Today we had my daughter's 8th birthday party...I've always been a sweet eater...birthday cake was always a for sure thing for me at parties...I never knew how people had the will power or just the unwant of cake (or any sweets for that matter)...but today I realized how much this surgery really has changed me...I didn't even have the yearning to cut myself the smallest crumb of cake...It really didn't hit me until the end of the party after everyone had left...I got so excited when I realized I went through a whole party and didn't even think twice about it...now I know to some people that may be such a small thing but to someone like me with such a sweet tooth that was a huge milestone...anyways just thought I'd tell you guys about it since I know other people around me might not get it as much as all of you...HAVE A GREAT NIGHT YOU GUYS!!!!
]So here is my story......
I was banded in April of 2008 at my highest weight of 263. The lapband surgery was a breeze, life with the lapband has not been a breeze. I have a 10cc band. My first fill was 6 weeks after surgery and then there was many more until I was up to 7ccs. I remember asking the nurse "What happens if I get to 10cc's and no restriction?" Her reply "well then this surgery isn't going to work for you"! Needless to say that definatley was not the case...I found my "greenzone" and was doing pretty well. I was excercising on a daily basis. I was feeling good, anxieties were less, confidence was up and of course was losing weight. One year after surgery I was down to 219, which is decent considering it took months to get to restriction. In August of 2010, I had hit wonderland 198!!! I was so happy to be under 200lbs! By my calculations this is about the time I started having issue, although I have always struggled with days when I am too tight, vomitting, and etc. All in All since August of 2010 (by estimation) I have been totally unfilled 4 or 5 times. The most recent being in April of this year. The Doc said it was due to a possible slip and we were to remove all fluid and let it heal on it's own. June we added fluid back in (about 4cc's) I felt restriction but not too much. I was still gaining and admittedly not making the best food choices. In July we added 1.5 more cc's. This is where things became strange for me....I felt like I had adequate restriction, portions were small and what not, however I had this constant burning (heartburn) in my esophagus and it was much worse when drinking any liquids. Of course I was still vomitting here and there, but this many years out it had just became a way of life. so this past week I went in to the dr, we take out a half of cc and I drink the water and I can still feel the burning/somewhat pressure feeling. We take out another cc and decide to keep me on liquids until monday and see how it goes from there. At this point I am frustrated and just want to be done with the band. I also brought up the fact that I think my port sometimes bulges more than usual and doc felt around and said seems fine other than it feels a little loose! Which by the way doc had a helluva time getting the needle in!!! I'm thinking loose??? why would it be loose is this normal?? anywhoooo...I brought up the fact that I have been researching the sleeve procedure and doc pretty much said that we will see how the next few months go and start building our case for the insurance company.
I should add that in my opinion, I don't believe that it is heartburn I am feeling....I think it's due to my esophagus being inflammed from the vommiting but I guess I am not a dr...lol Also, I tend to retain fluids and take a BP/Water pill (HCTZ) to help with this. I have tried to tell my dr many times that on days where I feel I am retaining fluids my band is much tighter. I think she thinks I am quack as she has never really agreed with me! Makes sense to me, specially if women who are on their TOM feel more restricted....which by the way is the case for me also.
So i've rambled on..........bottom line this is not the life I want to live anymore! The food addiction is way worse now than it ever was before...but I'll save that for another post!
Well, I've made it to day 6 of liquid diet. It is difficult, for sure, but I find that the busier I stay and away from network television (too many food commercials) the better off I am. I can honestly say I feel great, with the exception of hunger for some "real" food. Maybe it's just my brain telling me I'm hungry and i'm really not. Sure, we'll go with that. Anyway, I'm trying to stay super positive and revel in the weight loss I'm already experiencing (9.5 lbs in 6 days). Woohoo!
Wow- I'm having a diffiicult time navigating these blogs. A sign that of my age which I refuse to embrace...
