today i felt too skinny.

[pr_pitbullgrl 1,039]

as you know i've been having a running commentary on this "too skinny" thing. at first when people started saying that shit to me, i was like screw you. im not too skinny you're just used to seeing me fat! but that was at 160, 150 etc. but today i took a pic and **I** actually felt like i looked too skinny. and i don't know why cuz i felt amazing all weekend.

now i know clothes make a diff and i'm wearing sized 10 pants today cuz clothes are expensive tho i wear a size 7/8. to that end i kept thinking once i get to size 6 im done that's wear i wanna be. and someone said to me umm you need to order that size 6 cuz i think you're there you just don't have the clothes. so i did today. i ordered the size 6 slack and i'll report back on the 14th if they fit or what.

size is so weird. weight is so weird. at 145, and 5'3 my bmi is actually still in the "over weight" range!! by point four. smh. it says i'd have to weigh 141 to be "normal" smh. #thestruggleisreal #fatbrain

[Babbs 14,680]

You're not skinny. You look like a small framed person with a tiny waste who is healthy.

It took me until recently ( 2 years out) to finally accept where I'm at and stop with the mind games and just enjoy feeling and looking fabulous. I hope you get there soon, too.

[OutsideMatchInside 10,166]

@@Babbs said is right. You look like a healthy person with a defined waist.

Maybe see a therapist?

[AvaFern 3,516]

I agree with the others- you look healthy, and you have a great hourglass shape.

I would say that I wished I felt like I was too skinny, lol, but I'm pretty sure that's never going to happen. Most days I look in the mirror and I think I look good, bordering on darn good at times, although there are times where I see myself in a picture or catch myself in a reflection and I think...ok, maybe I need to get an extra workout in this week. I think most people struggle with body acceptance- not just those of us who have lost a lot of weight.

[pr_pitbullgrl 1,039]

thank you ladies. this is CRAZY i never thought i would be having this conversation. I think working in a place like i do (there are 2000 people here) so when 20 a day say you're so thin etc and i'm like f you you don't know. until today. today i thought well maybe i am too thin, but i literally have stayed at 145-146 for the last month so if i am today i've been for a month right?? (too thin) ugh. i think you guys are right. its going to take time for my brain to catch up to this.....maybe therapy isn't a bad idea at all.

@@AvaFern whoa! 126 sounds tiny (and awesome) for our height. lets see it!

[KristenLe 5,979]

@@pr_pitbullgrl You look incredible but I do think therapy is a good idea. Rather than obsess about a number on a scale or a size pants - enjoy your new life being healthy! Be happy!

[JupiterinVirgo 846]

You're beautiful. Maybe the numbers are no longer the right guide. Trust your intuition, and how you feel in your body.

[sarcruze 24]

U look absolutely fantastic. You do not look too skinny, u look healthy.

[VSGAnn2014 12,992]

Are you kidding?!?!?!

There are women who would KILL to look like you!

Your eyes haven't caught up with reality yet.

Seriously, you are one hot mamajamma!

Repeat out loud: I am NOT too skinny. I look amazing. I am the best looking woman in the universe! Hear me roar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[pr_pitbullgrl 1,039]

lol i need you guys on my daily feed. fat brain is real! its not a struggle you can even anticipate. thank you. i've got to stop obsessing! and get therapy

[VSGAnn2014 12,992]

We ALL need therapy!

Truly.