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latrice35's Blog
 

Not Happy

Hello everyone well im at a stand still and am able to eat anything have not lost a pound since i was banded. I get my first fill on Dec13 hope this gives me a boost.anybod experienced this?
latrice35

latrice35

4
Uncencered and not always polite!
 

Fears...

OK, there could be a lot of judgments made about me because of what I'm about to post- and to be honest, sure- I could be questioned about my morals and all that- but it's all a part of MY past- and things that I have to live with on a daily basis- and I feel comfortable enough to post them here to share with you all-- so, please leave your judgments at the door and take this for what it really is-- I saw my therapist yesterday (not the one for the lapband, but I see one monthly--for me I found it helps to unload my issues on a stranger and get someone's opinion or advice from someone I dont have to look in the face every day lol!) So anyway- she is supportive of my lap-band decision 100%. I was talking to her about my fears yesterday, concerning my lapband and the changes that will be made with my body. As I told her, I think I've somewhat been hiding behind my fat- as if it's almost been my escape goat to blame everything on- What happens when it's gone? Are there still going to be things I do that I feel that I shouldnt really do- and if so, what is going to happen when I cant blame it on being fat? Example- when I was a little younger (I'm 27 now, and I'm talking about being like 21, so not that far away, but I still feel i've grown up since then!) I would go out drinking with the girls, and if someone would show me attention, it's almost as if I did things I probably shouldnt have- and I think my mentality then was, "I'm fat, if I dont give him sex then he wouldnt show me the time of day or like me"-- ok, obviously me being fat wasnt 100% of the reason of it all, I have other issues lol... but I am smarter now, and know that if I wouldnt have given him sex or whatever it was (making out, blah blah blah) then he would have found someone else who WOULD have- and it still would have been the same situation- even if I had been skinny back then--Those werent the best guys in the world- and because I felt as though I wasnt worth being treated better- because I was fat- I did things and settled for way less than I deserved.... So now, my fear is- when I DO get banded and take better care of my body, will I take as much care of my mental health? Will I remember to feel as though I AM worth the work? Or will I all of a sudden enjoy all the new attention, and rush out to share that? I would like to think that I am WAY more in control of my mental self and KNOW that I am worth better than I've been treated in the past- and all of that, but I still fear that I will some how have issues with it all... I am a mother now, and I wasn't then, and that has been the biggest influence in my life, so I know that as long as I keep her in mind, I will make the right decisions.... Changing my apperance isnt just going to affect just that- I will definitely affect every part of who I am, and I just hope that I am as ready as I think I am!
RyanTheGirl

RyanTheGirl

2
Blog 98380
 

throwing up

After 2 months of feeling pretty good and being able to eat anything I wanted....I got a fill 2 days ago and today I ate 1/2 piece of toast and 2 bits of egg and ....blah. I sat with it for about 10 minutes until I realized that it wasnt going to go down. I went to the bathroom to throw up. Its different than throwing up before. Now it comes from the chest area , not the belly. I felt better afterwards. Later today I was able to finish my food with out problems. Is it normal for foods to work sometimes and not others? How ofter do people throw up?
kelly111

kelly111

2
CiCiRN's Blog
 

Today is the new tomorrow ..

Today I am 4 days post surgery..today is my new tomorrow! I am feeling a little bit better than each of the days before this one.. I got through the pre-op diet with out maiming anyone for their food, or taking cheat bites.. I waited too long to get to this point to waste a single bite to ruin the surgery..well worth it.. The day of surgery I was surprisingly calm..even when they wheeled me into surgery..no jitters, the last thing I remember was take 2 deep breaths.. I woke up in recovery feeling a little woozy is all.. up to my room.. I had no pain.. I really still don't have pain, just some referred shoulder pain from the anesthesia. I had to stay an extra day due to a large hiatal hernia repair..something I was unaware that I had, and I had a large fatty cyst inside the hernia, very odd, but all fixed! I am doing all the right things..I can and will get through this! Although last night my spouse fixed pizza.. the smell was wonderfull.. but I sipped away.. yep I got through it!
CiCiRN

CiCiRN

3
Blog 99716
 

Couch to 5K- Week 6 Day 3 complete!

