9 FREAKEN pounds and I will be at a healthy weight! 9 freaken pounds - and it is taking me FOREVER to lose them. Its the hardest 9 pounds I have ever tried to lose. Did you guys hear me, 9 FREAKEN POUNDS and I will be at a healthy weight. It feels like a dream to even type those words. I never thought I would be this close to being healthy. Oh, I dreamt it, but its really coming true.
I sometimes focus on how long it is taking me, but if I really stop and think about it. Its taken me less time to lose it then it did to put it on. It took me 20 years to get up to 248 lbs, so I shouldn't be so upset at taking 2+ years to reach my goal weight with the band, right?
I was thinking this morning as I glanced at one of my pictures on my desk with my kids, and made me think how far I've come. To know I will never ever ever be 248 lbs again, thats something to be happy about. So, I'm trying to stay positive, and focus on the weight I've lost and not the weight I need to lose.
Speaking of my picture, my new boss was over at my desk the other day and he asked me if that was my sister, I told him it was me. His jaw dropped down to the floor, he tried not to act so shocked, but I could see it in his face. I said "well, I've lost a few pounds since then" His reply "you think?". lol. I love to see peoples reaction when they see the new me. Its the best reward of all.
Plan today:
Exercise - 10:00 am - 6 min on recumbant bike - 15 min on elliptical
3:00 pm - 20 min on elliptical
6:00 - dinner with some old high school buddies, planning our 25 year reunion -
9:30 - Gym - 40 min on elliptical and upper body training
11:30 - BED
Menu
Breakfast -
yogurt mixed with granola - 5 pts
Lunch
Fish Taco (Wheat tortilia, WW cheese, Talapia, Cilantro, salsa, fresh squeezed lime) = 4 pts
Snack - 1 orange, string cheese - 2 pts
Dinner
1 chicken taco - 5 pts
beans - 3 pts
Few chips and salsa (6 chips only = 1.5 pts)
20 pts total
Wt - 7:30 am naked - 164.6 (up .3 from yesterday)
Well in my previous post, I said I was not going to exercise today, I was taking the day off. I lied. Couldn't stay away from the gym. I only did a quick cardio blast, 30 min on the Elliptical, but hey, at least I did something today, right?
I think I'm becoming a gym addict again, I used to be one, then got hurt and had to have knee surgery and ever since then, I just haven't been into the gym like I used to be.
I'm really noticing a difference in the past week. I'm wearing a Junior size 9 Cruel girl jeans today, and Dang, they look good, and feel good! Even though I'm just a few pounds lighter, the fat is shifting or something because they sure feel and fit better than they did when I bought them!
Last night was my weight watchers meeting and guess what the freaken scales said, NOTTA, nothing, NO LOSS AT ALL. I weighed exactly the same as last week. 167.6! What the heck? I exercised 6 days last week, I ate pretty darn good and I didn't lose 1 freaken ounce? What the *&$%#!!!!!
Okay, so the scales say I didn't lose but my clothes say differently, they are looser, fit so much better and some of my jeans, I must wear a belt! So am I worried - NOPE, am I upset, well, a little. I really wanted to see some movement. According to my scales, I've lost, but according to the WW scales, I haven't. We'll see what next week says. All I can say is if they tell me I didn't lose next week, someone is getting slapt. Thats right, I'm jumping over the counter and slapping one of those skinny little receptionist. :thumbup:
The old me would have come home and just ate and said "what the use", but the new me can see the changes that my body is making and feel the changes that my body is making and I like it. So, do I care what the scales say? Well, a little, but I know they are liars so I am going to keep plugging away doing what I am doing because I know that changes are happening!
Last night after dinner, I headed to the gym and did a very hard workout! I did cardio plus upper body strength training.
Todays menu:
Breakfast
1 cup of sliced strawberries - 1 pt
1/2 container of WW yogurt mixes with granoloa - 5 pts
Lunch
4 oz talapia - baked - 3 pts
salsa, cilantro - 0 pts
2 Whole wheat tortia - 4 pts
(fish tacos - yum)
Snack
1 mandarian orange - 1 pt
Dinner - WW meal - 6 pts
Exercise - tonight is my night off, none tonight. :cursing:
Wt - Naked on my scales in AM 164.3
WW Scales - 167.6
Okay, I'm doing it. No more excuses is working. I've been to the gym 6 times!
3/18 - cardio
3/19 - cardio
3/20 - cardio and strength training
3/21 - 1hr and 15 min doing 40 min of cardio and the rest strength training
3/22 - 35 min on recumbant bike
3/23 - Have only done 15 min so far of cardio, but plan on doing another 30 min before I leave work, then hitting the gym tonight!
Eating has been right on! I had a bad night Tuesday (overdosed on girl scout cookies), but since then, I've done GREAT!
