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Time For An Update - May 2012

I honestly can't believe how time has flown. At first it seemed to go oh so slowly. I think in part because my diet the first few weeks was liquid and I couldn't wait to move onto eating something more substantial.   I am very pleased with my progress so far. I will see my surgeon on Tuesday, 5/29, for my 3 month post-op visit (though I will be shy by 10 days of being out 3 months).   I think the main things I've learned are how badly simple carbs affected my life. My surgeon does not allow carbs until Month 7 - so I have had no bread, pasta, potatoes, beans or even nuts since surgery. It really hasn't bothered me which has been a surprise. I think it also shows that if you stay away from these things you won't miss them, but if you eat them you will think you can't live without them.   I am currently on my surgeon's Stage 4 diet which means I am to eat 3-5 oz of protein and 2 oz of fruit/veggies for my meals - 3 x day; plus a serving of yogurt and then a protein shake, if needed to make my required protein levels (63-87g per day). I am completely unable to eat this much food. I can tolerate 1 1/2 oz of protein. Any more than that and I cannot hold it down. It also seems that everytime I have tried to even have a bite of veggies after my protein I also then can't keep my meal down. One thing about the Sleeve is that it is unforgiving and it teaches you what you can and cannot do quickly.   One thing I continue to have to work on daily is taking a good amount of time to eat and chew, chew, chewing my food. I downloaded a free app for my iPhone called Timer+ and set up two timers (amongst many others). One is called "Take Time to Eat" and it's set for 20 minutes; the other is called "Wait to Drink" and it's set for 60 minutes. So what I do is when I begin eating I activate the first one and then when I am done eating I activate the second one. It has worked out pretty well for me. Not ideal if you are in a big group or travelling - I was out of town for several days each of the last 3 weeks. Speaking of that I took six different flights to travel - on different airlines and different models of planes. I brought my personal seat belt extender with me, just in case, and I'm thrilled to report that I never needed it. What a great feeling!! At the same time I found it so much easier to walk down the aisle when having to go use the rest room.   If there's one main thing that I need to do better, it's get in regular exercise. I have done OK - usually at least 30 mins a day of walking, swimming or biking. But my surgeon wants me to get 90-120 minutes in a day. To help with that I just joined LA Fitness this week and signed up to work with a Personal Trainer once a week. It was a big financial commitment but the sales guy reminded me that by having the surgery I had already made a major commitment (smart sales guy I guess I had a introductory session yesterday and have my first official one tomorrow night. I'm also going tonight to get my measurements done and do some cardio.   On Sunday, 5/13, I celebrated not only Mother's Day but also the fact that I lost more than 50 lbs -- 50.8 to be exact. What a great feeling. I'm going to try and attach an updated photo of myself taken that day below.   That's about it for now..... Very, very happy with my decision to have this life changing surgery.   All the Best to those of you contemplating surgery, working on your pre-requisites or along the journey with me         Updates to my "Ah Hah" moments that I am looking forward to - in relatively random order: Weigh under 280 lbs -- Achieved -- 2/29/2012 - 10 lbs lost during 2 week pre-op diet
Surgery complete -- Achieved -- 3/7/2012
Weigh under 270 lbs -- Achieved -- 3/14/2012
Weigh under 260 lbs -- Achieved -- 3/31/2012
Size 2X clothes fit again -- Achieved -- 4/4/2012
Weigh under 250 lbs -- Achieved -- 4/18/2012
Weigh under 248 lbs (personal significance) -- Achieved 4/20/2012
Weigh under 240 lbs -- Achieved 5/9/2012
Start Jazzercise Classes -- Decide to join LA Fitness and work with a Personal Trainer instead -- 5/23/12
Weigh under 230 lbs
Weigh under 229 lbs (lowest with LapBand)
No longer have to wear airplane seat belt extender -- Achieved 5/1/2012 - WOOHOO!!! Flew on six planes (different models) over the next three weeks with no Extender!!
Size 1X clothes fit again
Weigh under 220 lbs
Weigh under 210 lbs
Weigh under 200 lbs -- ONEDERLAND!
Size XL clothes fit again
Weigh under 190 lbs
Weigh under 189 lbs (lowest while on WW in 2001 after losing 105 lbs)
Able to wear one of the cute sundresses I see at Flea Markets
Go bike riding -- Achieved 5/20/2012 Bought a new bike and took it for a spin.
Weigh under 180 lbs
Size L clothes fit again
Weigh under 170 lbs
Weigh 163 lbs or less - Wedding Day weight in 1983
Weigh under 160 lbs
Size M clothes fit again
Weigh under 150 lbs
Weigh under 140 lbs
Go rollerblading
Size S clothes fit??
Reach Goal Weight - 134 lbs!!!

