The demons are dancing again....

[giveyouthemoon 4]

....wow, okay, so I'm just over a month banded. In what seemed like overnight this week I went from being well in control to able to eat everything in sight and not holding back. Wow. These food issues are here again. I'm pretty sure Aunt Flo is supposed to show up anyday now, all the signs are there so I'll attribute this to that. But wowowowow, the ol' "hey let's eat everything in the house" mentality came rushing back at me.

I knew the band wouldn't fix that, but I thought I'd go longer than a month before it cropped up.

In the pre-band days, I'd just admit I failed another diet and I'd go back to eating the old ways and gaining more and more. Can't do that now. I have that band still intact, still inside of me. I have to wait until Aug. 17th until I can have my first fill. Sigh.

August is going to be one long scary month.

Just posting here mainly because I need support. Good words, help, whatever. Can I do this? Why am I sabotageing myself? How can I succeed? Will I? What if I fail the band (I know it won't fail me, I'll fail it).

:sob:

Is anyone out there?

[NJChick 3]

Oh no Karen !!

Do you think this is all emotional eating ? if so, check out this thread, it might help.

http://www.lapbandtalk.com/showthread.php?t=8401

Hug and Kisses !!!

Eileen

[giveyouthemoon 4]

get back on there and Ride that Dragon....do not wait until the fill.....brush off the dust and climb back on there....you know what to do....

Yeah Jack, you are right....gotta ride that damn Dragon that came to life inside of me. It was sleeping but roared to life. What a strange trip it was this weekend. Am bruised, battered, but I'm still standing. And yes, I know what to do. Soldier on.

Thanks! (thanks also NJChick, I'll re-read that thread)

[Marimaru 7]

Jello. sugar free Jello. Keep it EVERYWHERE!!! And get all the junk out of the house!!

I lost to the Dragon on Saturday and grazed all frickin' day. I was all alone in my mom's house catsitting, so who could stop me right? Fortunately, it was all low cal Snacks, and I only went 60 calories of my daily allowed max, so it's possible to have a 'bad day' or week or whatever, and still not do too much harm.

But seriously, I eat a box of sugar free Jello like every day, and it's all of 80 calories for the whole thing.

[momof4 0]

I went through something similar a couple of weeks ago. But besides feeling very hungry all the time, I was counting calories and doing very well. I just wasn't losing anything. I started eating meats only. (Not meats, then veggies, then starch). I ate about 4 oz. of meat 3 times a day and if I needed a snack in between, I'd have a string cheese. It's part of the plateau buster plan posted by Donali. After about 3 days of doing this, I noticed that some restriction came back and my cravings went away. By the 4th and 5th day, I didn't even need a snack in between and actually had to eat a Protein Bar at like 8:00 at night to up my calories above 1000. My Protein levels were in the 80's and in 4 days I lost 3 lbs. I know everybody is different, but try that for 5-10 days and see if it helps. It's a struggle I think we've all been through--Good luck!!!

[Marimaru 7]

LOL... hey now, this is serious business!! 2 of the cats are my mom's bengals. She wants to breed them. The other 2 are my sister's housecats, and then I've brought my 2 cats over there as it's easier to be in one place.

I'm the crazy cat lady!!!

[giveyouthemoon 4]

Well this band is the damndest thing I've ever known. So today I decide to get OFF the wild demon and stand firm. Protein shake for Breakfast. Good. I made my lunch, some tuna salad. I'll be damned if I could only eat half. Suddenly I got restriction again? WTF?

Maybe the demons have access to my band?? How can THAT be???? All weekend I'm eating EVERYTHING (including Proteins like ground beef and eggs) in massive quantities and today I can only manage half a cup of tuna salad?

This band is one weird, fickle creature. Anyhow, Viva le Restriction!

By the by.....has anyone named their band? I gave mine a name almost right away. Am I the only weird one?

[Marimaru 7]

Hehe, the band must know it's monday and the weekend is over!

I've not named mine, but I know of lots of people who have!

[DeLarla 22]

This is what my whole thread called, "The Honeymoon is Over." Those damn demons are hard to beat, but according to so many people around here, they are beatable!

I have gained back 10 full pounds, but then I lost five of those. I'm still up a few pounds, but the Band helps me get back on track. You'll have good days and bad days, but just remember the Band is there to lead you back to good ones. Even though I never made it to my losing 100 pound goal like I originally planned, I'm still glad for my band.

[giveyouthemoon 4]

"My Lady Angel of the Silicon Fist"---otherwise known as 'my own little Symbiant'..... :rolleyes

LOL! Actually, I saw on another thread that you called the band your silicon fist, so it was with that in mind that I set out to name my band. I liked the austere nature of "the fist" so I thought about a Russian name.....thus my band was christened "Katrinka". She's like a petulant Russian ballet dancer. Somedays beautiful, some days tough to take.

Even my dear friend has taken to calling it that. Like "how are you and Katrinka doing today?"

[giveyouthemoon 4]

You'll have good days and bad days, but just remember the Band is there to lead you back to good ones. Even though I never made it to my losing 100 pound goal like I originally planned, I'm still glad for my band.

Wow, that's solid stuff. And in a moment of lucidity when I put down the ever so delicious and advertised as lo card ice cream decadent treat, I realized..."okay, I blew it BAD this weekend....but the band is still there....and I have to deal with that......blowing it now doesn't mean blowing off eating right." This is a huge lesson for me.

Delarla, your story is one that fascinates me. How someone who has been through SO much with the ports and the hole and all the really scary stuff....how you are so strong and you haven't given up. Your story is honestly REALLY inspiring to me. After all you've been through you still are happy about the band. That rocks, sistah!

[DeLarla 22]

I call my band, "Buddy." I never leave the house without a friend.

I guess the reason I stay so cheerful is because I cry when I need to cry, and I laugh when I need to laugh. Needless to say I either cry or laugh or cry and laugh, or cry while I'm laughing, or laugh while I'm crying EVERY SINGLE DAY!

Somewhere in the journey of life I developed a sense of humor. I used to live in gloom and doom and point fingers and blame people for my unhappiness while wishing somebody would show up and make me happy and improve my life. Then one day Abe Lincoln kicked me in the ass. I saw a small quote of his, and now I live by it.

"YOU ARE ONLY HAS HAPPY AS YOU MAKE UP YOUR MIND TO BE."

Abe Lincoln.

[DeLarla 22]

P.S. Now please pass me the moon.

[giveyouthemoon 4]

P.S. Now please pass me the moon.

Yoooou asked for it!

Here's several:

[porclndoll 0]

.....?catsitting?? CATSITTING?????l....I've heard that *cats* can actually count as a low-grade Protein if you get rid of the hairballs first....

OOOOOO MY GOSH JACK!!!!! I ALMOST FELL OUTTA MY CHAIR WHEN I READ THIS ONE!! EHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE HAIRBALLS! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA YOUR A LIL' TWISTED JACK.......I LIKE THAT! THANKS FOR THE LAUGH!!!! EHEHEHEHE