So here I sit, finishing the last 2 hours of the last day of work before surgery. Am I freaking out??? OF COURSE! I know I'm not the first (obviously) or the last to go through this but my head is going bonkers telling me that this surgery will be a waste of my time.

"This can't possibly be end the 27 year struggle with weight. THere is no way that this surgery will get me to a normal body weight. I will only lose half of the weight that I want to (that is if I lose at all)."

These are the things revolving around in my head. I want so badly to look at this surgery as the first day of the rest of my life. The life that I have always wanted to have. The life that says that I can go to Cedar POint and ride any ride I want to with no fear that my wide butt won't fit in the seat. The life that says that I can go the mall and find something that I have been wanting to wear that is in style instead of buying whatever will fit my super sized body.

I want nothing more than to shout for joy and praise God that this day is finally almost here........................................................................................................................ So why do I want to cry???

The emotions are normal. Youre ending an era of the old you and heading for your future self. Let it all out and hit the trail hard. Congrats

Good Luck.. you'll do fine and soon you will be on your way to a heathier you!

We all feel this way...it is cause you are saying bye to the old you and that in its self is hard...but it will be fine..good luck..

You can do it, the emotional roller coaster is normal! Hang in there and keep us posted!

So here I sit, finishing the last 2 hours of the last day of work before surgery. Am I freaking out??? OF COURSE! I know I'm not the first (obviously) or the last to go through this but my head is going bonkers telling me that this surgery will be a waste of my time.

"This can't possibly be end the 27 year struggle with weight. THere is no way that this surgery will get me to a normal body weight. I will only lose half of the weight that I want to (that is if I lose at all)."

These are the things revolving around in my head. I want so badly to look at this surgery as the first day of the rest of my life. The life that I have always wanted to have. The life that says that I can go to Cedar POint and ride any ride I want to with no fear that my wide butt won't fit in the seat. The life that says that I can go the mall and find something that I have been wanting to wear that is in style instead of buying whatever will fit my super sized body.

I want nothing more than to shout for joy and praise God that this day is finally almost here........................................................................................................................ So why do I want to cry???

What you are feeling is perfectly normal. Be excited, be happy, be joyful. Tomorrow is your day!

My surgery is on Mon. Aug. 22 and I feel the EXACT same way as you feel. I am scared, happy, excited, and yet I want to cry.....I think maybe in my case, it is because NO ONE in my family seems to really understand what I have been and AM going through...I feel so alone sometimes.....and that makes me sad! )I guess that is why I come to this site so often) Good luck to you....please keep in touch!

Cay

Kimberlina, I so relate to your comments about going to Cedar Point and being able to ride any ride. My family tends to go there at least once a year, and I was so upset I couldn't ride the Millenium Force although I had been able to the year before. It was one of the big reasons I decided to finally go through with my surgery. It is also why my ticker is of a rollercoaster.

Good luck on your surgery! We can do this! Go August All Stars!

"This can't possibly be end the 27 year struggle with weight. THere is no way that this surgery will get me to a normal body weight. I will only lose half of the weight that I want to (that is if I lose at all)."

Maybe you will only lose half the weight you want to lose. Not everyone reaches their goal weight. I think it's healthy to acknowledge that's a possibility. I just wouldn't beat yourself up over that possibility.

I don't know. I cried a lot AFTER my surgery. Go figure. It wasn't pain either.

So here I sit, finishing the last 2 hours of the last day of work before surgery. Am I freaking out??? OF COURSE! I know I'm not the first (obviously) or the last to go through this but my head is going bonkers telling me that this surgery will be a waste of my time.

"This can't possibly be end the 27 year struggle with weight. THere is no way that this surgery will get me to a normal body weight. I will only lose half of the weight that I want to (that is if I lose at all)."

These are the things revolving around in my head. I want so badly to look at this surgery as the first day of the rest of my life. The life that I have always wanted to have. The life that says that I can go to Cedar POint and ride any ride I want to with no fear that my wide butt won't fit in the seat. The life that says that I can go the mall and find something that I have been wanting to wear that is in style instead of buying whatever will fit my super sized body.

I want nothing more than to shout for joy and praise God that this day is finally almost here........................................................................................................................ So why do I want to cry???

My surgery is on Mon. Aug. 22 and I feel the EXACT same way as you feel. I am scared, happy, excited, and yet I want to cry.....I think maybe in my case, it is because NO ONE in my family seems to really understand what I have been and AM going through...I feel so alone sometimes.....and that makes me sad! )I guess that is why I come to this site so often) Good luck to you....please keep in touch!

Cay

HI I AM NEW TO THIS. MY SURGERY IS AUGUST 31. I START MY LIQUID DIET TOMORROW AND AM IN THE SAME BOAT WITH YOU. MY BEST FRIEND TOLD ME I AM TAKING THE EASY WAY OUT AND SHE HAS SEEN ALL I HAVE BEEN THROUGH AND HOW HARD I WORK;SO IT REALLY HURT MY FEELINGS. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? I AMDOING THIS FOR ME BECAUSE THIS IS MY LIFE, AND NO ONE ELSES. SO YOU GO GIRL! THIS IS A JOURNEY YOU WILL NEVER REGRET TAKING! CONGRATULATIONS TO YOUR START TOMORROW!

How are you doing, Kimberlina?? Any updates for us? Hopefully you are healing well!!