Swan song—goodbye, and thank you.

[fatgirlsvelte 217]

Hey Team WLS,

Wanted to post a proper farewell to the community before ghosting, since so many of you have been supportive and informative since June when I began classes at Kaiser.

As of last week, I'm just 5 pounds shy of 100 total pounds lost from my all-time highest weight of 426 pounds. The reason I decided to pursue surgery is that I plateaued—and thought then 70 pounds lost was the best that I could do.

Yes, the loss has been slow, but it is a fact: I've maintained this 72 pound loss over the last three years. Since starting the Kaiser preop classes in July, I've lost another 23 pounds (I learned about macronutrients and protein!).

I've been treading deep waters in the community for 16 weeks, and have gained invaluable knowledge.

Surgery, at least where I stand now, is not for me.

There isn't enough data for women of childbearing age, and I'm concerned about a host of issues. Short term? Yes: surgery addresses weight and the various complications that come with obesity. Long term? I want to see data on osteoporosis, and what the aging Bariatric population looks like.

I understand the very valid arguments for everyone who is pro-surgery, and I totally respect you for the decision to go under the knife—more so now. It addresses the immediate and/or looming threats of obesity...when the surgery is used as a tool.

In the past sixteen weeks, I've seen more trouble than not in the WLS Community, and quietly observing the trials and tribulations...at least in regard to **my individual case**, the surgery would make my quality of life terrible. From where I stand now, I don't want to spend the rest of my life not drinking Water with dinner. I don't want to worry about spicy things, mineral water, fruit acids, and knowing that I have titanium staples in my body. I don't want to have the very serious major surgery, and with the statistically guaranteed future weight gain, go through the mind-**** that is post-op guilt/freak out.

Currently the only comorbidity I have with obesity is the number on the scale; no issues with blood pressure, cholesterol, diabetes, etc. I've had long talks with the physiologist that is our class counselor, and my past injuries in running are quite common. The more active you are, the more likely one is to get injured, especially with running. Injuries happen; keep going. Strengthen. Come back better.

If I lost all the weight with surgery, I'd still be the same young woman I am right now, just smaller.

If I lost all the weight without surgery, I'd still be the same young woman I am now, just smaller.

...and at 5:00am right now, I am who I am. I weigh 330.4 pounds, am a size 20W, 2X. I surf, swim, do yoga. I'm strengthening my legs and am able to sprint for short spurts, working up to long distance running again. I travel the world. I was in a professional photoshoot 2 weeks ago for an upcoming event, and loved every single picture. This past weekend, I purged my closet, and literally donated 75% of my prior wardrobe instead of hanging on to the past 4-6X, 26-32W pieces. My life is fun, my brain is cool...and I am comfortable in my current body. There is always room for improvement and the human body is capable of incredible things—I will continue to pursue improvement and peak fitness, but I am also grounded in the present.

This is all telling in and of itself.

The only guaranteed outcome of the surgery is forced Portion Control. Physiologically, with surgery or not, our bodies will fight us to stay fat for our entire lives. It will always be a battle.

I'm giving myself until my next birthday to quietly and diligently keep plugging away at my weight now that I've learned information that has clearly broken the through plateau. In eight months, I will re-evaluate. Should I hit my benchmark of continued weight loss, I'll know I made the right choice. If I have gained weight back? I'll reconsider the surgery.

For the surgery OGs that stepped in to provide tenured knowledge, for the newbies who shared their recent experiences, for those successful; but above all, for those who are struggling, I am inspired by you.

All of my love, and thank you,

—K

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[fatgirlsvelte 217]

I forgot to add this to the post—PLEASE keep in touch! I may not be active here, but want to be a part of everyone's journey toward optimum health!

We got this.

IG: @fatgirlsvelte

Email: fatgirlsvelte@gmail.com

Text: 323.775.3935

❤️

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[catwoman7 10,864]

it took me 10 years (and until I was in my 50's) to make the decision to go through with it. You may be back - or not. But good luck to you whatever you ultimately decide to do.

[LipstickLady 25,682]

Good luck to you!! I am sure you are going to do amazing things. XXOO

And you can still keep us updated here.

As a side note? On the titanium thing... Most of my skull is titanium from brain surgery. I told my husband that when I die, he needs to pull those plates out. My head is worth more than my house. I'll tell him about the staples, too.

[Babbs 14,680]

Your posts have been smart, thoughtful and thoroughly enjoyable. I also wish more people took the more thoughtful approach when deciding whether or not to have the surgery that you did. For that, I completely admire you.

Surgery is not for everyone, that's for sure. I wish you nothing but the best as you continue your journey in your own way. I have a feeling you're the type of person who succeeds at whatever they set out to do, anyway. You're going to be just fine.

[KristenLe 5,979]

@@fatgirlsvelte Good luck - with your attitude you are sure to go places! It's encouraging to see a young woman research this very serious decision and make the best choice for her! Very admirable!

[JamieLogical 8,684]

It sounds like you have given it a lot of thought and reached the conclusion that gives you the most peace of mind right now. That is the smart thing to do! You should make this choice for yourself and no one else. If surgery isn't right for you then you definitely shouldn't do it. It takes an enormous amount of dedication and commitment to be successful with WLS. If you can't commit to it fully, then you are right to not pursue it.

[WLSResources/ClothingExch 3,443]

It's been a short-but-sweet pleasure. You've been thorough, thoughful and good company at each step and clearly are making the right choice. You're even houghtful in saying "farewell," which I appreciate.

All the best from your New York friend.

[Pescador 1,374]

Best wishes for your future!

[Djmohr 6,965]

I wish you all the best on your journey! It sounds like you have looked at all of the data and are making the right choice for you at this time.

Keep us posted!

[fatgirlsvelte 217]

Thanks for this...

This is also a possibility for sure. If it is the case and I wait for awhile, it would give me ample time to have all of the babies (hahahaha). Appreciate you.

it took me 10 years (and until I was in my 50's) to make the decision to go through with it. You may be back - or not. But good luck to you whatever you ultimately decide to do.

[fatgirlsvelte 217]

@@LipstickLady thank you dear heart...please list me in the will as a titanium benefactor (ha!). I appreciate all you've guided me through more than you could know!

I will go dormant, but definitely keep in touch and update (if that's OK?). I guess all perspectives are good in a bariatric forum...it keeps things real. I just don't know if that's a violation?

<3

K

[fatgirlsvelte 217]

@@Babbs bless you...thank for your kind words. <3 One day at a time!

Hope to keep in touch.

[fatgirlsvelte 217]

@@KristenLe thank you so much, Kristen. Appreciate you more than you could know.

[fatgirlsvelte 217]

It also takes an enormous amount of dedication and commitment to be successful without WLS...in my conclusion, it literally is the same amount of effort, just without forced reduction of portions and not as quick.

I'm on the right track, and significantly so. It will all be good.

It sounds like you have given it a lot of thought and reached the conclusion that gives you the most peace of mind right now. That is the smart thing to do! You should make this choice for yourself and no one else. If surgery isn't right for you then you definitely shouldn't do it. It takes an enormous amount of dedication and commitment to be successful with WLS. If you can't commit to it fully, then you are right to not pursue it.