Hello everyone! I know I've been MIA for awhile but I haven't really had any updating to do. I'm still managing the same weight. I'm trying not to lose at this point since my PS said not to. What I have been doing is obsessing over my cosmetic surgeries coming up. I'm having a tummy tuck with muscle repair and some breast stuff. Its consumed my entire life for the last month and now it's almost here. I'm not going to lie I'm terrified and just now starting to get a slight bit excited. Most people seem to be ecstatic about it. I hate the thought of the pain and whole long recovery period. The results are going to be worth it right? I've paid, I'm going. I woke up on the "losers side" last time and now I'm waking up on the "flat" side. If anyone has any before and after TT pictures they would like to share I would appreciate it! The hardest part of all of the research I've done is finding pictures of weight loss patients before and afters. I'm trying to find a belly that looks similar to mine. Ugh! Wish me luck! I need it.

@@Elode ahhhh!! I've been wondering where you have been!

Keep me in the loop with the plastics! I am getting them myself and an super worried. Doing same as you, TT and some breast stuff. Also some lipo.

Will be following so don't forget to keep us in the loop, also don't forget to share your Before and Afters

@@kranky813 I will! I'm going to do the best I can while drugged up! I'm requesting right now that if I type out some crazy long weird post that we all just laugh (to ourselves) and never mention it again! I'm going to try to reframe from singing the "kitty" song from Big Bang Theory but I can't promise that. Now that I know I'm going to have a "flat kitty" it's inevitable that it will be brought up and HOPEFULLY I will not be intoxicated enough to share any pictures of such kitty. If I do we shall ignore them too!!!! LIKE.IT.NEVER.HAPPEND.

@@kranky813 Oh I guess I should have elaborated on the "breast stuff" I was originally going to get implants but after researching I (we) decided for the best results I would do a lift now and in 6 months augmentation if I feel I want them bigger....and I will because once she takes off the skin I'm not going to have much left. I can't live like that but we shall see.

"Flat kitty"...

That is all....

@@Elode I will trade you!! I am going in for the TT and a lift and reduction. Even with the weight loss I am sitting at a DDD... Ugh the only problem is that those big beauties look directly at my toes!

Figured I need the new Tatas to go with the flat tummy and kitty

I'll never be able to watch The Big Bang Theory in the same way again!

Wishing you the best of luck on your surgery!!

Good luck to you and hoping for a speedy recovery!!

OMG, how flipping exciting! Best of luck to you tomorrow, it will be here before you know it!

@@KindaFamiliar the flatter kitty was a added bonus i was not expecting.... I lost weight... Kitty lost weight... Win Win.... lol

@@kranky813 I was going to do a reduction when i had my TT, but got talked out of it. Now im happy i kept them. I have been lucky as my 34H's still point in the proper direction. lol

@@Elode Remember darling.... you are as prepared as anyone i know. You will Rock this girl.... Just remember to take it slow.... Ill send up a special prayer to the PS gods to keep your doctors hands true and steady...

Thank you all! Today is FLYING by! I got the call from the surgery center and I'm to be there at 10 am with surgery scheduled for 11:45-ish. She has me down for 275 mins. Geez! I'm ready for this to be over with!

Here's a little handy piece of advice I learned today. DO NOT under any circumstances go to Walmart the day before surgery. Had I not left at the precise moment I got to I would have ended up Losing my ENTIRE sh*t! I don't know if someone sent out a memo and informed everyone that If they'd like to see a live rendition of the exorcist with the whole head spinning and whatnots to head on over to the Walmart and get in my way.....continuously...as in non-stop. That's whole trip was a shit-show! Normally I don't get all worked up but today was NOT the day to stop instantly in front of me, block the entire isle so that you can talk to neighbor "Cathy" about her precious little unique snowflake of a child and their school projects, argue with the customer service lady for 20 minutes about how you were overcharged 3 cents per can on your 15 cans of tuna while there are 15 more people standing behind you with real world problems, then after FINALLY making it up to the counter the customer service girl decides it's time for her to take a break, whips out her "closed lane" sign and walks off. I could literally envision myself beating her to death with it. I just needed to sign a flipping paper. That's all, a paper! Soooo I went through the regular line and waited yet again. As soon as it was my turn I told the checkout girl "look lady" I'm not normally like this but if you would like me to not come out of character I would suggest you tell the manager to bring me that nifty little black book from customer service and I will sign it right here. I'm not going back through that line again so I'm just going to stand right here in your line until it's signed.....blank stares. So she did, I did, and it was over. I wasn't sure if I was going to scream or start crying. I think I was on the border of a nervous breakdown and then it hit me.....oh, surgery tomorrow. That's why I'm acting like a psycho! Once I figured that out I felt like I had to explain my whole life to "Monica" the cashier girl. Wether she wanted to hear it or not. I couldn't leave there with her thinking I was truly nuts now could I?! This stuff is stressful. Think I'll just lock myself in the house for the remainder of my time.....and breathe.....

Here's a little handy piece of advice I learned today. DO NOT under any circumstances go to Walmart the day before surgery. Had I not left at the precise moment I got to I would have ended up Losing my ENTIRE sh*t! I don't know if someone sent out a memo and informed everyone that If they'd like to see a live rendition of the exorcist with the whole head spinning and whatnots to head on over to the Walmart and get in my way.....continuously...as in non-stop. That's whole trip was a ****-show! Normally I don't get all worked up but today was NOT the day to stop instantly in front of me, block the entire isle so that you can talk to neighbor "Cathy" about her precious little unique snowflake of a child and their school projects, argue with the customer service lady for 20 minutes about how you were overcharged 3 cents per can on your 15 cans of tuna while there are 15 more people standing behind you with real world problems, then after FINALLY making it up to the counter the customer service girl decides it's time for her to take a break, whips out her "closed lane" sign and walks off. I could literally envision myself beating her to death with it. I just needed to sign a flipping paper. That's all, a paper! Soooo I went through the regular line and waited yet again. As soon as it was my turn I told the checkout girl "look lady" I'm not normally like this but if you would like me to not come out of character I would suggest you tell the manager to bring me that nifty little black book from customer service and I will sign it right here. I'm not going back through that line again so I'm just going to stand right here in your line until it's signed.....blank stares. So she did, I did, and it was over. I wasn't sure if I was going to scream or start crying. I think I was on the border of a nervous breakdown and then it hit me.....oh, surgery tomorrow. That's why I'm acting like a psycho! Once I figured that out I felt like I had to explain my whole life to "Monica" the cashier girl. Wether she wanted to hear it or not. I couldn't leave there with her thinking I was truly nuts now could I?! This stuff is stressful. Think I'll just lock myself in the house for the remainder of my time.....and breathe.....

Haha. Just another Tuesday at Wal Mart. I try to avoid that place the best I can for that reason.

I'll be thinking about you tomorrow. Please don't die. I kind of like you.

I *HATE* Walmart and stay away at all costs...

@@Babbs I'm going to try not to. I'm not so sure I will get into heaven after my shenanigan I pulled today. Oh AND to top it all off I got the WOST cart in all of the history of carts. I cussed at it the whole way through Walmart. I could have just got another cart but it was the principle! I F'bombed it into the wall on the way out. Lady coming in the door was staring at me all crazy. I gave her the "what!, say something, I dare you" look" My middle finger was itching but I kept it moving! My behavior was not pretty so I'm sure God isn't smiling down on me right now. ;(