I didn't have the time to write of my success last night-but I finished Week 6 Day 3 of the couch to 5k program- A Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2-1/4 miles (or 25 minutes) with no walking. I was SO stuck on Week 5 for months. I feel great that I could jog anything but to have come this far is surreal to me. . Me Jogging! WOW! Now my speed is 4.0 which is not the fastest but for me it is . Well, I will start Week 7 Day 1 in two days Sunday, Dec. 12 and I will do A Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.5 miles (or 25 minutes) then again next Tuesday and Thursday. I'm so close to finishing the program of 3 miles nonstop. I will probaly continue to jog the 3 miles 3x a week at an incline of 2.0-3.0 same speed. I'm also doing great in Zumba Toning class I'm now dancing more songs with the 5lb weights than the 3lbs. My clothes -14 pants are really fitting loser . I will weigh myself on Sunday morning to see what I have accomplished. I really haven't been going by the scales much these days but more by my clothes. I was getting a little obsessed with weighing myself everyday. The body so tricky. I have been eating very good I haven't had any Sweets/Junk for 7 days now and haven't went out to eat. 3 meals a day and lots of water. My 3 meals are lean meats, veggies, oatmeal, egg whites, turkey sausage. I am going to continue for the month with what I'm doing I feel Great !!!
NeverGivinUpTeya

NeverGivinUpTeya

1
Blog 104709
 

Everyone's weight gain and loss is different, their stories are different....

