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1 Month Post-Op

highest weight - 318 weight before pre-op diet - 294 weight before surgery - 274 current weight - 247 I can't believe it's been a month since my surgery. I feel absolutely amazing..and look pretty amazing too. I bought myself a gym pass this past week, the first time I went I did get a little light headed but it's all good now. This week I went shopping for some new clothes. I bought myself size 16 jeans (was a 22) and some L/XL shirts (was a 3X). At first I thought I would need some sort of reconstructive surgery but my skin is not loose or saggy at all. I guess it's true what they say age and length of obesity really does play a part in skin elasticity.

rachelkork

rachelkork

 

Week 12 Surgiversary -- Cracked the 180s!

OK, so I'm just about 3 months out, and LOVING my sleeve! I'm down into the 180s now (189.8 to be exact) and it's hard to believe ... I had a big slow patch in March but the past two weeks I've had good weight loss. I am going to Orlando on a business trip this week and am so excited to be wearing size 16/18 WP vs. the 22/24 size I was wearing pre-surgery. I know I still have quite a long ways to go to hit goal but I am now loving my weight loss journey. I am finally pretty much used to my new portion sizes and am getting good at pushing the plate away when I've had enough. I am good at chewing my food, very good about not eating and drinking at the same time, and good about getting protein in first before anything else. I am starting to work with light weights (do sets of arm exercises when I watch TV). DH and I are having our 15th wedding anniversary this July. I am so excited about this because for the first time in nearly the entire 15 years we've been married, by July I should be getting relatively close to my wedding weight (I never weighed myself then but am guesstimating I was in the high 130s or low 140s when we got married; I was wearing a size 10). To celebrate this milestone anniversary, we are going to Maui for five nights. I am so, so excited about this trip -- not only because I will be able to do things I absolutely love to do (swim, relax by water) but because I won't have to be terribly self conscious about my weight. By early July I am hoping to be in the low 170s and hopefully comfortably wearing a size 14, which is by no means a bikini body, but I hopefully won't be totally mortified to wear a bathing suit like I have been for at least a decade. I've been looking at the Lands End catalogs and they have a great selection of bathing suits that have good coverage (especially upper thighs, a nightmare zone for me), so I'm going to buy a couple of bathing suits from them as I get closer to the big date. So tomorrow I have to fly to Orlando, and I used to hate flying because I was so self conscious about how much space I took in a seat (basically overflowed the seat into the poor passenger's seat next to me). I still hate flying and am still self conscious, but hopefully I won't be overflowing too much into the seat next to me. My challenge this week will be to not cheat badly and stay disciplined with the food choices. I know I will be walking around a lot so that should help counterbalance any splurge meals or treats I have. I will be so, so happy to be in a sunny, warm place ... it's been a dreadful spring here in the Seattle area. This weekend I've been sprucing myself up a bit. I got a pedicure yesterday, colored my hair this morning, and am going shopping to buy a couple of new t-shirts to wear in the evening after our conference ends (going to Magic Kingdom one night, which should be lots of fun, and I want to be comfortable). I am going to be meeting some head honchos in our organization and don't want to make a bad impression. It is SUCH a relief to not have the same level of embarrassment about my weight that I used to have! I am still well aware I'm very big for my height, but I don't feel quite as self-conscious about it that I used to. I am so, so glad I got sleeved and already the changes in my life are fantastic, only three short months out from surgery!

Kris

Kris

 

The Ups and Downs

I go for my eight fill this week and I'm kinda down. I think I will forever struggle with my weight. Even after being banded, I knew the band wasn't a cure but this up and down is really getting to me. I'm going to start back to square one with liquids and see what happens AGAIN!

sheilamj1fan

sheilamj1fan

 