Tonight is weigh in at Weight Watchers so we'll see how I've done! My scales show I'm down, but who knows what I will weigh wearing jeans and a sweater like I am today. I wish they had private rooms where I could just strip down naked - that always makes me go down a few pounds. :thumbup:
I started tanning on Friday, got to get me a little color before my Cancun trip next month, I'm so white and pale looking. Got me a new haircut on Friday, cut about 3" off and I feel so much better, the hair looks so much healthier. Got my nails done on Friday too, I had a me day!
My menu today:
Bfast
1 cup of Fiber One Cereal - 3 pts
1 cup of skim milk - 2 pts
1 banana cut up - 2 pts
Lunch
3 oz of chicken breast - baked - 3 pts
asparagus 1/2 cup - 0 pts
brocoli 1/2 cup - o pts
few grape tomatoes - 0 pts
FF salsa over my chicken - 0 pts
Snacks
4 large strawberries - 1 pts
1 mandarian orange - 1 pt
Dinner
Turkey meatloaf - 4 pts
1/2 baked potatoe - 1 pt
green beans - 0 pts
WW ice cream bar - 1 pt
18 pts total - I get 21, but I lowered it down to 20 this week.
I'm tired of all my excuses, ....too tire, my knee hurts, blah blah blah. Its time to JUST DO IT! Just get my butt to the gym and exercise. That is how I lost 70 lbs the first year, EXERCISE!
So - last night, I had me a good dinner, turkey and 1/2 cup of stuffing (not so good - but only ate a little), and some green beans. I waiting for about an hour, and then got ready and headed to the gym. I only did about 35 min on the elliptical,
As I was doing the elliptical I concentrated on how great I feel when I exercise, it really makes me feel and look good. So why do I blow it off? Anyhow, thats when I decided, no more, no more excuses, its time to just do it!
Today, at 10, went down to our gym at work and did 15 min on the elliptical, just to get my matabolism going. I'm going to do it again at 3. Then tonight, going to an abs, abs, abs class at 6:15 to 6:30, doing ZUMBA class at 6:30 to 7:30. Its time to fake it until I make it. No more excuses. I want to reach my goal - by gawd, I am going to reach my goal. Its time to dig down deep and pull that determination out!
Menu today
Bfast
1 cup of fiber one ceral with 1 cup of skim milk
1/2 cup of diced peaches on my ceral
3/4 cup of protein shake - 10:30ish
Lunch
tossed salad with turkey chopped up, salsa for dressing
Snack - later in afternoon - 1 apple
Dinner
1 chicken taco filled with mixed greens - no cheese
Exercise
1. 10 am - 15 min on elliptical
2. 3pm - 15 min on elliptical
3. 6:15 pm - abs class
4. 6:30 pm - Zumba class - latin dance aerobics.
5 - Maybe some lower body strength training, not sure if I can do with all the other cardio......we'll see.
I went to my WW meeting last night and didn't lose anything. The good news, I didn't gain anything either. I went over my points for the week and I did bad for three days in a row. So I was pleasantly surprised that I didn't gain anything, and so happy about it too.
This week is going to be better! I'm already down a bit according to my scales.
This week, I'm focussing on exercise! Oh - its on this week! I'm going to kick some butt in the exercise department! Oh yes, next week, I can't wait to step on the scales because I'm going to see a 2 lb loss. Thats right, 2 lbs! Me and the scale, we are going head to head and I'm going to win! Its on baby!
Wt - my scales, naked in the am 164.9
WW scales - fully clothed in the afternoon - 167.6
Okay, its Tuesday and a lot better day today!
Went to WW meeting last night and lost 1.4 lbs since last week. Making it a total loss since joing WW of 4 lbs. I told myself that if I could lose just 1 lbs a week, I would be happy. So losing a total of 4 lbs averages out to 1 lb a week. Its been 4 weeks since joining.
I made a great low point/low cal pizza last night and I will be having it for lunch.
Whole wheat with Flax Flat-out bread - 100 cal - 1 pt
3 oz of baked chicken breast (diced up) - 3 pts
Rago, no added sugar pasta sauce - 50 cal - 0 pts
2 tbs of olives - 27 cal - 1 pt
handfull of mushrooms - 0 pts
diced onion - 0 pts
1/3 cup of WW Mexican Cheese - 2 pts
Total point value 7 pts
Lay out the flat bread, spread 1/2 cup of the pasta sauce over it. Place the chicken, olives,mushrooms, onions on the pizza then cover with the cheese.
Bake in preheated oven at 425 (I bake it on my stone pan from pampered chef) for 5 to 7 min or until cheese is melted.