So I write these blogs for me to look back on so I made myself get on here (in between Olympic games) and write something. I don't have a whole lot to add. I want to be able to remember how long these days have been. I don't know what my problem is but it seems the days leading up to my last NUT appt (Aug 13) go by SO SLOW. And then I will need to wait for the insurance company's response (another long wait for sure). I don't like waiting. I supopse that's something I've really come to learn about myself: Patience is not my strength. I don't have a choice though so perhaps this is a well needed learning experience.
That's all for now. OH- I was freaked out by all of the posts about others having to get Endoscopy's done. If those who knew me knew I read those would know that would send me right over the edge and even likely forget this whole thing. I have a HUGE fear of things in my throat and I don't care what they say about how I wouldn't know it- I would. Anyway- I checked with the PA and she said no because I don't have acid reflux. O. M. G. I could have kissed her!
That's all folks. Boring- but at least I blogged
One of the things i am working on is setting goals that make sence for me. Thinking about things diffently
So i put down my goals and I was told to think of it like this what can i do today what can i do in two week what can i do in a mouth
So for example I want to be a size 10 yes 10 I am a 14.
1. write down everythin i eat and drink
2. try and adovid head hunger cravings
3. reach for support make sure i go to all my OA meeting and Weight watchers no matter what.
Goal 2 was to become a zumba instruter
1. Get cerferfied - I did this today
2. Work on getting my club to let me sub
3. Woek on my zumba danceing rutines so i can do them no matter what
Goal 3 Get skinny jeans
1. Look for skinny jeans in size 14 with out makeing my self feel bad about how i look
2. watch what i eat better by writing it all down
3. make sure i go to the gym to all my work out with out skipping
Goal 4 work on Abs
1. Go to abs class
2. Get new trainer who will help me with goal
3. Not stopping just becuse i am being lazy and feeling my abs
Goal 5 sround my self with pepole who are supportive
1. Goal one get rid of old trainer who will not change and was never supportive of me undergoing WLS to one who will work with me and understand how my body is changing and will be supportive of this and not say i should have tryed anything else. - ( I think i done this as I have found someone I love and told the old one it time to leave just have to get paper work done to switch over)
2. Make sure that pepole who know are not jellous of my succcess and relizese how hard i worked to get were i am and How hard i must work to stay were i am
3, Weed out pepole who call me a cheet or other names ( be more fussy who i tell)
So thats my goal setting for today
So my surgery was the 18th of June, and I wd love to say I am absolutely thrilled with the changes my body has made but nope not there yet. When I started my weight loss journey in Jan I weighed 234 lbs and the week before surgery I was down to 217. On the day of surgery 211lbs. Week 1 I lost a whopping 1 lb. Week 2 - 2lbs. Week 3 a loss of 4 lbs. Week 4 a loss of 5 lbs. week 5 loss of 2 lbs. And since then nothing. And the crazy thing about the whole process I have always heard every 10 lbs is a dress size. Well that may be true from some but definantly not me. My wardrobe size was a 18 when I started this journey in Jan. and I'm still in a size 18. It seems I lose very strangely. My pants look baggy only because I have lost in my hips and behind but my waist hasn't changed so I can't go down in pants size. My ankles are bony, my wrist are bony, In fact my arms from my elbow down has always looked like it was a skinny girls arm. I'm losing my boobs but again my waist line is not changing so can't go down in blouse size yet.
I know there are issues with my food intake I just don't know what I can do about it as I'm struggling severely. I drink a protein shake in the morning 34 gr of Protein, Lunch time I do something on the lines of chicken or fish ( I can only get in 7-8 very small bites and I have hit my limit on food), Dinner time again I try to have protein and a couple of bites of veg's. This last week no matter what I have eaten at dinner after the last bite I start getting sick and end up running to the bathroom throwing everything up. Since my 3rd week out from surgery I all of a sudden started having trouble getting my liquids down. I don't really know what to do. Water is absolutely the worst getting down, it literally hurts my chest even with a small sip. Yesterday it took me 6 hrs just to get 16 oz's of water down. If I drink very much I feel as if I'm gonna lose it. I hope this gets easier. I am just finding this to be all so frustrating. I am so careful about chewing very well, small bites, eating slowly, no drinking with my meals, eating my protein first etc. I know it's got to get better I just wish I cld fast forward time and get on with it.
