So I had a pretty good day I went to the farmers market and bought lots of tidbits for a casual dinner tonight for the husband and kids. It's hot so I made a big platter with two different goat cheeses, smoked salmon, sun dried persimmons, French baguette slices, and orange slices. I had some too but not a lot.. Well fast forward an hour or so and they all want to eat again... I'm upstairs because they are playing Xbox and I dislike it. I'm at the point of the evening when the cravings get the worst and I'm battling with myself not to sneak downstairs and eat something bad.. They (husband and teen daughter) send the boy (who is 11 and the charmer) up to ask "please can you come down and make pork buns because we are hungry again" 0_o I really didn't want to face the kitchen again because I'm weak willed. so my son says "you know what mom I'll try and steam them myself" He runs down and tries but needs help so the evil video playing ones yell up that he's going to burn the house down. I ended up going and doing it myself (with his help) and opened the cupboard several times wanting something sweet, but I just looked and closed it up again. But I'm on edge! I'm serving up the buns and one breaks open so it not "perfect" looking anymore, I handed it to my husband and I swear he looks at me like "oh thanks" Well ladies and gentlemen, that's all it took! I threw the napkin at his face and I might of said something like f**k you... Ok I did!!! OMG I'm a mess!

I must say my husband is a great man who does a lot to make my life easy ( works so I can stay home, grocery shops etc) So he's not an ass (usually)

By the way they are downstairs laughing,playing and eating..

Well we made it through.. We talked this morning about what happened he was mad because I was "hiding" and I was mad because I wanted to eat a chocolate Easter egg that his mother gave me from Sees that's still sitting on the cupboard.

He said he will take care of that egg for me this weekend I was actually hungry! When I went to bed with my stomach growling! I think I didn't get enough to eat yesterday, it was hard to track my intake yesterday so I always round way up on things if its not precise. And my calories still came out under 800.. But it was late and I knew eating wouldn't be good.

Well today's a new day!

Oh...but he just told me that he promised the kids last night that we would go out to Dim Sum for brunch today O_0 Lordy I'm in trouble now!

Did I mention that they eat? They eat all day, and they eat copious amounts of food.

I'm glad you and the hubby weathered the storm and talked through it. I had a recent similar experience....

My hubby and I were grocery shopping the other day and he went to the bakery and bought 3 decorative sugar Cookies for him and the kids... I was PMSing and gave him hell in the store, and walked off. I don't even LIKE sugar cookies!!!

He put them back and I told him to buy them. I apologized and explained, in my case, it was displaced anger.

Displaced anger or not, it's real and powerful... Good luck.

If you were hungry a little nibble wouldn't have hurt why don't you cycle your calories if you know you're going to be hungry later on at night maybe try a salad or lots of veggies for lunch which are low cal and you'll be good to go for dinner just a thought. Eating with my family is still a big part of my life and I really enjoy participating. Isolating yourself because you're not eating a pork bun isn't worth the mental anguish my 2 cents

Well I hope your happy.. To pay my penance today, I went out with them to Dim Sum.

I would not eat a pork bun though

First thing that came to my mind was he's lucky it wasn't a cast iron frying pan

Good job fighting the food beast though

*sigh* Some days certainly are worse than others. I'm not sure which is more difficult.....being around people who are eating, or being left home alone with access to whatever. Both are difficult for me, but I'm a closet eater, so being along is probably more of a struggle. I understand where you are coming from.

*sigh* Some days certainly are worse than others. I'm not sure which is more difficult.....being around people who are eating' date=' or being left home alone with access to whatever. Both are difficult for me, but I'm a closet eater, so being along is probably more of a struggle. I understand where you are coming from.[/quote']

Yes!! I thought about that today! Last night when I was in the cupboards I was "sneaking"

If I had got that chocolate egg I would of scurried off with it and ate it by myself...

I would of never eaten that egg in front of people,

I really need to do so much more work.