want2bthin

want2bthin

 

Feeling Bad? Have Some Food

I never thought I was an emotional eater. Most times when I am really upset about something, I am not hungry at all. I remember one time when my now husband and I broke up. We were engaged at the time and I refuses to give him my ring when I walked out the door. I ended up going to the beach. It's the one place I can always feel better and make sense of what I am feeling. Those three days, I think i ate 1/2 of a turkey club sandwich. Nothing else. No chips, no sweets, nothing. I lost 15lbs in 4 days. The good thing was that if we stayed broken up, I would have slimmed down A LOT and maybe found a new man pretty quickly. (my husband isn't very happy that I wrote that last part). LOL   I tell you all this to explain today. Today I received some bad news. Nothing major. No one died or anything. It was news that I knew caused my mother to be very upset and though it upset me, I was more upset that my mother cried. No one likes to see their mother cry. So, with it being lunch time, I looked around for what I was going to have for lunch. Nothing looked good to me. The thought of eating made my stomach turn....until I thought of carrot cake. If you have been reading my blog, you know my love (almost obsession) with carrot cake. I thought, "YUMMM carrot cake sure sounds good. I bet I could eat a whole slice." WHAT? Where did that thought come from? I haven't really wanted anything sweet since surgery so why was carrot cake on my mind now? I sat for a moment thinking about this and then had my "light bulb" moment. Sugar makes everything better.   If I look back at my childhood, sugar played a huge part of making me feel better or was given as a reward. If I had a sore throat, after the doctor's visit, my mother would take me to McDonald's for an ice cream or milk shake. If I ate everything on my plate, I got desert. If I finished my chores, I got a cookie with chocolate milk. Now, I don't think my mother was trying to get me to associate food with good feelings. I think she just thought she was being nice. It wasn't always bad things. There were times I got an apple, an orange, or some grapes. But to me, the best memories were from the special sugary treats.   So, as I sat there coming to the realization that food was a reward to me most of the time, I decided that food will no longer play that roll. Food is something to give me energy. It helps my body do what it needs to. It can taste good and be enjoyable but it is not something I get to feel better or to reward myself with. I am thinking clothes would be a good thing to replace food...but that could be VERY expensive. Let's be honest, a milky way is much cheaper than a pair of shorts or a shirt. So, for now my reward is the scale going down. Knowing if I eat to make myself feel better or to reward myself will be sabotage and I refuse to have gone through all this for nothing. So, the candy bars, ice cream, and all the sugary things can remain on the store shelf. How did I deal with it today? I had a Lean Shake. 25 grams of protein, and I'm full. Not as tasty, but much better for me.

tmorgan813

tmorgan813

 

Eating To Much

So I needed to do a little emotional eating tonight and decided a half cup of wholegrain/flaxseed spaggetti with green pesto and a little feta cheese whould be it and boy am I paying for it.I have pain in the lower left side of my stomach and I am foaming big time.   I just dont have a cue (hickup or sneeze) when I am full like some people do.I did hickup when it was o late though...lol   This is not nice.I should know better.I try to never eat to much and have never felt like this since surgery.   Now I am paranoid about stretching my stomach,stupid I know.Next time I will stick to my protein and veggies and have a sf ice lolly to self sooth when needed.   Life's become so complicated since I had this surgery...so many changes like moving to either the US or UK in 2 months (not knowing drives me nuts) and then my sweet old aunty died today and now I will have to decide if I am going back to South Africa for the funeral and abandon my 11 year old while she had to compete in 2 international gymnastics competitions with an injury.   The thing is I think wasnt neccessarily easier before...I just ate my way through all the problems and it did give me great comfort....now,nothing!   Anyhow,at some point I will have to find not addictive coping mechanisms.And I know I will.   This sleeve is so far the best thing thats happened to me...I would have gained another 30 pounds in the last 2,5 months if I didnt have it.   xxo

desertmom

desertmom

 

Scale Recalibration- Steel Toed Boot To The Ego!