Hey I love life and I want to encourage any and everybody. I love my journey. It has not been easy, but truly worth it. Look at my video and you will see why I feel so good about staying connecting and helping others any and everywhere.
Enjoy the video: go to you tube: type in youjustwaitnsee. I will get it down loaded on site soon. Once I figure out how to upload video it will here. But any one can see it this way as well.
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It's amazing how much of this journey is rollercoaster of emotions!! I am now worried about organising finance for my surgery which I thought was sorted out via early release of my superannuation. I can't find anywhere that stipulates that there is a maximum amount although another member told me it's capped at $10000 and by the time they reserve tax, it's closer to $7900. I have mentioned the approximate costs along the way to both the DHS and the superannuation company and no one mentioned that there was a limit...I was under the impression that they just paid the amount on the quote. So basically I may be scrambling to find $10 000 in a month. What's so annoying is that I've lost more in super since the GFC than the amount that I am applying for. It seems so wrong that I won't be able to get what I need to have this surgery.
I am trying to remain positive though - it is very important for me to have the surgery and I will be able to manage to find the money if I really, really need it. I just am hoping for a better outcome...can't wait until Monday so that I can speak to someone!
Will update my blog when I know a little more...
2009 I considered doing the lapband. I signed up for it and backed out at the last minute.
2012 I started going to weight loss meetings to see about RNY even though what I knew about it sounded quite dangerous. I knew a few others that had had it done and they always looked grey and sick. The first meeting I went to I was told about the sleeve. Well this turned my skepticism to a brighter note. This group presented it well and it was a good hospital in my area. The only problem was the surgeon had very little experience.
Well, I thought, there are others somewhere. I started searching the net. I went to 4 more meetings with different people and finally found one that at least had done a few hundred of the sleeve. I went to him the end of June 2012. Now mind you I am still quite scared. I am older than most and have a lot of medical problems; HBP HIGH CHOLESTEROL INSULIN DEPENDANT DIABETIS THYROID'S BEEN REMOVED NECK AND BACK PAIN THAT ARE DEABILATATING AT TIMES BONE SPUR THAT IS INBEDED IN MY ACHILLES TENDON AND IT IS MAJOR SURGERY TO FIX (HAD THE OTHER FOOT DONE AND WAS IN WHEEL CHAIR FOR 6 WEEKS).
I see the NUT and the doctor. She told me how she wanted me to eat and to give up sodas(which I have done for 2 weeks now) The list from the doctor was quite long. I did the lung test, psy eval, blood work, went to 3 support meetings, got letter and history from PCP,had all upper GI and colonoscopy reports sent to stomach DR.
This is how my first month went. Also I forgot that I am online with all you good people here helping me through this. One minute I don't think I can do this and then I hear all you tell me how it has changed your life. So whenever I think of just forgetting the whole thing I come here for support.
I went to my second Dr appointment yesterday. The NUT wanted to know why I did not change the way I eat and I said I had too many other things to do this month and the on and off again mind set I had. I promised I would start next week and I will.The Dr comes in and literaly does nothing. He asked me a few questions and we discused me not having the sleep apnea test. because I do not want to. He said it is required by insurance and I said not mine. Than he got kind of angry and said we can't make you do it but it is needed for surgery . So I guess I have to have it done.
Got a letter today that said my B-12 was low and to start taking 1000mcg a day. Will do this next week also.
Well, this is my WLS for the first month. I was told surgery sometime in October. I'm sure I will have more in my next blog!!!!!
After all the running around getting this test done here and that xray there, I am almost there. Yesterday I did my preadmission testing and had my bootcamp. Monday morning I will be banded...boy oh boy I am feeling just about any feeling a person can feel...wish me luck!
Well - this is my first posting and first blog so here goes!