It was very very filling and healthy. I had a craving for pizza so I just made my own. :confused:
Todays menu
Breakfast
fiber bar - 2 pts
coffee with cream - 1 pt
snack
orange - 1 pt
Lunch
Pizza - 7 pts
snack
yogurt - 1 pt
Grapes - 1 pt
Dinner
meatloaf (made with 1/2 turkey breast and lean beef)- 4 pts
green beans - 0 pts
Snack (while watching the Biggest Loser)
WW dessert - 4 pts
Wt - naked first thing in am 165.1
WW weigh in weight (evening time fully clothed) - 167.6
Okay, Mondays.......I just hate them. I always feel so disorganized on Mondays. I'm always tired (partied too hard on the weekend - not beer drinking partying, just a lot of running and errands kind of partying), I am always lacking my sleep on Mondays, and it seems everything goes wrong. Can we start a petition to outlaw Mondays?
My DH wakes me up this morning at 7:30 "honey, what time do you have to be at work today". uhhhh "the same time I've worked for the past 10 years dear". He said "it's 7:30", I fly out of the bed without even touching the floor "Oh, crap, I have to be at work in 30 min". NOw mind you, my driving time is 30 minutes alone. I throw on something that doesn't need to be ironed, brush my teeth, and head out the door. Oh crap, back into the house I go, I grab my lunch, and head back out the door. Okay, I glance at the clock, I'll only be about 10 minutes late I think. I'm cruising down the highway at a nice 65 mph, and all of a sudden, screech, uuuurk, I slam on my brakes. I am sitting at a complete stop for 15 minutes. Finally on the radio they announce a 5 car pile up on the highway I'm on. Oh, I tell you, I knew from that moment, it was going to be a bad day!
I get to work, FINALLY, 1 hour later, looking thru my purse 5 times and still I could not find my badge. I have to go thru a long check in process with Security. So after getting in thru the security (which acts like we are the freaken white house and wants to check all your credentials, along with almost taking your fingerprints and everything else you might have) I get to my desk, to realize I had a conference call at 8:30 this moring that I missed.
I go pour me a cup of coffee, I need the caffiene this morning! So I'm sipping my coffee, and oops, there goes the coffee, all over my pants, all over my floor and splashes on my new purse which I paid big bucks for, So I run to get a paper towel, and we are out of paper towels in the kitchen. I finally get some out of the bathroom. I get the coffee cleaned up and then go unlock my desk, and I can't find my desk keys. I'm looking thru my pruse, but and they are no where. But as I'm looking thru my purse, I find my badge. grrrr, I couldve saved myself the long Security check in after all!
I have a big call this afternoon and I need my keys! So now I have to drive home (25 miles) at lunch and get my keys!
Now, this is the kind of stuff that happens to me EVERY MONDAY, so with that being said, lets all ban together and OUTLAW MONDAYS!
Okay, I need to start thinking positive or I will be a complet Beotch the entire day.
I missed my workout this moring - overslept - so I have a backup plan, going tonight after my weight watchers meeting.
I have done pretty good this week on WW plan. Had a slip here and there, but I think I did pretty good. I weighed this morning and my scale shows not a big loss, maybe not even a loss. I will find out tonight when I go the meeting and they weigh me.
Well, since I am so far behind today, getting to work late and all, I better sign off and get back to work.
Okay, I stepped on the scale this morning, and up again. What the hell?
Anyhow, I felt smaller, not sure why the scales are up AGAIN. But......I have these jeans I bought about a month ago and they were too tight. I decided to try them on today just for the heck of it. I didn't think they would fit, I just wanted to see if they were any looser, well, hot filley dough, color me happy, they fit!:w00t: I'm wearing them today! Jr's size 10! Love 'em. So, whenever the scales say your fat, just try on a pair of skinny jeans and you'll feel better!
It just made me realize that the scale is a big fat liar! I mean, he really is. He says I'm gaining weight, but my jeans and my body are telling me, Hey girl, your looking good and getting smaller and can fit into a Jr.'s size 10 jeans. So I am excited, no matter what that freak of a scale says!
It all gets down to, are you eating right? Are you exercising? Are you getting smaller? Yes, yes and yes! So the scale is playing with my head these days and trying to convince me that I'm gaining weight, but he failed! I know that I'm not!
Okay, its Friday, its payday, and I'm wearing my skinny jeans today, and its suposed to be in the 80's today. Its absolutely a beautiful day today, so I'm a happy camper. Very good mood. Plus I get off work at 11:00 am today (only working 4 hours) yay! Life is good.
Below is an article I've kept for quite some time, I read it from time to time when I'm feeling down about the scales, so I thought I would post it again. Even though it is talking about deiting with Low carb, which I try to do. Or I eat the healthy carbs (like fruit) I think the article applies to all types of eating.
Wt - naked first thing in am (168.9)
Here we go again...
How the hell does your body hold onto weight and still manage to get smaller while you are on your chosen low carb diet?!? You know the scenario: You are on Induction for two weeks, and you haven't cheated even once. You notice that your clothes fit better, that you are stepping a little livelier, and as far as you're concerned, all's right with the world.
But then you step on that evil construction of the Devil himself, the bathroom scale, and you instantly feel betrayed. The stupid thing insists that you have done nothing! Sometimes, it even states you have done less than nothing; it accuses you of cheating because it tells that you haven't lost any weight! Well, there area couple of simple explanations to help you get through this trying time.
