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It's Deja Vu All Over Again!

Still hanging at the 216-224 range. It's gotten to the point that I have "rules" that are so bizarre that my husband is pushing me to see my WLS. I don't want to go back for fear I'm going to hear it's my fault I haven't lost more...   Jill's Rules - not really mine, what my body is dictating:   *Can't eat before 10am; thankfully, coffee goes down okay. *Can't get breakfast down(1/4c oatmeal, 1/4c egg sub, 2 slices turkey bacon or yogurt and fruit) in under 45 minutes. *Can't be wearing a bra or anything remotely fitted around my waist - food will not go down. *Can't sit down to eat - three bites and I'm backlogged. *Attempt to sit down to dinner - see above - then run to the bathroom, throw up food plus a nasty looking mucus ball(TMI-I know!) Then - surprise! I can eat..as long as I stand up to do it. *Hungry all the time - and it's not in my head - my stomach growls so loudly my co-workers crack up in meetings. *Obsessed w/chocolate - never was before. It's either because it will go down and gives me instant(temporary) energy or because if the serotonin release. *Vomitting can be triggered by something as small as the thin slice of a radish or a 1/4 tsp size piece of chicken and can go on for hours. *After throwing up, the area around my port seems to puff up. Despite having my haital hernia fixed a surgery, I feel like I have acid reflux.   When I list it all, it does seem a bit ridiculous for me to continue to suffer. I guess I should just be glad that I'm no longer 286 pounds. Healthier with well-controlled blood glucose, but still the biggest gal in the room. Still not taken seriously or talked down to because I'm plus sized. I suppose it's time I just suck it up and accept that this is as good as it's going to get.
RavenClaw779

RavenClaw779

3
Mission Slimpossible
 

Who Needs Breakfast?

I went for a possible fill today, and I didn't get one. The Nurse asked me if I was eating meats, and I told her that I really wasn't because I was afraid of getting stuck. I explained how scrambeled eggs got me stuck the 1st time for breakfast. She suggested I stick with yogurt in the morning as our stomachs are typically a little more swollen in the morning so it's much easier to get things stuck then. Hum, I didn't know that. I mean I read that some people couldn't eat breakfast, but didn't understand why. So, now I know.   I'll try to have yogurt with strawberries or something from now on in the mornings. She said if I can eat meats (chicken, beef, turkey or pork) that aren't dry, and eat every 3 hours or so, that I should be in a good place. Sometimes our bodies change & I might need another fill down the road, but I could be OK. I told her I baked burgers last night (not fried or grilled), and they came out OK. I added a little honey mustard for flavor & so it wouldn't be dry. Got it down OK, so I think I'm in a good place...   I lost 5 pds, and she was only expecting 1 1/2 or 2 pds, so I guess thats good.   So, there you have it... no more eggs for breakfast for me...
Domika03

Domika03

1
roxa's Blog
 

These Shakes Are Horrible!

These protein shakes are so awful. I only got two down yesterday and something is making me sick, stomach ache and diareha, I think it is the shake. The thought of choking another down today is making me queasy. Anyone have a good tasting one?? This is only day 2 of pre diet. I have 13 days to go!
roxa

roxa

6
Linsey B.'s Blog
 

Doing Good!

