I Am currently starting the second week of my 2 week vacation on Cape Cod. luckily, we are camping at our favorite state park we go to yearly and the folks are always friendly and dress is very casual. i have never been this heavy. i am embarrasses to put on my giant bathing suits and walk the 100 feet to the wonderful lake. Went to Provincetown to go whale watching and notice myself in the shop windows and got so depressed. I want to wear cute sundresses, not moomoos. i want to wear shorts and tank tops, not stretch capris and double x flowy tops. i want to be able to buy the bohemian skirts and dresses you find on the strip. I am tired of hiding behind my kids in group photos. I have to wait and see, finish my requirements and hope to Gosh, my insurance company approves. i want a different body, next time I visit P-town

You will get there and get to do all of those things. I am 6 days post-op and can't wait for next summer. I too find myself strategically hiding behind my kids.

Next summer you will be posting pics of yourself on vacation in a very cute sundress!!

I'll keep my fingers crossed for a speedy insurance approval!!

What a Beautiful family!!!

I cant wait to wear the same thibgs next summer!!!

Prayers for you for insurance approval and a fabulous summer vacation where you walk by the shop windows and think, WOW I look sexy! It will happen!

You are beautiful as well as having a lovely family...no doubt you will lose that weight and 6 months you will be buying those clothes in Provincetown! We are behind you! x

What a beautiful family you have

Thank you guys! Those are only 5 of 9 kids. The four youngest are adopted, one with very special needs. The others are in their mid to late 20s and on their own.. I am blessed, but I somehow lost myself in caring for them. It's me time!

I feel you! I am taking my 3 children to a Water park Thursday. I am already cringing at the thought of flaunting all my stuff (and I have a lot of it) in a swimsuit. I would keep myself locked away at home if I could. That is surely not fair to them or to myself. I am mentally preparing myself now by thinking how much less of me there will be to flaunt when we go back next year.

BTW, I agree that you have an awesome looking family!

I feel you! I am taking my 3 children to a Water park Thursday. I am already cringing at the thought of flaunting all my stuff (and I have a lot of it) in a swimsuit. I would keep myself locked away at home if I could. That is surely not fair to them or to myself. I am mentally preparing myself now by thinking how much less of me there will be to flaunt when we go back next year.

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Thank you. They are a handful! My most embarrassing moment at a water park was going down one of those luge type slides. I ended up at the bottom with the whole bottom part of my suit sucked into my butt cheeks making it a supersized thong. I struggeled to pull it out while everyone stared. Beware of slides without innertubes