So, let me first say happy Mother's Day to all of the moms on here. Secondly, I want to let you all know that I'm currently 161 lbs... which is 11 lbs away from my goal weight of 150 lbs.

?????????????? round of applause for that being that this is month 5 for me.

Tjirdky, let's discuss the topic at hand. Anyone who has followed me know that my journey with my husband has been bad . Well , it's reached an all time low. We were asleep 3 nights ago and the phone kept vibrating. I told him to answer and he wouldn't. Well we have 2 kids that are outside of the home right now so I said let me make sure it's not the kids texting him. But my gut told me this is gonna be bad. But I checked anyway. This is what I saw " You left your rubber in my bed and my baby found it""" with lil joking emoticons. OMG... my heart dropped to my toes. I felt he was cheating but didn't know for sure. Let me also put this out there. My husband had not slept with me in 3 1/2 weeks at the time. So I knew something wasn't right. I had been praying to God for a revelation in this marriage be it whatever way, good or bad because my spirit knew I wasn't being treated right and I knew he was messing around. Heck I had just caught him maybe 1 month before that trying to hookup on Facebook. So, needless to say I told him I want a divorce and this was it. No more will I be the hurt wife who is trying to sacrifice herself for her husband, nope. Already have been consulting legal counsel because it's over. Now, he swears he is gonna do right and wants his family. I told him he had 21 years to do right and if he wanted his family his penis oils have stayed in is pants.

Ohhhhhh.... here's the agonizing part for me. This is the same woman he had an affair with on me 13 years ago. Same dirty tramp. I'm like oh no that means this never ended. Which he swears it was only one time. Yep I believe that like I believe in Santa Claus. I cried for 2 days straight. Then I said forget this , on Mother's Day I put on a backless sundress ( in my new size 8 yassss) went out shopping ,had a great time with friends and felt like I was coming into my new, happier peaceful self. I am still very hurt but I thank God for revealing his evil because I don't want an std or aids because he is a hoer.

This surgery has truly changed my life. The old me would have cried and just took him bk and dealt with the pain. But not the new confident, strong Diana that this surgery helped to bring to surface. I posted before that I knew we were gonna divorce , just didn't think it was gonna be like this but it is what it is. There is someone out there who will cherish me and love me for the jewel that I am.

Thsnk you guys for all your support throughout the months. You have truly become my family.?

50 minutes ago, K_aane said:

You go girl. And if you hit,a rough patch, you look me up. I will inspire you and ruffle up those beautiful feathers and get you strutting again!


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Lol, thank you. If I get down, I'm calling up the feather-ruffle-upper, too funny . Cuz I love to strut anyways. Thank you?

Yes , thanks for checking on me. I had a wonderful mom day and post mom day. I am going to be just fine. God has me and I am praying my way through this. Pic of me at park. I look important , lol

Wow you are beautiful! [emoji7][emoji7]

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4 minutes ago, faithlove said:

Wow you are beautiful!

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Awwww, I'm blushing so hard right now. Thank you. It's so funny how much our self esteem is guided by others like our mates. I said that to say this. I received like 5 compliments yesterday that I was so pretty and people stared at me, n I felt so insecure that all these eyes were on me . I felt weird to feel pretty. It's crazy yes but for years I based how I looked on how my husband received me n when it started to go downhill , I blamed my weight and whatever else or me not being pretty enuff, but as you can see, that wasn't the issue , the issue was he was screwing someone else for years and just had no interest in me.

So, now I have to get used to embracing my inner and outer beauty. Both were always there just oppressed severely. But I'm a work in progress, I am broken but not in despair. Thank you God.

Awwww, I'm blushing so hard right now. Thank you. It's so funny how much our self esteem is guided by others like our mates. I said that to say this. I received like 5 compliments yesterday that I was so pretty and people stared at me, n I felt so insecure that all these eyes were on me . I felt weird to feel pretty. It's crazy yes but for years I based how I looked on how my husband received me n when it started to go downhill , I blamed my weight and whatever else or me not being pretty enuff, but as you can see, that wasn't the issue , the issue was he was screwing someone else for years and just had no interest in me.
So, now I have to get used to embracing my inner and outer beauty. Both were always there just oppressed severely. But I'm a work in progress, I am broken but not in despair. Thank you God.

