3/5/09

Well, today I did not get out of bed. But I did exercise last night, and I felt like I worked out really hard last night at the gym.

I didn't get into bed until after 11 again, so I knew that getting up at 4:45 was not going to be easy, turns out it was harder than I even thought. I don't even remember turning the alarm off, but I guess I did. :frown:

I might not be losing a lot of weight according to the scales, but my inches and clothes tell a different story. My workout pants were hanging off me last night, thats when I realized that something is happening to my body, and I like it!

I tried on a size 8 dress yesterday, and it fit! I almost bought it, however, I am trying to hold off for a few months. I am addicted to shopping these days, its not good for my pocket book. Luckily I have zero debt, except my house, so I can afford to shop. However, this is an expensive year for us, my son is graduating and starting college, we have a huge party we are throwing for him, I also need to buy a new car this year. I've had mine for 11 years now and it has 200K miles on it. I need a dependable car for work, so I'm going to have to break down and buy one, so I will have car payments again. yuk.

So, I must stay away from the stores, I'm weak when I see a cute outfit, I tell ya, I'm weak!!!!!

Okay, my plans today -

3:00 - going to the gym at work and doing 20 min on elliptical

8 pm - going to the gym to do lower body workout - then will get on elliptical machine and do an additional 15 min. Its going to be a rough night at the gym tonight! I'm going to work it hard!:thumbup:

Scales this morning showed I was up 2 lbs :cursing: - that is just a normal day in the neighborhood for me. The scales are so cruel to me at times, I used to cry and cry and get so discouraged, now its just a game to me. I like to see what the scales tell me, sometimes I play guessing games before I step on, I'll say "I know your gonna tell me I weigh this - lets see if I'm right", so if I am right, I win. lol. Its a weird head game I play.

Sometimes I just kick the scales and let him know I don't need him today, I like when I do that too, I feel like I win for that day too. Weird? Just my crazy life. I feel like me and the scale have this love hate relationship, sometimes I love him, sometimes I don't.

Today I just didn't care, he told me I was up 2 lbs, I said, who cares you flat bastard! :w00t: YOu might say I'm up, but my pants beg to differ! They are telling me I've lost, so take that!

Well, I better get to work, I have a very very very busy day today, lots of conference calls to be on. grrrrrrr.

Wt (naked in the am) 167.8 - :cursing:

167# sounds like heaven to me right now...I'd be kissing Mr. Scale. Must be the year for graduations...those huge parties do get expensive! You're doing great! -BG

BG - thanks for your support. When I was in the 240's, I used to dream of being 160's again. Now that I'm there, I want more. lol. I guess the old saying is true - "people are just never happy". lol.