Mind playing tricks 9 days pre-op

[Pedro Valle-Inclan 275]

Hi folks, 9 days to surgery and excited, but it's funny the tricks my mind is playing with me. Let me explain.

I'm 6-2" and 252lbs now with very wide shoulders so truth is I don't look all that overweight to many many people. Now I've gotten down to this weight doing Atkins pre-op the last two months losing 30 + lbs. Additionally I have an ex-wife best friend who is saying it's a mistake, that I can do it "this time" because I have strong support around me, etc. So part of me is wondering if she's right.

Well then I remember what my life's really been like, and I realize, sure, I've lost this 50 to 60 lbs many times, around SIX TIMES, of course always gaining back all of it plus some. It's been a demoralizing ride, and now at 60 the co-morbid problems are no laughing matter.

THanks, I just needed to vent. I can't wait for this new life to start. And to have this new incredibly powerful behavior mod tool to add to my now daily walks, 3 times a week gym, daily meditation,therapy, Bariatric support group, YOU GUYS, thanks and God bless you all!!!

Let's do this thing....

[SHOTzY* 114]

Hi folks, 9 days to surgery and excited, but it's funny the tricks my mind is playing with me. Let me explain.

I'm 6-2" and 252lbs now with very wide shoulders so truth is I don't look all that overweight to many many people. Now I've gotten down to this weight doing Atkins pre-op the last two months losing 30 + lbs. Additionally I have an ex-wife best friend who is saying it's a mistake, that I can do it "this time" because I have strong support around me, etc. So part of me is wondering if she's right.

Well then I remember what my life's really been like, and I realize, sure, I've lost this 50 to 60 lbs many times, around SIX TIMES, of course always gaining back all of it plus some. It's been a demoralizing ride, and now at 60 the co-morbid problems are no laughing matter.

THanks, I just needed to vent. I can't wait for this new life to start. And to have this new incredibly powerful behavior mod tool to add to my now daily walks, 3 times a week gym, daily meditation,therapy, Bariatric support group, YOU GUYS, thanks and God bless you all!!!

Let's do this thing....

Vent all you need to; WE are listening and I know almost everyone has had well meaning, maybe even rude, relatives and family nay-say and chide our decisions. No one truly understands obesity at this level unless they have walked in your and our shoes!

This is a tremendously hard journey! It is hard mentally to get to this point, start the process, and reach the goal of surgery. It is emotionally exhausting and you have to fight depression, self doubt and even self loathing, and the fear of others opinion of you and you decision!

I'm so glad you did not give in and that you believed in yourself-loved yourself-enough to know that this saving your life!!

Your going to make it; you will have a precious chance to live healthy and be happy with yourself. And you get all the credit for your hard work????!

[jantra12 28]

Hi folks, 9 days to surgery and excited, but it's funny the tricks my mind is playing with me. Let me explain.

I'm 6-2" and 252lbs now with very wide shoulders so truth is I don't look all that overweight to many many people. Now I've gotten down to this weight doing Atkins pre-op the last two months losing 30 + lbs. Additionally I have an ex-wife best friend who is saying it's a mistake, that I can do it "this time" because I have strong support around me, etc. So part of me is wondering if she's right.

Well then I remember what my life's really been like, and I realize, sure, I've lost this 50 to 60 lbs many times, around SIX TIMES, of course always gaining back all of it plus some. It's been a demoralizing ride, and now at 60 the co-morbid problems are no laughing matter.

THanks, I just needed to vent. I can't wait for this new life to start. And to have this new incredibly powerful behavior mod tool to add to my now daily walks, 3 times a week gym, daily meditation,therapy, Bariatric support group, YOU GUYS, thanks and God bless you all!!!

Let's do this thing....

You do you!!! Try not to listen to everyone's opinion. They have never lived in your body!! They mean well... But... You know what's best for you!! Take care!!!????????

[reframe 7]

Thank you so much Pedro for posting your thoughts, I can relate so much.

I am 6 days pre op and my mind is definitely playing tricks on me as well. I feel the doubt seeping in about whether this is the right decision for me. Truth is in my heart I know it is but I'm so afraid of regretting my decision or having WLS change my life in negative ways.

I keep reminding myself that

1. This is not an impulsive decision

2. nor has it been only my idea (I'm working with a great support system who have worked/known me for many years through my weight struggles)

3. I am not the same person or in the same place as I was when I got the lap band and had so much difficulty with it

4. I'm not expecting "a miracle", "easy weight loss" or "smooth sailing" emotionally or physically, this is a life long change

5. I can reach out for support now which I could/would never do before

6. I do not need to be perfect

7. I cannot continue on at this weight and with these health consequences

8. I deserve it!

Wishing you well!

[SHOTzY* 114]

Glad you posted those 8 statements of positive thinking! Don't let any of those self doubts or negative energy sway you from your decision to change your life. You know why you're here; you got here because of that very focused desire and drive. That will sustain and drive you on to your goal. You know it will be ups and downs sometimes, but you have this place to come to, and your own personal support people. By posting your private thoughts and fears you, and as others have too, you help us all confront those demons ourselves. It's empowering ????!! Good luck and best thoughts!

[Pedro Valle-Inclan 275]

Yeah, man I so appreciate the comments of support and the 8 point list, far more than I can say. The responses here really made my day!! thank you all so much, pedro

[RNYDawn 160]

I have had the same thoughts. And they go right back to what you mentioned: losing and gaining and losing and gaining. I can't do it anymore. No matter the support around us, we have shown we cannot succeed long term without more help. I totally understand as I assume many on here do. Your surgery is five days before mine and I look forward to cheering you on!