I feel lately I have had a lot of firsts....first major surgery, first time putting myself first, first time owning my health, etc
I have to say that it definitely is hard to choose yourself first. Anyone with children, a spouse, family, etc knows what I mean. You feel as if you are cheating them out of being there. It has taken me many years to come to understand that what I thought as putting them first was actually an excuse for me to continue to be unhealthy. How was I putting them first if I wasn't taking the best care of myself? This is a VERY hard lesson to learn. As I look around at my family members and family history of chronic weight related issues I put my foot down. There was a voice deep down saying "me, me...did you forget that I am here?" This time I chose to listen.
I have not always been overweight...alright "morbidly obese". This is something that has been rolling along pretty much for the past 15 years. You know the story....get married (get comfortable), have children (more comfortable with a few pounds) and before you know it you are a shell of the person you once were. Years go by and you lose a little and gain more and back and forth. Many of us have the same story. My weight loss surgery journey originally began two and a half years ago, Dec 2009 with a seminar for the lap band. I went and listened and then said I will give it another try of doing it myself and bailed on following through. Two years later I found myself at the seminar again with a firm grip on my nerves and actually listened with more conviction about choosing me first.
After going through the 3 months of NUT, psych appointment, surgeon visits and pre-op testing...I took a leap of faith with myself and God .
I had clear liquids 24 hrs before surgery and was officially sleeved on 7/17 at 10am.
I am currently 10 days post-op and completely intrenched in the full liquid diet. What can you say about liquids? Not a whole lot . Anyway, I am just passing time until Tues when I get to start the greatly anticipated puree stage. Never thought I would be so excited about eating food the consistency of baby food. But here I am and readily counting the hours.
This past 2 weeks has given me time to do a lot of thinking!! Sometimes I wonder if the liquid stage is just as much for learning to listen to your body and conquering some of your food obsession as it is about letting your body heal.
I have found that everyday that voice is getting a little stronger and I can't wait to begin to have NSVs and see the weight come off. I will take each day of passing time to consider the gift I have been given of my life, living longer, spending more time with family and friends. I am 38 years old and have a lifetime ahead of me and plan to make it the best I can!!
I found out that I was denied unemployment assistance. I was expecting being denied but it still hit me like a ton of bricks. I cried and sobbed so hard last night. My poor husband didn't know what to do. I was so upset that I didn't even want to get up this morning. It was like, "What's the point?" But like this journey, I got up anyway; one step at a time.
I found myself wishing for things to be different so much last night. I was wishing I had never gotten my band. Mostly because it's another bill to pay. So long story short, my depression started to take over and make me feel hopeless. Didn't help that I ate most of a bag of Munchos yesterday and 2 turkey soft tacos last night. Trying not to dwell on the mistake since it WILL happen. Found out about the rejection letter after dinner though.
I'm better today. Not 100% better but still okay. Going for a walk, just like I'm supposed to. *sigh* Hard to deal right now.
I can do this. I know I can do this.
So I went to the gym again today, I have been everyday this week. I only walk on the treadmill at a 2.8 or 3,0 speed and a 1 incline. I walk for 2 miles and that it. The treadmills are equiped with cable tv so the time seems to pass quickly.
I used the fitness room scale, which is what my surgeon has, this is the printout I got
Weight 233 started 250
BMI 37 40
Fat % 51 47
There was more, but this is what caught my attention. I am happy about my progress, exspecially since its going slow and steady. I know this will allow me to shape my body better when I start my workouts.
I am starting to get hungry in between meals, so I am adding unflavored whey protien to my SF teas in between meals.
I think next week I can have mushies....for some reason I am craving tuna fix salad and baked fish. Strange.
Anyway...I go back for my post op check on Tues. the 31st, ready ready ready!!
It has been one whole month since my surgery. I unfortunately still feel like I'm a sick person recovering though between eating mushies still, taking liquid omeprazle, and pulling an internal stitch 2 weeks ago.
