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Give Me A Three!!

In two days I will have been banded four months, and I really really really want to be at a 40lb. loss then. I'm putting this out there into the Universe, so you know...it will come true   I would need to lose 2.5 lbs. in the next two days...man, that would be so sweet!

sissy12

sissy12

 

The Lesser Of Two Evils?

This week has been tough, lots of bad news, sickness and it just has been non stop! Frankly I'm almost afraid to think about the next day *sigh*   The thing is that I was an emotional eater, and still may be since that may be something we don't get rid of, we may just learn to make better choices. Instead of eating too much I'm barely eating at all, a couple of days I've ad just a handful of Almonds, or a Protein shake...yeah, all day. I know it's bad for me, but with everything I have going on in my head I just cannot even think about eating, the little bites I've had are just so I don't pass out.   Not that what I'm doing is a good thing, but at least I am not stuffing my face with anything and everything around me. I used to look sideways at the girls who said "I'm too upset to eat" but, now I know what that's like.   I will get back on track, and I do plan on eating a sensible meal tonight even if I have to make myself do it.   Life has ups and downs, with and without a band...life just keeps on going and changing.

sissy12

sissy12

 

I'm A Member Of That Club...

I made it somewhere I thought I would never be again, and saw a number I thought I'd never see at the beginning of my weight. ONE!!! I made it to ONEderland this morning, and even though I expected it to be there since I was 201 yesterday it still shocked me...I carefully stepped off the scale, grabbed my phone, stepped back on and snapped a picture. I am so proud of this picture, it's like a badge of honor. I did it, and I am so thankful!

sissy12

sissy12

 

Been Missing In Action

I thought I'd update, work and life have been busy, I think the last time I blogged here was right after my first fill, and I have my 2nd one in five more days.   I've lost 34 lbs. since my surgery at the end of June. My struggle with exercise is an on-going thing, I just can't get myself to just do it.   Eating is easier as in I don't do a lot of it, I don't think about it much and when I do it's because I have to go out to eat. That has always been the hardest for me, making good choices when I'm looking at a menu and then at other people's plates is HARD, but I'm doing it. Last week at a birthday dinner I had a salad...actually it was lettuce and dressing...because everything else on the menu was not for me. Everyone else enjoyed the family style feast of fried chicken, mashed potatoes, BBQ chicken, baked beans, buttery green beans, chicken fried steak and biscuits...that was like my own version of hell for about two hours, but I did not put a single "bad" thing into my mouth. While everyone left there stuffed and feeling gross, I left with a happy tummy and a happy heart.   When I got home I had a little grilled chicken, and it tasted amazing.   Another victory...I'm thankful.

sissy12

sissy12

 

First Fill

I'm 11 weeks post-op and had my first fill today. I think the timimg was perfect as I was getting a little grumpy about having lost ONLY 26lbs. Hearing my Doctor tell me that I am on target with the loss and even past his expectations so far, really helped me.   I think we all play the comparison game, we know or read about someone who has lost more weight in the same amount of time and it bothers us, at least that's how I feel some days.   26 lbs. lost in 11 weeks, no fill at surgery and no fill until today...not too shabby I say.   I need to remember that I have lost a lot of weight, that if it wasn't for my band and my hard work I would still be carrying around a toddler.

sissy12

sissy12

 

First Month...nailed It!

It's been a month today since my surgery, so I thought I'd add a quick update. The first week was HARD, lots of pain and discomfort
Week two was a bit better, but still painful and had major gas pain on my shoulders
Third week, the gas pain started to taper off, had very little energy
Week four, less pain but have started having the "pulling" feeling around the band area, still tire easily and have little energy
Total Lbs. gone for ever=18   Would I do it again? yes! What I would do differently? seriously do a pre-op diet. It wasn't required for me.   I'm looking forward to feeling more like myself in the next few weeks, I feel drained by mid-day, I also wish the swelling in my stomach would go down already...baby steps, I know...I know.

sissy12

sissy12

 