I am doing really good on my weight loss and even with the quick pace it is still hard to be patient. The main reason is because I have lost this same weight range before several times so I am wanting to get into new scale territory. Now that food is no longer the driving obsessive force in my life I am for the first time researching nutrition and how we get fat in the first place. It is disturbing the things I am finding out. It really all began with this documentary called "Fat Head". If you have Netflix you can watch it or if you don't sign up for the free trial and watch it. It is a documentary that is in response to Super Size Me and it discusses nutrition and how all the information we know about low fat eating is the film's term not mine is'bologna'. So like all intresting concepts instead of believing the movie I am reading and doing research on my own. What I am finding is really disturbing to me and that movie was dead on. I don't regret my surgery and am thankful for it but had I known the truth about nutrition and how we get fat I would have had another way to treat my obesity. All those times I thought I was weak willed when I was given into the urge to eat while dieting makes me mad . Dieting is semi starvation, starve anyone and they are gonna think about food and then eat, duh. The plus side of doing all this research is now I finally understand how best to feed my body now. I also now understand why all the great benefits of this surgery and changing my diet work. All my anxiety is now gone, I don't crave foods, I no longer have insomnia, I have tuns of energy and love exercising and have no pain doing so even though I am at the same weight where previously I struggled with pain and energy while exercising. I honestly feel like I am in my overweight teenage body where I didn't feel the effects of gravity so much no aches and pains but I feel better now than I did then. I have been reading Good Calories Bad Calories and Why we get fat and what to do about it both by Gary Taubes both at the library but I'll be buying both. I have been reading other books as well but G.C.B.C. sites the scientific studies if you're like me and need evidence. I mention these books because they're really good reads and perhaps you're curious like me about nutrition now that the food obsession is gone or if it's still there how to get rid of it. Here is a quote that I find fascinating.   "In other words, the science itself makes clear that hormones, enzymes, and growth factors regulate our fat tissue, just as they do everything else in the human body, and that we do not get fat because we overeat: we get fat because the carbohydrates in our diet make us fat. The science tells us that obesity is ultimately the result of a hormonal imbalance, not a caloric one--specifically, the stimulation of insulin secretion caused by eating easily digestible, carbohydrate-rich foods: refined carbohydrates, including flour and cereal grains, starchy vegetables such as potatoes, and sugars, like sucrose (table sugar) and high-fructose corn syrup. These carbohydrates literally make us fat, and by driving us to accumulate fat, they make us hungrier and they make us sedentary." pg 23. Why we get fat and what we can do about it . Gary Taubes
rickgrimestwd

rickgrimestwd

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Kime-lou's Blog
 

Where'd My Second Chin Go?

I just looked at myself in the mirror- really looked at myself. I realized my face is much smaller as is my neck and my double chin has disappeared. My husband keeps telling me I am looking great, but I just fail to see it. I know I am smaller because the scales and my clothes show it, but when I look in the mirror I still feel large.   Will I ever be able to let go of being the fat gir? Will I ever feel like I am small enough? I am 5'2 and to start with I want to be around 170, but now I have changed that to 135 ish. But, will that be enough once I reach it. I am not sure how I will feel at that point and I know I should worry about, but it's a thought in my head.   I love the fact that I am 38 lbs smaller than when I began- even though it's taken 4 months to get there. It feels slow, but my average is 8 lbs a month which isn't bad.   I wish I had a magic mirror that could show me what I will look like in a year. But would that motivate me to continue or would it allow me to become complacent and stop being so tight with myself.   I don't think any of us have the answers to all these questions, we are all just living our own banded life each day- which varies from person to person.   For today I am happy to look at my smiling face in the mirror and now see a second chin or my eye lids dropping down - my face is tighter and cuter and for today that is going to be my joy.   Onward and downward in our case! LOL!!
Kime-lou

Kime-lou

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Cherrygre's Blog
 

Trying To Keep Focused!

So much time and energy is spent on getting to and through surgery, but I wonder how many of us really align expectations with what the reality actually is.   There are so many terms that I had read before, and all of a sudden I understand so well. You really don't know them until you live through it (no matter how many blogs/forums one reads).   I feel blessed and extremely successful up to this point, 35 lbs so far (20 as a result of the preop diet) with just being 4 weeks post op. But wow, I am always hungry, sooo hungry. I had such high expectations for my first fill (last week) but the feeling lasted 30 minutes, and now I know that I can pretty much eat anything and amounts similar to before surgery. Now that I have started to begin my work outs, plus being single in NYC (where all social activities revolve around a meal/brunch) its proving extremely difficult.   I've stuck to my guns, and eat like I have restriction, preparing my meals during the week, but how long can I actually keep it up? I'm so afraid of getting myself overly frustrated.   Its even to the point that the other night I actually dreamed that I cheated this with a can of Coke and a bag of Peanut M&Ms... the guilt was killing me, and when I got up I was so happy that it was only a dream, jajaja   2nd fill on Oct. 31. Hope that one helps a bit more.   Thanks everyone! for reading this!! Have a great day.
cherrygre