I think we all have different reasons for being here. Some people have eating issues. Some people, no matter what they do they gain weight or can't get it off. Some people have medical conditions that cause them to gain weight, or they are on certain meds that caused them to gain weight and they can't get it off. I think that it is important to not assume that everyone has eating issues. It is important to not assume everyone has a medical condition. For people who have eating issues, I have a friend going through this, the battle with food is constant and it's hard. It isn't anything that is easy and a surgery like this isn't going to solve the problem alone. Therapy and other follow up care is usually needed. My poor girlfriend who is struggling with eating issues is working hard to correct her relationship with food and decided that she is going to get surgery to help with the weight loss now. Her relationship is starting to turn around thanks to therapy and so she is planning on the surgery. I constantly offer her support and sometimes she lets me know what her food plans are for the day. For me, one of my guiltiest things is eating out. I put on most of my weight when I was in my 20's. I had money to burn and instead of cooking I ate out a lot. I had a gym membership when I had a good job and I lost a great deal of weight that I put on. I got pregnant with my son and things went down hill. The company I worked for closed, money became tight, I was a single mother so we were living off of Hot Dogs, Macaroni and cheese, corn and green beans. I had to make do with what I had. I began to put on a pound a week. My 130 frame ballooned with in a year. While I was working I started falling asleep at the wheel driving. Finally found out my thyroid was a mess, and that I needed meds. I took meds for a six months when an Endocronologist said, "stop the meds, you are soo young and it isn't that bad." Hoshimotos took over my body for the next 7 years, putting on weight, more and more, no matter how I ate I gained. I became pregnant with my daughter and was rushed over to a new Endo and they were concerned. The put me on meds right away for the babies health. I started to regulate again and lost 15lbs during pregnancy. I gave birth to my daughter and became depressed. I probably ate some things I shouldn't have. I put back on the 15lbs and decided enough is enough. I went back to the gym and altered my diet again, to meat and veggies. I had a personal trainer and I kept a strict food diary. I counted calories, fat, carbs and sugars. I worked hard at the gym 5 days a week and on saturday and Sunday would walk. I went back to the gym and was measured after a week I gained half a pound and my trainer assured me that I am probably just gaining muscle faster than loosing fat. I worked my muscles and cardio for 5 weeks. I went from 220 to 230. In my frustration I decided it didn't matter anymore and for six months fetl sorry for myself. I ate brownies and cookies and only put on 4lbs. I went to my OBGYN sobbing, sobbing my eyes out and said, "I just can't live like this anymore, what are my options." He was very sympathetic and he believed me, seeing other women fight with weight loss. "Once you put it on you can't get it off and sometimes it isn't even anything specific you do to put it on. You don't have to do one thing wrong to create this weight issue, you could do everything right." He suggested the band and I followed up with my primary, who also suggested the band. So here I am, finally loosing weight and feeling great. I have no desire to eat brownies anymore. My biggest love is chocolate and I only give myself two days that I can treat myself, sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. I haven't had a fill up to this point so the hunger was making me crazy. We have chips, chocolate, cookies, etc in the house. The kids get cookies every couple of days as a snack so I thought, "what if I allow myself that same kind of limit." My kids are tall and thin, my son is ten and weighs 91 lbs and is all muscle, my daughter, tall, thin muscular girl. They are beautiful and people never think they are my kids. People assume if you are fat it is what you eat, that kills me. If it was just our dining habits I would have round kids too. My husband is heavy and admits his problem is with food. He loves food, loves the taste of food, I on the other hand could careless about food. I eat because I have to. I watch his family fill there plates to the brim, two or three times. It is crazy and it makes me sick to think about eating that much food. Anyway, that is all. I guess I am just tired of the assumptions of how people gain their weight. I am so tired of people judging us based on our weight. "Oh that person is over weight so they must be binging, or that person is over weight so they must be trying to heal themselves with food, that person is over weight so they must eat out all the time." It is funny, if you go out to eat when you are overweight people assume you must do this a lot. One of the things I do when I go out to eat is get a take out container right away and cut out just a small portion of the meal to eat. I have done this forever, a lady looked at me weird when I said, "it helps to reduce the calories I take in, out of site out of mind." Then she looked at me like I must eat it all on the way home or something. I then cut that 2/3s of the meal in half again and eat that at home as seperate meals, or my hubby eats it. I am not fat because I don't know how to eat or how to count calories. I don't use dressings, I have always used low fat mayo and less then the "amount" of the serving listed on the label. I could not do anything more than I had already done to loose this weight. I thought, fought and cried myself to sleep because I did not want to die in a few years because I am fat. I wanted to be able to chase my kids around on the beach or play in the yard. I did not want surgery, I wanted surgery even less than I wanted to be fat. I was sure I should be able to do this on my own and when I couldn't I was crushed. Before my thyroid and PCOS was really bad, Weight watchers worked. Now it didn't, before the gym and diet worked, now it didn't. Now it was time to find a solution that did and this is working. I just wish the world would stop judging, even those who suffer from obesity. We need to not only stop judging others and their journey, but we need to stop being so harsh on ourselves. So what if we only loose half a pound one week, it means we get back on track the next week, don't let guilt take you over. We all have off days, off weeks, but it doesn't mean we can't bring ourselves back around. I have studied addiction, I study psychology, I understand the process when the mind becomes our worst enemy, be it chemical or circumstantial. We must remember to love ourselves in order to heal our souls and forgive ourselves. Even if medical conditions got us here, at some point we gave up on ourselves and just started living life and not worrying about it. Like the problem would resolve itself. I am glad I waited this long, as I wasn't obese enough for surgery until about four years ago and then I ended up pregnant and back on hypothyroid meds. I thought that, coupled with excercise I would start loosing. When I didn't, this time, I didnt hit ground zero depression, I went to my doctors and asked what there was to help me. I am being proactive, and to me that is the best gift I can give myself and my family. My son said to me the other day, "Mom, pretty soon I will be able to wrap my arms tight around you, you are loosing weight and looking great." I looked at him and smiled he then said, "and even better you are feeling better, you are doing more and you smile a lot more. I am so happy you are my Mom." He is ten and he is one of the blessings I am fighting this fight for. My two and a half year old needs a Mommy for the next 16 years and I want to do my best to be here.
Cangel76

Cangel76

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Blog 98380
 

Does anyone else get jealous?