One Week Post-Op

I have not gotten around to posting about my surgery day, so I'll do a quickie.   We got to the surgery center at 6a.m. and I was in surgery by 7:30, I was nervous and very emotional, thankfully time went by very quickly and before I knew it I was waking up in the recovery room.   So, that's when reality set in. I was in a LOT of pain and freezing cold, I was shaking and shivering so much that my body was aching, they put two warm blankets on me and it still did nothing for me, my shoulders and chest hurt the most, once the pain meds. kicked in for the pain I was still dealing with the gas pain. I asked myself "What have I done???"   I walked, had the yucky cocktail and X-ray and by 10:45 I was in the car going home.   The first two days were very bad for me, and I kept thinking about all of the people posting here right after surgery, some post and blog as soon as they get home...I felt very discouraged, I had to stay on top of the pain medicine just to get a little relief.   My turn around day was day five, that is when I felt like myself and could get in/out of bed and chairs on my own.   I was on clear liquids for five days, yesterday I started soft foods and I was a happy girl!   All in all, it's been a lot tougher than I ever thought it would be, but I am still glad I had the surgery.   I'm down eight pounds since my surgery.

sissy12

sissy12

 

Two Days Away...

I go in for surgery Wednesday morning, I've had a few OMG!! moments, but that's to be expected.   I think I'm ready, I got the call from the nurse this morning, I gave her the list of medicine I take, she told me what I should bring, so I'm set. This is REALLY happening.

sissy12

sissy12

 

One More Week

Eight days to be exact, yikes!   I went to a support group meeting last night. I really enjoyed it, not only was everyone there very welcoming and friendly, but I learned a lot.   My take-away from the meeting " Everyone struggles" Ha! Seriously, it was great to hear everyone's story and see how far they've come, and hearing about their struggles, what they've learned the hard way...those are the things that I need to keep in mind.   I will go back next month, never thought I'd go more than once...now I can't wait for the next meeting.

sissy12

sissy12

 

Ouch!

I went in for lab work this morning, I am SO not a morning person and I am SO not a needle in the arm person, so this morning? not so much fun for me. I'm a big baby about having blood drawn, I would rather have been in surgery this morning instead. The guy had no sense of humor, and he was not impressed with mine either...he's probably not a morning person.   Surgery still seems so far away, and I feel like I have nothing to do until then, no Doctor visits, nothing. I do think I'm going to try to make a support group meeting next week, and that might make it more real to me, because right now 2 weeks seems like 2 years.

sissy12

sissy12

 

Two Weeks Away

In two weeks I will have my band. I have a list of things to do before, a list of things to take to the surgery center, but it just doesn't seem real at all yet, it hasn't hit me or something.   I will hear from the nurse next Friday, other than that I am on my own...meaning I won't see the Doctor until I get prepped, and he's ready to play ball!   I don't know how I feel, maybe I don't feel much of anything right now. I'm excited yes, but other than that I am kind of numb.   I'm sure next week will be different...we'll see.

sissy12

sissy12

 

To Tell Or Not...

I decided to not tell everyone I know about my surgery. I know people mean well, but I know negative comments will bother me and I need to stay positive.   I told my closest friend, she was supportive and very happy for me, her input is one I respect so it was a good feeling to be able to talk about my decision.   My family has been great, but my MIL is wanting me to re-schedule surgery because a big family affair is going to be 2 days later. I do understand, she said she will be worried about me and doesn't want to have that looming over her head...but I'm going forward. After talking with my boss, who was also very sweet and supportive, we both decided that my original date works best for both of us, so I have to tell my MI and she will not be happy but it will be fine.   June 20th...that is just three weeks from yesterday...insert happy dance here

sissy12

sissy12

 

Day One-Meeting The Surgeon Today

I meet with the surgeon today, 2 1/2 hours from now to be exact, not that I'm anxious or anything .   How do I feel? mostly excited, with a bit of "am I really doing this???" here and there.   I feel as if I have been researching for years, but I've only been serious about it since a month ago. At first I thought I would have the Gastric Sleeve, very drastic yes, but I felt like I had to have something drastic to get and keep control. The more I read about the band, the more I saw it as the one for me...so here I am.   Mentally I am ready to have surgery tomorrow, but I think physically I need to get prepared and take the time the surgeon will probably suggest.   I can't imagine what it will be like to be off the 5 meds. I take to NOT control diabetes, I think that will be amazingly freeing.

sissy12

sissy12

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