cherrygre

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anayortiz's Blog
 

Slow Weight Loss

not loosing weight like others have, this friday the 19th It will be my 1 month anniversary and have only lost 14lbs, total 25lbs since the pre-surgery diet.   could i be doing something wrong ? please get back to me with some feedback.
anayortiz

anayortiz

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Weekly Updates
 

Week 8 With Progress Pics

Where do I start...Week 8 was the week of workouts...   I concentrated on my running game...So I pushed myself everytime I ran...Managed 2 miles in 26 minutes on Wednesday...And on Saturday, I actually did an 11 minute mile...Killed me but I felt good after I caught my breath and my heart starting beating inside instead of outside of my chest...Now I need to duplicate that across two miles and then three miles...My goal is to do 3 miles in 30 minutes...I have also kept up with Insanity workouts...Still hard as hell but well worth it...I get a sense of accomplishments from getting through another greuling 40 minutes of insane workouts...I feel myself getting stronger..my stretches getting better and my cardio picking up so I am so encouraged...   I know some say I am going too hard on the workouts but I do not think so...I feel absolutely fine and no pain from the workouts other than sore muscles...And I actually get a rise out of that because that means they feeling the effect and making way for change...Working out, particularly running is a lifestyle for me so no sense of putting it off any longer..I also am putting weight lifting in my routine. My arms have always been big proportionate to my body so I am giving them a lil extra work to see if I can get them to get with the program...lol...   I had a few struggles with food and the dreaded alcohol...I went out to eat with friends and there was bread and I had a tiny piece...Didnt take it too far because I did not want to risk upsetting my stomach...And I also tried a drink, on a separate occassion, and it burned my stomach...Good and a bad thing...so I didnt finish the drink and have the empty calories but man I was looking forward to that drink...   But the best part of the week...I got down to 199...I guess it is possible on my scale...For the past few weeks I was beginning to think that my scale did not display #'s less than 200...I attached progress photos and I can see the difference in the photos but when I look in the mirror I pretty much see myself the same as I was pre-surgery...I had a girlfriend tell me that it was funny that when I was bigger I saw myself as a sexy b*tch..and now as I have getting smaller I am seeing myself as a slob...I dont really know where I lost myself..I do remember feeling good about me or at least I played the role so well that I believed I liked myself at some point in my "big life"...Now, I critique myself so hard on that and I am almost uncomfortable in my own skin...I need for my self image and confidence to catch up with my smaller waistline...It is sometimes hard to process the compliments because I am thinking what do these folk see...In fact, I told this one guy, I wanted to see myself through his eyes...He had always adored me even at my biggest and now he can't wait to see me in the morning to shower me with compliments...   HW 232 & SW 227 (VSG 08/17/12 & 5'8) LW 201.2 CW 199 [Exactly 44lbs away from goal] GW 155
helgaready

helgaready

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sbassie's Blog
 

No Restriction After 1St Fill.

I had my first fill a week ago. It is very disappointing. I feel like I can eat just as much as I could before the surgery! I lost weight while I was swollen from the surgery, but have lost none since the swelling went away. So, for over a month, I have not lost a pound. I guess I need to call the Dr. and see about another fill or something. Anyone know anything about this?
sbassie

sbassie

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Angela777's Blog
 

Food!

So I would be a big fibber if I said this week was easy. I am kinda falling apart, I am snapping at my poor husband but eat a cupcake (3) in front of a all liquid diet wife. I almost punched him, and his mom for sending them home with him!   I just had a sugar free apple cider and walked away VERY grumpy.   Only 3 more days of this! Then two more weeks, lol.   I am off of my soap box and will realx about this, it's the beginning of my new life.
Angela777

