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One Week To Go.... Week 1 Pre-Op Diet Complete.

I can't believe how quickly the time is going by - no complaints there. I am actually thankful for these two weeks for me to get things in order - not only for my home and work but mostly for my psyche. I have followed the Pre-Op Diet the last week religiously and lost 7.9 lbs - I'm down to 278.3 now. I feel great. Thankfully my surgeon's pre-op diet is not liquids only like so many others - it is mostly liquids - protein drinks - but also includes 4 servings of fruit/veggies, 4 oz meat, 1 serving whole grain starch, 1 srv yogurt and my personal favorite - 1 oz nuts. It's been very livable.   Today I went for my 3 hour pre-op education class with the nurse. It was excellent!! I was the only one scheduled for the class so lots of one on one. She still took me through the 1+ inch book that they provide which was specific to Sleeve Gastrectmy and so comprehensive and useful (it is only available to their patients, understandably so). I love the fact that my surgeon, Dr. Robert Marema, is not only a pioneer in this field but also a patient himself having had gastric bypass many years ago. The way the whole program is developed really shows that they understand what we go through. It is so like 'Night and Day' from my Lapband surgeon's practice which had no pre-op diet, seminars nor regular post op follow up outside of Dr. appointments - 15 minutes for another fill, that sort of thing.   I guess it's time for me to figure out how to do the Avatar - I think that's what it's called - to show my results in my signature. I did it years ago on ObesityHelp. Then I want to go read up some more in my book and highlight things, etc.     Susie   Pre-Op Diet Start: 286.2 1 wk Pre-Op: 278.3

want2bthin

want2bthin

 

Follow Up Day

Happy Hump Day everyone! Hope everyone is having a wonderful week. I have been enjoying my new electronic toy, the FitBit to track my steps, a pedometer on steroids I will call it. I am finding it as obsessive as logging all my food on myfitnesspal. I do find it more rewarding to do the exercise when I can actually measure it accurately and record the numbers. Tomorrow is my 4 week follow up from my last fill, it is actually 5 weeks and I get weighed. I rarely weigh myself at home because the scales can vary so much so I will be excited to know where I am. I still think I am a little tight because I still find it difficult to get all my food in and I rarely fill hungry. I am only able to eat about 1/2 cup at each setting so I have been eating at least 1 snack per day to add some protein and calories. My regular MD did reduce my blood pressure meds on Monday to have the dosage so this was a hugh milestone. I have been on top dosages on my BP meds and asthma meds for several years. This was great news and a great milestone for me. My never be totally off but this is still great. Everyone keep up the good work, we will all make this journey. Believe in your self and you will succeed. Happy Wednesday and talk to ya later!

♥LovetheNewMe♥

♥LovetheNewMe♥

 

Need Help 3Rd Fill, 3 Months Post-Op And Struggling

background.I started my journey november 30th 2011 weighing in at 250 lbs. three months later i weigh 234 lbs. I have had two fills (my next one is tomorrow and i'm nervous) bringing me to 2cc in my 14cc band. my doctor fills 1cc at a time. that's it (no negotiation on that one)! I AM EXERCISING AND I AM TRACKING MY FOOD (but i have trouble stopping when i've cross my cal limit)   I am feeling a little ashamed, defeated and nervous about going in for my 3rd fill tomorrow. I have not lost a lb. since my last fill a month ago. I am ashamed that I haven't done a better job with my diet. I don't want my doctor to think that I don't care or that I'm just another failure patient that can't get their act together. Like a lot of other bandsters out there I struggle with portion control, carb control, and especially snacking. I am an emotional eater and deal with almost every emotion or mood with food. Yes, there are times when I do well and say no to my urges, but more often than not I give in. As a result, I'm not losing as fast as I would like. Obviously I have some deep food issues or I wouldn't have gotten fat or needed surgery to begin with, right?   Today I took the time to go over the materials (diet recommendations) that were giving to me before my surgery to help get me back on track. I am definately not following the portions that were recommended to me all the time (I admit my shortcomings), but I'm just not full after 3oz. of food. So far my band has not helped me 100% of the time with portion control. I can still eat too much (although way less than I was eating before surgery). Sometimes I just fee like the band and I aren't working well together yet. And I felt really frustrated while reading the diet recommendations again. for example NO SNACKING. If I could eliminate snacking altogether myself I wouldn't need the band!!! I thought the band would help with hunger more and give me a full feeling, right? I dunno.THIS IS BAND HELL. I CAN'T SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL YET HELP!   Perhaps I'm disillusioned when it comes to what the band can do for me. Or maybe I'm just in bandster hell and the band isn't working at full compacity yet. I dunno. I just had to get all these feeling off my chest. Sometimes I think I will definately fail, that I am a failure and then I give up and eat. or I think I will fail anyways so I sabotage myself with food. (maybe deep down I'm so used to fail I will myself to fail) How do I get rid of these negative thoughts????? Has anyone ever felt this way in their journey????   Thank you for taking the time to give me some insights into how you made your journey a sucess