Today I ate off of "plan" but it was much more healthy in the sense that I did it in public with my family, oh and it was a really nice time.

I haven't thrown anything but I do get bitchy when my husband asks me every night if I am going to have dessert...I do sometimes save myself some extra calories for a small indulgence but not every night. My husband eats constantly and it is usually nothing good for you he agreed in the beginning to cut back as he is not as healthy as he could be but he hasn't been so some days when he ask me I go off but he understands I think ?? Lol. He told me today he is making a pact to get back on track and stay that way so we can do it together he is away right now so we shall see when he gets back...

My husband and children are fit, so this is truly only my problem I wonder if its harder to live with fit people that have no idea what your going through or someone overweight and still eating more than they know they should?

I just told my husband that I would of snuck that chocolate upstairs and ate it by myself.. He was like "really?" And I told him "well could you imagine me getting that and sitting down next to you and eating it?" He said "no!"

I said "you know as an healing "experiment" I should get that damn Sees egg and sit with you and eat it!!!

Hehehe...

*sigh* Some days certainly are worse than others. I'm not sure which is more difficult.....being around people who are eating' date=' or being left home alone with access to whatever. Both are difficult for me, but I'm a closet eater, so being along is probably more of a struggle. I understand where you are coming from.[/quote']

Oh me too. Being alone is really hard and my hubby works nights. Seeing other people eat doesn't phase me one bit. I'm on my best behavior when people are around. When I'm alone it's a different story!

Oh me too. Being alone is really hard and my hubby works nights. Seeing other people eat doesn't phase me one bit. I'm on my best behavior when people are around. When I'm alone it's a different story!

Yep, that's me, too. I actually have a hard time admitting to myself even what I've eaten. Part of my personal work is just facing that, and facing what I've eaten. I do track everything I eat, and I put it on my fitness pal for the world to see, but I really don't always want to do it! Like yesterday when I had a party, and today when I was alone all day....I'm going to bed now. I'm out of calories. And right this minute I'm really not thinking about eating, so it's time to go!

My husband and children are fit' date=' so this is truly only my problem I wonder if its harder to live with fit people that have no idea what your going through or someone overweight and still eating more than they know they should?

I just told my husband that I would of snuck that chocolate upstairs and ate it by myself.. He was like "really?" And I told him "well could you imagine me getting that and sitting down next to you and eating it?" He said "no!"

I said "you know as an healing "experiment" I should get that damn Sees egg and sit with you and eat it!!!

Hehehe...

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My husband is fairly fit as far as build but looking healthy isn't the same as being healthy as we know lol. He is 6'2 and 210 and he works out a lot ...He just eats like crap which gives his 36 yr old otherwise fit body a little gut that he complains about all the time which is when I tell him he is doing everything right but his diet is keeping him from the six pack he desires.I tell him it's the 6 pack(beer) or the six pack:)

My husband is fairly fit as far as build but looking healthy isn't the same as being healthy as we know lol. He is 6'2 and 210 and he works out a lot ...He just eats like crap which gives his 36 yr old otherwise fit body a little gut that he complains about all the time which is when I tell him he is doing everything right but his diet is keeping him from the six pack he desires.I tell him it's the 6 pack(beer) or the six pack:)

Aw! He's fit and can eat a lot. That's like mine then! My husband is a hardcore mountain and road bicyclist, he "needs" to eat to not lose weight..

He LOVES exercise! How we got married and stayed married is a mystery to me

Oh! And I know this sounds corny but, I love you guys

Thanks for the support.

Well I hope your happy.. To pay my penance today' date=' I went out with them to Dim Sum.

I would not eat a pork bun though [/quote']

I recent that!!! what you got against pork? You Jewish or something? I kid that's good that you spent time with them and didn't let food win

Laura, break up the Easter Egg and have a little piece every now and then and don't feel guilty! As long as you don't eat it in one hit there's no need to feel guilt and sometimes just that little piece is enough to get it out of your head.