Angela777

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juny's Blog
 

Done With 6Th Visit

Fair warning: This is a long backstory type vent.     As the title explains, they'll be submitting this week to my insurance and eventually set me up with a date they think will be in January. I've lost about 34lbs in the pre-op during the visits. They coo and praise what I've accomplished. And I'm just not feeling it. I think it's because, oddly, weight-loss pre-op was not the goal, getting stuff done for the surgery was, this is insane, I know. I also look at it like it's verification that I can't really do this by myself. I mean if I lost say 50 lbs a year it would take me another 3 solid years to get all the weight I need off...barring any falling off the wagon...you know because that never happens....   I've got a bit going on in my life and it just feels like now I'm at the crossroads. I'm working full time, I've just come up on a year working for this company but I've only been hired as a permanent employee since April and I haven't taken a day off since. I'm also going to post graduate classes so I can sit for the CPA----note to self: get the freakin application form----. And I was going do some tax prep stuff for a seasonal place, just so I could keep up with tax updates, make a little extra money and get my family's taxes done. Ok.. now add vsg at some point in January and you can now see the problem of having too much to do in the space and time I have. Additionally I've only got 2 weeks of pto which will not actually be 2 weeks of pto because the pre-op classes and meetings are going to take the better part of a morning so...bye bye 8 hours of pto just in prep for this. I'm thinking the tax prep thing is going to have to go. And that about where I'm at the point of feeling the stress start to come into the back of my neck. It's just all getting to be a bit much.   I still desperately want the surgery. Its so important to me not to go through another year carrying a full grown person w/ me wherever I go. I dont think this forum is a place I need to explain the reasons or defend myself. But outside this place I feel extraordinarily defensive about the desire to have the surgery. My family is either in the dark or not supportive. I live at home w/ my parents right now because the job I have doesn't pay enough to be out on my own but the insurance covers the surgery. This is why I felt conditions were right for the surgery.   My dad has no idea, he had a stroke 7 years ago, he's mostly fine but his personality did a 180 degree change and he's no longer the parent that I can talk to but rather the parent that I try to avoid dealing with altogether. Long story short, he's a liar and he constantly needs someone to stroke the ego, the way a 5 year old shows youhow nice he made the bed. My mom knows I'm doing this but thinks it's drastic, thinks it not the right choice and why can't I just keep going to the nutritionist since I've already lost weight that way? When we talk about it she gets quiet because she doesn't like it. This wouldn't bother me if I didn't need her for my recovery. And if god forbid something goes wrong my mom is exactly the type that gives you the told you so look and lecture. Right... I can totally see me in agony w/ picc lines and leak tests her just looking at me like...see what did i tell you....     Why can't I just be happy that I've done everything to finally get the letter sent?   I just have a lot on my mind. I have a lot of decisions to make and it feels like I'm going to have to risk something.
juny

juny

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dylanmiles23's Blog
 

Food

Good evening everyone After banding can you eat ribs? I haven't tried them yet. Yesterday I tried a chicken wing and it was too chewy, so I couldn't eat it. Wings are one of my favorite foods. Bye Bye wings. Also, how about rack of lamb? Is that a food that goes down well? Thank you.
dylanmiles23

dylanmiles23

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dylanmiles23's Blog
 

Food

Good evening everyone After banding can you eat ribs? I haven't tried them yet. Yesterday I tried a chicken wing and it was too chewy, so I couldn't eat it. Wings are one of my favorite foods. Bye Bye wings. Also, how about rack of lamb? Is that a food that goes down well? Thank you.
dylanmiles23

dylanmiles23

2
sissy12's Blog
 

I'm A Member Of That Club...

I made it somewhere I thought I would never be again, and saw a number I thought I'd never see at the beginning of my weight. ONE!!! I made it to ONEderland this morning, and even though I expected it to be there since I was 201 yesterday it still shocked me...I carefully stepped off the scale, grabbed my phone, stepped back on and snapped a picture. I am so proud of this picture, it's like a badge of honor. I did it, and I am so thankful!
sissy12