Hopeful to be full

Hopeful to be full

 

Day 14 Post-Op...1St Post-Op Doc Visit

i have been waiting 14 days for today!! i have no idea why i was so excited to see my surgeon today...you would've thought i was getting a fill! my doc says that he likes to wait six weeks post-op before doing a fill so my first fill date is 3-30-12...seems like forever and a day away, but he is the doc...so 30 more days until my fill!   so my doc says all is good and all looks well. he has given me permission to continue exercising as i feel comfortable and was ok with the one hour i've been doing on the treadmill most days for the past week. he lifted my five pound weight restriction and told me that i can now lift up to 25 pounds...so that weight set i bought pre-op can finally get some use.       i went with a list of questions because after sitting around on this website for two weeks i found there were some important things that i needed to know...i found out where my port was! the place that's still tender on my belly...that's where it is! i actually thought it was somewhere else...hmmm, makes me wonder what the heck i was feeling...i found that i had a 10 cc band and that there was about 1 cc placed in my band at surgery. also there is a number on all of the lapbands, like a serial number, and if you go to the lapband website and send them your band number you can get a card to take to restaurants if you choose to eat out and they will honor you eating from the lunch menu or varying portion sizes...so i asked him about that that number and he gave it to me:) i also found out that it was ok to have sex (i know my hubby is glad)!!!   i met with the dietician again today and my diet was upgraded to step 3...no more mushies!!! i was already kinda doing this anyway...but now i can have some soft meats ( i'll just continue with my broiled fish), fruits, veggies, and even starches..like crackers...i am going to stay away from those though...but guess what i don't have to eat? the two different diabetes medications that i was on pre-surgery!!! my numbers have been in check since 2-15-12!!!! i am ecstatic!!!!   i still feel like i have no restriction at all and everything goes down pretty easily...i have been really paying attention to my body and trying to make note of real physical hunger and it is rare...i still have to try to eat six small meals a day though, which has been difficult...a huge area that i must improve ASAP is my fluid intake...i am barely getting 20fl oz down a day:(     today i feel rejuvenated!!! i saw the scale move a bit today too, which is always a good thing as it had been stuck for about 3-4 days... i also got the chance to sit with hubby while he did all of his pre-op exams as he will be getting banded on 3-13-12!!!! and to put icing on the cake, i got more time off work!!! i know i'm probably being greedy but i need it:) mental health is just as important as physical health...

phatkatblue

phatkatblue

 

Breast Reconstruction? Need Advice!

Day 30: "Mixed Feelings"   I am wondering if anyone had breast reduction/reconstruction after having WLS, and if so: How long did you wait and was it covered by insurance?   I am very well endowed genetically. When I gained weight, I went from a 34DD at 135lbs. to a 40H at 265lbs. I visited a plastic surgeon in October, and he was the one who mentioned the VSG option to lose weight. In fact, it was made me decide to have VSG done. He highly recommended that I lose the weight first, then have the surgery once I was at maintenance weight. Having the surgery at my highest weight would increase my chances of risks, longer hospital stay, etc. He said that losing even 50lbs. would reduce those chances by more than half.   I've never liked having large breasts. I'm an active person and they get in the way. Not to mention trying to find bras, clothes, and bathing suits that fit. I usually have to order my bras from strange online retailers and spend outrageous amounts of return shipping and restocking fees when they don't work. It's not like I can just buy a bra at a local department store for $20! I love to swim, but my only option for bathing suits is a place in the mid-west that makes custom suits. They are close to $180 a pop! And as good as they are, they still don't support me all that well and they fall apart after 15-20 swims. I guess they are made more for those who sit by the pool than actually get in the pool. In regular tops and jackets, I still have to buy 1-2X just to cover my chest, while the rest of me is swimming in fabric. I am easily a size 14 in my arms and waist if that helps make a visual.   I know my breasts are going to be my nemesis during the weight loss process. I've lost 34lbs. and haven't budged in the bra department other than I changed from a 40 band size to 38. I'm going to be very disappointed if I don't lose the boobs.   I'm already daydreaming of having breast reduction as soon as I hit goal. Although we want to have kids, so if I'm able to conceive we may wait a little longer. They are terribly uncomfortable and such a pain. I tried swimming at a new gym yesterday and had a freaky, creepy old man staring at me the whole time. I stayed only 10 minutes before leaving in shame and embarrassment. I've been stared at since high school when I developed, and have always gotten more attention from the male-sex than I ever welcomed. I've been groped at concerts, unable to get security to do anything. I get cat calls when I'm out trying to walk for my health, nasty things.   I can't wait until they are gone and I can have a normal life.