First of all, if it is at all possible for you to do so, throw that insipid Monster Scale in the trash. Or at least put it up somewhere that it is really, REALLY inconvenient to get to so that you won't be tempted to ask it's opinion every single day of your life. Face it. If you are feeling better and your clothes are looser, do you really need the scale to tell you that you're on the right track? No! You don't! Why do you think you do it, then? I'll tell you why. The low fat diet demons have a tenacious hold on your brain. That's right, you've been brainwashed. All your life they have told you through doctors, dietitians, newspaper and magazine articles, surgeon generals and the like, that you give up X calories per day and you will lose a pound of fat. They even go on to tell you how much fat you should lose each week. In the process, they've made you dependent on the Monster Scale to gauge your progress!
What a big lie!
Even on the diets that "they" advocate, the Monster Scale does not often cooperate. You go back to the Diet Demons and demand to know why the scale does not reflect the torture you have put yourself through for a month. They immediately start backpedaling on the "give up X calories and lose a pound of fat" story, and start talking to you about water retention and muscle buildup. Sometimes, they even blame it on you with questions like, "Are you sure you counted the calories in everything you ate?" (This is delivered with a knowing little smile that makes you want to rip their knowing little face off.) Being the type that is given to blaming things on yourself, anyway, you cooperate with an answer like, "Well….." They pounce on this with "Ahhhh, well.." Then, they launch into one of their scoldings/lash/encouragement speeches.
So, get off their bandwagon, already!
Then, there's the competitive spirit. You hear about what other people have done on your chosen diet. Yes, Brian went on Atkins a year ago and lost over a hundred pounds. Yes, a hundred pounds in a year is over eight pounds a month, or 2 pounds a week, or .0119 pounds per hour….but, "Hello? You ain't Brian!" And, did Brian ever say that he lost .0119 pounds per hour? No! He said a hundred pounds in a year. This only proves he got on the scale twice; a year ago, and yesterday. Take a hint from Brian. Stay off the scale!
The second solution is to understand what is going on in your body in light of the current state of human affairs. Today, all a person has to have to eat every day is money and transportation to a grocery store or, better yet, a nice restaurant. However, your body's survival instincts have not matured in a million years. Your body still thinks you are a hunter-gatherer. Yes, in spite of a million years of evolution, your body still thinks you are going to have to go out and kill a mammoth to eat. The survival instincts with which you are going to have to come to terms are read-only memory. You can't overwrite them. Deal with it.
That said, let me tell you what happens when you lose a pound of fat. Your body has been saving this fat for that long hunting expedition you're going to have to go on to track, kill, dress and retrieve that huge animal. It keeps the fat in little pillows distributed throughout your body. When you start losing fat, it doesn't trust you to continue whatever insane path you have chosen that is causing the fat to dissipate. So, when the fat comes out of the pillow, it injects water as a "place holder." Sometimes that water actually replaces the weight of the fat it lost. Sometimes it replaces the volume.
Water weighs more than fat just like lead sinkers weigh more than feathers. If you stuff a pillow with a pound of feathers, you'll have a nice big pillow. If you stuff a pillow with a pound of lead sinkers, you'll have a nice (but rather hard and uncomfortable), small pillow. Now, let's say your body removes a pound of fat and replaces the weight with a pound of water. Your weight will stay the same, but you will be smaller. But, if your body decides to replace the lost fat by volume, that is a quite different story. Remember the great big feather pillow as compared to the tiny lead sinker pillow? Well, now think of a gallon of feathers and a gallon of lead sinkers. Try to pick up the gallon of feathers. Piece of (you'll pardon the expression) cake. Now, try to pick up the gallon of lead sinkers. Sucker's heavy, ain't it? So, you will be smaller, but you will have gained weight.
Eventually, your body makes the executive decision that you are not going to replace the fat you lost, and it lets go of the water. In the words of Danny Skaist: "When your body accepts the fact that they are no longer needed, the water will be expelled and the cells closed. This is known as the "whoosh."
What makes your body decide to replace by weight or replace by volume? I dunno. But I do know that it does not seem consistent to the casual observer. What makes your body decide that you are seriously not going to replace the fat you lost? I dunno. But now you know why it's so important to drink your water, huh? Loss of fat is inextricably related to water intake. It's more than a little foolish to go on a diet that facilitates the removal of fat and then refuse to give your body the tools it needs to do so.
Bottom Line: Stop getting on the scale and drink your water. If you stick to your plan and wait for the "whoosh," it will come.
Well, today I did not get out of bed. But I did exercise last night, and I felt like I worked out really hard last night at the gym.
I didn't get into bed until after 11 again, so I knew that getting up at 4:45 was not going to be easy, turns out it was harder than I even thought. I don't even remember turning the alarm off, but I guess I did. :sleep:
I might not be losing a lot of weight according to the scales, but my inches and clothes tell a different story. My workout pants were hanging off me last night, thats when I realized that something is happening to my body, and I like it!
