I'm so excited and terrified at the same time! I went out with a guy on Saturday night...and Monday night...and last night. He's called me every day since Saturday...and we email a couple times a day. He asked me out this Saturday- he wants to go to a super nice restaurant and made reservations.

As I'm writing this, it sounds so silly that I'm so surprised...but I have dated a whole bunch of players over the last four years or so and this actually feels really weird to have a guy be doing the right things. How do you get over the feeling that you don't deserve it?

He makes me laugh, he laughs at my jokes, he kisses like a rock star, and is so cute I just can't stand it. He hasn't even gone up my shirt yet!

At my heaviest, I found it easiest to date guys from large people personals. He's the first guy that I've dated in YEARS that I didn't find on one of those sites- he's from Match.com, actually. When I've dated a guy who I know likes big girls...I don't get nervous about getting naked. I tell my friends, "Ah, he knows his way around the back fat pretty well". Well, this guy didn't put that he was looking for a bigger girl in his profile so I'm so nervous but I've discovered that he knows his way around the back fat, too...so it's killing me to know if he's dated other bigger girls. I'm trying so hard to just sit back and not over analyze everything but it's so hard!

I haven't told him about the band yet. I'm nervous about that, but he is such a nice, non judgemental guy I think it will be ok. If it isn't, then he's not the guy for me I guess. I have to tell him soon or it will drive me crazy.

So..that's my excitement. Any tips on how to not over analyze and just enjoy it all?

Megan

I am so excited fro you. Feeling happy / in love or lust is so great!!! I too think I would wait just a smidge longer before I would share my band story. That way you will have built just a little more of a foundation. In the beginning I don't thinks its ever wise to spill our whole barrel of monkeys on the table. Either way _ I am happy your happy & just make sure he always treats you RIGHT.:0) Of course he likes you silly ..whats not to love?

okay Megan, I can't say this any bigger... You deserve a great guy! But no making out with the fridge, isn't that what lead us here in the first place???

he kisses like a rock star,

Ive never kissed a rock star.... do they kiss better then the ordinary?

hmmmmm

You are sooooo cute! I just want to hug you.

Again, I love you guys. I just can't believe I can come to a place and have so many people be so nice to me. Thanks everyone!

I have discovered that I have some pretty nasty tapes that play in my head about what I deserve and what to expect. For example...

I was trying on some clothes this evening at a store ( I seriously have nothing to wear for dates. I have a total of three sweaters and three shirts, two pairs of jeans, and some dress clothes and that's it. My closet is empty!!!). I caught my rear end in the mirror and I had the thought...Oh my god, I can't let him see how big my ass still is! Then I calmed down and thought...huh...his hands were runnin' all over it last night...sure didn't seem to bother him then.

I have to work on these things I say to myself. This is rediculous!

I agree that I should not make out in the refridgerator. It is exactly what got me here in the first place. Plus, I don't think he eats. He's a twig.

The whole "Jack Sprat could eat no fat and his wife could eat no lean" has always been my favorite fairy tale.

Megan

You crack me up! I love hearing you so excited...I remember the days. DH and I will occasionally say the things we said to each other in the beginning...I'll spare you the details...but the sweet, expectant and happy feelings never go away! They may lie dormant for a while, though! My DH is a twig, well not really, well, yes he is. He's 5'10" and 165 to 170, depending on how busy he's been at work. He absolutely does not understand my food/weight issues. He knows it's beyond him and it has been a difficult road on occasion. He fully supports my band surgery. And my big ole butt doesn't seem to bother him when, ahem, ya know.

It won't take you long to find out this guy's mettle...let him prove himself slowly. Seems like he's doing a very good job so far! Good luck to you and keep us updated on the "All My Refridgerators" soap here on LBT!

awwwwwwww young love......it's so cool....good luck to you Megan.....just enjoy it one day at a time....don't think so much!

Nancy :-)

Whooo HOOOOOOO, Megan!!!

Ah, so exciting, and so scary....

I've always hated dating, but now that I'm in a committed relationship I see taking chances with your heart really is worth it - because eventually you're going to find the great guy you deserve!!

Here's hoping THIS is the one!!

xxooxxoo

Meagan that is awesome. Take it as it comes. Also, a good friend of mine met a guy on Match and they are now talking marraige. Just saying!

Okay now, the weekend is over...how's Mr. Man? Waiting for the update...

Cough up the details.....

You guys are so great!

Ok, so the weekend was terrific. He took me out to a really, really nice restaurant that was way expensive...and I of course ordered off the appetizer menu and I'm pretty sure he thought I was just being courteous. Little does he know! No, I still haven't told him about the band but it's coming. I'm getting a fill tomorrow so it's going to be hard to hide the fact that I can't eat for days after I get one.

After dinner we went to my favorite dive bar in the middle of no-where. We were all dressed up and it was so fun to drink and eat bar popcorn. We laughed and laughed.

Then we came back to my place and were going to watch a movie but we didn't quite find the time.

I have my period so noooooo we didn't have sex. We laid in bed and made out and talked all night. It was the best. He's such a sweetheart and he really, really digs me. I should change the name of this thread to "I know he really likes me". He couldn't keep his hands off of me...so I am no longer afraid he's going to discover that I'm really fat under my clothes :-).

Ahhh...It's been such a week. He's in Denver for a couple of days, and then we are getting together for St. Patty's day. The guy makes dates with me a week ahead of time...

He also left stuff at my house. I wasn't sure how I felt about that. I'm used to dating guys who leave no trace they were ever even around. I talked to my friend Kevin and he said, "Wow, he's planning on coming back. When I'm out playin' I don't even leave footprints out the back door". Yeah...Kevin has some commitment issues but he's always available to let me cry on his shoulder or to move furniture. WHat more could a girl want in a guy friend?

OK...so that's my story. I've been dying to write you all a little note but this is the first chance I've had time to catch up with LBT.

So...I am pretty sure he likes me. How cool is that!

Megan

Woowww...I am in awe! You go girl!

Hey! Wipe that smile off yer face!!! Not!

(sighing with smiles)

this is better then a watching a good love story on the tube!

Megan,

Can you tell us what time to tune in again for the next episode of He really, really digs me? You go girl!!!

You go girl. He sounds like quite a guy to me:)