sissy12

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Zuwi's Blog
 

Beginning Of My Journey To Surgery Date

I am one of those really lucky fat people. I just have miiiild asthma, PCOS, and mild sleep apnea. That’s it. No diabetes, hypertension, high blood pressure, anything. But I am a ticking time bomb. I’m only 34, so yeah, I was still healthy. But for how long? I also was having trouble keeping up with my preschooler and I didn’t want that life anymore. So, this is the story of my sleeve journey so far. I started this process when a friend of mine that had been having weight issues for the 20 years I have known me sent me an email about his 126 lb. weight loss in a year with this surgery. I had never heard of this surgery before, and had always been opposed to the gastric bypass because of all the side effects that every person I met who had one seemed to have. I was intrigued, and started doing research. I not only found out about the surgery, but became interested in pursuing this as an tool for helping me get to my goal weight. I weighed 350ish lbs., and had yo yoed all over the place. I did really well with low carb diets, as I have PCOS, but always managed to fall off the horse and eat like one. I researched the best hospitals for this surgery, and I was glad to find out that there are so many options in Boston. I chose Newton Wellesley as the best candidate, and decided to go to a new patient meeting.   My husband came with me to the first meeting, and we thought it was interesting. My fabulous husband was very worried about the risks, but was willing to let me pursue this avenue as a way to lose the weight we were both pretty worried about. I met one of the surgeons, and decided to book my first appointment on June 14th. Which was the day after returning from a 1 week vacation to Miami. With lots of good latin food. Ha! So, I booked the appointment and decided not to worry about much until that day. I was given the pre-op diet at that time, and thought about whether or not I could lose a little weight.   I went to my appointment on June 14th, and found out my weight was 353. My doctor is Dr. Chahal. Which was the highest weight I ever saw written down. I'm sure somewhere I owned a scale, but I certainly didn't use it. And they gave me the pre-op binder and the pre-op diet, and I went on my merry way. They told me that in order to qualify for the surgery I just had to lose 5 lbs. I have lost as much as 5 lbs in a day. So, to say I wasn't worried was an understatement.   I made some changes, and stopped drinking soda. Which I did rarely. And tried not to eat quite as much dessert. I tried to eat as many veggies as the nutritionist told me, and as little meat. Lost 5 lbs, and thought, well, I'm set. But I was STARVING. Then my husband couldn't come with me to the appointment,and I had to change it to 2 weeks later, which I of course assumed would mean I would work hard, and lose more weight. Then I went on a girl's weekend to New York. Where I ate as though I was never going to eat again. And gained 9 lbs. And I couldn't move this other appointment. So, I get there on July 26, and I’ve lost……. 0.3 lbs. Well, this is a big shocker. My 5 lbs that I’ve always been able to lose didn’t cooperate with me. So, the doctor sat me down and said that I obviously wasn’t ready for surgery, and that he wanted me to focus on one thing, protein. He said, later on, we’ll worry about vegetables, and anything else. He said no more CARBS. No bread, pasta, rice, no matter what color. No soda. But most importantly, my plate should be 75% protein, with the rest veggies. And no fun sugary sauces like ketchup and bbq. But when he said the protein thing, it clicked. Because then I wouldn’t be as hungry. And that my friends, is when everything changed. The first 2 weeks were kinda sucky because I was detoxing from all the sugar I didn’t think I was eating. But then, the weight started coming off. And I was feeling pretty good. I started going to Zumba 3x a week. So, I went back on August 23rd, and I had lost 8 lbs. But most importantly, I had actually started making the changes I needed to be successful. The doctor looked at me and said, it’s clicked for you, you are ready. We’ll submit you for the insurance approval. I was on my way. In the next month, I continued on my path, eating well, and I got to 327.4 lbs. It was a good month I have to say. And then they called me, and gave me a date, Oct. 9. Whoa, this is really happening now. So, I started having more conversations with my husband to make sure that he was ok, and he said if I thought this is what I needed to do to get off my yo yo, he was all for it, but he was still worried about what if something happened to me on the table. Of course, this is something we all worry about, but he was particularly troubled by this. I would have thought the fact we couldn’t go out to dinner for a while and that our food plans were going to drastically change would be a bigger thing, but he was stuck on the me dying part. I head him. I just said to him that I could die in a car accident on the way to the hospital too, but that I needed to change my life drastically. So, with his support I moved forward. So, the week before surgery, they gave me a stricter pre-op diet. But, they suggested we have a lean cuisine for dinner. I found out I wouldn’t have 2 protein shakes during the day without a laxative effect, and because I hadn’t had sugar for so long, the potatoes in the lean cuisine made me sick too. I called, and they said that was just intended to help make it easier. I could go back to my previous diet, as long as I ate smaller portions. Thank goodness! So, the day of the surgery comes, and I am at 319 lbs.
Zuwi