Plateau.....time to persevere

I am now 8 months out. It has been a frustrating month. I hit a plateau and I feel like the scale will never move. This month has been so stressful. I have gone out of town 3 times with my job. It is so hard to eat on the road. I have focused on getting my protein. Thankfully, the hotel has options of eggs for breakfast. I just hate it when it feels like you are doing everything right but you don't feel like you can see the results. It also stinks because I know part of it has to do with age as well. I read enough to know that your metabolism does slow down as you get older. In my mind, I am in my late 20's or early thirties. Although, my body knows the truth...I am in my forties. I leave to go out of town again tomorrow. When I return, I am helping to plan a state conference. I know that will be more stress as it gets closer. I am just trying to keep my mind calm and focused....taking it one day at a time. On this last trip, I had something get stuck when we were having dinner. My coworkers do not know that I had the lapband as I only shared with a few of my closest co workers. I know they thought I had an "upset" stomach as I had to excuse myself several times during dinner. And of course....I was the chair up against the wall and 2 of my coworkers had to keep moving their chair to let me out. Ahhhhh However, as I always try to keep my glass half full.....I will stay the course and keep focused. I will beat this plateau and not get discouraged and give up on the band or myself. I am worth it. I realized today when my daughter ordered the lite lemonade instead of a soda that she really does look to me as her role model. If that isn't enough to keep me going...nothing is!!!! Time to persevere!!!   Nobody trips over mountains. It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble. Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain. ~Author Unknown        

Dadkins8

Dadkins8

 

ahh

Well im on Day 8 post op surgery. And even though im really sick of this liquid diet im happy with all the pounds im shedding. But i cant wait till im done with the liquid diet. Its really frustrating for me. Am i the only one that has all this bone pain? My back and shoulders kill me and im sleepy all day. Hopefully im 100% recovered soon and with that all this pain will magically disappear. I would love to meet someone my age that has had the surgery.

Young and banded

Young and banded

 

PSYCHO BAND

JUST WHEN I THOUGHT I HAD NO RESTRICTION AT ALL - EVEN AFTER 2 SMALL FILLS, - BEING ABLE TO EAT WHAT I WANT AND MORE THAN WHAT I SHOULD, BAM - I THROW UP YET AGAIN (3RD TIME IN 3 WKS) WHEN EATING SOMETHING I HAVE EATEN BEFORE WITH NO PROBLEMS. I JUST CAN'T FIGURE THIS BAND OUT. IT SEEMS TO HAVE A MIND OF ITS OWN. NOW I DON'T KNOW WHETHER TO GET MY 3RD SMALL FILL IN 2 WKS. AS PLANNED OR NOT? GRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!    

roseyposey

roseyposey

 

YAY~ It's FINALLY OVER....

well my surgery was yesterday April 1, 2011 ..... i had to be there at 530am for prep... ughhhh   i want to say Thanks everyone.... surgery went GREAT.... the only thing i have a problem with is that i feel that i need to burp but nothing comes out.. ughh those gasx strips arnt working for me...   after being on my liquid diet for TWO weeks... ughhh i went in weighing 310 lbs and my starting weigh before the two wks was 336.... so i lost 26 lbs in two weeks... wow.... when i first started this process i was 380 lbs... lost 70lbs before surgery sooo proud of myself,,, thanks for the support.... im sooo EXCITED that the waiting period is over... now time to recover and hit the gym and build up my muscle... i cant wait.. ive had alot of support from FAMILY its unbelievable... im soo BLESSED....   im setting myself a goal.. i want to lose like 30lbs before EASTER gets here.. do ya'll think its possible...   now that this surgery is over do yall have any suggestions on what i can do to keep losing weight ,,,,, and not hit a ROCK....   Much Luv~ Shelly,......

shellydaisy86

shellydaisy86

 

Starting to hit my stride

On Monday it will be three weeks since my surgery. It hasn't been easy but I've made it this far, which feels like a great accomplishment. The first two weeks were hell on Earth and I seriously considered at one point going back to the surgeon and tell him I made a huge mistake. I cried a few times when I had to drink protein shakes while everyone around me was enjoying their meal. Every day felt like an eternity of misery that would never end. When you're as addict to food as I am, it's pretty rough without it.<div>  But I made it. Somehow, by sheer force of will, I made it. Now I'm in the soft food phase at last and I'm starting to get my rhythm. Staying hydrated, making good food choices, trying to move my butt a few times a week (working up to every day) and realizing that food is starting to relax its grip on me. I'm starting to learn that I need to eat to live, not the other way around. The only way to go now is forward. I can't guarantee I won't screw up once in a while, but I have to forgive myself and move on. I'm only human after all. Well, more of a bionic human now I guess. Me and Bandy against the world!</div>

Jenn1214

Jenn1214

 

