Nervous, anxious, excited,stressed, sad,depressed,happy...I am every single one of those emotions right now and my stomach is in knots. I go in the hospital tomorrow at 12:30 pm for my Sleeve procedure, and I didnt think this day would ever come.

Nervous- Im nervous cause i hate medical facilities and surgeries, I have had quite a few and i always get butterflies the day before and the day of the procedure.

Anxious- cause I just cant wait to just get this over with already, all the preparation and tests and reasoning with myself as to why I need to do it, I just want to be done with it already and move on.

Excited- I was looking at pictures from when I was down to a 34" waist and was 215lbs of pure sexiness, Im excited to get down there again cause I remember how good it felt and how confident and in control of my life I felt.

Stressed- the back and forth reasoning in my head, combined with the unknown and the permanency of the decision I had to make has stressed me beyond belief these past several months.

Sad- cause I know the party is over for me..The time has arrived for me to face my worst enemy and my best friend and part ways with it forever. food...Im sad to see you go for now, but perhaps we will have a healthy relationship after this, not the abusive one sided relation ship we have had for the past 40 years..

Depressed- Im depressed at the fact that I have lost control of my life and my body to the point it has had to come to this. I am ashamed of myself that my motivation to do the right thing has gone away in the past few years and I have given in to food and let myself fail once again in my life.

Happy- Im happy that there is a way out for me and I have chosen to do it finally. I have always told myself "Im not fat enough to do that surgery" when I saw friends do it and loose a ton of weight. I always did not understand and called it the easy way out and thought of them as weak minded cowards...Until I realized this one thing

No matter how hard you try,you can not solve a permanent problem with a temporary solution.

You're gonna do great! I'm following you on Weds...save some room for me on the loser's bench!

Congratulations & Good Luck On Your Journey.... February is my last nutritional visit which will be my 7th. I know the emotions are like a roller coaster I'm dealing with it now keeping the faith knowing this is the best decision I'll ever make. I'm excited to be on this journey towards a healthier me. God Bless You

nicely stated. you put into words exactly what I have felt over the past few months

THE PRE-OP DIET MADE ME SECOND GUESS EVERYTHING!!!

It's gonna be so great! Wishing you all the best.

I am ashamed of myself..After sitting in the hospital for hours with an IV in me, I backed out of the surgery..Sitting there waiting for someone to remove part of me forever got me thinking that I did not really think this whole procedure through.. I realized Im simply not mentally ready for it. Perhaps if they rolled me right in i would have done it, but sitting there for 4 hours left me way too much time to think stuff over..

Perhaps I will regret my decision perhaps i will revisit the surgery, but I want to explore a few more options right now. Yeah Im overweight, but Im healthy for now and just couldnt bring myself to pull the trigger..I have been crying all morning and afternoon and am ashamed of myself cause once again I quit myself.

Do not be ashamed. You made a damn tough decision. Not too many people would have been strong enough to have sat there and then decide to not go through with it.

The bottom line is that if you were not ready, then you made the right call. Do not be so hard on yourself. You are still left with a decision you can change if needed. Otherwise, you would have had the surgery and not been able to reverse course.

@jerseyjules. I am so glad to hear you say that u changed your mind at the last minute. I have 2 weeks to go and day by day I am slowly thinking I don't want to do this. I am overweight and have lots of health issues. But this is a non reversal decision. I'm respect your choice to change ur mind and thanks for being brave enough to tell everyone.

@jerseyjules. I am so glad to hear you say that u changed your mind at the last minute. I have 2 weeks to go and day by day I am slowly thinking I don't want to do this. I am overweight and have lots of health issues. But this is a non reversal decision. I'm respect your choice to change ur mind and thanks for being brave enough to tell everyone.

See i am overweight buy literally have zero health issues right now related to being overweight. Realistically Im 295 right now and want to be no lighter than 240lbs actually..Im a really solid dude, and just could not justify doing this to myself at this point..

@@JerseyJules - Aw Jersey I was rooting for you. Well If you're not ready, you're just not ready. I know this goes against what many people think, but I really think this board is too intimidating for a lot of pre-ops. I found this after my surgery and never knew about all the pain, gas and so forth so many experienced. I had 4 friends who had WLS and none of them shared any bad stories. The information I got at the support groups was always positive.

If you ever reconsider come across the bridge to UPenn. They'll treat you right. I just had my IVC filter removed today. I ended up waiting longer than I planned, but once again I came through relatively easy.

If you want to try a trainer and old fashion diet & exercise follow this guy on IG and Facebook. He's an inspiration to all.

Most importantly don't lose faith in yourself. One way or another you can beat this!

Well, you can always try again later. It's scary, I didn't have an co-morbids but I did it. I'm so glad I did because I'm down 40 lbs now in 10 weeks! You def have to be ready To do it. If your not your not. It's ok.

Well, you can always try again later. It's scary, I didn't have an co-morbids but I did it. I'm so glad I did because I'm down 40 lbs now in 10 weeks! You def have to be ready To do it. If your not your not. It's ok.

I feel as it I failed myself yet again. I cant believe I backed out last minute like a big sissy...I know deep down inside I probably need this but I just cant grasp that mentally and bring myself to do it..

@@JerseyJules - I didn't have any co-morbs either, just a very high BMI. Perhaps counseling might help at this point more than the surgery. Your attitude towards surgery is very important. You need to go into it with a positive attitude. If you aren't mentally prepared it's best to wait.

See i am overweight buy literally have zero health issues right now related to being overweight. Realistically Im 295 right now and want to be no lighter than 240lbs actually..Im a really solid dude, and just could not justify doing this to myself at this point..

First let me say that I absolutely agree with your decision to back out at the last minute. If you are not mentally ready then you should not do this.

I will respectfully disagree with your comment about having zero health issues related to being overweight and here is what I mean by that. Being obese in itself, is a health issue. Statistically, obese people don't live as long and the years they do have often have more medical problems.

Then, there is a always the psychological side of "health" and how it relates to obesity.

I only mention all of this because I do not get the feeling that you are completely off of the WLS surgery journey and that you will be considering this as you move forward. Just adding another perspective to the idea of "health issues."

But again, I completely agree with you not doing the surgery at the moment and I really wish you the best of luck. Personally, I am still debating on what to do, and I keep going back and forth.

First let me say that I absolutely agree with your decision to back out at the last minute. If you are not mentally ready then you should not do this.

I will respectfully disagree with your comment about having zero health issues related to being overweight and here is what I mean by that. Being obese in itself, is a health issue. Statistically, obese people don't live as long and the years they do have often have more medical problems.

Then, there is a always the psychological side of "health" and how it relates to obesity.

I only mention all of this because I do not get the feeling that you are completely off of the WLS surgery journey and that you will be considering this as you move forward. Just adding another perspective to the idea of "health issues."

But again, I completely agree with you not doing the surgery at the moment and I really wish you the best of luck. Personally, I am still debating on what to do, and I keep going back and forth.

I think I just rushed the whole process and didnt really 100% think it through.. Like I said in another posting to be mentally on board means 100%, not 50% or even 90%...It has to be the full 100% and for me I need the following:

1) I need to know I absolutely can not do this on my own

2)I need to know that surgery is the ONLY option..Period..