gain goal regain How was your 5:2 day today?

[Chimera 644]

Indeed they do! My schedule is very hectic until the end of April and then I will have much more time

[Oregondaisy 2,021]

As it turns out, Bill was not mad at all last night when I got out of bed and he came upstairs. He was grumpy because he has sleep problems too.

I am going to talk to him about his C Pap machine. He does snore sometimes when he's wearing it. I hate that thing. I wish he didn't snore or have that thing. Even if he's not snoring, the sound of it drives me insane.

I come here and complain about him, but I really never talk about how wonderful he treats me, and how much fun we have togheter. Really, we do talk about everything. If we aren't talking, we email. He emails me every day, even if we have talked. He's very expressive about his feelings and thoughts, It think the emailing is a great idea, since I can write something I might not say in person. Soon we will be going to San Francisco together. I am excited.

I'll answer more posts soon. I have to go back to bed. I woke up at 3 am and decided to get up rather than try to get back to sleep. Bill is asleep. This time he did not wake me up. I just wake up because that's my isnsomnia. If I can fall asleep , I can never stay asleep.

[CowgirlJane 14,261]

My ride should be here in 10 minutes.. then off to the airport and sunny mexico!

I expect to have some time for the internet as this is a lazy laying around kinda vacay.

I have so much excess Water weight right now though... I woke up with a tummy. It is from eating salty food yesterday, I didn't used to be this sensitive to it. It has to do with the fact that the lympathic system relies on skin to work properly and with the skin removed... it is needing to find new pathways. Not sure why this impacts some people more than others. It could take a whole year before this stops... at least I don't have edema in my legs or feet!

[feedyoureye 3,087]

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In April we will be taking a big long trip to San Francisco and Sacremento so we can see his family, and for him to see his doctors. he really needs to see his pian specialist and get medication that does not make 'out of it" when he does need it. I am sure he will talk to his regular doc about his ED issues which are making him crazy.

Great Post Denise! I live in Sacramento, maybe if we have some time we can hook up for coffee or something while you are here?

 

oh ps. I can't find the host forum. I thought it was in general disussion but I don't see a heading for it. Can someone direct me and then I will bookmark it.

 

I'm sure I've missed out on months of stuff I was supposed to read.

BariatricPal Hosts at the very bottom of the Gastric Sleeve forums page.

 

In excruciating pain, my iliac crest and the iliac psoas that wraps around it, feels like the crest is made of steel blade and it is trying to slice through my flesh .  It came upon me while I was running on the treadmill the other day, which means I won't be able to do much of anything at all at the gym, cannot do ANYTHING that uses that hip, not even stretching.

 

Today was supposed to be a fast day and then I checked the mail: a small box, forwarded from my last post, it contains the memorial bracelets I had made for my team leader that died in December.  After that I just started mindlessly stuffing Oreos in my mouth and nibbling sunflower seeds like a crazed chipmunk.  Also, the scale says that I am 7 pounds heavier than I was one week ago when my scale arrived. 

 

I don't want to be without status again, I'm sure this is incredibly shallow of me, but I have gleaned the kind of self worth from my status the way a lot of women probably get it from being told how pretty they are or whatever.  For 5 years I have been able to say that I am a Department of Defense sociocultural analyst, working with Generals, State Department, going into villages in far off lands, having a government ID card that gets me discounts at hotels and lets me breeze through airport security, and makes me feel like I was doing something with my life and was some comfort every time I would hear about girls I graduated from high school with, whose kids are starting high school now (yeah, do the math there...)

 

And now, what will I say?  "Hi, I'm middle aged and unemployed, unmarried, no children, no health insurance, and homeless."

 

And, I'm not proud of this and I KNOW it is bad, I'm confessing here because it is a safe place - I binged the other night on bad foods, and then went and threw up.

 

Sounds like a hell of a day Florinda! Those oreos are the devil to me as well.. The last mini binge I had I at least took the "stuff" out of the middle first.... There are very few things I just can't have in the house, but those are one of them! 7 pounds must be at least 6.5 of water... drink lots of Water, chop the salt for a few days and that might help. Do you think the hip is an injury? Run for your dreams girl! The sooner you head for them the sooner you will be living in them! Almost any situation contains a blessing. Even the hellish ones! The list you gave of "loser" traits you fear will make you up, all can be fixed, learned from, or used for something good. You are a creative person... dont forget to look at the possibel up side of any situation, and go there!

