I'm having a mini nervous breakdown. Like cry my eyes out and write letters to my husband and kids. I'm so freaking terrified of surgery and feel almost convinced that I will be the 1% mortality. I also feel like I cannot continue to live this way. Did anyone else feel like this or am I having some sort of premonition?

I felt this way. Recorded videos on my phone for my family.

I had sleepless nights. Became moody and weepy. Short tempered due to stress.

I was worried it was a premonition too. I was sleeved in Mexico.

I felt this way. Recorded videos on my phone for my family.

I had sleepless nights. Became moody and weepy. Short tempered due to stress.

I was worried it was a premonition too. I was sleeved in Mexico.

Oh good. Maybe I'm not completely nuts.

No, you're not nuts. I'm right there with you, Sista...

You're not nuts. I felt the same way... It's a serious surgery, but write your letters, say a prayer and make peace with it before hand. You will do great!

As I was getting prepped by the nurse for surgery- I started thinking these thoughts and having a mini mental breakdown in my mind. Especially when the nurse asked if I had a living will. I calmly answered "no, am i supposed to?" while thinking in my head "LIVING WILL?! WHY ARE YOU ASKING ME THIS NOW?!! THIS MUST BE A SIGN. OMG WHY AM I DOING THIS??!"

Ten minutes later I was on the operating table-super calm and oddly excited and before I knew it I was in recovery and everything was fine.

You'll do great!

I FEEL THE SAME WAY! I think most of us do as the surgery nears. I think it is totally normal and I do NOT think it is a premonition! (That said, I've melted down many times and updated my will as well). Try to see the humor in being so high drama. Or I should say I am trying to see the humor in ME being so high drama!

You're not crazy - you have a brain and are thinking ahead. There are risks and you're going through the process of determining which ones you're prepared to take. Only you can decide that. More people should do this.

No one said being intelligent was easy!

I was not worried at all..Unlike all of you..I figured it would be a snap..I had surgeries before and they were no big deal.....

Well was I wrong.....i spent 5 months in the hospital due to complications with the surgery...MAYBE if I had like you I would not have been that .001 % that everything goes wrong.....

I'm having a mini nervous breakdown. Like cry my eyes out and write letters to my husband and kids. I'm so freaking terrified of surgery and feel almost convinced that I will be the 1% mortality. I also feel like I cannot continue to live this way. Did anyone else feel like this or am I having some sort of premonition?

I'm going through the same thing I think I'm going to die or something bad is going to happen to me! I'm soo freaking out and tomorrow afternoon is my surgery.

Your not alone I got so bad that before my surgery I couldnt vision leaving my 6 year old son sleeping in bed or i would ball my eyes out. So the day of the surgery at 300am I kissed my son good bye I was dying I couldnt control the tears. I got into the cab going to my sisters house because she was taking me to hospital. welI I took this as a sign the driver was going 65 miles an hour in a 25 mile zone it was the cab ride from hell but I survived. So I took it as a sign if I was supposed to die on june 18 that cabbie would have wrapped us around a pole. LOL I can laugh about it now but it scared me straight I lost my fear after that, and new I was going to see my son grow up.

Yep. was sleeved on Friday and made it through fine, but I'm having a rough time post op and I keep wondering if this is what dying feels like.

Your not alone I got so bad that before my surgery I couldnt vision leaving my 6 year old son sleeping in bed or i would ball my eyes out. So the day of the surgery at 300am I kissed my son good bye I was dying I couldnt control the tears. I got into the cab going to my sisters house because she was taking me to hospital. welI I took this as a sign the driver was going 65 miles an hour in a 25 mile zone it was the cab ride from hell but I survived. So I took it as a sign if I was supposed to die on june 18 that cabbie would have wrapped us around a pole. LOL I can laugh about it now but it scared me straight I lost my fear after that' date=' and new I was going to see my son grow up.[/quote']

I keep telling myself that if I'm meant to die that day I will, whether I'm lying in the OR or driving down the street or doing nothing and my heart stops. It's not helping lol

I'm going through the same thing I think I'm going to die or something bad is going to happen to me! I'm soo freaking out and tomorrow afternoon is my surgery.

How exciting! Come back and let us know u didn't die!!

You are not crazy at all! I cried the entire day of my surgery- pre op. l cried when the nurse put in the iv... I cried in the holding room when they were talking to me about anesthesia ..... I cried in the operating room while waiting on my surgeon. EVERYONE was very kind and understood that I was terrified. Just remember why you are doing this and the consequences if you don't.

I'm having a mini nervous breakdown. Like cry my eyes out and write letters to my husband and kids. I'm so freaking terrified of surgery and feel almost convinced that I will be the 1% mortality. I also feel like I cannot continue to live this way. Did anyone else feel like this or am I having some sort of premonition?

I feel exactly the same. I am having a mini meltdown, too. A year ago, I started the process but backed out as it was getting closer to surgery. I decided, yet again, that I would really give exercise and diet another chance. Well, here I am after a year at the same weight. So, I am going back to the doctors on Friday to start again. BUT, I am literally having a meltdown. I am so worried I am going to die and that because I think it, it will happen. On he flip side, I cannot stand myself at my current weight. If I don't have this surgery soon, I will need both knees replaced and hide inside forever.

Hang in there. I think it is the guilt one feels like it is not a "real surgery" or something to be ashamed of because we are overweight. Also, it doesn't help when all your family and friends think it is a cop out or the worse decision in your life. I have been going to therapy biweekly because I need to talk it through with a professional before I go insane.

When is your surgery?