Okay so here is the entire story here. I have posted in bits and pieces in replies to others.

So I started my pre diet liquid only mind you. At three weeks prior to my June 13th surgery date.

I have NASH or severe fatty liver or whatever they are calling it now a days

5/24th I started it. I did really good I was doing my liquid protein and broth, sf jello and popsicles and a cup of yogurt.

Then on the 30th and 31st I fell off it because I had found out I couldn’t have broth nor yogurt. The surgeons office said the sodium in broth would not release the fat around the liver. And the yogurt was too much milk products since I’m using premier shakes.

So that sat me back and it was a lot to lose I tried it and was so hungry I gave in and had a blue cheese burger at a restaurant on the 30th. Then my coworkers brought in my favorite pizza they thought it had not started yet so I had like 4 slices and doughnuts(2) a couple hours later.

On June 1st I started again this time no broth or yogurt and it’s much harder. I made it through Friday, Saturday and Sunday then failed as the following this week starting on Monday

Monday- 2 fried burgers with tons of cheese and on bread.

Tuesday- large movie popcorn and butter

Wednesday- small cheeseburger and beef with veggies

Thursday- beef with veggies and chicken with veggies and cheese

My dear hubby is freaking out about it and has me worried that I’m going to get to surgery and they will cancel it or open me up and cancel it.

I started it at the weight of 311 or 314 and I’m now at 291 so I have lost some weight.

So im just curious if I can follow the all liquid till surgery if I stand a chance of it happening any thoughts? Has anyone ever failed this badly this close and made it?

or has anyone had surgery they went in and closed without doing it? Because they cheated.

I know I did it to myself and well I own that fully. I couldn’t control my actions I will have to work on that a lot.

But I’m torn as to if I should just call the surgeon office and tell them to cancel it because my liver is most likely not shrunken enough. If I do that I know he’s heading out a week after the 13th for three weeks and my insurance only approved the surgery window up till July 3rd

or just be strict till the 13th and hope all is well. As well as doing a murelax bowel cleanse the day before.

Oh how I wish I could have been stronger and not cheated

Edited June 8, 20188 yr by Oceanlove

Well I called mr surgeons office spoke to the nurse. Explained everything and she said stay on the diet. She will talk to the surgeon on Monday when he’s there and see if we have a go for Wednesday or not. She said she’s not sure if he will or not. I told her I lost 20 pounds as well.

So here’s to a very stressful weekend ahead and hoping I don’t have to reschedule all my work days etc. and if so it’s nobody else fault but my own.

3 minutes ago, Oceanlove said:

Well I called mr surgeons office spoke to the nurse. Explained everything and she said stay on the diet. She will talk to the surgeon on Monday when he’s there and see if we have a go for Wednesday or not. She said she’s not sure if he will or not. I told her I lost 20 pounds as well.

So here’s to a very stressful weekend ahead and hoping I don’t have to reschedule all my work days etc. and if so it’s nobody else fault but my own.

I think you did the best thing you can in the circumstances. Good luck.

6 minutes ago, Oceanlove said:

Well I called mr surgeons office spoke to the nurse. Explained everything and she said stay on the diet. She will talk to the surgeon on Monday when he’s there and see if we have a go for Wednesday or not. She said she’s not sure if he will or not. I told her I lost 20 pounds as well.

So here’s to a very stressful weekend ahead and hoping I don’t have to reschedule all my work days etc. and if so it’s nobody else fault but my own.

I think this is the best thing you could of done, you want to make sure you are ready for this so you can be successful in the long term. I wish you the best of luck no matter how it goes. And if it needs to be put off for a while so you can prepare yourself mentally it is not the end of the world. There is always another day!

Ok so figured I would update here. The dr canceled my surgery.

He made me go back to the dietician.

He then rescheduled it for next Wednesday. 6/20th

Don’t be so hard on yourself ! We’ve all been there . I think you’re okay. Some surgeons done even require a pre op diet

At least you didn't hear,"No No a thousand times No. Not as long as I can draw breath!" You have gotten a reprieve, every time,you get peeved or angry, tell yourself, I should. have said NO No, iinstesd of I'll have another! We can't be there to say,Bad bad
naughty to you, you have to do it now and for your future health.

I was going to ask the same question AshAsh1 asked. I am doing the same as she did. I have given up all of the stuff that we should not be eating. I need this 6 months before my surgery so I know going in I will have already done the changes in my diet and I won’t be craving all the crap.
It sounds like you only got 1 psych evaluation for your pre-op approval , it also sounds like you did not tell the doctor that you are a bing eater that can’t control yourself. Yes we all make mistakes but like others have said cheating and binging are 2 very different things. You have to tell your Doctor , Nut or who ever is your case manager at the doctors office. You already know you have a fatty liver and they are not kidding about closing you up if it isn’t the size they can work with. It sounds like you are no where near ready for this entire life change .