Zuwi

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IsaacsGram's Blog
 

2 Weeks Post Op Today

2 weeks ago today I had 85% of my stomach removed. Wow, I really did it. I am still uncomfortable-pain in my left side continues, and even extended around to the left side of my back-like pain through and through from front to back. MD says its normal-don't worry. Ok, sure. My regret is that I ended up telling almost everybody, and now I'm getting those looks-you know the kind-"maybe you shouldn't have done this", "maybe you should have tried harder at dieting/exercising, etc", "so sorry, but you did this to yourself!" . Good grief, I know I should be thankful I have not had worse complications, I'm able to drink just fine, haven't vomited since leaving hospital, no leaks (so far), and I have been able to complete my online college course with an "A" , so I haven't lost brain function due to lack of calories! But I can't roll over in bed without horrible, tearing pain. I can't sit still very long without the burning irritation driving me nuts, and I can't pick up my grandsons or sit on the floor, or bend over.....:wub. Ok, 2 weeks down, 2 weeks till I have to return to work-it WILL GET BETTER , right? I did get some good news, I broke my stall- down 2lbs this morning from last Monday. Of course, 2 lbs is good, but was hoping for more in these early weeks. I suppose it will start going faster once I can work out again. We shalll see what next week brings.....
IsaacsGram

IsaacsGram

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Kime-lou's Blog
 

The Good, The Bad, The Ugly

Banded life can be some what of a roller coaster ride. We all get upset when someone says we took the easy way out, I'd like to see them try it! It's true you never understand until you walk a mile in there shoes. At almost 4 months out I have walked several of those miles and not all have been easy.   For a week after surgery I though oh, heck what did I do. I felt like crap, I hurt, I was hungry, I was miserable. Then as the healing got going I started to feel better. Then I started to see results- weight loss- and it made it all worth it.   I have had 4 fills now and know I am getting tighter. To begin with I was just watching my calories and staying below 1200 even if I felt hungry. Now the hunger is less of a problem except certain times of day. I am able to drink more and get my protein in, plus exercise.   Since my last fill I experieced the dreaded "STUCK" moment. Before the food even got to my band I knew I had screwed up- I swallowed before I had chewed enough - MISTAKE. Lets just say that certainly gave me a good reminder to CHEW!! Most bandsters have experienced this moment and it's the ugly one- you feel like your chest will explode. You want to puke, but you can't, you want to wash it down, but you can't. You are almost foaming at the mouth with spit- not pretty or fun.   Some foods I use to love, now just don't love me. Breadsticks for instance - I LOVED them- now I just can't do it without putting my band at risk. I don't know about you, but I don't really enjoy surgery and the thought of having to have my band fixed because I ate the wrong things and made it slip just isn't going to happen. That breadstick doesn't taste that good. Most other things I can still eat, but it's a question of should I. Things like ice cream and cheese cake - while my band will allow them down, my calorie count really doesn't. Does this mean I will never partake in these again, probally not. I think I will allow myself one SMALL slice of cheese cake once a year on my wedding anniversary because that is what we had for our wedding cake. However, I may do an hour on the elliptical to compensate.   As most people who have been banded figure out quickly, weight lose can be painfully slow at times. This makes it easy to get discouraged, but when you look at the big picture, when was the last time you lost 35 lbs in 3 months.   The band doesn't do it all for me. I still must choose the right foods - healthy. I must choose not to eat or drink empty calories. For me I choose to count calories, which has helped me a lot. This helps me make sure I don't go over and that I am staying in the "lose" zone. I think my counting calories with myfitnesspal will help me with my long term success. With counting I must be accountable each day not just when I get on a scale.   The Good part of the band is-- I am losing weight, I am not crazy hungry, I feel good, I am looking better, I am becoming the me I always wanted to be! For the 1st time in my over weight life I have hope and confidence that this weight will come off and I will one day be a healthy weight. So to be the bad and ugly times are far out weighed by the Good!!
Kime-lou