I just got the last of my test complete

It's about time,I just got everything complete today.....yeah...now the ball is not in my court...I'm just waiting on my second visit with the surgeon and to receive my instructions as what to do...this had truly been a journey.......6 months of doctors visits of weight management,psych visit,Nutritionist visit,blood test,gallbladder screening and I don't remember what else....THANK GOD....I am finished.....

camille01

camille01

 

My Motto

I am the shape of plenty, the size of passion, the power of numbers, the future of fashion. A beautifully audacious curvaceous form. I am the average woman. I am the norm. I will not let the number on a scale decide my self worth. I choose to be a strong, intelligent Woman who is seen more for who she is on the inside, because Beauty is not what you see.. It's what you possess within.   I realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change... or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. I have come to terms with the fact that you are NOT Prince Charming and I damn sure am NOT Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with ME...I am not perfect and not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what I am... and that's OK. You are entitled to your own views and opinions..I have stopped complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to me or didn't do for me. The only thing I can really count on is the unexpected.   I've learned that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say. I realize that much of the way I view myself, and the world around me, is as a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into my psyche. And I begin to sift through all the junk I've been fed about how I should behave, how I should look, how much I should weigh, what I should wear, what I should do for a living, how much money I should make, what I should drive, how and where I should live, who I should marry, the importance of having and raising children, and what you owe your parents, family, and friends, is just WAY to freaking unbelievable! It takes ME away from "me". No more!   I am learning to open new worlds and different points of view. I am starting to redefine who i am and what i stand for.......I am learning about love. Romantic love....how to love, how much to give, when to stop and when to walk away. I will NOT be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on my arm. I am learning to look at relationships as they really are and not as i would have them be. I am learning that just as people grow and change, so it is with love. And I am learning that I don't have the right to demand love on my terms, just to make me happy. Alone does NOT mean lonely! I have the right to want the things I want and it is sometimes necessary to make demands, but i have come to the realization that I deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect and I will NOT settle for less....I will only allow the hands of a lover who cherishes me to glorify me with his touch, that is just self-respect! Life isn't always fair. We don't always get what we THINK we deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting good people.

Starry

Starry

 

Did I really do this? No U-turns on this journey!

I decided to get a lap band after one of my dear friends had it done and told me it was the best decision of his life! Six months later, he still felt that way even though going out to dinner with him was an unusual experience. Mexican for him consisted of two margaritas and spoonfuls of guacamole sans chips! He kept telling me how amazing it was and you don't even feel it. So after lots of deliberation, I found a wonderful surgeon and started the process... and what a process that was. My psych evaluation had some of the strangest questions ever and had I answered yes to any of them forget the lap band, send me straight to the nut house. But luckily I passed and my insurance cleared me for take-off. In my mind, I'd wake up to a krispy kream donut, eat one bite and be on my way home.   It was definitely a rude awakening and felt a little like the movie "Death Becomes Her" after Meryl Streep has taken the potion, and Isabella Rossellini says “and now a warning…” Suddenly, I feel like I’ve woken up after being caught in a dark alley and I’ve been beaten in the stomach and can only drink liquids for the next year of my life (ok, it’s only two weeks, but it’s like a year in foodie years). It had been explained to me that this is what it would be like, but my brain was obviously in denial.         I’m officially 7 days in and can’t believe I made it this far! For the first few days I was nervous about what I’d gotten myself into (who am I kidding, I still kinda feel that way), but am also excited about being reborn (to the food world anyway). I’m on the other side and it feels good, but scary. I feel like I’m going through this alone even though my husband has been amazing (but I still hate him when he’s eating in the other room). The pains are foreign to me, but are subsiding every day -- the weird tremors, the hiccups, itchy sutures, catching my breath and feeling like a water balloon half full.       I see other people’s blogs who have the surgery and return to their normal lives by Monday… these are super people. I am not a super person. And as much as I would like to return to my donut/pizza/candy eating ways there is a gravity of responsibility that comes with this gift. I realize that I can’t just eat guacamole by the spoonful. I need to be mindful of my relationship with food and re-evaluate it. And there’s the deep fried thought for Friday!    

merred

merred

 

