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[blessed973 12]

To most people "I'm not THAT big", and they're right I'm not compared to someone most. My mother doesn't think or understand why I am getting this done. I'm 5'2 225. I carry my weight well in my opinion and hers but I'm just tired of the struggle. Wish me luck.

[fit4me0716 2]

My parents and siblings don't agree or feel I need the surgery but have respected my decision. Wish you the best on your journey.

[LadyK44 263]

Good luck to you! Congrats on your decision to be heather! You will find support here! Have a fast recovery!

[Sleevefornellie 137]

Sending positive vibes and praying for a speedy recovery!!!! Good luck!!!!

[Tricebhasstyle 51]

Girl you look amazing now and you will look amazing after.

Sending prayers up for you and you surgical team. ????

[*Lexie* 1,486]

Good luck!!

[Amy93 6]

Good luck to you!! Im right there with you. People have said im not that big, that i carry my weight well. This was coming from a woman larger than me. I say the grass is always greener on the other side.

Good luck!! Lots of prayer and good vibes sent your way.

[jane13 2,256]

Good Luck and let us know as soon as you can how you are doing.

I hear the same thing when people find out how much I weigh. I am tired of dragging the extra weight and adding to it to where I cannot function.

[Miss Mac 6,261]

Congratulations! You are just one nice nap away from a new you.

And by the way, when I got my pre-op EKG, the tech commented that I did not need the surgery because I was not that big. I was 5'4" and 235 and my spine was collapsing from my weight with 17 herniated discs and needing a full lumbar fusion.

Geeze....people just can't see inside our bodies and our minds as to why we do this. I told her that she should call my surgeon and tell him that she disagrees with his diagnosis. That shut her up! And yes, I reported her by name when the Press-Gainey survey arrived at my door. I always commend the good stuff on other visits to the hospital, but she just totally surprised me that felt free to comment on a patient's condition.

Anyway, I wish you the best of luck and a complication-free recovery. The first few days are tough, but once you get past that first week (ok - the third week stall) you will start feeling much better. Hugs from Miss Mac in Chicago.

[ThreeFifty 166]

I've always felt like I was a big guy but "not that big"

I mean I can take pictures and Selfies and if I do the right pose, stand a certain way, I look in the picture, to me, like how I think I look. which is a big guy that "not that big".

But

every once in a while, I will be in a store, say a gas station and I'm waiting in line to pay. I happen to look up at the security monitor and I see this huge guy that is bigger than everyone else around him and I'm like "wow, now that is a big guy" then I start to look for me in that monitor to realize that the person I was looking at was me.

I have surveillance cameras at my front door at home. I still remember when I first set those camera's up, I had them set to where I would get an sms message when the motion detector triggers. so I leave my house one day and about 5 minutes later I get the SMS message saying that my motion detector triggered. I pulled over and grabbed my ipad and logged into my system to see what triggered my motion sensor and I see this huge guy walk out my place. my heart started beating real fast for a second till I realized that it was me. now I don't even look at the recordings anymore because I get that feeling every time I see me coming or going in those cameras.

I imagine I will probably have the opposite issue once Ive had surgery and have lost weight, where I will really be "not a big guy" but still see a big guy in pictures and in the mirror etc