AliveAgain

AliveAgain

 

Wish Fulfillment!

Yay! I got my first fill this morning! I'm so happy, it's ridiculous. Even if I don't reach restriction from this fill, at least I now know that this journey has really started and is really progressing, and as long as I do the work, I can expect to get results. I can't even describe how that feels. It's euphoric!   Even though my surgeon had indicated I would likely have a fill at this appointment (4 weeks post-op), I still had paranoia that it might not happen. I'm just that kind of girl--a worrywort! Well, when the nurse escorted me into the exam room, I saw all the accoutrements of a fill already laid out for the doctor, and that soooo made me happy. Never have the sight of needle, syringe, and alcohol swabs given me such a thrill! When the surgeon came in, he asked me if I was on soft solids yet (which I am) and if I wanted my first fill. I don't think he even got to finish the question before I was shouting my "YES!"   It turns out that my surgeon does his fills by feel--no barium swallows or flouroscopy. He had me lay back on the exam table and lift my head in a mini-crunch while he located the port. Then came the needle. Now, I'm on the fence about needles; they don't totally freak me out, but I don't love them, either, so it was a little odd for me when, after the initial stick, he spent maybe 15 seconds wigglnig the thing around to get it in precisely the right spot. I can't say it was totally comfortable, but I can't say it was painful, either. It was just a weird sensation. Once the needle was in place, he started the injection, backed it up to be sure it was correctly entering the system, then completed the fill. The whole appointment was like 5 minutes (with another 40 minutes spent completing my form, waiting, weighing in, and getting my vitals checked). After the fill, he gave me a small cup of water to drink and said I could come in after 3 weeks if I felt I needed more restriction.   The fill itself consisted of 3.0 cc of fluid. That made me quite happy, since I dreaded getting only 1 cc at a time. The surgeon claims that most patients feel restriction between 3 cc and 8 cc. Right now, I'm not entirey certain what I feel, since I've been instructed to have my first post-fill meal as liquid, then progress slowly back through the stages until I'm on solid foods. The water at the dr's office went down with no issues, so I felt a little worry that I might not have any restriction at all. When I got home, I had a protein drink for lunch, and it took me 45 minutes to drink the 8 oz. I didn't have any trouble with it at all, but I thought I could feel it going down in a way I hadn't before. Whether that's restriction or just swelling, I guess we'll see, but I'm feeling fairly optimistic. And full off just liquid, which is nice. Hopefully that will continue.   Anyway, that's my first fill experience. I'm crossing my fingers that the band kicks in and starts holding up its part of this bargain, since I only lost 3.4 lbs since my last dr's visit.

morelgirl

morelgirl

 

Today's Was My 2 Week Post Op Appt With My Dr........

So today was my two week post op with my doctor. I went in feeling a little nervous that they wouldn't be happy with my progress........   I found out that I've lost a total of 23 lbs since my last visit and that he's happy with the progress so far!! My lab work came back good, again I had concerns about dehydrations since I'm struggling with drinking enough water......   As for meeting with the dietician, she gave me my new diet to follow which consists of a little more variety but still no solids and everything has to be pureed ( hope I spelled that right)..........   And finally, tomorrow is my first day back to work...........   So we'll see how that goes!!   All in all, not a bad day!! :0)

tjbeans38

tjbeans38

 

Working Out At Last!

I am super excited to say that my stall is over! I felt like 25 lbs was all I was going to loose and I was unhappy with feeling hungry ALL the time. I started a few zumba classes at my gym mixed with a little equipment training, weights and carido and wouldn't you know it, I am loosing and loving how the exercise has curbed my appetite. I am about 9 weeks out and 30 lbs smaller. The best part is not the weight but the strength I have to pick up my son. I have energy, feel smaller all over and am just plain happy. I am so glad that made exercise a part of day, my lack of motivation really was the only reason for being unsure about my sleeve. Thank you everyone for all the wonderful support

SlowLossingGal

SlowLossingGal

 

Needing A Change

So I work at home and I'm so fantastically bored with it. Tired of staring at the same walls and having no human interaction. I've been sending resumes out and looking for a job outside the house. Its hard to take something that's nearly 1/2 the pay though. Hoping to find something that gets my butt outta the house more often very soon!

circa

circa

 

When Will It Happen???