Well, the day has finally come that I have to give up my "GOOD" scale. It is the one that has always told me that I am anywhere from 5 to 10 pounds less than EVERY other scale in the world, rendering all other scales garbage. The doctor, the gym, the surgeon...all of their scales are junk. They're broken. Poo poo. Until now. My good scale is a manual dial type scale, that now only registers 5 or 10 pound losses. I can't hang with that. I need to know the daily ounces of my loss or bounce. (I know, I know. I said I'd never do that, but I don't get all freaked out over it anymore.)   So....my new, evil Weight Watchers brand scale from Costco says I weigh 287!!! Just like all of those OTHER stupid scales! Nowhere to run- nowhere to hide. This means... {GULP} That I did NOT start at 340, but at....349!! AAAHHHHHHHH!!!!! I know, I know...in the grand scheme of things, what's 9 pounds? I've still lost 62 no matter how you cut it. It's just that my starting weight and current weight are, well...shifted up a bit. It's almost like I'm not really who I thought I was!! (insert dramatic music here) HAHAHA Ok, I'm being dramatic for effect, but you get my drift. (BIG SIGH HERE;)   Anyway- if anyone has paid any attention to my stats (which a couple of you have mentioned that you have) that's why the change in numbers. I'm finally being forced to face reality. WAAAAHHHH!!!!

Dooter

Dooter

 

Week 23

This week has been very mild for me. I had to go in to the hospital on Tuesday with chest pains but all was ok they said. See heart doctor on Friday to find out what is going on. I haven't lost or gained weight or inches this week but I know as soon as I can go work out again it will all change. Life is strange, I think it knows when to make us rest and when to make us get up and go. This is a rest week for me.

Charlotte

Charlotte

 

Day 2

Day after surgery   Day 2 and I'm not doing to bad. My stomach came back to life last night. with all its glory. It was moving around and making noisess all night. This morning after I got my IV meds I though up for the first time. it was interesting. Not much there just a little blood. The nurse looked at it and said it looked ok. I had some crushed ice last night and defiantly felt it. I'm looking foreword for my broth that I get when I move to the hotel.

Candyman

Candyman

 