I tried on a size 8 dress yesterday, and it fit! I almost bought it, however, I am trying to hold off for a few months. I am addicted to shopping these days, its not good for my pocket book. Luckily I have zero debt, except my house, so I can afford to shop. However, this is an expensive year for us, my son is graduating and starting college, we have a huge party we are throwing for him, I also need to buy a new car this year. I've had mine for 11 years now and it has 200K miles on it. I need a dependable car for work, so I'm going to have to break down and buy one, so I will have car payments again. yuk.
So, I must stay away from the stores, I'm weak when I see a cute outfit, I tell ya, I'm weak!!!!!
Okay, my plans today -
3:00 - going to the gym at work and doing 20 min on elliptical
8 pm - going to the gym to do lower body workout - then will get on elliptical machine and do an additional 15 min. Its going to be a rough night at the gym tonight! I'm going to work it hard!:biggrin:
Scales this morning showed I was up 2 lbs :w00t: - that is just a normal day in the neighborhood for me. The scales are so cruel to me at times, I used to cry and cry and get so discouraged, now its just a game to me. I like to see what the scales tell me, sometimes I play guessing games before I step on, I'll say "I know your gonna tell me I weigh this - lets see if I'm right", so if I am right, I win. lol. Its a weird head game I play.
Sometimes I just kick the scales and let him know I don't need him today, I like when I do that too, I feel like I win for that day too. Weird? Just my crazy life. I feel like me and the scale have this love hate relationship, sometimes I love him, sometimes I don't.
Today I just didn't care, he told me I was up 2 lbs, I said, who cares you flat bastard! :tt2: YOu might say I'm up, but my pants beg to differ! They are telling me I've lost, so take that!
Well, I better get to work, I have a very very very busy day today, lots of conference calls to be on. grrrrrrr.
Wt (naked in the am) 167.8 -
Yay, my cousin called me yesterday and she won a trip to Cancun. She was top sales and gets to go to Cancun for the awards ceremony and wanted to know if I wanted to be her guest. No charge, completely FREE. uhhh, let me think about this, Free trip, all you can eat and drink, on the beach resort, uhhh, hell yes! So, I leave for all inclusive trip to Cancun for 4 days on April 23rd! Yay!
This gives me some motivation to keep exercising and lose more weight. I think I can lose 5 more pounds by then. Its a little over 5 weeks away I think. I might be able to lose more, but I'll take 5!
The resort we're staying at is called the Cancun palace and its a 5 star resort with all the luxeries you can imagine. I'm getting a seaside massage, under an open-air palapa! Thats what I call WONDERFUL! All drinks and food are included. And they have a state of the art gym, so I'm telling myself now, just because I'm on vacation, no reason not to exercise! So, I'm planning on exercising while i'm there too.
Anyhow, I'm excited, can you tell? My cousin first asked her mother to go, but her mother has no desire to go, then she asked her husband, but he recently had surgery on his shoulder and he hates the sun. So even though I was her third choice (lol), I am totally pumped over it!
Now, on the exercise note, I set the alarm this moring, and I could've gotten up, but my body was just worn down. I have not been getting in bed until after 11, and getting up 3 or 4 in the morning. I could feel how worn out it was, so I decided to go back to sleep. I tell you, its just what I needed. I feel so much better today and so much more energy this morning that I haven't had in a long time. So I'm glad I didn't get up this morning. I plan on going to the gym after work, and I will get back up tomorrow morning, but for today, I needed the rest, so no guilt about sleeping in.
I stayed off the scales, but will probably weigh tomorrow morning. I put on my size 10 jeans and they are actually a little loose. hmmmm. Maybe inches are melting?
Last night, we had our meeting at church, came home, and I had recorded the Biggest Loser, my friend came over (she lives around the corner) so she could watch the Biggest Loser. So we were very mad at the end of the show when it said "To be continued...." Grrrrrr.
Next week, I think I'm going to have her come over on Wednesday nights and we'll watch it then. Getting home at 9:30 on Tuesday nights,then trying to watch the show, puts me in bed toooooo late.
Well, looks like I'm a chatter box today, but I'm just so excited, Cancuun, my clothes feeling loser, I feel skinnier, and I have energy today!
Gotta get to work......
Menu today - I get 21 points a day:
WW muffin - 3 pts
coffee with cream - 1 pt
bannana - 2 pts
Lunch
salad - 0 pts
Meatloaf made with Turkey breast and extra lean beef - 3 pts
Snacks
yogurt - 1 pt
apple & WW cheest - 2 pts
Dinner
Egg White omlet made with spinach, turkey, peppers, salsa (yum yum) -5 pts
WW ice cream bar - 2 pts
I'm still 2 pts short today, but maybe I can add a point in or 2. If not, I'm not too worried about it, however, they tell me to make sure I eat all my points.