Kime-lou

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shabbychicprincess' Blog
 

Surgery In 3 And A Half Weeks , Scared To Death

Well I was so excited to get a surgery date . I really wanted it this year , before Christmas and now I'm really scared and want to back out . I'm scared of the pain of the surgery , I was actually ok until I had my appointment with the anaesthetist today. I've had three yer to get myself mentally prepared for this . Some of his off hand comments have unsettled me . He asked about the state of my veins as " big girls like me " usually have notoriously trouble some veins . He also told me the surgery would take 4 hours and that I would be on morphine for 24 hours . Is that normal ?
shabbychicprincess

shabbychicprincess

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@DomLorenVSG
 

Let Me Love You (Until You Learn To Love Yourself)

This song is my theme song/love song between me and my sleeve Marco. Because I'm a single gal, going through a journey of self discovery and learning how to re-love myself. I <3 my sleeve.     "Let Me Love You (Until You Learn To Love Yourself)"     Much as you blame yourself, you can't be blamed for the way that you feel Had no example of a love that was even remotely real How can you understand something that you never had? Ooh, baby, if you let me, I can help you out with all of that   Girl let me love you And I will love you Until you learn to love yourself Girl let me love you And all your trouble Don't be afraid, girl let me help Girl let me love you And I will love you Until you learn to love yourself Girl let me love you A heart of numbness gets brought to life I'll take you there   Girl let me love you Girl let me love you, baby, oh Girl let me love you Girl let me love you, baby Girl let me love you Let me love you, let me love you, oh   I can see the pain behind your eyes It's been there for quite a while I just wanna be the one to remind you what it is to smile I would like to show you what true love can really do   Girl let me love you And I will love you Until you learn to love yourself Girl let me love you And all your trouble Don't be afraid, girl let me help Girl let me love you And I will love you Until you learn to love yourself Girl let me love you A heart of numbness, gets brought to life I'll take you there   Girl let me love you, baby Girl let me love you Let me love you, let me love you, baby Girl let me love you Girl let me love you, baby Girl let me love you Let me love you, girl let me love you, baby   For every heart that beats For every heart that beats For every heart that beats For every heart that beats Heart that beats Heart that beats Heart that beats Heart that beats   Girl let me love you And I will love you Until you learn to love yourself Girl let me love you And all your trouble Don't be afraid, girl let me help Girl let me love you And I will love you Until you learn to love yourself Girl let me love you A heart of numbness, gets brought to life I'll take you there   Girl let me love you Let me love you, baby, love you, baby Girl let me love you Let me love you babe, love you babe, ooh-ooh-ah
@DomLorenVSG

@DomLorenVSG

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@DomLorenVSG
 

8 Weeks Post Op

As of Friday during my official weigh in, I was 181.9 lbs, which means I lost -5.1 lbs this week, and that makes a grand total of -34.1 lbs since surgery. What was so amazing about this week? My house was broken into and robbed last weekend and I've been dealing with the aftermath. Sorry if this is a little sad for some of my avid readers, because if you've read any of my previous blogs, you've already scene my house was broken into 3 weeks ago, I had a death in the family, and a car accident. Needless to say, I've been at my breaking point lately. I did really well this week trying to manage my stress and coping skills, but the most aggravating part of this entire week was the fact, that whomever broke into my house grabbed my backpack with ALL my swim/water polo gear. I wasn't able to swim for 5 days, and I had to re-purchase all my basic stuff just to work out again. It was infuriating. My renters insurance covered all my major losses (thank God). I think I managed to handle this previous week better than any other major issue that has come my way because I knew I was powerless and I could either just take care of business or do nothing- because sitting around and eating my feelings was not an option thanks to my sleeve.   After a crazy week of getting a new alarm system put in, insurance claims, police reports, a conference out of town, I ended the weekend going to Athens, GA for water polo tournament. I really had a lot of steam to blow off and I did! I was able to rock an amazing dress that I didn't think was possible yet, I was flooded with compliments, and I really got to just be happy- if only for a day or two, AND I got two insane workout days with back to back matches all day Saturday and Sunday. Not sure if I will drop big numbers like this again in the future because I'm a light weight, but my body has ceased to amaze me. I did NOT starve myself this week, in fact the ONLY thing I didn't do is work out because I had to take 5 days off from practice. Just that random change up in schedule was enough to freak my body out and drop a big number.   So after I returned home this weekend I felt slightly better, more normal, and I know that even though things maybe a disaster around me, my sleeve has my best interest and will continue to put my health and weight loss on the fore front of everything I do. I love my sleeve, and I love that my sleeve loves me enough to keep me on the straight and narrow even at what might be considered some of the roughest points in my life I've had in a while. My attitude has really changed for the better lately. Re-learning how to cope with major emotional issues, and going forward. I got Halloween in 2 weeks and my birthday in 3 weeks.   ** And most importantly, I have my 2 month post op pics in 2 days!!! Stay tuned friends! I will post on Weds!**   Height: 5'9   Highest Weight: 216   1st Goal Weight: 169     Sleeved: (8/17/2012): 216 lbs   Week 1 (8/24): 204.8 (-11.2) Week 2 (8/31): 200.6 (-4.2) Week 3 (9/7): 196.8 (-3.8) Week 4 (9/14): 193.5 (-3.3) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~> 9/17/12- 1 Month Anniversary w/Pics Posted in Blog Week 5 (9/21): 191.6 (-1.9) Week 6 (9/28): 190.1 (-1.5) Week 7 (10/5): 187.0 (-3.1) Week 8 (10/12): 181.9 (-5.1)
@DomLorenVSG