Ugg

so i started to have some syomtoms of another UTI last firday just that i was peeing more my thought we just incress my fuild. Then i started to have a funny feeling by sunday afternoon i supepect maybe i have a UTI sunday night i became missable. I called the dr frist thing in the morning and they said you have a uroliglist apointment on wed do you think i could wait at frist i said okay but when i started to vomit and i was not keeping water down i knew i was in trubbble i called the dr back and said no i not sure i can wait and they said the frist they could get me in was a 3:20 pm with the nurse parcton for my PCP. I am still on antibotics for my last UTI and she relly had no idea what to do, She tryed to get hold of my uroligsts to figger out what to do, she mentoned the hospital and i said no i relly rather not she wanted to send me home and wait till the next day to see my uroligist i was dizzy and i knew i was deharated and she agreed I explaned to her how banded pepole should not get behind on fuilds and i was so nausas and was now at dry heavs as there was nothing left to come up as i had stoped drinking and was thowing up what i did drink. She agreed to give me IV fuilds two litters latter i was not better and still in the worst pain every this made my lap band seem like a peice of cake it hurt so bad. Finely around 7 she said I am sorry i can not send you home with a clear mind you relly should be in the hospital they can give you fuilds iv nusness meds and pain meds i am calling an amblenes,   at the hospital they started askiing about my band, They do alot of gastic bi passes not gastic banding at this hosptial. That why i went with the one i knew did the band and did it well. They said with all the vomiting they were woried about a slip and this is why they hate the band and when it comes to this and they started asking about my sugeron and whated to talk to him they said would you be willing to let us do a revison if something is wrong with the band, They even paged the resdent on call for there barartic program to talk to me about a revison,   Well the good news is the band is in pace they did a ct san and saw i had kidney stones and worst a major kideny infection and the dr said you know were admitting you right at this point i was under morphine and did not care about much expect that the morphine was making me feel so much better it was the only way we got though the ct scan other wise i would have never made it,   They admitted me and gave me ton of fuilds to help me pass the stone and also get rid of my kindey infection that was the start of this whole thing. They asked me to eat i keeped explaning i am banded and i have lactose intalonince and need mushy food to them this ment ice cream cut cup pan cakes cut up muffins ground pasta each meal got worst. I said i can not eat this stuff I have a band in pluse i was so nausus that it did not matter, Finely they called in the barticitic nutrionist and looked at what they were giving me and said she can't eat any of that she has a band pluse offering a banded person ice cream and cake is like giveing an alcoholic a drink she said what she needs is protiine she probely very tired form lack of it and asked me how i felt i said whiped out draned and just blah. she got everything startened out and she went down to the kichen he self and explaned she needs less food more times a day we need to offer her a snacks with protine in it we also need to make sure she has two protine shakes a day to try and make up some of the lost protine that i had not had in the last 3 days and she also need to have access to water at all time and crystal light so she can meet her fuild recments all the sudden things changed. And best of al my dr said good new we know what you have do you want to go home he frist gave me scips for pill and i said do you know if these can be crushed then he said i don't know i explaned my dr has made a big deal that everything has to be crushed or lquid. He said why would you do this to your self? did you think about how your life would change? he said i never understood why pepole do not deit and exsizes I said you want to know exsizes i at the gym before my sugery 6 days a week one hour each time sometimes two I said i worked with a nurtionist on a deit and the most i lost was 4 1/2 lbs over 6 mounths only to get my peridod every mouth and gain 5. I said i did think about how my life would change how i would never eat a pizza again how i never have a handbuger on a bun how i would not be able to eat or drink toghter how my tast buds would change i said i thought alot about and I hate that question I lost 27 lbs in 4 weeks were before the sugery i stuggled to lose 4 1/2 and if that means crushing pills and takeing lquid form then so be it he gave me some persctions and i was on my way problem is no one had these percptions I got one that can be order tommorow and they were able to be change to something else.   Then i find out that Cypro lquid form dose not come genric and it 55 dollors for what would be a 3 dollor perction I am not paying 55 dollors for this I going to make some phone calls to my urolgisest and see if it dose come genric mean while i am sitting with an untreated kindeny infection till i get this mess straitgen out

Lauracat

Lauracat

 

My Huh Is What?

I recently changed insurance coverages and since my new insurance does not allow out of network providers, I decided to leave my beloved surgeon and try a new doctor.   My new doctor is affiliated with the hospital at which I work and comes highly recommended.   ... So i go in to my first visit with my new doc and as he is feeling around for my port... he says "your port is floating around in your abdomen... and it seems to be almost flipped"   HUBBA WHUH ?!!!!!?!!!!!   Furthermore, he told me that I was only full 3ccs not 5.7cc as my old doc had told me.   I had a feeling something was up, although I am in no pain and the doc says we dont really need to do anything as long as he can manage the port with his hands. I still had this weird discouraging feeling the last few months.   So i move on with my new doc who I have the utmost confidence in.   Everything happens for a reason and I will go with the flow.

sandymax

sandymax

 

11Th Week

so today is my 11th week post op and I don't know how i feel i had my surgery march 7 and weight 289 today im down to 255, I wish it was alot more. It is such a hard process and a change of lifestyle that is taking me some time to get used to and not to mention my loving sabotaging husband. He loved to feed me before and still tries very hard to get me to eat and i tend to fall for his tricks which is in turn stop any weight loss. I can say that I am very active now last year in august i was barely walking 200 steps and now there are some days where i do 10,000 steps that's what a normal person walks a day and it's not so hard to be active any more for that I am grateful. Im just dissapointed with myself about my food consumption but I shall get better,

madela1

madela1

 