Exercise - 40 min on Elliptical - 8:00 pm.
I did it, I did it, I did it. I was up at the gym by 5 am. I really had a hard time this morning though. My legs felt like jello and I had no strength, I noticed I was very week. I am going to eat more protein today and see if that helps. Also, I need to go to bed earlier. I didn't hit the pillow until 11 pm last night and woke up hungry at 3:47 am. I couldn't go back to sleep so I got up and got ready to hit the gym.
I weighed in last night at WW and according to their scales, I've lost 3 lbs since last week (making it a total loss of 2.6 lbs since joining ww).
The weightloss is going slow, but it is going. I'm so close to getting to goal and I can taste it. This year I will hit my goal! I know it.
Menu today:
Bfast
Egg white omlet, made with turkey sausage, mushrooms, peppers, onions, salsa, WW cheese - 5.5 pts
1/2 whole wheat mini bagel .5 pts
Lunch -
tossed salad made with lemon dressing and diced tomatoes - 0 pts
WW meal - 4 pts
Nectarine - 1 pt
peaches - 1 pt
Dinner -
Taco made with lean beef - 5 pts
WW dessert - 4 pts
Wt - Naked - 165.4
WW scales with clothes on - 169.0
Exercise - 25 min on elliptical - 5 am
Well, the weekend was a big bust for me. Not sure how many points I went over, but I know that I blew the WW plan on Saturday night. I was doing good until then.
I was released from the doctor on Friday and I decided that Monday (today) I would start the BFL program again. I am going to modify it a little, but for the most part, I will stick to the plan. I set my alarm for 4:45 am to hit the gym, well, I almost didn't go, but finally I forced myself up and headed to the gym. I'm so glad I did!
My menu today:
Bfast -
weight wise oatmeal, WW yogurt = 3 pts
Snack
a few pistachios - 2 pt
Lunch
Green salad with all kinds of vegies, and 3 oz of baked chicken breast - 3 pts
Homemade salad dressing with EVO and lemon and vininger - 2 pts
FF pudding - 2 pts
Dinner
1 baked potatoe with lean ground beef and side salad - 5 pts
WW dessert - 4 pts
Exercise - :smile: 35 min on elliptical 5:00 am
45 min with strength training UBWO - 11:30 am
Wt - didn't weigh this morning, but will be weighed tonight at the WW meeting. Hopefully I'm down at least 1 lb!
Well, I am doing pretty good now on the WW plan. I think the band and the ww plan go hand in hand. I am eating bandster size portions pretty much and eating healthy food. Going to the WW meetings is keeping me accountable. Its something that I need right now, and Its working for me.
I did lose 3.6 lbs according to the ww scales. Now, I do weigh with clothes on at the WW meeting, but at home, I weigh naked and first thing in the morning, so I'm always lower at home than at the meetings.
But according to the WW scales on Monday night, I weighed 172. I'm still up .4 lbs since joining WW. However, this week is the turning point! I can tell I'm starting to shrink and by my scales this morning, I've lost another 2 lbs! Yay.
I did go exercise last night, and I go to the doc tomorrow and hopefully I will get released to get back to exercising. I just got on the elliptical machine last night and took it easy for about 35 min. I'm ready to strength train and really work out hard, but I have been holding off until my 6 week post op check up. I don't want to cause any problems, and I've talked to too many woman who have had the hysterectomy who tell me to LISTEN to the doc, so I'm following their advice.
Anyhow, I'm doing good with the WW plan and so far enjoying it and hopeing it helps me lose the last 20 freaken pounds!
Wt this morning 167.5
Exercise - plan on hitting the gym for another 30 to 40 minutes tonight:thumbup:
I go to the weight watchers meeting again tonight. I'm switching my meeting nights to Monday. I am going to kick the leader if she tells me I've gained! I swear, they might arrest me if she says I've gained!
By my sclaes, I've lost 3 lbs. So we'll see what they say tonight.
I always weight naked, and after I go pee i the mornings, so I'm at my very lowest weight.
I've stuck to the weight watchers plan pretty good. I've actually stuck to it perfectly, so we'll see how I do tonight.
I'm trying to get back into my morning workout routines this week. So far, I've failed. I set my alarm for 4:45 am, and then I turned it off. grrrr. I will keep trying. I plan on going to the gym tonight and doing 30 minutes on the treadmill. I've got to get back to exercise and I've got to get out of the 170's damn it. I've been in the 170's for a freaken year! I drop down to the 160's then creep right back up to the 170's and I'm sick of it! I don't ever ever ever want to see the 170's again.
Okay, I've had my Monday morning rant, so I will start thinking and typing more positive or it will just put me in a pissy mood the rest of the day.