@DomLorenVSG

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Israel Justice
 

Questions..?

Instead of asking these questions in the form..as I'm sure many of people have asked the same questions over and over. I thought I would ask them in a blog. So if you read this and know the answer please feel free to respond!   My first question is about hunger. They say you don't feel hunger (actual hunger..not head hunger I understand that's something we may have to deal with for the rest of our lives). But actual hunger pain. Is that true? Do any of you whose had the surgery ever feel hunger pain? Actual hunger pain.   Second how long after surgery did most of you start to feel more energetic? I don't mean from the surgery, or recovery, but from being big. When did you feel like you've lost that magic amount when you realized that hey I can breath more openly when I walk, and my heart doesn't feel like it's jumping out of my chest..I feel comfortable! I guess I imagine that it will feel like a huge weight has been lifted from my chest..because I walk around feeling like I have one on my chest. At least that's what I'm hoping for.   Third.. what did it feel like the first time you put on a shirt, or pair pants you couldn't fit into before WLS? Did you cry? Did you jump up and down and get all excited! Something else I look forward to doing.   Where did you first notice you had lost weight? Was it your face, hips, fingers?   Ok enough questions.. lol Thanks to anyone who answers.
KatieOkieDokie

KatieOkieDokie

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Mission Slimpossible
 

Chew, Chew, Chew

I've written about my 2nd fill the last few posts, and here I go yet again. This fill is definitely leaving it's mark. Sometimes I still have issues when I eat, because I guess I'm not chewing the shi* out of my food, or I'm eating too quickly. There are times when I can just tell that I didn't chew something enough because I felt it slide down too soon. It sucks because I know what's going to happen.   It happens when I eat scrambeled eggs sometimes, because it typically slides down too fast. Tonight I tried to have pesto shrimp. I might have had 2 & BAM, I knew it was going to come back up. So, for dinner, I ate SF vanilla pudding.   I know I'm not getting enough protein because if this, and I've been feeling tired at the end of each day. I keep going back to Vitamin Cottage to pick up some tasteless protein powder, but they're always out of it. They even ordered it for me a week ago, and I'm still waiting to hear back from them. Not sure where else to get this "tasteless / flavorless" protein. I've heard people talk about it, because they mix it in with their regular food, not just shakes.   I've been losing weight, but I feel it's because I'm not eating enough, or not really eating well. Don't get me wrong, the idea is to lose weight. But, I don't want to lose weight, then not be healthy enough to enjoy it. I think I lost maybe 6 pounds in 2 weeks.   I have an appointment on Tuesday, for a possible 3rd fill. I'm sure they'll decide whether or not I'm ready to have another. I'm just scared of having another fill, because I'm afraid of having more stuck episodes. It's like you have to re-teach yourself how to eat. You need to reeeeeeeally chew your foods well, and eat slowly.   Apparently, this is a concept that's going to take me a few times to get used to. UGH ;-0
Domika03

Domika03

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