Not Losing

ok so I been very patient with stalls.. now 5 mon out and still very slow at losing.. I do take into consideration I am working out 3 to 4 days a week! but only losing 4 lbs and gaining and loseing the same 3 lbs... what gives? i am I eating something that not helping me? I also feel like i can eat to much? dont get me wrong I am not clearing my plate !! lol very sad.. I am just working so hard and feeling like I am not working hard enough!!

Nicole76

Nicole76

 

Feeling Good

So, today was my fourth day in a row of good activity. I have also cut my eating way back. Was kind of hungry, but I ate a lot of fruit to try to overcome that. My original plan had been to do the farewell to food thing, having all my favorites in the few weeks before the pre-surgery diet started, but everything I have been reading hear made me change my mind. I have really come to realize that if I'm going to do this thing, I need to be invested. Since I decided to do the surgery, I just stopped watching what I was eating, and stopped getting any activity in, almost like the surgery was just going to take care of everything for me. After reading up on everyone's experiences, I saw that I was setting myself up to fail. So, here I am, keeping up the blog, watching my food, and trying to be active! Thanks to all the previous posters for such good advice.   I'm so worried about my 2 weeks pre-surgery liquid diet! I'm scared I'm going to get so ravenous that I binge when I get stressed! At least it is only 2 weeks, but stress and hunger are not a good mix for me, and I'm in a really crazy time of my life right now. Well, we will see...off to bed now. Night VST peeps!

becky444

becky444

 

Advice Please.

I received my call from the doctor's office today concerning my requirements for surgery. I have to have 6 months of dr supervised diet program. I have to have a nut eval and a psych eval.   I already have my first appointment set up for June 5 with my pcp for the beginning of the supervised diet. That will make Dec 5 my 6 month mark.   At what point should I go for the psych eval? What is it like and how many times do I have to go for it to be over? Does it only take one visit to complete a psych eval?   Thanks Cheryl

CherylA

CherylA

 

