Trying To Keep Focused!

So much time and energy is spent on getting to and through surgery, but I wonder how many of us really align expectations with what the reality actually is.

There are so many terms that I had read before, and all of a sudden I understand so well. You really don't know them until you live through it (no matter how many blogs/forums one reads).

I feel blessed and extremely successful up to this point, 35 lbs so far (20 as a result of the preop diet) with just being 4 weeks post op. But wow, I am always hungry, sooo hungry. I had such high expectations for my first fill (last week) but the feeling lasted 30 minutes, and now I know that I can pretty much eat anything and amounts similar to before surgery. Now that I have started to begin my work outs, plus being single in NYC (where all social activities revolve around a meal/brunch) its proving extremely difficult.

I've stuck to my guns, and eat like I have restriction, preparing my meals during the week, but how long can I actually keep it up? I'm so afraid of getting myself overly frustrated.

Its even to the point that the other night I actually dreamed that I cheated this with a can of Coke and a bag of Peanut M&Ms... the guilt was killing me, and when I got up I was so happy that it was only a dream, jajaja

2nd fill on Oct. 31. Hope that one helps a bit more.

Thanks everyone! for reading this!! Have a great day.