4/1/11 Friday Facts

- I've decided to start dieting to get these last pounds off (Atkin's as that was my most successful diet, several times). YAY...all the bacon and cheese I can eat!     *Portion of Post Deleted For Lap Band Book   - You know that first bullet up there...April Fools! And no, I'm not making fun of those that follow Diets with the Band (do what works for you). Hey, I knew I couldn't pull the pregnancy card again.   - I started work on our Study I showed you (and DD's old room). I love blogging as it often helps me think things through and get new ideas (many from you)...I decided to "go shopping" in my own home and moved out two big pieces and moved in four smaller ones. DH got home late Saturday (poor guy/geez work...and it's a Sunday return this week), so Sunday I put him and DS2 to work moving all the furniture around to see how we liked it. When DH saw everything and where I was setting the small old TV (note here; this is not our main 'TV' spot-we have a nice flatscreen in the great room and a huge big screen in the basement), he decided he wanted to make his stamp on the 'new' room and went shopping.... I swear if 'She who dies with the most fabric wins!', is the women bumpersticker, then just replace 'Fabric' with 'TV's' for men!   I've got lots of furniture and shelf painting ahead of me, but I'm excited about the final plan (pics to come when it's done).   - My 'Martha Moment' this week: Remember the lamps for the Study I made, and that I noticed that the dried sheet moss had faded over time to a 'dead looking' brown? Well, I went out and bought new moss, but it wasn't as green as I wanted. I decided to try dying it with green food coloring in water...it worked...I started out covering (glue gunned on the moss) these topiaries that are also for the Study. I was dreading the lamps as I'd have to take all the glued on moss off the Styrofoam and replace it...and I wasn't sure how that would go (aka I was feeling lazy and knew it would be a ton of work). Then I had an idea...dye the faded moss that was already on it! A foam brush to dab on the solution...and voila! Think outside the box! (I wish being a 'green thumb' was always that easy!)   - I've been 'Spring Cleaning'; kids rooms and my art closet for the past month...have a huge pile for charity, but I let my kids decide what they wanted to keep and box up (mainly toys they aren't using anymore). I think they all got the 'hoarder' gene from DH and I. I now have boxes of trophies (that they'll never look at again, but don't know it yet) and sets of their favorite toys...hey, it's a small price to pay not to be 'that Mom' (the one that threw away all their things). I've still got lots to finish up.   - My middle Sis and her family are arriving tomorrow for their 'Spring Break' (I've been busy getting DD's empty/now 'guest room' back in order...shopped my house again and moved some furniture in)...'cause doesn't everyone want to vacation in Pittsburgh for their Spring Break (not much 'green' in sight herd, but hey my Snow Crocuses are blooming, and it's snowing...now who's playing the April Fools joke...snow in April?!!)? And no, I didn't know they were coming when I started the 'Spring Cleaning' so my house is a wreck and I'm cleaning like a wild woman. I'm so excited to see them!   - Had a 'drinking girls' lunch yesterday with a neighbor (somewhat like a 'working girls' lunch, but without the working)...no, I only had one glass of wine...I SO needed the break from the housework and DH doesn't get home until early Sunday morning, so no help in sight LOL! Back to work!   - 156 lbs., down 1 (again).   Happy Weekend Fools! I'd recommend the rubberband on the kitchen sprayer (if you have a separate one from the faucet)...lined up just right...gets 'em every year!

Band_Groupie

Band_Groupie

 

Clueless or Cruel

So I have been on this diet for close to two weeks and it has not been easy, but I so far so good. Then the hubby came come from military training with a bunch of macadamia nut white chocolate cookies knowing I was on this liquid diet, argh! Today he "forgot" again that I was on a liquid diet and when he dropped our daughter off to school he came home and surprised me with a egg muffin breakfast sandwich and a big cup of coffee. Seriously?! I want to get the egg muffin and smash it on his head but I don't know is he really that clueless or just plain cruel?

WitchyArmyWife98

WitchyArmyWife98

 

One thing after another..