13 hours ago, Oceanlove said:

Ok so figured I would update here. The dr canceled my surgery.

He made me go back to the dietician.

He then rescheduled it for next Wednesday. 6/20th

So he basically gave you more time to get the pre-op diet right. That's great, good luck!

I am glad you were honest with your surgery team and didn't get it cancelled altogether. I would definitely use this time to see a therapist as well that can help you with the self control issues. Better to work to get it right now than struggle with it after the surgery. Please keep us updated.

On 6/7/2018 at 11:55 PM, Pearldrop said:

Ok, take a deep breathe and forgive yourself as you would a friend.

I think, regardless of when you have the surgery, you need to talk with a therapist to work through some of your triggers for post/long term success.

Start your fluids and Protein and steer clear of your triggers. This phase is super hard, I’m so glad mine is over, I struggled really badly. cheese was my weakness.

This. All of this.

I am sorry that you are going through this. I will not even claim to understand what you are going through. However any issues that you are having before surgery are not going to magically disappear after surgery. You are still going to want the foods that are not good for you. You just won’t be able to eat as much. If you do, you will literally make yourself sick. My advice is to step back, see your therapist and nutritionist. They can help you work through this. Surgery is important and I know you must be anxious to get there but a safe surgery is the most important. Please do not take unnecessary chances or risks. Your life may depend on it.

I wish you much success.

This is chance at a fresh start. Make a promise to yourself. What seems impossible for a few days, will literally save your life in the long run.

Shortmocha is giving sound advice, take it to heart and really consider talking to a therapist. If your head isn’t in the game now, then surgery is pointless. It is hard and each of us have those triggers, but knowing what they are and how to avoid them will be the key to success. Good luck and God Bless!

On 6/8/2018 at 1:58 AM, Oceanlove said:

Okay so here is the entire story here. I have posted in bits and pieces in replies to others.

So I started my pre diet liquid only mind you. At three weeks prior to my June 13th surgery date.

I have NASH or severe fatty liver or whatever they are calling it now a days

5/24th I started it. I did really good I was doing my Liquid Protein and broth, sf Jello and popsicles and a cup of yogurt.

Then on the 30th and 31st I fell off it because I had found out I couldn’t have broth nor yogurt. The surgeons office said the sodium in broth would not release the fat around the liver. And the yogurt was too much milk products since I’m using premier shakes.

So that sat me back and it was a lot to lose I tried it and was so hungry I gave in and had a blue cheese burger at a restaurant on the 30th. Then my coworkers brought in my favorite pizza they thought it had not started yet so I had like 4 slices and doughnuts(2) a couple hours later.

On June 1st I started again this time no broth or yogurt and it’s much harder. I made it through Friday, Saturday and Sunday then failed as the following this week starting on Monday

Monday- 2 fried burgers with tons of cheese and on bread.

Tuesday- large movie popcorn and butter

Wednesday- small cheeseburger and beef with veggies

Thursday- beef with veggies and chicken with veggies and cheese

My dear hubby is freaking out about it and has me worried that I’m going to get to surgery and they will cancel it or open me up and cancel it.

I started it at the weight of 311 or 314 and I’m now at 291 so I have lost some weight.

So im just curious if I can follow the all liquid till surgery if I stand a chance of it happening any thoughts? Has anyone ever failed this badly this close and made it?

or has anyone had surgery they went in and closed without doing it? Because they cheated.

I know I did it to myself and well I own that fully. I couldn’t control my actions I will have to work on that a lot.

But I’m torn as to if I should just call the surgeon office and tell them to cancel it because my liver is most likely not shrunken enough. If I do that I know he’s heading out a week after the 13th for three weeks and my insurance only approved the surgery window up till July 3rd

or just be strict till the 13th and hope all is well. As well as doing a murelax bowel cleanse the day before.

Oh how I wish I could have been stronger and not cheated

Hi you may just need to hit a version of a pre surgery diet HARD from now for ultimate success. Good luck!

Edited June 13, 20188 yr by Tealael

Don't give in to self sabotaging yourself...YOU are worthy and beautiful and deserve this surgery! Take all the steps seriously this is your life...no one can make you lose weight once you have surgery after a year...it all changes temptation and sweets and those foods are always going to be around to tempt you...Figure out why you are wanting to hold onto that horrible self and start fresh and let go, pray, take walks , get yourself a friend who can support you through this....you are not alone in a dark corner we are all here for you!!!