However, today my stomach (where I pulled that stitch) is finally not bothering me as much. I can finally sleep on my side, which has begun to help my back pain a lot. And, so far any mushie food I've feed my sleevie has agreed with me. I went through a phase about 2 weeks out where I was freaked out over the amount of liquids I could handle in one swallow. I didn't need to sip anything by week two, I could take pretty regular sized drinks. I was worried I did something wrong. My doctor assured me, I just healed well and fast, and was happy for it. Now I freak out sometimes when I can eat what feels like it should be a lot, like 1/2 cup of fat free re-fried black beans, and I only feel full there at the end and can eat it in 30 minutes. Like... wow. Um, I thought that this was supposed to be harder? I guess maybe in the end, when all the healing is done, and I'm on regular food again, that I might be happier that I can eat most things. I've been super careful and slow when I introduce sleevie to something new. I take micro bites at first, sort of testing the waters, and then I'm like ok, we're good. And another food goes into rotation. I'm going to be trying tuna and chicken salad this week. I had to mentally get past the mushy meats idea. But, I do want to introduce meats to my system again before I'm eating real food again. I think I forgot that its a actually a goal to be able to eat a little closer to "normal" portions by the time I'm totally healed. I will be able to handle 2-3 oz. of meat, 1/4 cup of veggies, and a couple of tbsp. of brown rice. This amount of food sounds absurd to me in one sitting right now.
Speaking of food...I've become pretty on top of healthy alternative recipe hunting. One of my post-surgery changes is cooking more often from home, making clean & healthy whole foods, and experimenting regularly with new recipes. I found cauliflower pizza crust! Protein donuts?! Yes! So long as this stuff tastes as amazing as my head thinks it does, (after 5 weeks of mushies and 3 weeks of liquids it will all taste good! LOL), then we're ready to rock and roll. I'm going to do my best to follow for the most part a low glycemtric diet for the rest of my life. Because I'm human, there will be "normal" food days, and I'm not going to feel food guilt those moments ever again. Food guilt is ridiculous in my life, and I don't need it. I felt guilty when I ate. Period. If I had a healthy sandwich, whole wheat bread, smoked turkey, low fat mayo, loaded with veggies... I'd feel guilty. That is something I feel I'm past now, and I don't want to ever feel like that again.
I'm slowly getting past my, "Buyer's remorse." It has been harder than I anticipated for me post surgery. Not the food, I've been disciplined and not even thought about challenging my post-op diet at all. Its been physically not being where I am capable of being mentally. My pulled stitch has slowed me down, and it has frustrated me so much. I still have to take it easy, when I want to go walk a mile. I want to grab my hula hoop and just go nuts dancing, but I can't do that for another 4-5 weeks. Heartbreaking for me. I want to pick up my little dog and cuddle him like a baby, and I can't do that for a while either. I miss drinking while eating more than I thought I would. I was sad to think I can't drink milk and eat a PB&J sandwich at the same time. Is that forever? In a year or two, can I do that again? I'm just mentally past the healing and change part, and feel stunted in my ability to go forward because of this injury, and my back pain I've been suffering since I've been having to lay on my back so much. I'm back at work, but still can't bend over or reach up or move as fast as I did before... I'm ready to feel like myself 100% again and I'm pretty sure I still have a few more weeks before I will.
I am rather pleased with my 37 pound weight loss, and don't even mind that I'm in a stall right now.
Ah. This getting my thoughts out thing feel good.
This is the secret recipe fom Chilli's!
Description: "fajita-marinated chicken,cornrelsih, mixed cheese, cilantro, diced tomato and crispy tortilla strip. Garnished with a Chipotle-ranchdrizzleand cheese quesadilla wedges, served with citrus-balsamic dressing."
