Ok, I am fairly positive we all have them. Those momentary relapses into our old ways. I had mine Friday and I have to come clean because the guilt is coming over me....

My weakness was.... (drum roll)...... a HUGE bowl of double caramel Peanut Butter cup ice cream lathered in hot fudge.

There, I said it. I really said it! I told someone! OHHHHHHHHH, the horror! The mayhem! The utter disgust of it all!!

Someone please share... when and what was your last weakness???

Like Heather, I've turned to ice cream as my comfort food, before banding, I rarely ate ice cream, last night, strawberry, today, a vanilla cone from sonic, bad, bad, girl I am.

I won't even mention the three baskets of chips I shared tonight at Chilis, of couse, I eat chit like that and don't pb or slime, but let me eat something healthy like broccoli or a Protein bar, get a cup.

Well, tonight I made homeade lasagne...it turned out sooooo good. I did have one small peice with a side salad. I don't feel too bad, because that is a huge improvement over what I had done in the past.

One day a month we have a junk food day! If I have to eat healthy so do they haha.

my weakness Ice cream with a mound of hot fudge and nuts. If its a really bad month I, may through in a few Oreo,s for good measure!

Boy Im sure glad im not alone. After my confession have been so trying to get back on track. have been somewhat successful. But it has given me time to do some soul searching and realize i was falling back into my usual pattern and no eating this way has not made me feel very good. and i dont mean emotionally acutally physical-go figure. i never recognized it before. so tomorrow with the sun i will begin again and yes i probably will from time to time have something not on the list but i so done with beating myself up and giving up or into the old thoughts of "i screwed up so just forget it". that was always one of my biggest down falls. Getting my first fill ( so looking forward to it!!) will support me. i just cant wait. I realize that this isnt a magic band but in my mind it is the tool that will get me there. You all are so right. thanks for you honesty.

Yesterday I accidentally ended up at Baskin Robins buying a pint of half one flavor and half another. The guy screwed up and made two individual pints instead. Hmm, should I tell him I only ordered one pint, or should I leave it in fate's hands? I went with fate and purchased both pints with no question. Is it me, or is "fate" only one letter away from FAT?

It's the dirty digit of destiny, DeLarla. I'm an ice cream fanatic, too. I know it's keeping me from losing more weight, and I'm slowly trying to climb down from the hot-fudge mountain now that September is here. . . but last night I went to a local Coldstone with friends and had Sweet Cream with Oreos and Heath Bars. If you don't have Coldstone in your area and you have a sweet tooth, pray that a franchise won't open near you! It is delicious and deadly!

Here's my (rationalizing) take on the ice cream monster. I got banded so that I could eat like a semi-normal person instead of wavering between diets and binges. So having smallish servings of ice cream on a, ahem, regular basis is kinda sorta in my plan.

Well it was White castle for lunch today. Certainly not a nutritious lunch. I can almost garantee there was no nutritional value at all.

I use to eat 7 cheesburgers and a sac of onion rings with a 44 soda.

OMG - today cause I was craving it so bad - I had 2 cheeseburgers no soda and no rings. I need to go on the web site to find the calorie count.

OK back from web site - not a bad meltdown 320 calories - well within the limits of lunch.

I'm getting better at being bad.

LOL...that is how we are going to get to our goal, one baby step at a time Debby...one baby step at a time. See you are already down from 7 to just 2...I would say that is something to celibrate!! ..huh...without food of course.

I bet you dollars to donuts we are all making better/ more controled choices without even realizing how much better we're doing!!

What a beautiful thing

I had a weight watchers frozen dinner for lunch today. Then what do I have you ask??? Well, I top it off with a Hot Fudge Sundae. When oh when will I ever learn!!! AAAAARGH!

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My day started with the old, "I'll quit using Creme Brulee' Coffemate once the container is gone." It segued into an e-mail from the boss annoucing, "frosted Cookies and a rack of cheesecake in the fridge." I tossed it back with a real CocaCola. By lunch I was disgusted so I picked at some pineapple. Funny how I couldn't finish the tiny can. Then the Otis Spunkmeyer lady showed up with hot-out-of-the-oven cookies.

I'm very unhappy right now. And I feel gross.

I'm getting better at being bad.

THAT is how you should be thinking. When I have a horrible day, I just try and think back to what it would have been preband. Not that it's not still "bad", but it could be WAY worse.

Recently I've just had this horrible head hunger monster attacking me, so I bought some ready made bagged salads, and told myself I can have as much of that as I want. Even with some dressing. One does not have to feel guilty for eating two bowls of salad right?

Of course, add on top of that, that my boyfriend bought the BIG bag of M&M's to keep in the fridge. Fortunately I kept to about a serving at a time... but that's not to say I didn't have more than one serving in a day. Fortunately they are all gone. I do okay when he buys the little bags, but the store he went to didn't have the little bags, so he got the big one. (And to top it all off, he's a bean pole). Fortunately, he's good to me and keeps his ice cream out of the house for the most part.

I have been having some issues too..but i will pick up and move on..Life is about learning..I took me 22 years to put weight on its not going to take 1 day to come off..I like to think of these days as two steps forward and 1 step back..At least i am still moving forward though ..

Tommorow is a BRAND new day!

Ugh, DeLarla....Feeling gross too today. I feel like I need a fill and I dont go back to my doctor till the end of this month. The food seems never ending. I have been caving into tempations...potato chips today~ and Im just plain ol hungry. I keep saying, today will be better than yesterday....but guess what....NOT! My husband has been home with a slipped disk..Maybe hes throwing off my normal strong will and ablity?? Maybe my stress level is over taking my will? I dunno but what ever it is...DAMMIT GO BACK TO WORK! ehehehe...He starts physical therapy tomorrow....by the grace of God and some much needed good luck he will be back on work by the end of this week. Tomorrow is all ready Wednesday!