My pastor always says to be careful what we ask God because we might not like his response. When we ask for guidance and clarity and he knows we are ready to listen he will let us know. Sometimes we might not feel ready but he knows when we are. Sometimes we want things a certain way but we must trust his way is better. I was once in a bad marriage and I felt the same way you did. I would pray God to please give me strength and guidance to leave or make it work. I was hurt and scared of what the future would bring but I thank the Lord he gave me strength. You are beautiful, be strong and focus on yourself. Focus on your own growth, emotionally, spirituality, physically and mentally. Embrace yourself [emoji173]

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5 minutes ago, faithlove said:

My pastor always says to be careful what we ask God because we might not like his response. When we ask for guidance and clarity and he knows we are ready to listen he will let us know. Sometimes we might not feel ready but he knows when we are. Sometimes we want things a certain way but we must trust his way is better. I was once in a bad marriage and I felt the same way you did. I would pray God to please give me strength and guidance to leave or make it work. I was hurt and scared of what the future would bring but I thank the Lord he gave me strength. You are beautiful, be strong and focus on yourself. Focus on your own growth, emotionally, spirituality, physically and mentally. Embrace yourself

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???thanks so much. I embrace pain because it develops character and strength. I thank God for his revelation. I wasn't ready to see it on the way it came but I was ready for a change for a long time in my marriage. Thank you for your kind words. U r very sweet.

Awwww, I'm blushing so hard right now. Thank you. It's so funny how much our self esteem is guided by others like our mates. I said that to say this. I received like 5 compliments yesterday that I was so pretty and people stared at me, n I felt so insecure that all these eyes were on me . I felt weird to feel pretty. It's crazy yes but for years I based how I looked on how my husband received me n when it started to go downhill , I blamed my weight and whatever else or me not being pretty enuff, but as you can see, that wasn't the issue , the issue was he was screwing someone else for years and just had no interest in me.
So, now I have to get used to embracing my inner and outer beauty. Both were always there just oppressed severely. But I'm a work in progress, I am broken but not in despair. Thank you God.

My ex husband was cheating and wouldn't come anywhere near me. I thought I was as ugly as sin and fat. He had a job in Bangkok so we lived there for 13 yrs. I returned back home to England in 2011 and if a man looked at me here in England I looked back over my shoulder to see who he was looking at,couldn't be me surely !! It was a great day when I stopped using my ex as a mirror [emoji1434]. He was toxic.
By the way you look gorgeous!

1 minute ago, geets said:

My ex husband was cheating and wouldn't come anywhere near me. I thought I was as ugly as sin and fat. He had a job in Bangkok so we lived there for 13 yrs. I returned back home to England in 2011 and if a man looked at me here in England I looked back over my shoulder to see who he was looking at,couldn't be me surely !! It was a great day when I stopped using my ex as a mirror . He was toxic.
By the way you look gorgeous!

Thank you. I am the same way, men are looking at me n I look down because I still feel a lil insecure about myself. But I am learning to walk head high. I have been told I am beautiful more in this last couple of months than I have in my life. It feels good. I'm embracing my new self, physically and mentally. My soon to be ex really is toxic n I see now how toxic he was in my life. But thank god for this revelation.

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Thank you. I am the same way, men are looking at me n I look down because I still feel a lil insecure about myself. But I am learning to walk head high. I have been told I am beautiful more in this last couple of months than I have in my life. It feels good. I'm embracing my new self, physically and mentally. My soon to be ex really is toxic n I see now how toxic he was in my life. But thank god for this revelation.

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Hi,

oh God I almost cried reading this post. I was so sad. This was years ago but the same hurt was still there like this was yesterday. I pray things are better for you. I continue to pray. Its been 4 1/2 years n i have gained maybe 13 lbs - 16 lbs back. I have added pics for update