start with 4 skinless Chicken Breast Fillets (Serving size 4 )
Fajita Marinade
2 1/2 cups of water
2 tablespoons of soy sauce
2 tablespoons of granulated sugar
2 teaspoons of salt
1 1/2 teaspoons ground cumin
1 teaspoon garlic powder
1 teaspoon onion powder
1/2 teaspoon gound cayenne pepper
1/2 teaspoonground balck pepper
1/2 teaspoon Hicory flavored Liquid Smoke
Corn Relish
1 cup frozen yellow corn kernals (thawed)
1/2 cup canned balck beans, drained & rinced
2 tablespoons minced green bell pepper
2 teaspoons of Cilantro
1 teaspoon lime juice
1/2 teaspoon granualated suger
1/4 teaspoon of salt
1/8 teaspoon ground cayenne pepper
pinch of ground black pepper
Chipotle-Ranch Drizzle
1/2 cup hidden Valley Ranch salad Dressing
1/8 reaspoon ground chipotle chile
Citrus-Balsamic Vinaigrette
1 cup canola oil
1/4 cup balsamic vinegar
3 tablespoons granulated sugar
2 tablespoons grey poupon dijon mustard
2 tablespoons lemon juice
1teaspoon minced garlic
1teaspoon lime juice
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/4 teaspoon ground black pepper
Crispy Tortilla Strips
6 corn Tortillas
2 cups Canola Oil
Cheese Quesadillas
8 7-inch flour tortillas
1 cup shredded chedder cheese
1 cup shredded Montery Jack cheese butter
8 cups chopped Ice burg lettuce (about 1 head)
8 cups chopped romain lettuce (1 head)
1/2 cup shredded chedder cheese
1/2 cup shredded Montery Jack cheese
1 cup diced tomatoes (aprox. 2 tomatoes)
4 teaspoons of minced cilantro
1. The Chicken will need to marinate for 2 hours. pound out the fat end of fillets with kitchen mallet/meat tenderizer, wisk marinade ingridents together in medium bowl and pour over chicken in zip-lock bag, Park them bad boys in fride for 2- 2 1/2 hrs.
2.
while chicken is doing it's thing, time to start the Corn Relish,dressings and Tortila strips, To make Relish simply combine all ingredients into Medium bowl, cover and Chill.
3. Make the Chipotle-Ranch drizzle by combining ground chipotlepepper to hidden Valley ranch, LOW FAT is BEST!
4. Make the Citrus-Balsamic Vinaigrette by combiningall ingedients in blender/food processor on medium speed for 30 seconds or until thick, cover and chill.
5. Make the Crispy Tortilla Strips by slicing 6 corn tortillas into thin strips. heat oil into medium saucepanover medium heat until one strip dropped in oil bubblesand fries to crunchy golden brown (1 minute.) When oil is hot fry tortilla strips in batches until crispy, drain on paper towels.
6. when the chicken has marinated for few hrs, preheat BBQ gril on High, arrange chicken on plate and coat with little oil so they won't stick to grill, once grill is hot enough cook for 5 to 6 minuets per side , until done.
7. as chicken cooks make quesadillas by heating medium saut'e pan over med/low heat, Combine 1 cup of shredded chedder and 1 cup of montery jack , then spread 1/2 cup of cheese blend on top of flour tortilla, cover with 2nd tortilla melt butter in saut'e pan, and brown quesdilla for 1 minuteon each side or until light brown. repeat for other 3 tortillasand slice each into quarters with pizza wheel or knife.
8. build each salad by combining 2 cups of Iceburg & Romaine into large serving plate. sprinkle salad with 1/2 cup of crispy strips spoon 1/3 cup of corn relish on next, slice each grilld chicken breat into thin strips and arrange over corn relish, followed by 1/4 cup of diced tomatoe, 1 teaspoon of Cilantro, drillze Chipotle drizzle over salad and serve citrus-balsamic in small bowl on side. arrange 4 slices of Quesadilla around edge and serve.
**** Makes 4 Large Salads ****
Tidbit
save time money and get blend of shredeed chedder/ montery jack or whatever blend you prefer.
OK - I'm just over 3 months out and happy with my 48 pound weight loss. I work a lot and am getting tired of yogurt for breakfast, fruit for snacks, mostly soup for lunch and eating a tiny portion of what I cook for my husband at night. Is eating 1/2 cup of canned soup a criminal act? How about mac and cheese?
I can only buy so many vegies before they go bad as my hubby eats very few. I make a regular meal about once a week and then have left-overs but usually end up throwing part of it away.
Lean Cuisines and similar items seem to be too much of a serving - seems wasteful to me as well.
