon as insurance kicked in. All they require is a 6 month professional weight loss program documented. R U KIDDING ME? I've been through EVERYTHING at LEAST 1,0000000000 times. But nothing recording for 6 months consecutively. So here I go. But who cares right? My benefits at my new job don't kick in until I'm there six months anyway so no worries.   Well, I've hit the six month mark at work. My last NUT appt (actually with the PA) is August 13. I told her I have a date in my head of Sept 10. She was excited and told me that they will have everything ready that day so all they have to do is print out her note and send it on. Insurance has 14 buisness days to respond. That quite possibly will be the longest wait of my life. We will see (because these days are long as well). I can tell you I've gained weight at every single appt with the NUT. I'm trying things they say and I KNOW I will follow through after. Remember my energy level is nothing. I didn't have them document the autoimmune stuff (although they do know) as I don't believe it's life threatening- I went to have my fatigue treated and it was totally up to me and nothing more. My feeling is that I want to see how weight loss effects my health rather than relying on meds so I'm dealing.   I was worried about the weight gain but the PA tells me not to be concnerned. I'm going to go with that because if I don't....I'll drive myself crazy......   So the countdown begins....to my new life....on this new journey...   I know life will change for me drastically. I'm ready....for whatever that means. And I will journal through it---- because I know that it's helpful and I also know- I have a great support system with VST PEEPS.   Thank you for listening.....   Justine........

Justine13

Justine13

 

The Beginning

I have rarely known a time that I was not overweight after I became a teenager. My mother was morbidly obese and I always grew up with the fear that I would also become obese. I remember sadly being embarrassed for my mother and I never wanted to be "the kind of mom" that my kids would have to be embarrassed for me either.   I was at a normal weight when I was 13, which I know now, but at 125 I felt fat. But I was determined to fight this and be thin. This changed for me when my grandmother told me that I was fat and that no matter what I did I would be fat like my mother. At that point I remember just giving up and started putting on the pounds. Throughout school I had no self-esteem and was a figure for redicule throughout elementary and high school, for various reasons. I generally weighed about 195 and was proud that I at least never hit 200, but I was miserable and never could do anything. I limited my life based on my size and let other's opinions of me determine who I was.   At 20 I met a good friend and together we started working out and dieting and I lost down to 145. It was wonderful and I became this happy positive person, I was outgoing and energetic and people called me "peppy". I loved it, but again I let others determine who I was. I met my husband to be and we dated , got engaged and married all within 8 months. Everything was great and then I got pregnant and then the pounds started packing back on. I remember crying that I would be be fat and he would stop loving me. He told me that he would love me but not respect me. That was a big issue and one we had to work through and I know today he really does still love and respect me but those words hurt badly at the time. His mother had even asked him if he could handle me getting fat, because she knew I would after meeting my mother.   Fast forward to 6 kids later and many diets and trying to lose weight and now I weigh 278 (again proud at least I never hit 280, how delusional was I?). I had become a couch potato, afraid to meet and make friends. Never felt worthy of being a friend and why would anyone want to be "my friend"? I isolated from others and didnt volunteer in my kids' classrooms, well rarely anyway. I know a lot of this was my own self esteem issues and fear, but my childhood taught me that I was not capable of fitting into the real world.   I did go back to college (at the push of my one friend and husband) and got my Master's in Social Work, but that let me experience even more prejudice. In class I would sit there the first day and no one would want to sit next to me. Soon we would have to seperate into groups for our group assignments and no one would want to be my partner, like they assumed I was stupid or something. The only nice thing was after the first group project people were wanting to be in my group because dang it I was a smart woman and worked hard. Over time I saw people begin to respect me, but I had to overcome their prejudice of fat people. I did graduate with suma cum laude with a 3.97 GPA and felt success for the first time in my life.   I had developed knee problems, back problems, pre-diabetes, arthritis, plantars faciatitis, depression and other such ailments. I was always tired and never wanted to do or go anywhere. Ok that is wrong I wanted badly to do everything but I was not able to do it, or I believed I was not able to do it. I had applied for WLS while I was going to college but I lost too much weight and I was denied. So last August I started my journey again to take my life back and become the woman I have always been, beautiful and proud, but hardly anyone had been willing to see me. So I began this journey, did the 6 month set of diet classes and all the other hoops. Fearful I would be denied again, but I was not and here I am 7 weeks post-op in the beginning stages of my journey.   My surgery was June 7, 2012. I had lost 11 pounds the week before surgery (after approval had come through - LOL) and at my surgery date I weighed 250, Today I weigh 221 which is a loss of 40 pounds since this began. I am not done, I have much more to lose and much much more to gain. I am ready to claim myself back. I am ready to claim back my health and my life. I am ready to explore the world that I have always been afraid to explore. I am ready to make my family proud of me. I am ready to be proud of myself, its about time!