I am more than 2 months post-op and I find myself feeling very jealous and envious when I read all these blogs. Seems like everyone is losing weight but me. I spoke at length with my doc about this and he said I am doing just fine. Since my surgery date I have only lost 1 lousy pound. I have had 2 fills now and I find that I am eating much less and sometimes I feel restriction and sometimes I dont. I currently lave 4.5 cc in the band. I love workouts so I dont have a problem there. My doc said that because I was smaller when I had the surgery ( size 16 and still am a 16) that it will take me longer to lose weight. He said I should expect to lose one pound a week. Ok.... but....I read over and over again that people are losing much more more than that. Has anyone else had an extremely SSSSLLLLOOOOWWWW weight loss? Does anyone have any words of wisdom?
kelly111

kelly111

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Blog 99331
 

Lordy Lordy look who has lost her first FORTY!!

I am sooooo excited to report that I have lost my first forty... I am thrilled because of a couple reasons... besides the obvious... I am half way to my goal, I have been able to do this in a fair amount of time ( banded 9/1/10 - diet startd 8/22) and more importantnly did all this before I really turn 40... which is in July!!   I have been reading a lot of entries lately, and if there is one thing I can pass on to all the "newbies"... if you stay the course.. it will happen.. Definitely have lost the most weight in the shortest amount of time since my last fill... I have finally gotten to the point to have enough restriction that I only eat what my body needs.. With no exageration, I am literally eating about a 1/2cup to 1cup of food per meal... with no snacking and I am not hungry!! I never thought I would be satisfied... but wow!!   Goals for the next 1/2 of my journey... to drink more water!!! and exercise more..   Have a great weekend!!!    
BandedNellie

BandedNellie

5
Blog 105633
 

poptarts, chips, and a day off from work...

So, I took a day off from work yesterday in order to get Christmas shopping done. I got a ton purchased on the internet...BUT, also consumed poor food choices while I was at it. 1. today is a new day 2. first fill is monday 3. i am still learning...but man, this is the slowest I've ever learned anything in my LIFE! 4. Put kiddos treats in their rooms (they both have bins on a closet shelf for such things) I had gone grocery shopping and the treats for their bins got left on the kitchen table 5. journal. 6. find a book about patience! Live wild, Laura ps...included is a pic of number one poptart and chip eater...with his sister!
laura71

laura71

2
Blog 91133
 

Month 8

Its been a long time since i've posted anything to my blog. The biggest thing in my life is my in ability to stay consistent. This is the case for this website, my eating habits and so on. I wanted so bad to keep really good track of my weight loss and that's not what happened. I wanted so bad to keep track of what I eat and to pay better attention to how and what I ate. I'm so disappointed with myself even if I am losing the weight. What happens when the weight falls off and I still have these bad habits. I feel so emotional talking about this because I am disappointed in myself. At this point I am down 73 pounds and 28 pounds away from my goal. WHAT DO I DO.....
snatylove

snatylove

2
hopee's Blog
 

3 weeks post op

So, I'm 3 weeks post op and have gained 3 pounds since I started eating real food (about 2 weeks ago). I still have 2 more weeks till I get my first fill. For the most part I'm making healthy choices & my portions are under control but from having only liquids to food I know it's expected to gain back a bit...It's just driving me crazy to see any gain after spending all this money...Why does it have to be 6 weeks for a fill after surgery??? I have zero restriction and REALLY want a fill today...Ahhhhhh. Anyway, I've been reading many of the blogs and it's so nice to hear how others are doing and exciting to hear all the success stories...I'm looking forward to posting my success' soon.
hopee

hopee

2
Diary of a Banded Chick
 

Tickle Me Elmo!

I had my first fill today! I had gained back a little bit of weight but the Dr. Said that was normal. The crazy part was the actual fill. The Dr. numbed the area, hardly felt that at all then he started filling around the port to locate exactly where to put the needle. Once he found the area he inserted the needle. Now here is the strange part he was inserting the needle, pushing it around to get into the port and it TICKLED! I kept laughing which the Dr. thought was funny but said it wasn't helping him get the needle into the port. For some reason when the needle jiggled the port it tickled. Even when the Dr. pulled the needle out it tickled. How strange am I? Push my port and I giggle!!! Guess that is much better than it hurting!
crystalmarble00

crystalmarble00

1
Blog 102783
 

day 2 post op....

