Hello, lap banders. I have a story that i NEED to share. I need support from every aspect of my life and you all are one of them.

I broke and dislocated my knee cap 2.5 inches in June 2004. Yes, ouch. Major surgery and recovery. Obviously I was prescribed pain meds. Percocet and then vicodin. For the 1st 5 months i needed the pain meds in order to walk and recover from my fall. But for the last 10 months I have continued to take these pain meds with the dosage increasing weekly. A doctor kept presribing them and i kept taking them. In May when i was banded I said no more. Then i took more. Then in July when I got a fill, i said no more, same thing in August. Well that has not happened. I am up to between 8-15 pills a day, sometimes less but never have had more than that. When i first started it was 3-4 a day so i am sure if i didnt get help it would soon end up being the 30-40 a day that i read about on line. Well my point is that tomorrow I am going to a drug rehab for opioid detoxification. It should be about 5 days that i will have to spend there. I am scared. I have 2 small kids that i will miss dearly. And my husband. This addictive personality runs in my family and i am glad that i am able to recognize that i need help. I am scared and excited to be free of this habit. I just wanted to share. It makes me feel better. I am very concerned about my band. I was also taking vicoprofen which have 200 mg of ibuprofen per pill. So I dont know if that has hurt me. I guess when I have recovered I will discuss it with my surgeon. Maybe it didnt affect it since i have had no bad signs with my band. My band has NEVER been free of main meds since i got it. It was mostly vicodin though, one prescription was vicoprofen. So i dont know. Just wanted to share my story. Please keep me in your prayers and help me to have the strength to beat this quickly and effectively. Thanks for listening!

Robyn

I sent you an email. My prayers are with you.

Dee Dee

Robyn, you are a brave and strong woman and have already done the very hardest thing. It's all downhill from here.

We're with you, our hearts and minds are here for you whenever you need support or just to vent. Please come let us know how you are doing. We're thinking of you!!

robin good luck & we love you sandie

You can do this! We're here for you! (((((((HUGS)))))))

You can do this. You must do this. Someone very dear to me has faced an addiction problem, and while it was extremely difficult, for everyone, it has paid off in so many blessings for our family, that there is no question that it was worth it. I will pray for your health. Cindy

Sorry I missed this thread yesterday. Robyn, I remember our emails when we were in the pre-op and protein shake stages. You have done great while dealing with your other issues. I will think of you in my prayers. Good luck and keep us updated. Celeste

Well I am home again. I went there on Tuesday afternoon. I cried for about 4 hours. I even signed a right to release paper. i wanted to leave, even if i was doing the right thing. Well they gave me some stuff called methadone to help relieve withdrawal symptoms. I took that Tuesday, wednesday and thursday am. I decided that i was feeling well and refused 6pm methadone and thought i'd see how i felt. Well i was fine the rest of the night, no withdrawal syptoms. So i refused again the next morning. Now even though i refused, i could get it any time i felt i needed it. Well I felt fine, and they let me come home yesterday. I met some amazing people, did LOTS of group meetings and counseling. AA meetings, NA, even attended a CA, which is cocaine anonymous, just to hear the stories of the people there. Amazing the lives people live for so long. It was a heck of an experience. i could have been any of those people who went from pills to alcohol to worse. I will NEVER even touch alcohol again even if it was not my addiction. I missed my kids, but thank God they were fine. Thank God I didnt become worse. I feel very fortunate and I thank you all for your support. I am done with pills. God Bless you all and Thanks again.

Now the hard work begins. Don't let up your resolve. Do whatever you have to do to get even further past this phase in your life. I'm so proud of you!!! No more pain pills!!! Now you can FEEL again, even when it hurts! And that's a good thing. Welcome home!

Welcome home Robyn!!!

I have been thinking of you all week and keeping you in my prayers. I am so glad you are home with your loving family and that you have gone through the first step of the rest of your life. God Bless you and keep you strong.

Email me if you'd still like for me to call you tomorrow. cspiller@earthlink.net

I don't know if you remember me, I'm the one in Miami-Dade you emailed last week before you went in.

Cindy

Robyn...what a great job you are doing. Stay focused and all will be great. Your new lift has begun. I can't say I know what you are going through but I sure hope it all stays on the right path for you.

Congratulations, Robyn! You sound wonderful. All the best wishes for continued strength and success. It won't be a fight forever.

you're doing awesome girl. You should be so proud of yourself.

Welcome Home

Congratulations!! I am so pround of you.

Robyn,

I just read your thread tonight. I to am proud of you. It will get hard. read paslm 91 and make it personal to you! This I promise will help you get through the tough times. Lean on the word and others and you will get through this.

I'm here for you as I know all your fellow bandsters are.

God Bless,

Robyn, please keep us updated on how your doing. Hope all is well and each day gets easier for you!