Yey! Mini Coopers rock!!

I want one!!!

 

My weight has been farting around the high end of my bounce range for weeks. I did a fast yesterday and bam... down to the low end. I have to say that made my day. I don't like to let these things push me around, but I still like to see that number!

[Globetrotter 1,340]

"Sounds like a hell of a day Florinda! Those oreos are the devil to me as well.. The last mini binge I had I at least took the "stuff" out of the middle first.... There are very few things I just can't have in the house, but those are one of them! 7 pounds must be at least 6.5 of water... drink lots of Water, chop the salt for a few days and that might help. Do you think the hip is an injury? Run for your dreams girl! The sooner you head for them the sooner you will be living in them! Almost any situation contains a blessing. Even the hellish ones! The list you gave of "loser" traits you fear will make you up, all can be fixed, learned from, or used for something good. You are a creative person... dont forget to look at the possibel up side of any situation, and go there!"

Please Kim, if you can find an upside in any of this, I am listening. Since I wrote last, the IRS has come after me AGAIN, saying that I owe capital gains tax on my investments, to the tune of $8K, AND TWELVE bills have come in from when I was seen in Germany 5 months ago - which is supposed to be free since I am a deployed civilian.

The world is trying to break me, I have been strong for so long, what the F**K am I missing?!!!! WHAT THE F**K WHAT THE F**K WHAT THE F**K. It never **cking ends.

[UK Cathy 977]

Florinda, your world seems to be never ending ups and downs these days. Don't know what to say except I'm sending you a huge {{HUG}}. I can only offer a prayer for you that you will get some peace in your turbulent world.

[feedyoureye 3,087]

Oh hell! The bills are probably a paperwork SNAFU if its supposed to be free..., (hopefully!!) But the Taxes due... time for a great tax wo/man in your life! I always said, I would be happy to pay taxes, it means I'm making money! But really, I don't make enough to pay much. I do have a good tax preparer who finds every stinking deduction to bring things down legally....

[sarsar 824]

Florinda, I'm sorry. I don't know what to say but I wanted you to know that I was thinking about you.

Georgia, how are you feeling?

[Georgia 2,911]

Florinda, I'm sorry. I don't know what to say but I wanted you to know that I was thinking about you. Georgia, how are you feeling?

Sarah, Not so hot. Mid day is decent but night and morning are hellish! It is the weirdest sensation. The areas are NUMB yet like little knives being stabbed into you over and over. And I'm hoping these Will not last for the "weeks and months" the research indicated. Thanks, All, for checking on me.

[sarsar 824]

I'm so sorry Georgia...wish I lived closer I would make you some meals and clean or do some laundry for you!

Can you take anything for the pain?

Sending (very gentle) HUGS your way!

[feedyoureye 3,087]

So sorry Georgia, hope you find some relief soon! 

[Oregondaisy 2,021]

Georgia, I am so sorry to hear about this. I know shingles are so painful. I hope your doctor can find something to give you relief.

[Oregondaisy 2,021]

Florinda, There will be a way to get the paper work straightened out for your stay in Germany. If it was supposed to be covered, you have nothing to worry about.

I don't know anything about taxes but you'll probably have to find some sort of professional to help you with this.I know people who were able to greatly reduce the amount they owed to the IRS. Sending you cypber hugs. I wish I could give you a really big long hug, in person.

I am doing very well other than I want to lose down back to 130. My pants fit better. Bill is in the kitchen cooking right now, but at least it's a healhy low carb Soup. I don't want to gain any weight backi!!!

[Georgia 2,911]

I'm so sorry Georgia...wish I lived closer I would make you some meals and clean or do some laundry for you! Can you take anything for the pain? Sending (very gentle) HUGS your way!

Yes, I'm on anti virals, steroids and pain killers as needed. Thanks, Girls. Sometimes not bad. It's just a weird thing. Today bad. . Def stress increases the intensity of symptoms. Had stuff going on with kids so....

[Globetrotter 1,340]

shingles are just a type of varicella (chickenpox), though they can be more hazardous in older adults. oatmeal baths, don't scratch (easier said than done).

Yesterday was supposed to be a fast day and I was great until the lights went out, I was at 530 and then suddenly talked myself into eating chocolate and trail mix that brought my count up to past 800.

I do have a tax person helping me out, but I have no idea how to begin on the medical bill thing, there doesn't seem to be anyone willing to help here.