so It has been two days since my born band day and I have to say I am feeling pretty good. now I'm not jumping and doing tons of work like other people make it seem...but I am moving around, being able to get up easier and faster. BUT!!!!! the best thing of all was that I was able to sleep with only waking up once in the night because I could sleep on my side (with some heavy cushions). Now I'm a stomach sleeper, so sleeping on my back was torture thinking about it and that first night oh man...if that was a foreshadowing I don't think I would ever sleep again. but man it felt good.<div><br></div><div>I've been walking around the house a lot and I'm actually going out later to walk around the store. the gas has gone down, less shoulder pain. a little pain at the incision sites but nothing too unbearable. Now I have a pain buster call an On Q-pump which I don't know if everybody else had but it delivers pain directly to the pain site so that I'm pretty sure help. the only only downside is that I can't shower till it comes off (which should be coming off tomorrow).  I had my protein shake for breakfast (which took me like an 1hr and a haf  but I'm having some trouble drinking the one for lunch...I'm just not hungry. honestly who can think about food because I sure haven't.</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div>well I don't have anything else to share....I write this not only for me to remember this journey but also for those of you who will be going through it soon. I was in the position you were and I always looked for post that gave me an idea of what I would be going through. </div><div><br></div><div>I will continue if you desire but if not its ok and inform me and will keep these private <img src="http://www.lapbandtalk.com/public/style_emoticons/default/smile.gif" alt="" class="bbc_emoticon"></div><div><hr>     </div>
2minicano017

2minicano017

3
Blog 104709
 

Had 1st fill, 3cc, and weightloss from last week

I had my first fill, it was a little weird, but okay otherwise. Made me gassy. I am now trying to get down a protein shake.   SO anyone who is following knows how aggrevated I was with the infection and delay in going to the gym. Well I took out my frustration on gym equipment for the last week. Last Thursday I was 207.8 and today I was 203.8. Four pounds in a week from living on the eliptical machine four days a week. I LOVE YOU ELIPTICAL EVEN IF MY MUSCLES hurt. Monday I have training on the weights. So things are looking up for me, finally.   So my goal of being under 200lbs for my birthday looks much more attainable.
Cangel76

Cangel76

0
Blog 98799
 

116 Days Post Surgery - Things are looking up!

I am now 2 pounds away from my first goal. I had originally set the goal date for Thanksgiving, but I just picked that date sort of randomly. I'm still really happy with my progress. I'm down 47 pounds and my BMI has decreased by 8! I am noticing that I am wearing clothes that I haven't been able to wear in years. I've had two fills and am scheduled for the next one over the Christmas break.   I am also finally making progress on my scheme to take over the world, I mean... get a job. I have been substituting in my district in hopes of getting a long term sub position and turning it into a full contract Teaching position by next year. My long term sub position begins Jan 10. (Earlier if the teacher I'm replacing delivers earlier.) As soon as she is scheduled to return to work, another teacher is scheduled to go on maternity leave. So I am probably set until the end of this school year. Now... just to convince them that they need to hire me permanently!   I have to admit, though, there is something to be said for the flexibility I have in my schedule as a day to day sub...
clohse

clohse

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soccermom10's Blog
 

day 2 from surgery

So right about now I am thinking holy cow what have I gotten myself into? I am in some pain but nothing unbearable and I am starving. I wouldn't expect you should be able to go out and eat big ol' meals after surgery but why does it take so long to transition to solid foods? I did a little cheat tonight but eating a couple bites of cottage cheese and some soup that wasn't broth. I couldn't help myself I am so hungry. Can anyone fill me in on how they handled their after surgery diet?
soccermom10

soccermom10

3
Project Disney's Blog
 

I am grateful

Just one day after posting my first ever blog seeking "help" I am thrilled with all the great people who responded, Thank you all so much. My progress report is great. Three days of very healthy eating and still highly motivated. If any one has a tried and true idea that helped you keep going strong, please leave for me.... I have one to share that my husband would say to me often, but only now am i observing. It is this : "IF YOU BUY IT, YOU WILL EAT IT". It reminds one of : "IF you build it, they will come.",,,, If you would put the two concepts together it would go something like this : " If you buy it, fat will come". So my point is this. Choose not to bring the bad stuff home from the grocery store.. There are healthy alternatives even for the kids in the home. It's all a matter of CHOICE .... Choose healthy fellow lap banders.
Project Disney

Project Disney

1
Diary of a Banded Chick
 

Ready to get my Fill on!

