Anxiety is through the roof today. Things are overwhelming when looking at it in sum at the moment. The big picture is just, well... too big.
We walked the dog today and just like yesterday I wasn't really in the mood. Today even less so than yesterday because I knew what was going to happen. I tend to mull over things in my head and start ruminating when walking in quiet. The conversation with my husband will inevitably turn to these things, raining my anxiety even more.
It's different when going for a run or a bike ride. Thoughts are not as present then. I don't know if it's the higher heart rate, the fact that I need to be more aware of the movement when running or needing to be more aware of the environment because of moving faster when riding a bike or a combination of it all.
Fact is, I hate walking for this reason, even when not alone. I start ruminating and start to feel like crap when there's something going on.
Got my new gravel bike yesterday and I want to take it out for a ride. However, it's cold af here today (0°C) and I've forgotten to take my primaloft shorts for additional isolation.
I already froze my pelvic region off during the short test rides yesterday and it was 5°C so I guess it'll have to wait a bit... not worth catching a UTI.