Ellie_Grace

Ellie_Grace

 

Starting Liquid Diet

Tomorrow starts my liquid diet before surgery. My surgery date is scheduled for August 1st and I am excited and nervous all at the same time. I am so ready to get started on this journey and get back in control of my life. I feel like for the past 19 years that I have not had any control and this is my step towards getting back on track. My husband told me back some time ago that he wanted me to be around many years from now and he was concerned that if I didn't get control of my weight that he was afraid for my health. That scared me but also made me realize that I had to get control . So starting tomorrow I start my liquid diet and if feel that as long as I can get through that with no tool to help me, I can do this life changing event with the lap band. I would like to lose at least 100 lbs but would like to lose 120lbs. I am going to take each day, one day at a time and I am going to give myself a break if I mess up because I don't know that there is anyone who goes through this perfectly. that has been an issue for me.....being a failure and not doing things perfectly. No one is perfect. Only God has the ability to be perfect so I need to give myself a break.   If anyone reads this and has any words of wisdom please give them tome because anything is appreciated.   I am going to try and blog about what I am feeling during the next few weeks,

kdp

kdp

 

Hello My Lovelies..interesting News Here

So I have been silent on the blog front lately, which isn't normal for me, but I have been back and forth on some issues. As we know from previous blogs I had issues with insurance and was facing the decision to pay out of pocket for lap band, which I don't have, or have gastric bypass. Well I went in to my regular doctor and she threw another curve ball my way. She now doesn't think that I need any surgery at all. She believes that since I have lost over 20lbs in 2 months on my own that I can do this on my own. She sat down with me to throw this info at me. I am on a time crunch with insurance, mine is over in October and my fiance's doesn't cover WLS. So If I switch to another managed care I can get lap band, but I will have to pay for fills/unfills/follow up care out of pocket. If I got gastric bypass, the first year is very critical and I would have to take care of that cost out of pocket also. But since I am doing well on my own, and pretty positive about the loss so far, we can leave it the way it is and revisit some other help later on down the road because my fiance's insurance will pay for a bunch of different weight loss medications.   So now I'm on the what the heck just happened here track? Ok I am doing well and very proud of myself for keeping this momentum going. I have managed to really change my lifestyle, way I look at food, etc. A lot of that is credited to all you lovely people on this blog. Its great advice and motivation even for the unbanded really. To top it off, I have had at least 4 people be relieved that I'm not having surgery of any kind. So now I am faced with what to do. I could go ahead and change managed care plans because I already have the referral and approval at the center that originally evaluated me for lap band. That is if the managed care plans allow me to change, which also means I would have to change all my doctors and my kids doctors too. Blah....I really didn't want to do that. So now I am stuck here in limbo again, trying to make a plan! Lol, if its not one thing its the other!

mylynn1377

mylynn1377

 