I love the people who make their bento boxes and tiny little egg treats and freeze them but I just don't have the time.
Is there anybody else out there like me?
Well today is day three of the liquid diet-pre surgery. Yesterday was a tough day for me but so far today its not a hard. I have already lost 5 lbs. I know its not much but its a start towards my new journey. I hate TV right now because ALL they seem to show is food commercials. Drives me crazy but I am trying to make sure that when I think I am hungry I am really hungry and not just bored or whatever. I know that those issues can occur so I want to understand my body. Next Wednesday is the big day and I want to have my head in the right place.
A friend of mine that is just starting the process to get the lap band, asked me yesterday if I had my list of things that I want to do once I lose my weight. She said that I need to open myself up to the idea that I have held myself back because of my weight and I need to have my list started. I giggled about it but then started thinking about it. hmmmm what have I held my self back from........ LOTS I am a chicken by nature and I guess I have let my weight be my excuse and that just isn't cool. So I am working on my list but I thought I would share what my friend told me was her "weight loss bucket list".
Climb a mountain (not something that I have thought about doing because I a super clumsy and scared of heights)
run a 5K (ok so obviously running has not been a passion of mine but this is something that could be fun)
learn to country dance (Got that one already, my husband is the best at that and we use to do that all the time)
Now get ready here is her wacky ones:
sky dive
Wrestle an alligator (WHAT!!! NO) she says she needs to get the weight off so she can move faster. RIGHT!!!! lol
The sky dive thing sounds kind of fun but I am SOOOOOO scared of heights that I am not sure I can do it. But if nothing else I will tell her take pictures of her doing it. LOL
Now there is one thing that we have agree about doing....... once we meet our goal weight we are gong to take a trip together to New York. We have both always wanted to go there and I think its something that will be a lot of fun for she and I to do together and celebrate our new selves.
As far as my "weight loss bucket list" well I am still not really sure. I know shopping for really cute clothes and getting a new hair style in one the list. I would like to zip line. So I guess here is my list
1. new cute up to date clothes
2. spunky new hair style
3. try zip lining
That's a start. We will see where it goes. I think I am going to post my list on the fridge and it will give me the push I need.
how long were you guys sore from the incisions? i had my surgery on Monday and i still cannot stand up straight without having to hold my stomach...it's still amazingly painful. i see so many posts on here about how there's no pain or just a little and how people are back to normal in just a few days.....is that really the norm? im feeling a lot of regret for doing this right now!! i dont even want to get off the couch because it hurts so much!
Nice to see so many new face's on LBT. I have the day off today so I was trying to catch up on the web site. It is nice to see some old friends and some new faces. I am Diane and I was banded on October of 2010. I have now lost 112 lbs and am 8 lbs from my ideal body weight, a healthy BMI and healthy percent body fat. My journey like all WLS patients has had it's ups and downs. I have had my share of plateaus and difficulties and I can not tell you how much this web site and the people on her who are now friends have helped me. I have been a silent stalker and finally an active participant. In the beginning I didn't feel I had much to share so I read, listened and tried to learn all I could about my body and lap band. lap band got me started on this journey but after the initial 50 lbs the work really starts, honestly having lap band is just a little insurance.(sorry if you did not realize this but it is true) It is like having an extra conscious, that says,"Now you know you have eaten enough and if you take one more bite I am going to make your throw up if you take one more bite" "See I told you" I still have days when my eyes are wanting way more than my tummy will hold, and my 3rd conscious (hubby) says, Di ya gotta lot of food on your plate, you know you can't eat all that. I hate it but he is right. I can not say enough about my family, friends, co-workers and cyber friends. With out all of their support I would never have made it. They have held me accountable and challenged me when I felt things were stalled. Hard work, dedication, goal setting and sticking to the program works. The old saying is so true, "You are what you eat!" I love eating healthy now, I feel so much better, I have so much more energy and I am off all of my asthma medications and blood pressure medications. I never thought that would happen! I love exercising and I love working out with a trainer. Yes it is hard work, yes it takes commitment and yes it is also expensive but I made the financial cuts in my daily life because my health is worth this, I deserve to be healthy. I am thin now, WOW, can't believe I said that but I do have to admit, I am thin. I wear size 4" and 6's, I have no boobs left, (but a really sexy bra from Victoria's Secret with some sexy panties) I do have a little loose skin on my upper thighs and tummy could be tighter. But hey my arms look awesome and with "Justin's" drilling in the gym I will tighten up the other areas in due time. Will I be perfect, "Hell to the No" but you know what for a 56 year old lady who used to weight 252 lbs and wear a size 24 I look pretty damn good.