Since I last blog I decided to get a revision and do the gastric sleeve, so of course I would have to get a EGD done..and what did they find????? FOOD in my tummy 9.5 hrs after i ate..WTH!! so my doctor wanted some tests done. I had to do a nuclear emptying of the stomach..and apparently my digestive system is NOT working properly..GEEZE what else can go wrong???they dont no what the heck is wrong with my stomach.. so that means MORE test and NO surgery.. so my doctor thinks I should try to give this band ONE MORE CHANCE.. and I believe if i TRY my best and put more effort in this I can lose the weight.. so I agreed..and here i am..at 213lbs.. I have lost a few pounds..I have been watching what I eat..excercising at kleast 5 days a week.. but I only have 3.5 cc's which is NOT much cause i still can EAT..lol Anyways to give ya'll my update.. I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL..yay me!! Im getting my degree in respiratory therapy.. Im doing this for myself but also my MOM!!! I know she will be very proud of me.. I MISS HER SOOO MUCH.. its now been a little over 4 months since her passing.. and it just feels so UNREAL...this feels like a dream.. a bad bad dream... Ive been trying to stay strong.. but it sooo hard.. since Im in school full time now I had to transfer to 2nd shift.. and its HARD.. hardly getten sleep.. but I have been tryen to maintain..

vmack2001

vmack2001

 

Don't let your setbacks.....be setbacks!!!!

This is for those you who are have been going along good with your lapband and something happened to get you off track.   I was banded Aug 2010...losing weight very well. Down 65 pounds lost forever. I then begin to have reflux like never before....I couldn't even eat ice chips. I called my doctor and he feels my band may have slipped....he had to open my band completely up...so now I have no restriction.....I have to wait 6 weeks before he will fill me again. Other problems begin to happen also, I tore my menicus in my left knee and may have to have surgery.....now I can't do any cardio...   In the last 2 weeks I have gained 6 pounds....due to the fact I am open and my hunger has returned....and I can't exercise. Today, I had the most peaceful thought. "Don't let my setback be setbacks" I can look at this 2 ways.....I can feel sorry for myself or move forward. I am choosing to move forward. Eventhough my hunger has returned and I can't exercise... I can do SOMETHING!!!!! I can take the tools I have learned since Aug 2010 and work them. Or I can choose to feel sorry for myself and allow myself gain weight back until my next fill.   I am moving forward. I just wanted to encourage those of you that have been in "band hell" that you can choose to do what is best for you!!!! It may be a temporary set back but not a permanent setback!!!! Go forward and do the best you can....keep moving...keep exercising....walk....do upper body....hula hoop....cardio....eat better and clean....leave the ice cream alone....DO SOMETHING.   Move Forward.....Spouse of TEJ!

Spouse of TEJ

Spouse of TEJ

 

~ I have a DATE Tomorrow...... WHAAAAHOOOOOO

~Okay so TOMORROW is the BIG DAY for me...   Its SURGERY DAY.... does anyone have any suggestions on what should i wear what should i take,,, and what will happen after surgery..... what shall i expect... PLEASE HELP.....   I will be at the hospital at 5:30 tomorrow morning for my surgery! I am sooo excited, but nervous! I can't wait! I'm down 18 lbs since starting the liquid diet almost 2 weeks ago, and Seeing the scale move so much is such a great feeling and im starting to feel FABULOUS....., even though I'm starving! I can't wait to eat solid food again!!! which i know it will take time...... well im sooo THANKFUL for all the support from the HUBBY and my MOTHER and my MIL.... My MIL is watching the kiddos for me while this procedure is done... i cant wait.... PLEASE keep me in your PRAYERS.... GOD BLESS....   Much Luv~ Thin Girl stuck inside a FLUFFY Girl..~ MICHELLE

shellydaisy86

shellydaisy86

 

5 months out and feeling great

Well... I was getting really discouraged there for a while. I was so disappointed in myself thinking that I was doing everything wrong and that I was a complete failure. My appointment on the 29th made me realize that I am doing this right and that I should be proud of what I have done and what I am continuing to do. Losing 64 pounds in 5 months is something that I thought would never happen. I was going to be happy if I lost 50 pounds in a year. The lapband has given me a new outlook on life and it has made me know that there is more to me than just being the "fat girl". I am finally finding myself.

ellenmarie

ellenmarie

 

New to Lapband talk!!!!!!!!!!!