Reaching For The Stars

If you can believe in yourself. you can make your dreams come through. I started this journey 19 months ago. Like many of you I had been overweight for the majority of my adult life and had tried and never been totally successful with any exercise program or diet. That is why I made my decision to have WLS over the summer of 2010. I was so tired of being overweight, tired of my knees hurting, tired of being short of breath when i walked from my car to the office. Tired of being the girl with the pretty face, the death sentence comment for yes she is really fat but she has a pretty face. LapBand comes with its own set of challenges, we all went into this believing we knew what we were getting into but I am not sure anyone can truly prepare you for all you are going to experience. The early part of this journey was lined with challenges and so much of the unknown. For all of you pre and newly banded you need to know I lived on this web site in the early days, I logged on daily and would sometimes spend hours reading the forums and blogs. I wanted to learn as much as I could from the very people who I was trying to emulate. I learned quickly that there were just as many people failing as there were people succeeding and honestly that scared the hell out of me. I gleamed what info I could from the positive comments and tried to figure out how I was not going to become frustrated. The one most important thing I learned was that I had to be accountable to myself, no one was going ot hold my hand and make sure I ate what and how I was suppose to. This was all on me, my success or failure that is. Lapband does work, it can be the tool that you takes you where you want to go but remember it truly is a tool, it does not make food choses for you. It will not stop bad behavior, actually it will allow you to eat junk. Think about it sugar and starches break down in your mouth not in your gut so chips and cookies and candies will always go down when you have to work to eat protein and vegetables. I am an optimist, I went into this with my eyes wide open. I knew my life would never be the same, I knew I would be changing the life of not only me but also my family. I wanted to embrace my new life, when I chose my log on to this site, "LovetheNewMe". I was far from loving or even liking how I was but I knew that was where I wanted to go. Today, I do LovetheNewMe, I have no regrets with my Lapband. People often ask me, Do you regret having the surgery, instead of doing yourself. I laugh, they have no idea. The band helped me lose the weight but it was only a guide, the food I chose to eat, the exercise I chose to do and the new life I embraced was all about me not the band. You see I see my band as my conscious, it lets me know if I chose unwisely but it never stops me. I stop me, because I followed the rules my MD gave me and on the lapband web site. I have been successful not because of the band but because of me and my determination to be successful. Today was a great milestone for me. I went to my exercise session with my trainer today. Today was weigh and measure day. I weighed in at 145 lbs with a BMI of 27.4 and 26% body fat. I lost a total of 5 inches. My measurements are now 36-29-38, my thighs are now 21 inches and my arms are 11.5 inches. My trainer, was ecstatic, I thought he was going to cry, I think he was as happy if not happier than I was. When I left the gym tonight he told me I was his walking billboard that proved that hard work and determination did pay off. I said to him well you did it and he said no Diane you did it, all I did was show you what to do, you did all the work. I told him tonight, I would be happy staying at this weight but I did still have some goals, I want my waist to be 25-26 inches, I want my arms down to 10 inches. He thinks I will reach my ideal body weight of 132 in a few more months, will see.   On another note, the dear hubby tells me tonight, I think your thin enough! Now remember this is the same wonderful fellow who said my thighs were less than optimal. I just looked at him very perplexed. So my new thought process is that I have thighs like a Chinese Shar Pia, because that was the breed of my dear departed Alexander whom I lost 2 years ago. I always said my Ali had only a face a mother could love so I am choosing to embrace my shrinkles and the rest of the world can just. "GET OVER IT."   If you take nothing from my ramblings please take this, believe in your self, love your self, set goals and never feel like you fail. Set backs and plateaus are normal, if you stumble, forgive yourself and refocus. This is YOUR life, this is YOUR chance to learn to love your self and embrace a new life. If i can do this you can do this. I dreamed of being here and now I am. Is my journey over NO, this is a life long journey and a commitment. This is my life, my new life!

♥LovetheNewMe♥

♥LovetheNewMe♥

 

Wednesdays

I had my first psycho therapy session in over a month. I usually schedule the sessions on Wednesday afternoons because I telecommute that day. Unfortunately scheduling conflicts occured with all of the pre surgery doctor visits. I'm wondering now if one of the reasons that I am so down these days is that I haven't talked through my issues.   I honestly think exploring why and how I eat was a very good decision on my part. My therapist has had WLS fairly recently so she can understand when I talk about my fear of not losing weight, or my fear that I won't be able to hide behind my weight anymore. She also tries to understand when I talk about being afraid that my depression will sabatoge the surgery.   I have not been very social in the last few months; I go out once in a while with friends but my regular week day is like this: Wake up; shower etc, commute, work, commute, lie in bed when I get home. I don't know how to get out of this dark mood and be myself again. Clinical depression sucks. It sucks because nothing is funny or fun anymore and petty annoyances (a boss who feels that talking to me is intimidating) and 'real life issues' (like my mother's dementia and my father just being himself) are not improving. One of the reasons that I am having this surgery is that I want to get out more. It's embarassing but execising hurts now. Exercise used to make me feel good.   I pray and I pray. I do feel better. I feel relieved and calm when I pray and I can stop myself from stuffing my face. It's funny I turned to food for comfort but the comfort is never there. I hate myself for overeating and I'm physically miserable when I'm stuffed. I realize that I can be my own enemy in choosing to do something that harms me in different ways.   One day at a time; each day as it's own. I remember that God loves me and I smile on the inside too.