Another day in which I am just thankful to be alive. Even with the thought of knowing I was approved and haven't heard from my surgeon had me depressed; however my husband said it best by saying you are waiting now but the end result is sweet. It will be a sweet day when i can start the life i always wanted. i will not allow this weight or waiting on surgery to change my life. On today, I will start eating healthy in preparation for the lifetime committment that will be before me.   Right now I am thinking about a bucket list once i get healthy and skinny. Any suggestions?

Ready2BFit

Ready2BFit

 

Mushies.....

Today I'm back on mushies yuck tomorrow mushies too lol. Yesterday went to the gym did some weight training nothing crazy just 5lb free weights see if I notice a difference in weight loss.   Nothing else really to report, suppossed to snow this afternoon into tomorrow a whole inch ohhhh so scary   What really annoys me lately is recipes with no nutritional info lol. But I just have to figure it out myself got to make a grocery list for next week. No more Chobani I'm sick of it! Maybe something with eggs like a crustless quiche IDK food is not that interesting to me any more.   Have a good day!

shues138

shues138

 

A Month To Form A Habit

I recently responded to someones post about this and thought it would be a good blog topic. This is something I heard quite a while ago that has stuck with me. Any time I am struggling to change something, I remember this saying. In this instance, it has to do with the gym. I do NOT like the gym. I don't like the crowds, seeing people I know (I work at a local bank, and I know half the people there), feeling like people are looking at me etc, etc. I just don't like it! However, I signed up telling myself that if I could do this for one month, then I'm good. Why only one month? Because I know that if I could be consistent with one month, than I obviously have it within me to make it a habit. And guess what? A month has come and gone, and I'm still going strong! I have left myself with no excuses. If I ever stop going, it will be because I gave up. I AM NOT GIVING UP! I love the results I've seen even in this short span of time. The positives obviously outweigh the negatives. I have lost 54 pounds in less than 4 months. See this as an encouragement to you! If I can do it, anyone can do it!

legnarevocrednu

legnarevocrednu

 

No Difference

I had my surgery Dec.21 of 2011. i have lost 20 pounds. I am very excitd about that and I 've had 3 fills. I'm at 6.5 cc's. I have never had any diffuclties at all. I can eat everything I want. I have not had any kind of discomfort, pain or anything. I seem to be stuck at this weight and cannot break it. I'm also having a hard time sticking to a strickt diet because I am able to eat everything. My other problem is I never know what to eat that is good for me. Does anybody have any advice or is able to eat without difficulties? I dont feel any restriction at all. Im going for my 4th fill and I will be at 7. HELP!

sardon0621

sardon0621

 

