I'm Alive!

Sorry I haven't blogged in a while, my life and work has been so busy, I can't find the time! But here I am, catching up with you, whoever you are. LOL.

So, after reading my last blog entry, and the whole Adipex situation, I was definetly over-reacting. I've been taking Adipex since the last blog entry and have lost 21 lbs. I don't feel jittery anymore, but also I don't feel hungry. I eat three meals a day, my calorie intake is less than 1000 calories a day and I'm okay with that! I don't know if it's the band or the Adipex or both, but whatever works lol.

Overall since December 2011 I have lost 53 lbs. I am literally one pound away from the "goal weight" I wanted to be for my trip to Mexico next month. My original overall goal weight was to be 180 which would be considered a normal BMI for my height (I'm 6' tall) but thinking about it, my primary care md and OB/GYN stated that BMI's were designed by insurance companies for contract exclusions and they both would like to see me when I reach around 220. Especially my OB/GYN. She wants to make sure I'm extremely healthy since I will probably be pushing out a couple of kids in the next few years (I hope before 35!). I also told my band doctor that and everyone was fine with it. They basically told me when I get down to 220 see how you feel/look whatever and maybe a consult for plastic surgery (which I'm a little confused about since I would prefer to wait after I have children, especially for a breast lift/implants). Long story short, I have to lose 41 lbs to get down to 220. It seems like a ways to go, but I've lost more than half so far (I think so I'm bad at math).

My clothes are fitting differently, my breasts are smaller I feel like I'm losing weight differently than before. I think I need new bras, I'm going to go to Victoria's Secret Saturday and get fitted. I bought clothes from Old Navy in my old size, XXL shirts and 20 pants and everything was too big. I tried on size 16's and I could get them buttoned but not zipped up, so I'm guessing I'm an 18 lol.

It's crazy too because I feel like I don't excercise that much. I walk back and forth from the train station to my job it's 2 miles round trip and 40 minutes total a day. Yesterday when we walked we stopped and got frozen yogurt lol. I definetly don't deprive myself.

I was so ready to give up on the band, but after giving it another try again, I feel like it's actually working. I went in for a fill this Monday and the APRN said I didn't need it because I was losing weight so well and she was a little nervous giving me a fill and then me leaving the country lol. I have another appointment when I get back, so I may ask for a fill then just to feel better. It's like I'm getting anxiety like "omg I just ate and my stomach is growling I need a fill!" but I know it's all in my head lol.