Marisa46

Marisa46

 

15 Days Post-Op Soft Foods

Today was my first day of the soft food stage. I felt like I was getting ready to test drive a car and not know what to expect. So even though I originally was going to eat an egg..I went for the Cream of Wheat. I had about 2 ounces and I am thinking this may not be a food for me. I could feel it in my throat an hour after eating. Next test was afternoon meal of pureed tuna and lite mayo...it went down a lot better. When I looked at it, the two ounces didn't look much...but as I ate it in small amounts, I think I barely got one ounce down and was full. I added three teaspoons of chicken broth to water packed tuna to make it softer and not so dry instead of upping the mayo.   Also found if I want to eat fruit or veggies, if I drink my EAS protein shake (17g protein) mixed with a scoop of Whey protein (23g protein) that gives me 40 grams of protein right off.   Word of caution...almost got dehydrated two days ago. My heart started beating hard with abnormal beats. My pulse was 102 at rest. I called my doctor office and was told to come in immediately. When I arrived pulse rate was back to normal. So I was sent for an EKG and it showed that I do have some abnormal spikes and the doctor thinks that may have been the cause but decided to do some blood work to check for dehydration.   My numbers were about to go below normal for potassium and magnesium. I drank some gatorade and after 30 ounces felt better. So far no more issues. Even though I was drinking almost up to 64ozs a day in water, I still needed the extra stuff from Propel or Gatorade so lesson learned.

tgonzale1959

tgonzale1959

 

I'm Done Complaining! I've Lost 10 Lbs Since Sunday!

So I complained a bit about the shoulder pain (caused by the gas they put in me) but overall I got on the scale today and I've lost 10lbs! I'm on the liquid diet and only did liquid diet one day before the surgery that was on Monday. I didnt do anything but the liquid diet to get to where I am today.... I cant wait to work out to give this thing an extra boost, as soon as I'm cleared, I'm going full force! Can't wait to see where I am a month from now =)

blessed0711

blessed0711

 

Angie-3 Weeks Post Op - Not Feeling Full Anymore.

I feel like I have no restriction at this point. The getting full quickly stage is starting to ware off. Is this normal? I am on the diet that the doctor gave to me and in the beginning I had to walk to feel better because I felt to stuffed on a little bit of food. Now I can eat the same meal and still be hungry and want more. I dont drink enough water this is my one downfall. I am trying so hard to get all the water in I can but its definitely not the 64 oz or water a day they recommend. I am having enough protien. I dont have any fills yet.   Did anyone else have this problem??

angeladeflorio

angeladeflorio

 

Doing Better

I'm working graveyard shift today, but my body doesn't want to cooperate with sleep...so here I am, awake when I should be asleep. But it's ok.   Since my breakdown on Monday, I've been making a concerted effort to really question my motivations for anything that comes in or out of my mouth. I hadn't realized it, but I have been buying into the pity that has been coming from aquaintances:   "If I could only eat a few bites, I would DIE!"   "Aren't you going to end up like Carnie Wilson? You know, she had that surgery and gained it all back."   "Wow, you're going to be so sick...I had a (insert friend or relative here) who had that surgery, and he/she was so malnourished that she had to live in the hospital for (insert long period of time), they had to feed her through a tube and he/she almost died!"   "We're all going out drinking....you coming CatLady? Oh, that's right...no fun for you anymore!"   etc, etc, etc.   I'm not sure why I took so many of these to heart, but I have. It comes down to feeling....abnormal. It's a feeling I've struggled with almost my entire life. I just want to fit in - and since surgery, it feels like I stick out even more. For some reason, I chose to remedy this in a fashion that was really no remedy at all. It just made me feel like more of a screw up.   So my goal this week has been to listen only to myself, not what I -THINK- others may think or say about me. It has been challenging, but doable. The big realization is that I *AM* normal. THIS is my new normal. and I've got to go with the flow.   Took my daughter to Panda Express (her favorite place) to celebrate the last day of school, and was perfectly content picking at 1/4 of a side's worth of Mushroom Chicken. Enjoyed talking to her and being inside in the air conditioning. And felt ok. Just have to lock this feeling away and remember it.

CrazyCatLady

CrazyCatLady

 

Wow

Wow...my big day is almost here... Friday morning @ 6:30 is just around the corner...headed to the grocery store to stock up on things for me and my family...

babydumplin1968

babydumplin1968

 

Saving For Plastic Surgery! Can You Help And Benefit Too?

