Mine is leaks and strictures.

Mine is head hunger and eating out with friends & family. Also, answering questions....

that I will not be able to lose the weight and maintain it.

Mine is that I won't be able to keep up on fluids and get dehydrated.

Mine is that I will put the weight back on. After yo-yoing all my life you never feel like it will end. Thank god for therapy.

I feel like it always going to be painful to eat...

Leaks. Def leaks. {{shudder}}

Mine is leaks and strictures.

Same here! Especially after leaving MX

Leaks, pulmonary embolism.

Regaining weight after taking it off

Regaining the weight, hating the new lifestyle change and missing food. That would be torture!

Leaks, abscess, stricture.

all of the above! and surgery this Wednesday, but most of all, I am afraid of not facing my fears and using them as an excuse to run right out of the hospital, seriously I would probably stop at Wendys drive thru on my way home to "self medicate" my anxiety.

That's what I am afraid of.

But I am not going to do that.

I am going to use my big girl strength and courage and I am going to push my self through this, with no expectation of it being simple,easy, pain free or not challenging and incredibly emotional.

I need it to be all of those things so I appreciate it and not take it for granted.

The plane trip home!!!! I've been working for months w/ a therapist on all the food addiction issues, I feel like I'm working hard and will continue to work hard on that. I know that's a much bigger part than the surgery. Right now I'm worried about making it home comfortably! Crazy, I know!

Having to get plastic surgery!

The main thing is that this too will fail and I'll always be over 400lbs. Plus complications/ leaks. Moving around right after the surgery. That my mom is spending this money out of her 401K and it will be all for nothing. ;(