10 Month Measurements

10 Month Measurements   StartWeight: 273 lbs. **Goal Weight: 157lbs. Pre-op:--- 6 lbs. lost Surgery Weight: 267 1 month: 247 -- -- bmi 39.0 -- -- 20 lbs lost 2 month: 238 -- -- bmi 37.3 -- -- 9 lbs lost 3 month: 229 -- -- bmi 35.9 -- -- 9 lbs lost 4 month: 220 -- -- bmi 34.5 -- -- 9 lbs lost 5 month: 212 -- -- bmi 33.2 -- -- 8 lbs lost 6 month: 207 -- -- bmi 32.4 -- -- 5 lbs lost 7 month: 201 -- -- bmi 31.5 -- -- 6 lbs lost 8 month: 198 -- -- bmi 31.0 -- -- 3 lbs lost 9 month: 192 -- -- bmi 30.1 -- -- 6 lbs lost 10 month:192 - -- bmi 30.1 -- -- 0 lbs lost   Lost since surgery: -75 Lost Total: -81 lbs.       Weekly Break Down, lbs. lost pre-op week: 6 lbs week 1 -- 8 lbs. 2 - -5 3 - -3 4 - -2 5 - -2 6 - -3 ~2 months 7 - -3 8 - -1 9 - -2 10 - -6 ~3 months 11 - -0 12 - -2 13 - -1 14 - -3 ~4 months 15 - -0 16 - -4 17 - -2 18 - -1 ~5 months 19 - -1 20 - -3 21 - -3 22 - +1 ~6 months 23 - -0 24 - -3 25 - -2 26 - -1 27 - -2 ~ 7 months 28 - -0 29 - -0 30 - -4 31 - -0 ~ 8 months 32 - -0 33 - -3 34 - -0 35 - -0 36 - -1 ~ 9 months 37 - -2 38 - -1 39 - -2 40 - -0 ~ 10 months 41 - +2 42 - -2 43 - -0 44 - - ~ 11 months 45 - - 46 - - 47 - - 48 - - 49 - - 50 - - 51 - - 52 - -   StartJean size: 24/22 Current Jean size: 14/12 some 10 & 11   Start Shirt size: 3x/2x Current Shirt size: xl/L some M   Inches:   Neck Start: 16 Last: 13.5 Recent: 13.5 Loss: 0 Total Loss: -2.5   Upper Arm Start: 15 Last: 12.5 Recent: 120 Loss: -0.5 Total Loss: -3   Forearm Start: 11.5 Last: 10 Recent: 10 Loss: 0 Total Loss: -1.5   Waist Start: 49 Last: 37 Recent: 37 Loss: 0 Total Loss: -12   Abdomen (belly button) Start: 55 Last: 43.5 Recent: 43.5 Loss: 0 Total Loss: -11.5   Hips Start: 55 Last: 45 Recent: 44.5 Loss: -0.5 Total Loss: -10.5   Bust Start: 54 Last: 44 Recent: 44 Loss: 0 Total Loss: -10   Chest Start: 44 Last: 36 Recent: 36 Loss: 0 Total Loss: -8   Thigh Start: 30.5 Last: 24 Recent: 24 Loss: 0 Total Loss: -6.5   Calf Start: 17.5 Last: 15 Recent: 15 Loss: 0 Total Loss: -2.5     1st month loss: -19.5 in 2nd month loss: -9 in 3rd month loss: -13.5 in 4th month loss: -6 in 5th month loss: -2 in 6th month loss: -6 in 7th month loss: -4.5 in 8th month loss: -5.0 in 9th month loss: -1.5 in 10th month loss: -1.0 in   Total Lost: -68 inches   Valentines Goal: Start weight 198 Goal weight 190 7 weeks – 8 lbs. End weight 192 ~ Missed goal by 2lbs.   Easter Goal Start weight 192 Goal weight 182 8 weeks – 10 lbs.  

Nichelle

Nichelle

 

Hell I Tell Ya Pure Hell !!!

well iam 4 weeks post op and i know i can eat way more then i should, feel like iam losing weight but wont get on the scale,funny i know,also i find myself going to the fridge to get something,then realize iam not hungry,guess i need a new hobby i go to the gym 2-3 days a week also got zumba for the wii my first fill will be 3/15,well i hope i will be 6 weeks post op by then...just frustrated i guess thanks fer letting me vent as always......
 

I Am Scared And Trying To Keep The Faith

I am scared I am gaining weight, I purchased a scale about 3 weeks ago and I weigh myself 3 to 4 times a day and each time it says something different.   I am struggling with what to eat, I think I am doing the right thing and it seem like I am gaining. My Doctors office called today to inform me I was dehydrated and needed to go in and get fluids. I came home got on the scale and it went from 301 this morning to 309 is that right is it normal.   I am scared, I am failing, I am not losing the weight I thought I would. I am going to go back and see the Nutrionist to get some help with my meals ans portion sizes. I want to be successful with my weight loss. I started this journey at 349 lbs, when I went to my post op I was 307 lbs, my scale has not gotten down under 300lbs and it's been about 3 week.   I have an elipitical machine that I have been using and i am still not losing. Any advice would be helpful. I do mess up and eat the wrong thing sometime but for the most part I am faithful, I have trouble getting the calcium down it makes me nauseated, I am trying to find one I really like.   Thanks for listening I appreciate any help, and advice you can give.

Smilecharmer

Smilecharmer

 

First Fill...

