I'll go first...

As a divorcee who shares custody with my ex-hubby, I have found myself not wanting to meet in public places but rather just send the boys out to his car at the curb. My ex is 6'5" and 300 lbs so it's not like I have anything to prove and I am not any heavier than I was when we were married BUT he is about to marry his 3rd wife and she is thinner than I am - I have never met her only seen a picture. She is no beauty but I do find myself challenged that she is thinner than me. I know it's petty. I am usually pretty confident in most situations but I have had a wicked fantasy about being at goal weight and waltzing into a place dressed to the nine's. As I write this I feel like a high schooler but part of getting better is shining light on the dark corners and owning how one feels. So I would like to leave my ex drooling and his new wife in shock as I leave with holding hands with my two boys and their new 30 year old, model beautiful, built to high heaven step-daddy. There I've said it! PLEASE SHARE YOURS!!

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Katrina - 5'5" 195# 44 yrs young Sleeve Date: July 27, 2012 GW: 135

I agree on the fb tagging. I freak when someone tags me!

One of the things I look forward to the most is to stop worrying about seats so much. Everytime we are going out somewhere i scope out to see if i am going to have a hard time fitting in booths or chairs. I even skipped my sons high school orientation because it was in the auditorium and i knew the chairs were small and the arms didnt move up and down. I have avoided flying anywhere because I dont want to be humiliated when they tell me I need to buy a second seat.

And i want to be able to go on rides at amusement parks with my family and not have to pretend i am scared of them....because i am not! I just know i dont fit!

I can go on and on! But mostly, i just want my family to be proud!

I would love to be under 160. Right now i am 340.

I was at a public pool last year with my kids and i heard a jerky teenager says "God, why do they let fat people in the pool....its so gross!" i was thankful that my kids didnt hear it. But my goal is to never have to have my kids hear that. And i am sure they already have at school--they say they havent. But kids can be mean-- never again should they have to be embarrased by me!!

I love this!! I have tons of fantasies, but my evil one is for my ex husband. Recently we were at my son's baseball game and he asked me if I was pregnant. In front of my significant other no less. I'm 42 and he knows good and well I'm not so I wanted to choke him, but that's another fantasy;). I'd just love to lose a ton of weight and look smoking hot. He would hate that!

My fantasy is to never turn down a water based event again. I do not even own a swimsuit. I have not owned one for 6 years.I want to own a dozen of them. I want to wear them down the lazy river, I want to wear them at the water park, I want to wear them on the boat, I want to wear them at the pool on girls weekend.I want to wear them in the front yard while I water the lawn.I want to plan entire vacations based only on swimsuits. You get the idea!!!