I'm really excited, I'm getting my first fill tomorrow!:hurray: I was doing so well when I was first banded. I finally could tell when I was full! Before the surgery I could eat and eat and eat and I could never tell how full I was until I would practically have to explode to fill full! I'm trying not to eat that much now that the swelling has gone down and the food just passes right through, but its difficult. I'm ready to get my fill on!
crystalmarble00

crystalmarble00

2
Blog 268
 

Body image changes after WLS

My surgery was 8/10/09. I lost 26 pounds on Medifast before surgery (from end of May 09 to Aug. 10th) and weighed 220 on surgery date. It took approx.9 mos. to get to 135, then I kept losing from May 2010 to current date down to 125, then 120, then 118, then 116. I was at 113 when I got a stomach bug, but gained back 3 pounds. This is where I hover. I hit stalls along the way, too, but the loss continued. Now, as I say, I have to remember to eat to maintain and not lose more. I could easily slip down to 112 or 110 if I'm not careful. People who are normal size but heavier than you, and some who are obese, will tell you that you're TOO THIN. Remember that their POV is skewed to the heavier side and your POV will be "I'm not thin enough." I saw myself as FAT when I was FAT. There was no denying I was fat; I had trouble looking in the mirror at all. Now I'm thin, no denying that, but I like looking in the mirror. I look sometimes and think "you're too thin" as my face looks gaunt (hey, I'm 61, so the weight came off differently now than it would when I was 31) so yes, I've lost the "pad" in my face. That can be fixtured with plastic surgery and I'll get to that once we get moved and settled in our new home coming up. With surgery, I'd look put back together and more in my late 40s because I basically have good skin. This is a process of transformation and nobody's process will be the same. Go for what you want and what makes you happy. If you get a little thin, you can always gain some back if you eat all the time (every 2 hours), and supplement with some high calorie foods. I like this weight and prefer to just fix the cosmetic things I can. I can dress in high fashion (couture) sizing which is NOT vanity sized by any means, wear skinny jeans, high heels, rocker chic, etc., in other words, I can dress any way I want to within reason, and still look THIN with clothes on, in the mirror, in photos. My normal sized friends are very jealous, and that's fine with me. My heavy friends think I'm anorexic; that's fine too. It's my process and I have the clothes, shoes and bags to prove it.       Source: Body image changes after WLS
AJW

AJW

2
Blog 102783
 

Officially a Bandster! def a life changing experience!

Well guys, I can officially post in the post-op section!!!!!!! i am beyond happy that I got it done. I got it yesterday 12/7 at 7:45am and was out of the hospital by 4:30pm. I won't lie to you. when I first woke up OMG I was in pain, and not my abdominal area but my shoulders. It was tolerable but it was def something I was not expecting. anyways to get up from the anesthesia I was wiggling my fingers, toes, head, anything I could to fight the sleepiness. I thought before just having the surgery was enough and that it didn't matter who was there but man oh man thank god my family is stubborn because I was happy to see them in my room.   the doctor told me everything went great and the he also had to do a hernia repair, which personally I expected since its pretty common nowadays. I def told the nurses when I was in pain. they brought me 30ccs of water which I was to drink per hour. that first cup sure taught me a lesson because I drank it in less than five minutes and man did I feel it come back up again. I ended up throwing it up.   One thing I'll tell you is that walking and sleeping are two of God's greatest invention because both, in addition to medicine were the only thing that made feel better.   so I don't want to make this so long, but it is 8:15 the next day and let's just say it's getting better with time. It is definitely and adjustment not being able to do what I want to do like I'm used to but the pain sure lets me know I can't. but with the 23 pounds I lost pre-op (I am a big guy) it has motivated me to keep going and see this through !!!     hope to share more with you guys!!!! good luck to the future bandsters!!!
2minicano017

2minicano017

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