Soooo. lapbander's new and old my words of wisdom to you are: Love yourself, believe in yourself, never lose site of your goal. This is not a "DIET", this is a life time commitment to living a healthier life style. This is about beating the odds, this is about being accountable to yourself. We can lie to ever one else and say, yes I am following the rules when In our hearts we know we can give more.
How bad do you really want this? How much are you willing to give? After all it is your life!
I am giving this 100% plus, I am so worth all the hard work, dedication and commitment.
Remember you are worth it also, give your self a break, forgive your self for what went wrong yesterday and move forward. If you dwell in the past you will never have a future.
Hugs and Best Wishes to all my cyber friends, thank you for all your support and encouragement!
Day three post op, doing pretty well! Am up to 2 ounces in a go now. I apparently had a hiatal hernia, so I assume it's still a little swollen there, and I have to straighten my abdomen if I'm sitting in order for things to go down, and burps to get up. This is a weird feeling, having to MAKE myself drink something! I'm just not hungry (although a slice of toast does sound tasty. No, I will NOT cheat!). Slept well last night, took the dog on a short walk this morning. Much nicer than walking laps around the kitchen. Will be happy to eat again, but I am patient. One advantage of being 50 I suppose. Going to nominate my wife for sainthood; she's been TOTALLY supportive and helpful! Living the metamorphosis and loving it!
Well it been 3 weeks since my unfill so it time to get my fuild back. While i not gained i not relly lost i gone up and down about 2 lbs. I also talked to my nurtionist kate. When ever i am not feeling great nurtionly she the one to go to. we talked alot about diffent types of hunger and what to do for them. I talked about how i get dizzy when i do not eat enough and work out hard she said thats real hunger thats your body telling you need more. She said think of it like this when you eat if you were to place a plate of brorcklie in front of you would you eat that if the answer is yes then thats hungery nunger you body sending you the message. If the answer is no then thats head hunger. We also talked about things to do for head hunger such as keep busy keep hands busy and mind busy.
My Dr Fellow who saved the band Dr Odokey she I look great. She said it nice to she you move and be happy and prerky. We talked alot about trying to keep kidney infections away so this dose not happen again. I talked to another Dr about it that day too so everyone on the same page as far as my kidney go.
I get another fill in september. So far i not relly felt anything with this fill he put two cc in my band I thinking it could take some more time. The best part was he found my port on the frist shot no Flor need for him to find my port. His fellow and I laughed. He also hides the nedale so i have no idea how huge it is I told her thats makes it easyer on me. I saw her in the elvator going to the pre-op meeting and she said Hay did Dr jones ask you to speak you should. I said no I going to support group she like yea come down after and tell your story. I feel it too soon to do that pluse i don't want to scar everyone with my story.
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Then one of the ladies asks me in front of everyone when my surgery date was. Keep in mind I've only told 3 people at work so it was kinda on the down low. Though I planned on telling the world once I got a surgery date. well her question prompted another lady to ask what kind of surgery and before I know it we're all talking about calories and lap band. It went much better than what I hoped. No one had anything negative to say except that it was going to be a BIG change. Not sure everyone agreed with my decision but when I told them about how my back hurt after walking from the parking lot to my office they seemed to understand why I'm ready for this BIG change.
So I'm back at my desk saying a little prayer...lord please let telling everyone be that easy and lord if you have time please hide those remaining donuts and apple fritters from me cause I hear them calling my name. amen.
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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