I am one week out from being banded. The surgery went well. I also had my gallbladder removed. The clear liquid diet has been a challange. My body is not physically hungery it is my mind that wants the food. I been trying to keep busy and not fixate on it. The protein shakes are pretty good and I keep hydrating with fluids.

smiley72

smiley72

 

My approval for surgery

It's been a while since I've posted anything but nothing has really happened in my life.   Well that was until last Thursday, March 24th. After school my mom had recieved a phone call from my nurse and she had said, finally, that I was approved. I was shocked that I didn't have to do the two week diet but instead my doctor told me to eat as much as I can, while I can. And I have to say, I have.   I had to do the pre-admission testing yesterday, along with a small hour long class that just went over the procedure and they gave me a grocery list. My surgery is tomorrow. I have to be at the hospital 2 pm which isn't too fun since I can't have anything but jell-o (not red or purple) and other clear, non-acidic liquids on Wednesday and nothing to drink after midnight (and no eating.)   I've already made my list of the things I'm going to take. I'm able to get a private room, along with my own personal nurse. I'm a little nervous, of course, but most people have said that it is possible. I'm excited to see how everything goes!

kourtany93

kourtany93

 

dark days

O.K I have not posted for some time now and have to say I hope this helps as it has done in the past for me. Oh god i need some help right now. Am really struggling with a lot of things going on in my life at the moment and my one truest and oldest friend of all has come knocking, actually both of them have. Depression and my bestest buddy in the whole wide world FOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDD. What is wrong with me???? This moodsettles over me like a big dark cloud and nothing shakes it,well something must cos it comes and goes but this time it's bad. I have a fill tomorrow but for what???? Igotto goaldid the ttuck, got the cthes holiday and all the other stuff but the peace withmyself??? no. I dont thinkI ever will, my head is just whirringall the time, non stop and it is exhausting. I actually feel like ihave absolutly nothing, nothing at all worth doing at the moment, work , kids house nothing, would just like to stay inbed and wait this out insteadof carrying on outwardly while falling apart slowly inwardly, Is it the best bit or the worst bit that nobody even knows??? The thought of work, school run,footy, dancing getting up is exhaustingand i dont think i can keep this up, i would love a few days by myself i thinkjust to get through the next few days of this and then i'll beright agian, Sposed to be going to a concert saturday night but its caouple of hours drive there and then back again, soo I am sposed to start work early sat arrange baby sitters got to work sunday, act as if i am married to hubsand of the year and go but the thought of it all is horrendous all i can think of is icould be inbed. Just go to bed cause another huge row over what is sposed to bea thoughtful gift but in reality is dreaded, and 2 hours in the car there and then back and work and I cant do it. I really just want all the responsibility taken away for a couple of days and all i want is the bed and to sleep. chooky

Chooky

Chooky

 

Are my goals out of whack?

After reading so many comments about people being near their goal weight, I have to question my own goal weight. The Dr asked me what I thought my goal weight should be based on what I believe my bone size (I said medium). So anyway I currently weigh 265 ish and I am 5'8" ish. I told the Dr that my goal was 160-170 and he smiled. He did not disagree.   I wouldn't mind getting back to 145-150 lbs but wonder if that is "too thin". I would rather be 170 and very fit. Since I recently had spinal cord surgery, exercise will not be as intense as it is for other Sleevers. I included that knowledge when factoring my goal weight. The thing is, I wasn't planning on worrying about my weight, but instead to use NSV's as a tracking mechanism. I planned to weigh in maybe once every two weeks.... but I constantly read people weighing in daily (?), or every couple days. Maybe I am looking at this wrong?!?!   Lastly, I focused more on other types of goals instead of my weight, such as: - being able to exercise for a full hour per day - I want to do one charity race per year (Avon, Walk for a Cure etc) - walking up the stairs without being out of breath - Walk up multiple stairs LOL - getting into a size 12, 10 or 8 - being able to play with my kids (not be winded or tired) - maybe I will never run again, but chase my kids, or even a light jog daily.. that would be nice - able to have amazing stamina in the bedroom (bow chicka wow wow) LOL - I desire steamy romance, but being big makes it kind of uncomfortable and limits my stamina - and maybe getting a few looks here and there... - this is a selfish NSV, I know. But I am 30y/o and there is still a need to feel sexy.   Honestly, I wasn't so fixed on a number. Any number under 200 would be welcomed at this point. I know it sounds odd since so many people have that "number" and stay strict to it. I have always been the odd girl out, never following the norm.. So yeah, my goals seem to focus not on weight but on NSV's and I wonder if that is going to be a problem.

Day Dreamer

Day Dreamer

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