My surgery will be in about 3 weeks from now. I had my last meeting with my surgeon yesterday and it's like it finally hit me. The whole time ive been so excited... Don't get me wrong, I still am... It's just that it's always felt so far away. And now it seems so real! My new life will be here before I know it! How exciting. But also emotional.

Last night I was laying in bed with my husband and thinking about what my new, healthy life will be like. But then I starting thinking about my body and how it will change. And for some reason I got emotional. This is the body I've always had. This is the body my husband fell in love with. And this won't be my body anymore(after some time and hard work, of course). And trust me, I'm thankful to trade it in for a new, skinny, healthy, shiny one... But for some reason, there are going to be parts of this body I think I may miss.

Did anyone else go through something like this?

Hi I went/am going through something very similar. This has been my physical identity my whole life and now it's going to change. I think change is difficult even if it's positive. Hang in there!

Nope! I won't miss one ounce of fat at all!!

My hubby fell in love with a skinnier version of me (not thin-but about 50 pounds less than I am now.

I'll be hapyto reunion with the skinnier me-I have missed HER for a long time! I miss feeing sexy and I miss looking in the mirror and feeling happy with thereflection staring back at me.

I can't say I can relate. I've hated my body for a long long time. I've been miserable for so long. I was excited for change. Excited for a better future and not come home from work and be depressed with my life. I wont miss one iota of the old me. I still have a ways to go to where I would like to be, but even if I just stayed where I am right now, my life is already so much better

BaileyRose:

I totally get it. I came to terms with myself and my body a long time ago. I like me, skinny or fat.

But if I want to be healthy, I need to lose the weight. So the self I've come to terms with is going to be changing--and now I have to come to terms with that new self. Sometimes it seems overwhelming!

BaileyRose:

I totally get it. I came to terms with myself and my body a long time ago. I like me, skinny or fat.

But if I want to be healthy, I need to lose the weight. So the self I've come to terms with is going to be changing--and now I have to come to terms with that new self. Sometimes it seems overwhelming!

well said, Lizzy !

Only thing I am crying about is my bat wings! My arms look horrible!

Those who have been thin in the past have something to relate to and visualization, which helps a super ton.

It's much harder on people like me and you who have been overweight our whole lives. We have no real visual or experience of living the life if a thin and healthy person. It really is a completely diffrent world, and it's harder for us to not only FIND that right state of mind, but to HOLD ONTO it as well, and I think that when we do finally start to feel that reality, it can put us into a temporary shock and then overflow of emotions after the shock passes. I believe it's totally healthy and that you are on the right track by getting to that emotional level. Some people take much longer to get there, or never at all, which is why they can't lose the weight.

I had been thin at times in the past, but I think I lived in denial of how fat I was. i mean, on some level I must have known it because I did act on it, but I didnt really "see" it. Truthfully, now I just really do look like how I thought I looked. So Ididnt spare a second or shed a tear mourning my body as it was.

I dont think its an unreasonable or unhealthy way to feel though. changing yourself to such a degree is a big step, and it may also be tied in on a less conscious level with how much you're really going to have to change INSIDE to make this work.

The only part of "fat me" that I miss is the DD's. But when I think of all the other fat that went along with them, its not so bad. I guess if I get to the point that I really want them back its only about $5000!!

Hahaha I think that's what I'm going to miss the most!

I think I may just be a little overwhelmed and emotional lately because I'm FINALLY at the point in my pre-op process where I can see the finish line! It's all so close. And it's true, I've always been overweight so this is the only way I know myself. And this is the only Bailey my husband knows me as. But I'm excited about the new me! I'm looking forward to the hard work and the new body. And it's time to finally look like the skinny me I know that's inside here somewhere!

Thanks for your encouragement everyone! You're awesome!

The only part of "fat me" that I miss is the DD's. But when I think of all the other fat that went along with them, its not so bad. I guess if I get to the point that I really want them back its only about $5000!!

I'm with you Cindy. Not looking forward to losing the girls. However I have been "overweight" since I was around 8, so I have no idea what it's like to be thinner as an adult. I'm sooooo looking forward to it. I am learning this this is an adjustment for me.

The only part of "fat me" that I miss is the DD's. But when I think of all the other fat that went along with them, its not so bad. I guess if I get to the point that I really want them back its only about $5000!!

I do understand the fear of what the new body will look like, but for different reasons than some of you. I am three weeks from being 62 years old. My face doesn't look that old because my fat fills in the wrinkles around my eyes and on my neck. I have warned my husband that I will look older than I do now and maybe even look older than my real age due to the loose skin that might happen. That is scarry, but my choice was to stay fat (and younger looking) until I died of complications of extended and uncontrolled high blood pressure and diabetes, or to look older and get to really live to be as old as I will look. Sometimes the vanity still kicks in and I fear the wrinkles but I have to choose life.

My surgery will be in about 3 weeks from now. I had my last meeting with my surgeon yesterday and it's like it finally hit me. The whole time ive been so excited... Don't get me wrong, I still am... It's just that it's always felt so far away. And now it seems so real! My new life will be here before I know it! How exciting. But also emotional.

Last night I was laying in bed with my husband and thinking about what my new, healthy life will be like. But then I starting thinking about my body and how it will change. And for some reason I got emotional. This is the body I've always had. This is the body my husband fell in love with. And this won't be my body anymore(after some time and hard work, of course). And trust me, I'm thankful to trade it in for a new, skinny, healthy, shiny one... But for some reason, there are going to be parts of this body I think I may miss.

Did anyone else go through something like this?

It's funny that you posted this because I got emotional too. I am on my 12th day of the all liquid pre op diet. Once my preop diet started, I REALLY started to think about not being the fat girl out of all my friends. I've grown accustom to playing that role. I think what's scary for us is the unknown.... I've been overweight since about 5th grade and now I am 23 years old. So I've been the chunky girl 'with the pretty face' for as long as I can remember. A family member of mine told me that her and her best friend are no longer close because she actually got jealous. She started to see her as competition and was jealous that she hadn't lost weight and now her friend was thin. Sadly, I can see how that could happen.. people get used to you the way you are, and when you have a drastic change happen, it'll take a while for others (and myself) to get used to the change, whether it's good or bad. Anyways, that's just my logic! Good luck with your surgery

I'm also 23 and have been overweight since I was about 5 years old! I hate that comment "You have such a pretty face..." I'm excited about the changes I'm seeing, I'll be 6 weeks post op tomorrow and I'm down from a 25 in jeans to a 19 and I LOVE comparing pictures of me with the girls from several months ago to now. I can see the changes and people around me are starting to notice and I love it.

I think what's scary for us is the unknown.... I've been overweight since about 5th grade and now I am 23 years old. So I've been the chunky girl 'with the pretty face' for as long as I can remember.

I totally understand where you all are coming from. Like so many of you, I have no idea what it will be like to be under 200 pounds. It seems like the last time I remember this was in grade 7 or 8 when I was 180 and then I was just always in the 200s (and not just a little, always in the 240-260 range). I feel like my teens an 20s were a blur of one failed diet after the other. So much sadness and pain that I hid behind my "pretty face". I am so excited that this time it will work. This time when I work it....my band will work for me and the weight will come off. I almost have to not think about it to much cause it freaks me out. What will I be like, what will my friends be like, what will my family be like??