Hello everyone, my name is Deirdre and I had the sleeve October 2017. The first 9 months, I lost 80 lbs. Then I completely fell off the wagon: drinking with meals, drinking diet soda, and eating sugar. Tons and tons of sugar. I feel zero restriction with cake, cookies, brownies, and chocolate candy bars. I have been bingeing on these the last 6 months. I have regained 40 lbs. I am too embarrassed to go back to my surgeon or my endocrinologist (I am diabetic). Today I decided to get back on track. No more sweets or diet soda. I have had a protein shake and a yogurt so far today, along with tons of water and some Crystal Light. Dinner is going to be a (homemade) cheeseburger, no bun. I guess I'm just hoping to find someone out there like me who fell completely off the wagon and was able to get back on and be successful. I still have 100 lbs to lose. I have also started seeing a therapist, not for food issues specifically, but for general depression and anxiety. Does anyone have any books they recommend? I need something to keep me away from the junk. Something to tell myself or distract myself with so I don't cave. Any helpful suggestions would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.

I had my sleeve Feb 2017 and have gained the last year I have tried many many many times to get going again with no success. I too think I have anxiety. I am a nervous grader. I will not give up. I do get a lot of encouragement reading other people's success stories.

4 hours ago, DeirdreKM said:

Hello everyone, my name is Deirdre and I had the sleeve October 2017. The first 9 months, I lost 80 lbs. Then I completely fell off the wagon: drinking with meals, drinking diet soda, and eating sugar. Tons and tons of sugar. I feel zero restriction with cake, Cookies, brownies, and chocolate candy bars. I have been bingeing on these the last 6 months. I have regained 40 lbs. I am too embarrassed to go back to my surgeon or my endocrinologist (I am diabetic). Today I decided to get back on track. No more sweets or diet soda. I have had a Protein Shake and a yogurt so far today, along with tons of Water and some Crystal Light. dinner is going to be a (homemade) cheeseburger, no bun. I guess I'm just hoping to find someone out there like me who fell completely off the wagon and was able to get back on and be successful. I still have 100 lbs to lose. I have also started seeing a therapist, not for food issues specifically, but for general depression and anxiety. Does anyone have any books they recommend? I need something to keep me away from the junk. Something to tell myself or distract myself with so I don't cave. Any helpful suggestions would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.

Having a setback is temporary, giving up is permeant. You can turn this around.

I'm not giving medical advice. Understand many of us have eating disorders pre and post-surgery. You may want to talk with your therapist to see if this may apply to your situation. He/she will have better advice than I can give. Many people don’t seek help because they feel shame. You’re not alone. Asking for help (even from your bariatric team) is going to move you forward instead of being on a binge eating loop. Don’t let 40 turn in to 60, 80 or more.

You're sleeve is a tool. It is still there. I talked to my nutritionist a few years ago about this subject. She said individuals that experience this can reverse the trend. But she said the weight loss doesn't happen overnight. Essentially the amount of time that you were binging is approximately equal to the amount of time to shed the weight again. So if you are bingeing for the last 6 months, it might take you 6 months to lose that 40 pounds regain. So be patient and persistent.

15 hours ago, DeirdreKM said:

I guess I'm just hoping to find someone out there like me who fell completely off the wagon and was able to get back on and be successful. I still have 100 lbs to lose. I have also started seeing a therapist, not for food issues specifically, but for general depression and anxiety. Does anyone have any books they recommend?

Not this time around, but in the past, I lost something like 75lbs. when I was younger (like around age 20 or so) then gained it all back plus a great deal more. It happens to so many of us, I think, for whatever reasons. I think in my case, it was just poor eating habits combined with depression that wasn't treated. But yeah, there's plenty of us out there that have fallen off track only to later get back on.

Also, I am glad you are seeing someone for the depression and anxiety! Here's to hoping they can help you out, which may also assist you in getting back on the bandwagon and starting the weightloss again!

As for books, I don't know what kind you like, however. If you're familiar with Audible, they do have a free trial where you can get 1 or 2 (I forget) free audiobooks (which sometimes have a .pdf copy with them.) When I signed up before my surgery, they also gave me 5 free health and wellness books as well. (They chose the 5 though. The other 2 were my choice!) I would highly suggest it, just cancel after you've chosen your freebies.

Keep the things that tempt you out of your house; that will help you the most. Track your food; this will keep you accountable. Be sure that you track every single bite.