Hello All!!!   I have recently have started an avon business! This is souly to benefit the "Plastic Life" I have lost 85.8 lbs so far in my journey and have 200 lbs + to go! I know in the next year to year and half I am going to be really wanting plastic surgery! I am starting the fund collection now!   If you or anyone you know would like to purchase avon things are much more advanced these days! You can log onto my website select your merchandise and get it shipped right to your door! Its as easy as that!   I dont care if you only purchase once or ever! Reading this blog is awesome support to me! Even if you will pass it on to your friends, family, co workers, etc! That is awesome! I would appreciate it!   My email fiction4321@yahoo.com Website http://chasityjones.avonrepresentative.com/ Please do not select presonal delivery as much as I would enjoy personally delivering your items, it is not possible!

sassychassie10

sassychassie10

 

I'm Alive!

Sorry I haven't blogged in a while, my life and work has been so busy, I can't find the time! But here I am, catching up with you, whoever you are. LOL.   So, after reading my last blog entry, and the whole Adipex situation, I was definetly over-reacting. I've been taking Adipex since the last blog entry and have lost 21 lbs. I don't feel jittery anymore, but also I don't feel hungry. I eat three meals a day, my calorie intake is less than 1000 calories a day and I'm okay with that! I don't know if it's the band or the Adipex or both, but whatever works lol.   Overall since December 2011 I have lost 53 lbs. I am literally one pound away from the "goal weight" I wanted to be for my trip to Mexico next month. My original overall goal weight was to be 180 which would be considered a normal BMI for my height (I'm 6' tall) but thinking about it, my primary care md and OB/GYN stated that BMI's were designed by insurance companies for contract exclusions and they both would like to see me when I reach around 220. Especially my OB/GYN. She wants to make sure I'm extremely healthy since I will probably be pushing out a couple of kids in the next few years (I hope before 35!). I also told my band doctor that and everyone was fine with it. They basically told me when I get down to 220 see how you feel/look whatever and maybe a consult for plastic surgery (which I'm a little confused about since I would prefer to wait after I have children, especially for a breast lift/implants). Long story short, I have to lose 41 lbs to get down to 220. It seems like a ways to go, but I've lost more than half so far (I think so I'm bad at math).   My clothes are fitting differently, my breasts are smaller I feel like I'm losing weight differently than before. I think I need new bras, I'm going to go to Victoria's Secret Saturday and get fitted. I bought clothes from Old Navy in my old size, XXL shirts and 20 pants and everything was too big. I tried on size 16's and I could get them buttoned but not zipped up, so I'm guessing I'm an 18 lol.   It's crazy too because I feel like I don't excercise that much. I walk back and forth from the train station to my job it's 2 miles round trip and 40 minutes total a day. Yesterday when we walked we stopped and got frozen yogurt lol. I definetly don't deprive myself.   I was so ready to give up on the band, but after giving it another try again, I feel like it's actually working. I went in for a fill this Monday and the APRN said I didn't need it because I was losing weight so well and she was a little nervous giving me a fill and then me leaving the country lol. I have another appointment when I get back, so I may ask for a fill then just to feel better. It's like I'm getting anxiety like "omg I just ate and my stomach is growling I need a fill!" but I know it's all in my head lol.

shues138

shues138

 

17Months Post Op!!!

Well Well, I cant believe I haven’t made an entry here since January of this year! Nothing much has changed. I did my first ½ marathon in February. It was an amazing feeling! I did another one in April. In all, I have done 7 races since October last year. But now, I’m at a standstill. I’ve been at 212 for months! I was trying to get back on track but I lost my mother last month. Now, I’m trying to get back there. I’m wondering if I need a fill. I got into the green zone November of last year and I haven’t had a fill since. (surgery date was 12/10) I used to feel pretty good restriction in the mornings…yesterday I ate whole sausage and egg biscuit! In the evening, I can eat just about anything. I still feel restriction in the morning, but maybe not as much? I’m so scared of getting overfilled. I have heard horror stories about that. Any advice? I need it soon since I have already made an appointment for this afternoon . On another note…I bought my first pair of size 10’s last month!! From a 22-24 to a size 10! Woohoo!! Still got about 30 more lbs to go...it seems to be taking forever!

deedee72

deedee72

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