Feeling crappy and out of control, I honestly... can't wait for liquid diet

[does not matter 39]

So i've posted about falling off the wagon issues over the past month... and I feel like these "lasts" have taken over control... Before booking the surgery I had been reading about others struggling with the food funerals and I remember clearly saying I have no need or want for that, I don't want to de-rail my success, I want to continue my good habits until I have the surgery...

Somehow between that and 2 weeks later, I've somehow done the complete opposite

I still run 5km/3miles 4 times a week, (ok who am i trying to kid, it's like 2.9miles/4.59 km) but I'm getting there, I'm close, the program says I completed 5km but i'm just a bit off on the treadmill, I bet you if i lost the incline I'd have it already.

However, I am still happy that I am continuing my running schedule! That's the good news, the bad news is that I have GAINED 7.8'ish pounds in 1 month :| I kid you not! ( I weighed myself at night when I normally weigh myself when I do in the morning... however, I'm not using that as an excuse or Water weight, or I'm gaining muscle since 1 pound of fat/muscle/cheese etc is 1 pound.)

I honestly feel like crap, my runs have been getting a bit harder (prob due to the crap I've been eating.. and in all seriousness, i haven't been AS BAD over the past month as I have been before!!! I feel like if I look at food right now I gain weight even without consuming it!

It just seems since I lost the 26.6 pounds, it has come back SOOOOOOOOOO much easier and quicker than before. I am now sitting at a weight loss of 18.8 and no i'm NOT i refuse to update the ticker...

I honestly feel like crap, but cant help myself from doing my lasts... how bad was everyone else's food funerals? Did everyone else gain a substantial amount of weight pre-liquid diet? I know a few of you are super strict with wanting to loose a certain amount before their surgery date.. and I know that some enjoyed their food funeral or wish they did more since I've read a few crave what they didnt have for their funerals... I know that everyone is different

MY FEAR! I over the next 2 weeks and 6 days... lets just say hypothetically.... I get up to 260 pounds... which is NOT far off from now (254.4) The amount on my sheet I submitted to the surgeon was 249 (I later got down to 246.6 but they dont know that!) ... even if I was to lose 10 pound on my liquid diet... I'd get back down to 250... how bad would I look walking into surgery the same as what I said I was in November after completing a 2 week liquid diet? !?!?!?! I was hoping to go in at 240...

ugh... Im stressed... I should have never got on that scale last night. I seriously have thoughts of running over it with my suv :|

So my questions for those who are pre-op.... are you feeling the same way I am? are you gaining your last few weeks? or am I the only one who broke down?

My question for those who are post op, please tell me i'm not the only one who's gained 10 pounds ish before liquid diets? how bad were your food funerals?

[icon23 273]

Have you considered starting the liquid diet early? If you really feel out of control and worried about losing before surgery, it's certainly an option. Also, try to keep in mind that the surgery doesn't mean that you'll never be able to eat what you like again, just less (although there are certain things that I plan to try to never/hardly ever eat again for my health and you may feel the same). My surgery is one month from today and I have had some food funerals, but I really do limit myself to only doing it once a day, if at all, and I'm also having a Protein Shake for Breakfast to offset any bad eating that I might do later in the day. This seems to be working. I had gained a few pounds from the food funerals before I set the once a day limit and started the Protein shake for breakfast, but I actually lost 4 pounds the last time I stepped on the scale. Best of luck to you!

[does not matter 39]

I actually did consider starting earlier (5 days, I was thinking Jan 2nd) to start the liquid diet, but the rate I'm going... I honestly don't know if I can do it until I HAVE to, know what I mean?

[GoldyGirl 186]

I am right there with YOU, and it sux. I am sick of food, but eating outta stress. I have not gotten on the scale, but my Jeans are tighter, so that is not a good sign!!! Ready for the Roller~Coaster~ Ride to be over and fell More normal with food.

[icon23 273]

I actually did consider starting earlier (5 days, I was thinking Jan 2nd) to start the liquid diet, but the rate I'm going... I honestly don't know if I can do it until I HAVE to, know what I mean?

I do know what you mean, which is why I can only commit to doing the Protein shake for breakfast right now--that, and the holidays. Maybe you could try it just for one meal, like me? Also, I don't know if it matters, but I generally reserve lunch for food funerals and try to have a sensible dinner with the thinking that it's better to be active after eating crap.

[does not matter 39]

How sad is it that we're looking forward to NOT eating? lol

Tonight I've prepared brusel sprouts and sweet potatoes etc for dinner tomorrow... hoping that if I pre-plan and make or have them at least semi started it will de-rail the last minute ideas to pick up a favorite on the way home... That way I'll just have to make the chicken tomorrow and ta-da a healthier dinner that I enjoy very much.

[does not matter 39]

I do know what you mean, which is why I can only commit to doing the Protein shake for breakfast right now--that, and the holidays. Maybe you could try it just for one meal, like me? Also, I don't know if it matters, but I generally reserve lunch for food funerals and try to have a sensible dinner with the thinking that it's better to be active after eating crap.

After Friday, I am off for 2 weeks... so lunch might work for the food funerals.... I do know that when I am off, it is worse... I am hoping to throw in a few work out classes over my 2 weeks off so hopefully that will help a bit. I also will generally not leave the house if I don't have a reason to go somewhere... hopefully this will also help with the bad food!

In the evenings after supper so like now 'ish is when I run 4 times a week. This week I was going to do 5 since I was sick last week and only got in 3... although... I just ran the past 3 days in a row... think I'm starting to burn out

[HELLO ITS ME CAMI 27]

I had my surgery on Wednesday 12-12-12. First visit to the Dr. was great by the second visit I had gained 3 lbs. The Dr. would only do my surgery if I lost 10 lbs. prior so she knew I was committed to losing weight. So now I had to lose 13 lbs. Ugh.... The pre-op diet was 3 Protein Shakes and one Lean Cuisine meal that was between 200 - 230 calories. I lost 14 lbs in just 2 weeks, schudled my surgery had 2 days of clear liquid only and had a very successful surgery. Coulnd't be happier off my high blood pressure meds and have lost a total of 29 lbs. since this whole life style change started. You will be so much happier when you start the pre op diet you will feel wonderful. Best of Luck to you!!!!