I get 22 points a day with Weight Watchers and they say I must eat the 22 points. I think it might be too much, but I'm going to do it their way. Gawd only knows that my way hasn't worked. (okay, enougth with the negative talk)
My menu today
Weight wise oatmeal - makde with skim milk - 4 points
1 banana - 2 points
Lunch - ww meal 5 points (smart ones)
1 nectarine - 1 point
Dinner
2 0z of roast beef - 3 points
1/2 cup mashed potatoes w/1 tsp butter - 3 points
2 tsp EVO - 2 points
baby carrots - 0 points
late nite snack
ww ice cream bar - 2 points
TOTAL POINTS FOR THE DAY = 22
Wt - 171.4
Exercise plans - 30 min at gym on treadmill
I returned back to work this week from my 5 weeks off due to my hysterectomy.
It seems to be kicking my butt! So tired, but I'm hanging in there. I cannot wait to be back to normal!
I've been struggling the last year trying to lose the last 20 lbs. I decided to do something different and I joined weight watchers. Well, I have 1 week down and guess what, I gained 4 lbs by joining ww. I stuck to the plan to a T. Needless to say, I am very frustrated. I decided I will give WW 30 days. If in that 30 days I don't lose any weight, I'm done! So I'm trying not to get too frustrated, but I tell you, I am.
Next week I am hoping the doc will release me to exercise, she said it was still too soon this week, but she did say I can go for a leisure walk, just not hard core brisk walking and no lifting anything.
Now that I am back to work, I can keep my blog updated more.
Wt 174.8
I'm recovering from my surgery nicely. Still tired but not as sore.
I've been eating pretty good but not losing. I've started keeping a food journal to see how many calories I am eating, I could be eating too much without realizing it.
I still cant exercise, but hoping to when my 6 weeks recovery time is up. I will check with my doc at my follow up appt. From everything I've read, 6 weeks recovery time is needed after a hysterectomy.
wt 170.7
Just swinging by to update my journal. I had my hysterectomy on 1/14/09 and I'm hoping it will cure the pain I was having.
Already, the horrible back pain is GONE.
I will post my 2 year band report when I recoup from the hysterectomy. I still hurt to sit, but for the most part I am feeling pretty good.
The Doctor has ordered me to do absolutely nothing for 2 weeks, and I have done nothing so far, but going a little stir crazy. But trying to follow the docs orders :tt1:.
I've been eating pretty good, hardly have an appetite and the band seems to have gotten a little tighter, it actually is perfect restriction right now, and I love it. Hopefully it will stay like this and I can lose some weight. :thumbup:
Well, gotta go, starting to hurt and I don't want that :cursing:
I don't believe in resolutions, however, I do believe in setting some goals, writing them down and setting a plan in action to reach those goals. I don't believe you have to only do them in Janaury, however, I usually set goals ever month.
I decided to set a yearly goal, and assess where I am every 2 or 3 months. This way it will keep on track to reaching my goals. I'm only going to list a few of them on this blog, the ones that have to do with my band.
1. Lose my final 30 lbs this year. I will do this in 2009. I need to plan my meals better and get back to the band rules. Proteins first!
2. Exercise will become a big part of my life in 2009. I have a membership, time to start using it more than I do!
Yesterday I ate too much, too much sweets around the office. A girl made this delicious pumpkin cake for me. And guess what, I ate some. grrrrrr.
I am back on track today. I had my weight control oat meal for bfast and having some turkey for lunch. ONe thing I have learned from the band is, just because you blow it one meal, or even one day, doesn't mean its over. Just get back on track, the band will help you get back on track too.
I did go to the gym last night, I had a really hard 1 hour workout. Pre-band, I would have said "I already blew it today, why work out?". But the new me knows that working out is the key to succeeding with the battle of the buldge.
I didn't step on the scale this morning, and probably won't until Monday.
My goal for the weekend is eat clean and exercise!
Consultation with Doc 11/24/06 - 248.9
Surgery Date 1/18/07 - 226
1 mo post op (Feb 18)- 206.8
2 mo post op (March 18) - 198
3 mo post op (April 18th)- 193
4 mo post op (May 18th)- 184.2
5 mo post op (June 18th(- 178
6 mo post op (July 18th)– 174
7 mo post op (Aug 18th)- 178 - went on vacation and ate big (7 day cruise)
8 mo post op (Sept 18th)- 174
9 mo post op (Oct 18th)- 170
10 mo post op (Nov 18th) - 167
11 mo post op (Dec 18th) - 170 - haven’t even been trying
12 mo post op (Jan 18th 2008)- 174 - again, not trying. But finally refocused - exactly where I was at 6 mos post op – so basically no weight loss in the past 6 mos
13 mo post op (Feb 18th) - 183 - Ouch! started taking steroids and made my weight go up, along with not eating right and no exercise!
14 mo post op (March 18th)- 185 - grrrrr
15 mo post op (April 18th)- 180 - weight is finally going down, but inches are actually coming off faster since I've been exercising a lot.