Stumbling Forward

Perhaps I should have started this before the surgery instead of one month post but its all good. My process happened so fast the I had my consult and then surgery 5 weeks apart. My insurance paid in full less my deductible. I feel good and see the transition. I am down just over 30 lbs even though I weighed this amount last summer. I have dropped two sizes and promptly donated those clothes knowing I will never be THAT size again. I have an entire closet of clothes from size 18 to a size 12. Looking forward to wearing everything until I reach the point that I am less than a 12 and need to shop :-) I have a few struggles about my sleeve. I am never hungry and have to force myself to eat. The same goes for drinking too. Regular water makes me thirstier so for now I live on vitamin water. I miss diet coke and not drinking while I eat too. Lastly my marriage has changed. I probably should have said this first but I am in denial. My husband was against the surgery and has held firm to the idea that this was the biggest mistake of my life. He is wrong of course and at the moment I am not even going to spend more time on the subject but to say, I hope he comes around.

mickmick

mickmick

 

Starting Line

Even though I have always been overweight in my adult years, I have been active. It would down right piss me offwhen people say just exercise. There mouths would fall open when I saw, I have two young kids, work out twice a day (cardio in the a.m. and weights with a trainer or fitness classes at night). In my spare time, I also played co ed softball twice a week. I found out I had thyroid disease just after college as the freshmen fifteen would steadily be added each year thereafter. I would gain and re-lose the weight repeatedly. After I married and had kids I steadily went from 165 to 276 at my highest. I started having sports injuries such as heel spurs and torn muscles along the way which would stop the workouts to say the least. In Dec 2011 my husband's job brought us 800 miles from home. I have been here 7 months and still dont have any friends. I joined several softball leagues hoping to find an outlet. I know I am a decent player so I was shocked when my coach batted me last game after game even though there was girls on the team who never played before. I finally asked him why and was shocked with his answer. He said well, to be honest, I have no place else to bat you given you size. In fact, I see you as a liability on the team. Granted my batting average is about 800. But he didnt see that, he just saw a fatso playing ball. I should have told him offbut instead I waiting until after the game and cried all the way home. It was then I decided to get help. I see it as a blessing that being so new to town, people I meet from now on wont know the morbidly obese me.

mickmick

mickmick

 

Never Looking Back!

I feel like for the first time in years, I am actually taking the necessary steps to better my life! I can't wait to start losing weight and feeling good about myself again - both physically and mentally. The past couple of years have been such a downward spiral for me, I have gained SO much weight, my attitude has totally changed. I used to see myself in such a different light. I liked who I was and I was comfortable in my own skin, even being overweight. Now, I look in the mirror and I see a disgusting, fat pig who is lazy, unproductive, depressed and eating her life away. I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT PERSON ANYMORE. I refuse to be that person ever again. I have made an official vow to myself and my family that I will do everything in my power to get healthy again, from the inside out.   I sit here thinking about how much time I've let pass where I could have been actively trying to lose weight. All the diets that I quit, all the times I said "I'll start tomorrow" or "I'll just cheat this one time." For me, it all comes down to willpower. I always say I don't have any, but guess what? Starting today, I have all the willpower in the world! I will never say I don't have the willpower to get healthy. Because that is like saying I don't have the will to live. And I do! I want to see my kids grow up, I want to be a positive role model to them and to others who are embarking on this same journey. I want to be the person who said "IF I CAN DO IT, ANYONE CAN!"   I am very excited for my surgical consultation with Dr. Rantis on 8/2. Excited and nervous. What if I can't get my insurance to take care of it? What if Dr. Rantis doesn't feel I'm a good candidate? What if, what if, what if. I know it's counter productive and totally useless to worry about these things as they are not in my control. I guess I need to get better at learning to let go and let God.   I am going to keep trying to stay positive, through the good and bad. Attitude is half the battle. And for this moment, nothing is going to get in my way on my journey to losing weight and getting healthy.

RachelC

RachelC

 

Broke The 180 Mark!!

I had my aftercare appointment today and I broke the 180 mark. FINALLY! I weighed in at 178.2 today. After talking to the NP we decided not to do a fill. She stated "You have lost more than 66% of your body mass and we except 50% at the one year mark." She also stated "You have lost a great deal already now you are just going to have to change things up." So we decide to change up my exercise routines and see if a see better results in the weeks to come. I do see my doctor next week and I'm going to see what he has to say and move on from there.   I feel so much better after my visit today and I am thankful I am still losing!

yellowrose88

yellowrose88

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