Today, I went and got my medical clearance from my PCP. We had some time to discuss this journey, my feelings, and and concerns I had. I must say, between the last post & this one, there has been some peace made with all that lays ahead of me.

Although I still don?t really know what my comfort zone is in terms of what weight I?d like to be?I do know that I have an awesome support system that will keep me going the distance. I?m working thru my ?issues? rather quickly ? though I?m sure at some point I?ll relapse *lol* I just have to keep asking myself ?what are you scared of??.

My doc said he?s happy for me and excited about this transition. I *boldly* asked him where he would like to see my weight go. *sigh* He said 160. That is such a totally foreign concept to me right now. Ironically, that?s 40# more than ?the chart? states I should be for my height (and 25# less than my own personal goal*pfft*) but he thinks I?ll do really well at that weight. Funny thing is?I think I might too

However unfathomable to me at this point ? in a year from now, it may be looking more like a reality. Another bonus (and most of the reason I?m doing this) is that a lot of my ailments will be reversed. *whew* He said that I?m young enough to see almost 100% improvement in areas like my knees & hips, and said that Frankie (my post-op foot w/screws) may jump for joy to the point I?ll be able to wear heels again *giggety* Even though he said I?ll probally have arm-flaps. But I don?t even care!

I was beaming by the time I left. And not even sure why. I think I?m just resigned?no?COMMITTED to the fact that change will come. HAS to come. And I should enjoy the the journey as much as arriving at the destination. I feel that I may have some other issue to contend w/at a later date (Shopping, anyone?) But I?ll try on that outfit when I get to it.

I still have a long, difficult journey ahead of me. No doubt about it. But, I?m ready.

Change soon come - I bring it!

Congrats on this step in the journey. You can definitely do this!!!

It sounds to me like you are ahead of the curve already. You are very aware of yourself, and what it will take for you to succeed. Initially I had told myself that even if I could make it to 200 lbs I would have been successful, well I am eight pounds away and still trucking! As far as your ending weight you will find the place that you are comfortable and that you will be able to maintain. There is no way to predict what that would be. But it is so exciting! I am so thrilled that you get to begin this journey!

Anna

Thats less than a month away! Really good news.

Jane x

Congrats on getting your surgery date. How exciting!!! I know you will keep us updated with your progress.

Deb

Thanks all for the encouragement. It's good to know im not alone! Looking forward to great results!

woo hoo! So happy for you. Can't wait to see you on the loser's bench.

AniO