16 mo post op (May 18th)- 178
17 mo post op (June 18th)- 175
18 mo post op (July 18th)- 179- still not focussed:sad:
19 mo post op -(Aug 18th) - 178 - focussed again - This time I am committed to getting to goal and will not stray! I do not ever want to see the 180's again!
20 mo post op (Sept. 18) - 171 - :rolleyes2:
21 mo post op (Oct 18) - 168
22 mo post op (Nov 18) - 169 - I am focussed and doing good, but need to get back to exercising. I want to hit 160 by year end.
23 mo post op (Dec 18) - 166 - only 6 more pounds to get to my goal by year end. I don't think it will happen, but I will continue to try.
I watched the biggest loser show last night, all I can say is WOW. It was the finale, and I just can't believe how these people changed thier lives. They all looked sooooo good. It really inspires me.
After the show, I went to the gym and had a really good workout.
Tomorrow will mark 23 months since banding, and its getting so hard to lose a pound. It takes everything in me to lose a pound. One binge and I'm up 5 lbs. so frustrating. I need to stay focussed to lose the rest of my weight!
Plan today:
Bfast - just had some coffee
Lunch - chicken breast and small spinach salad
Dinner - chili - made with extra lean beef and Venison.
Exercise - 3:00 PM - 20 min on eliptical
9:00 pm - circuit training and working lower body with weights - 1 hour
Wt - 170.6 (down a pound from yesterday)
I had a long weekend, and ate way too much! I surprised DH with a spa retreat weekend (it was our 20 year anniversary). Anyhow, we ate out every night.
I had horrible reflux and Sunday night was the worst. It was coming out my nose!!!! I finally got up and slept sitting up on my couch. I really couldn't sleep.
Last night I went and bought some sudeafed, I think I might have some sinus drainage, anyhow, I did sleep a lot better last night. Only woke up a few times coughing, and it was barely a cough.
I am reluctant to go get an unfill, my last fill was 6 weeks ago, and everything was perfect until just recently. I'm not sure if its my allergy or sinus, or if I could be just too tight. I'm going to wait it out for a week and see how I do. I can eat, i am just having a time with my reflux in the evening time. I'm going to stop eating by 7 tonight, take my sudaphed, and see what happens. If I still have the reflux, then its time for a tiny tiny unfill.
wt 171.6 - grrrrr the weekend eating out has made my weight go up.
Exercise - 3:00 - 15 min on elliptical
8:00 pm - 1 hour at the gym, circuit training, cardio and upper body weights.
Well, things are rolling along, I'm doing great, then what happens? Well, I start to sab0tage myself. I go on an eating binge that last approximately 5 days. Man, old habits are hard to break!
I will say, since the band, my binges are less frequent, however, the band has not stopped my binge eating. I am not able to binge on as much food pre band, but let me tell you, I can still hold my share of eating. Not that I eat a whole lot, I guess what I do now when I binge eat is eat the wrong stuff. I ate about 2 pieces of Tres Leches cake - yum.
I guess I should be happy that all I was able to eat was 2 pieces. Pre band - I would have eaten at least 1/2 the cake. Now, thats not all I ate during my bings, everytime I would eat - I turned to sugar, instead of my good protein. It was a vicious cycle. I don't know what is wrong with me sometimes.
But, because of eating the WRONG stuff, the scale has not moved. Also, when I binge eat, I figure, why exercise, so I don't even exercise.
Enough of my talk, enough of being down about it, so I got rid of the cake, and headed to the gym last night and I just got back from the gym today. So, I'm over my binge eating for awhile. And over whatever made me snap and go crazy.
My question to myself is WHY? Why do I do it? I'm doing so great then all of a sudden somthing snaps inside of me and I go completely CRAZY with food. Why? For the life of me I cannot figure it out.
They say people eat because of emotions, but I can't figure out what emotions are causing me to eat. I have a wonderful marriage of 20 years, two beautiful children and my life is for the most part is perfect. Or at least, its perfect for me.
My dad was going thru an ordeal, he almost died in November, however, he had two surgeries and pulled thru wonderfully. The binge eating didn't even start until a few weeks AFTER his ordeal. I held myself together and made good food choices when he was going thru his ordeal, so not sure why all of a sudden, when things are good, I go crazy.
So, this is something that I must work on. I must be good to myself and quit trying to destroy all the work that I've done to get to my weight.
Well, my goal was to weigh 160 by end of the year. In order to do that, I need to lose 2.5 lbs every week until the end of the year. Can I do it? Darn right I will!
So I am making a promise to myself that I WILL be good to me. I WILL NOT binge eat. I WILL go to the gym, and I WILL do everything in my power to reach my goal. I deserve it and I'm worth it.
Now, how is that for self talk. :thumbup:
wt - 167.9
exercise - 10:00 am 20 min eliptical HIIT
3:00 pm upper body work out
9:00 pm - 30 min on eliptical
Goal for the weekend -
1. stay off the scale
2. eat clean
3. Go to the gym - EVERYDAY!