Ok well I had my first (2cc) fill today 2/28/12 and not to bad! It didn't hurt like my mind thought it would be, now liquids for a few days I look at it like this if I could go 3 weeks only liquid what is a few days right? my doctor wants me to come back in a month for another fill (3cc) we will see how that goes he said he likes to go slow with the fills to catch any problems if there is any so I feel good. I learnd I don't have to do milk if milk is giving be problems I'm trying soy,almond and even warm water to blend with my protien. not sure how it is all going to taste yet but ANYTHING is better than all this sour feeling in my stomic I'm feeling good but I need to do something about the constipation I'm dealing with! I've NEVER had to deal with constipation never not even having my kids so I feel like this is going to be a BIG problem because I don't know how to deal with this! I do fiber, I drink water about to try prune juice witch I hate but what am i gonna do?   Tell next update :wub:

Lovlee Banded

Lovlee Banded

 

Finally Decided Against Lapband

Until recently I have been posting to the LapBand site, thinking I would be receiving the LapBand. I have found recently that there are simply too many people having problem and revisions after having the LapBand. I am afraid that I will be one of those who regret getting the band either because I get sick or I don't lose weight.   We are a military family and I have all three options available to me since my weight has recently increased. When I began my journey I only qualified for the LapBand. Now my BMI is over 35 and I can get any operation I choose. I have faith that this is the best choice for me.   I appreciate all of the information I've received from the posts on this site and the LapBand site. I am so glad to have finally made a decision.   Also, I was contacted by my surgeon today and am informed that my operation will take place on March 28!!!!   I'm very excited to have gone through all of the hoops required by Tricare to get this surgery. I believe I'm going into this fully informed.

faddisc

faddisc

 

Jitters

So tomorrow marks 4 weeks from the day I was banded. I have a morning appointment with my surgeon and, judging by what he said last time I saw him, I will probably get my first fill at that time. Sheesh, I hope that's what happens. I've been going a little crazy the last couple of weeks, and I'm hoping a fill will help to restore my sanity.   I realize that I'm unlikely to reach restriction on my first fill. I have an 11 cc band, and the surgeon says most of his patients reach restriction between 3 cc and 8 cc. He didn't mention how much he gives for a first fill, so I'm just praying he won't start with just 1 cc. I need some help here. I've been diligent about counting my calories and staying on target, but it's getting harder and harder. I'm able to eat anything and everything I try with no problems, and I definitely get hungry 2-3 hours after a meal, even one heavy on the protein. As far as I can tell, that should equal a fill, but what can I say? I'm paranoid. In case you hadn't noticed.   I'm sure I'll be posting after the appointment, so tune in tomorrow at the same bat time, same bat channel, for an update. FIngers crossed it will be a happy one.

morelgirl

morelgirl

 

February 29, 2011

Well, happy Leap Day everybody. I thought I would feel better today, but I don't really. Daughter called and so much as said it is all my fault that her cellphone bill was $20 higher than she thought it would be and that don't expect her to be calling that much any more unless it was to my cellphone. It is not me who calls. It's her dad. And all she has to do is quickly remind him to call on his cellphone. Besides he already gave her a tank of gas and $200 extra this month. It's always something with her. Next thing on my list is hubby. He drives me insane. I just want to go back to bed and pull the covers over my head. I have written before about his health issues and his spending. A couple of months ago he bought a small aluminum fishing boat for $2500. I thought, "Oh,great! Something else that will sit in the garage unused." When I saw it I was mad. It looks like shyt and I told him he got took. "Oh, no." he says. "I got a good deal. It's perfect. It already has a trolling motor and that's all it needs." Well guess what? That perfect boat just had to have a small outboard and we just had to drive 2 hours up and two hours back to buy one. $2000 later he has a new motor for a fishing boat that hasn't been out of the garage in 2 months. Then to top it off, a buyer for the Ranger bassboat appeared. Hubby has talked about how, since it has not been in the water in almost a year and the fact that he can't handle it alone, it would be a good idea to sell it and use that montly payment to payoff credit cards. Well, he sold it but we had to come up with another $2000 to pay it off. This is not leaving much in savings. On top of that, the very same day he sells the boat, his buddy from the boat sales place calls him with "a great deal that just came in". Hubby gets all excited and tells me he just may have to go see it cause it would only be about $10,500 and we could get the money from our home equity line and not even have an increase in our payment. Of course, we don't even owe the equity line anything and it was opened just for the care of the house. I feel cheated. There are so many things I would like to have and they do not include a boat. I find myself wishing he would just go away. I don't have anyone to talk to about it. I only have here to vent because no one here really knows me. I find that I don't really care about my diet or my eating. My band raises it head every once in a while and lets me know it's still there, but I am not using it as a tool like I'm supposed to. Started back to Curves yesterday and am going to try to go there at least three times a week. Got some extreme baking to do next week and the week after so at least I will have an actvity to occupy my thoughts. All for now.

MsAnn6550

MsAnn6550

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