Spring Into 2009 Looking & Feeling Fine Challenge

[bandpal 7]

Name........Start......Current......Goal......To Go

CindyG......................190....................190.............175 ................15 Momto1plus1..............178...................176.............159.... ...........17

Shortgal......................176...................175..............1 68...............7

Shalee04...............178...............178..........168...........10

Skinny_Jill..............145...............145..........140......... .5

Bandpal.................161...............150..........161.......... 11

You're late, Skinny Jill?! That's not late... this is late. But I'm in, guys - and going for goal weight this time. Big party when I make it, and you're all invited.

[cindyg1212 0]

Hi Bandpal! How is everything on your side of the world? Are you safe where you are?

Can someone fix the challenge list? My computer isn't cooperating and I can't line up the columns. Thanks!

[Momto1plus1 0]

Name........Start......Current......Goal......To Go

CindyG......................190....................190.............175 ................15

Momto1plus1..............178...................172.............159.... ...........13

Shortgal......................176...................175..............1 68...............7

Shalee04...............178...............178..........168...........10

Skinny_Jill..............145...............145..........140......... .5

Bandpal.................161...............150..........161.......... 11

Edited January 22, 2009 by Momto1plus1

[Momto1plus1 0]

Name........Start......Current......Goal......To Go

CindyG......................190....................190.............175 ................15

Momto1plus1..............178...................170.............159.... ...........11

Shortgal......................176...................175..............1 68...............7

Shalee04...............178...............178..........168...........10

Skinny_Jill..............145...............145..........140......... .5

Bandpal.................161...............150..........161.......... 11

[Momto1plus1 0]

Name........Start......Current......Goal......To Go

CindyG......................190....................190.............175 ................15

Momto1plus1..............178...................169.............159.... ...........10

Shortgal......................176...................175..............1 68...............7

Shalee04...............178...............178..........168...........10

Skinny_Jill..............145...............145..........140......... .5

Bandpal.................161...............150..........161.......... 11

I don't think I will make this goal, but that's okay. This last little bit of weight is hanging on to my behind for dear life. LOL

[cindyg1212 0]

Wendy, you're doing great! I wish I had just 10 to go. I'm stuck up and down the same 5 for months now. I'm having trouble getting motivated. I need to get serious!

[Momto1plus1 0]

Wendy, you're doing great! I wish I had just 10 to go. I'm stuck up and down the same 5 for months now. I'm having trouble getting motivated. I need to get serious!

Thanks Cindy. Do you think you need a fill? My last fill was exactly what I needed. It has really helped. I have lost about 17 lbs since that fill. I just want to see that normal BMI

[Sades 4]

Boy Cindy are you telling my story. I have 7.5cc now and even though I can't eat big meals, I can still snack on the wrong things. It's definitely the head stuff playing up for me and I really get myself back on track. I have lost all motivation... I keep saying I am going to do it this week but every week comes and goes and still at the same weight. I was so motivated at the beginning but because I had no band I didn't get to goal, now I have a band but it's the headspace that isn't working! ) Crazy. I hope the next post I write will tell a different story. Take care everyone and keep up the good work.

[Momto1plus1 0]

Name........Start......Current......Goal......To Go

CindyG..............190.............90.............175 ................15

Momto1plus1.......178..........164.............159...................5

Shortgal.............176...........175.............168.................7

Shalee04............178...........178.............168...............10

Skinny_Jill...........145...........145.............140......... ......5

Bandpal..............161...........150.............161.............. 11

I about died today when I stepped on the scales. I have lost 5 lbs. I'm going to meet my goal!! I can't believe that I'm almost at a normal BMI.

[Sades 4]

Congratulations Wendy that is fantastic news! I guess you're definitely doing it right. How do we Celebrate you getting to goal??

[bandpal 7]

Name........Start......Current......Goal......To Go

CindyG...........190.............90.............175 ...............15

Momto1plus1...178...........164.............159..................5

Shortgal.........176...........175.............168..................7

Shalee04........178...........178.............168.................10

Skinny_Jill.......145...........145.............140..................5

Bandpal..........161...........159.............150................. 9

Congratulations, Wendy - I'm really happy for you!

I'll weigh my self early next week and expect good results. I'm wearing size 31 jeans and medium or small shirts, so that's a good sign.

For the last few days I've been eating a quarter cup of food at two or three hour intervals from 11:00 a.m. on (I'm too tight before then), and drinking half a cup of liquid every hour. And you know what? - no pb's. I fill up quickly and go about my business. Until recently I went through a period of pb-ing alot, and no doubt about it - I was eating too much. The biggest adjustment on this journey for me has been changing a lifetime's worth of habits regarding the quantity of food I think I need and the speed with which I eat it. I guess I just have to accept that it's going to take a long time, that there'll be periods when I'll have to deal with feeling deprived, entitled to more food than I am capable of eating. All in all, I have to remember that I'm only a year and three months out, and that adjustments like this take time.

A friend made an interesting, if somewhat indelicate comparison yesterday: " A guy who has a sex change operation doesn't become a woman just because he cut his dick off and grows tits; he becomes a woman when he believes deep down that he's a woman, when he thinks, feels and reacts like a woman. Otherwise, he's just a guy with tits and no dick". Well, it's no fun being a guy with tits and no dick, and I don't want to end up being a thin guy with a fat head (for one thing, I won't be a thin guy for long with that mentality). It's just going to take time to accept this amazing new condition I find myself in, to really become the thin person which I already am on the outside. I can't believe how little it takes to fill me up. I can't believe how small I am, how small my bones are... my body is still catching up with the change. For one thing, I've been cold all the time!

Along with the physical change, I see my character changing as well. I am calmer, quieter, less boisterous, less needing to fit the "job description" of a "big guy". This is good, because under these circumstances I am less likely to feel the need to overeat. For me, felings of anger or vulnerability lead me straight to food. Lately I've been feeling less out there, less exposed, more self contained and regulated. That's part of the internal change that is going to make this "sex change operation" a real success.

Wishing you all continued good luck along the way,

-Bandpal

Edited February 27, 2009 by bandpal

[Sades 4]

Thanks for that Bandpal, I needed to read that. My biggest problem is eating too much and too fast, so PBing is happening more often than I would like. I have to go back to the basics and serve up small amounts so I'm not tempted to keep going. It is hard because it never looks enough when I'm serving it up but it definitely is more than enough when I start eating! Bit by bit I'm getting there but it certainly is a journey.

[Momto1plus1 0]

Thanks guys!! You know I have days when I try to eat to much and of course I PB. I find it is in the evenings that I have this problem. It's an ever going process. We did't get fat, eating right so we have to learn. I never realize how little I actually eat until I'm out with friends.

The thing I wonder is what do you do when you get to your goal. I really am scared to have Fluid removed. I'm afraid I'll gain weight. I would be in trouble if I did that. I have gotten rid of all my old clothes. If it's even a little lose I give it away.

[Sades 4]

That is a scarey thought Wendy. I guess we have to stay diligent in keeping an eye out on any weight gain. Even though I am not at goal, as soon as I see any weight gain I make sure I jump right back into doing more exercise... I think that is why I kept off the weight when my band wasn't working. I guess despite the band, we will be "dieting" for the rest of our lives.

[shortgal 5]

Bandpal: THAT analogy cracked me up!